Read Crossing Hathaway Online

Authors: Jocelyn Adams

Tags: #Fiction, #Romance, #Contemporary, #General

Crossing Hathaway (9 page)

It took a bit of tugging and coaxing, but he relented and showed me his hand. A gash drew a crimson line across the corner of his palm, not stitch-worthy deep but bad enough.

“What did you do?” Inside the white case, I rifled around until I found some gauze, and antibacterial ointment.

“I slammed my hand down on the table, but I was closer to the metal corner than I realized. My hand slipped over the side and the edge cut me.”

With a cotton swab, I applied some of the ointment to his cut, pausing when he winced, and placed a piece of gauze over top. “I don’t blame you for being pissed. Your brother’s a serious dick.” I wrapped his hand with tape to hold the gauze in place. “I mean, do women really respond to that arrogant bullshit?”

“I’m not like my brother, Evangeline.”

When I raised my gaze, I found his haunted eyes, staring at me. They stunned me into silence, and I had to concentrate to listen when he continued. “I would never force myself on anyone.”

“Yeah, I think I know that.” As the words left me, I knew it was true. His bullying protected him from something, but what? I suddenly wanted to know. Badly.

“He enjoys treating women like chew toys.” Ben chuckled, the sound relaying more regret than humor. “You must think I’m a hypocrite, chastising his treatment of women after…” He flexed his fingers and his lips pressed together.

“Ten minutes ago, I’d have let you have it, but … after meeting your brother… If you grew up with him, then I’m surprised you’re not worse.” A small snicker escaped me.

He tried and failed to smile. “If you think I’m a bully, why did you come back after I told you to leave?”

“I uh…” A nervous laugh bubbled out of me. “I’m not really sure to tell you the truth. Either I don’t like to see pompous asses suffer or I’m just an idiot.”

A crooked grin bowed his lips, but it faded. “I starting coming to this office with my father when I was only seven years old. Watching him, the way everyone acted around him as if he were a king—it intoxicated me, the power to control others, to change the world with drugs that we design, that we make.” His head tipped back to rest against the table, his gaze focused on something beyond me. “I knew I wanted to take his place when he retired, so I spent every moment he’d allow here with him, watching and learning. I was so focused on the career I’d chosen, my life slipped away from me. I felt like a god. Everyone else became mine to command, and I never took the time to understand them.

“I was only twenty-four when my father died. After the funeral, I locked myself away in here and never left. I make everyone come to me, my doctor, my tailor, I have my groceries delivered. This is my prison and my security blanket.” His jaw clenched, and he shook his head. “How pathetic must I seem to you?”

The sadness in his voice gripped my heart. “You’re not pathetic, Ben. A little odd, maybe lost your way a bit, but not pathetic.”

He leaned his shoulder against mine, cast his troubled gaze on me. “Everyone hates me, don’t they?”

I shrugged to give myself a bit of time to soften the blow of the truth. “They’re afraid of you. That’s not the same as hating you.”

Silence stretched between us for a few seconds. “Do you hate me, Evangeline?”

I couldn’t hold his gaze. “It would serve you right if I did.”

“You didn’t answer me.”

“Way to state the obvious.” My flight instinct wanted to kick in, but being near him was kind of nice.

“Evangeline,” he warned, “you still didn’t answer me.”

I groaned and studied the scuffs on my black shoes. “No. You make me want to smack you, but I don’t hate you.” I snuck a peek at him, found him wearing his crooked grin that sent little wings fluttering around my stomach again. “Why didn’t you fire me after I yelled at you on Friday? Given your reputation, I expected a firing squad at the very least.”

“When I saw your tears, I found something in you I recognized.” Although he didn’t move or change anything perceptible, his stare seemed to pierce me deeper. “Someone has hurt you.”

I drew up my knees and hugged them, tried to glare at him, but couldn’t do it. “What do you know? I thought you didn’t understand people.”

“You’re not like others. You say what’s on your mind, so I rarely need to guess what you’re thinking. It’s refreshing.” His shoulders raised in a shrug, his eyes sparkling with mirth. “And now that I see you’re a skilled dancer on top of your other talents…”

A laugh burst out of me, the kind that builds up steam in the stomach and doesn’t relent until it’s spent. His deep rumble added a bass note to our harmony. It was a good laugh, a hearty laugh. I could have listened to it all day and not tired of it.

“You have a nice laugh, Evangeline Ross. You should let it out more often.”

His intense gaze raised goose bumps on my skin. I climbed to my feet and faced the door, my pulse leaping. “Do you think you can keep yourself out of trouble if I go back to my office now?”

“Do you think I’m boring?” Scuffling sounds accompanied his rise to stand behind me so close the heat of his breath disturbed my hair.

My fingers played along the seams of my dress pants. “You’re a lot of things, Ben, but boring isn’t one of them.”

“Do you think I’m capable of spontaneity?”

I moved away and leaned against the table, unable to rein in the ridiculous smile on my face. “Sure. Why don’t you do something right now? Make a prank phone call, or go over to the window and moon the Big Smoke.”

Face unreadable, he closed the distance to me in two long strides, slid his undamaged hand along my throat, and kissed me; his soft lips tentative at first, melted against mine. All thought left me. My world narrowed to the fifty thousand volts coursing through me, to his scent, the sweetness of his mouth, the warmth of his body pressed against mine.

His lips released me but he lingered close. “Does that count?”

It took a moment for me to find the gear that processed thought. “Uh—that was spontaneous all right.” My legs wobbled, but I held them firm and concentrated to keep myself standing.

“Open your eyes, Evangeline. Please.”

I hadn’t realized I’d closed them. My eyes opened against my will and stared into his. He was only an inch or two taller than me, which increased the intimacy of the contact. My insides clenched and my heart skipped a few beats. I stumbled backward, gasping, until I smacked into the wall. “Please don’t look at me that way.” With my focus on the floor in front of me, I edged toward the door.

“What way? As if you’re beautiful and I noticed?”

A few breaths calmed me. “As if you can see into my soul.”

I fished the red phone from my pocket and dropped it onto the floor before I launched myself out the door.

“Evangeline, wait!”

Chapter 8

Twenty minutes later, I knocked on Mom’s pristine white door. A spring wreath she had made a few years before hung in the middle of it. Her keen eye for color and design never ceased to amaze me. I was lucky if I made it out of my apartment with matching socks.

The door opened a moment later. Mom stepped out onto the stoop wearing a dark green wraparound dress, her hair brushed back and secured with a white hair band. The pride she took in her home extended to her appearance, always perfectly polished with clothes to match the season. She smiled at first, but it faltered and she drew in a sharp breath.

“Hey, Mom.” I frowned and stepped past her, walked into the living room, and sat on the red and cream plaid sofa.

Only a moment passed before Mom perched beside me. She sat forward and stared at me with her hands balled in her lap, her back so straight I could have used it to plumb a wall. “Is this about your dad, sweetheart?”

I folded my arms together, hating how I felt. “Partly.”

A shadow of sadness crossed her brown eyes. “You didn’t…” She looked at the ceiling, wringing her hands together.

“I didn’t lose my job, if that’s what you’re trying to say.” I rubbed fingertips over my lips, still buzzing from Ben’s kiss. The memory of his warmth and scent overwhelmed me, and I shuddered.

A whimsical smile replaced her tiny frown. She took my hand in hers and set it on her lap. “Do you want to talk about it?”

I turned toward her, leaned my elbow against the back of the sofa and propped my head against my hand. “Why do you let Dad control you, Mom? I can’t stand the way you shrink when he gets like that, the way little kids do when their parents tell them off. You’re a grown woman. Nobody should make you feel that way.”

Mom released my hand, smoothed her fingers along the folds of her skirt, and straightened the hem while she stared at the floor. “Sometimes we do funny things for the ones we love, I suppose.”

I fought the urge to scoff.
Love? What a crock of shit.

“How could you tie yourself to someone like him? Wouldn’t you be happier living by yourself?”

She laughed but it sounded a little hysterical. “We don’t choose who we love, sweetheart.” Sight drifting inward, she stared toward the unlit fireplace. “I wish you could have seen what he was like when I first met him, so charming and handsome. On our first date, he took me ice skating and kept his arm around me the whole time so I wouldn’t fall.” Her laugh eased into a genuine, pleasant one. “He admitted later the only reason he chose skating is because he’d seen me do it before and knew how terrible I was at it. He said he just wanted an excuse to be close to me. It was the sweetest thing anyone had ever said or done in my whole life.”

Mom sighed and gazed at their wedding picture on the wall. “I fell in love with him that night, and only fell deeper each time I saw him. Our wedding day was one of the happiest days of my life.” Although her lips curved down, she blinked and faked a smile. “I chose my life, Eva, and I chose to share it with your dad. I can’t stop loving him because he’s lost his way.”

The weight on my heart grew heavier. “He changed when you adopted me, didn’t he?” I shook my head under the weight of the truth. “I ruined your life.”

With a hand over her heart, she stood and straightened one of the pictures on the wall as if trying to draw my gaze away from her sudden distress. “It’s complicated.”

I shifted forward on the sofa and stared at her profile. “I think I can keep up.”

Her arms fell to her sides. “I didn’t mean to suggest—it’s just—your dad would be so angry if I told you.”

“We’re already hurting plenty, Mom. If it’ll help me understand him then please tell me.”

Mom sat in a chair across from me, her hands shaking. After a moment of silence, she nodded. “I suppose what he doesn’t know won’t hurt him.” Hands wringing together, her expression changed in silent contemplation. “We both wanted a family desperately, and that’s why we married so young.”

My eyebrows crimped together. “You were twenty-eight when you adopted me.”

“Yes.” Shadows danced behind her stare, telling of a hurt she kept buried before it vanished again. I’d never seen it before, and knowing she carried something that hurt her so deeply made me feel sick. “We started trying for a child when we were both nineteen. By the time I turned twenty-one and still had no success, our doctor did some testing.” Her fingers stopped their fidgeting. “It was your dad’s … problem. We were devastated that we would never conceive a child of our own, your dad even more so than me. I started the adoption process a few weeks later, and your dad seemed happy.” Mom averted her gaze and curled a lock of hair around her finger.

“And then…?”

She opened her mouth a few times before anything came out. “A few years later, when we received news we’d been granted a child—you—he went to tell your granddad the good news. He was gone for hours, and when he came back he was … different. Broken, somehow.”

A whirlwind of thoughts spun in my head. “What happened?”

She shook her head in a quick motion, causing her hair to slide across her cheeks. “He wouldn’t tell me, and I was afraid to ask in case he’d changed his mind about the adoption. I was so focused on finding a child to love that I ignored his worsening moods. He didn’t even come with me when I went to pick you up.”

I sagged into the sofa, drew up my knees, and hugged them. “I need to know what happened that night, Mom.” The idea that something had happened to make him hate me, instead of him just plain hating me for no good reason, injected a little hope into the darkness in my head.

Composed, she came to sit beside me again, wrapping her arm around my shoulders. “He won’t tell you, but if you’d like to ask him, I’ll deal with the aftermath. I’m not sure things can get much worse between the two of you.” She squeezed me. “You still haven’t told me why you looked so angry when I opened the door. Please tell me you haven’t been seeing Jack again.”

Hearing his name evoked memories I choked on. “It’s not about Jack.” He smashed the life out of my heart, and I didn’t think I’d ever recover from it.

“Is it about a man? Has someone else hurt you?”

I took a moment to consider how to answer that. “Yes, it’s about a man, and no, he hasn’t hurt me. I won’t give him the chance to.” It sounded childish, even to me.

“You have feelings for him. Deep ones, if something he did caused such a strong reaction in you.”

I launched myself off the sofa and paced with my fingers jammed into my hair. “I just met him, Mom. He’s a grade-A asshole, and he’s someone I shouldn’t get involved with for more reasons than I can count.” He was my boss. He was Cam’s boss. His brother was a sociopath. Not to mention I knew almost nothing about the man other than the small amount of his life that had spilled out of his mouth earlier.

Her dainty eyebrow raised into a perfect arch. “You sound as if you’re trying to talk yourself out of your feelings. Trust me when I say that once you’ve tasted a strong attraction to someone, it’s almost impossible to forget it. I don’t know if your photographic memory extends to feelings, but if it does, then it’s even truer for you.”

I growled and threw up my hands. “Don’t tell me that. I’m doing just fine on my own, and starting something with him will just complicate my life.” I would not end up like her, on the very short end of the marriage stick.

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