I lay my hand over his. “Come on. You have something on your mind. God knows I unload on you all the time.”
“This isn’t about me.” He comes from around the back of the counter to stand next to me. “I know you must be concerned about what’s going to happen tomorrow. Do you want to talk about it?”
“Isn’t that all we’ve done since I got back?”
He swirls the wine in his glass. He doesn’t answer; he doesn’t have to. We both know the ceremony is not what he’s referring to.
I take a good, long drink, almost drain my glass, before reaching for the bottle for a refill. I have to wait for the liquor to spread its warmth before answering. I want to be honest this time. No more bullshit. No more posturing.
I look up into Frey’s wonderful, thoughtful, concerned face and unexpectedly feel the sting of tears.
Stupid. Not me.
I jump up, try to turn away.
He grabs my arm and doesn’t let me.
I fall against his chest, heart pounding, to feel his own heart racing, too.
His arms close around me. “Tell me.”
I don’t know where to begin. Don’t know why after all that’s happened, I’m more afraid at this moment then I’ve ever been. I’ve lost too much. I can’t lose any more. Emotions swamp my senses like a tidal wave.
“Tell me.” Frey says it again.
I squeeze my eyes shut for courage. Let my arms encircle his waist, hold on so he can’t see the hopelessness on my face.
“I’m afraid.”
“Go on.”
“I’ve spent a year denying the possibility that I have some kind of mystical destiny. Yet here I am. Hours away from a supernatural showdown. What if I’m not who everyone thinks I am? I’m going to be killed for something I didn’t ask for. Something I don’t want. It’s not fair. I try every day to exist as a human. If I die no one will remember that I was here. My parents won’t even be able to give me a funeral. David will think I’ve deserted him again. I will have ceased to exist. No one will know.”
Frey’s words reach out to me, soft as a baby’s breath. “You assume too much. You assume you are going to lose. I know you, Anna. Anyone who challenges you is a fool. You don’t give in and you don’t give up. It’s what I love about you.”
He raises a hand to stroke my hair. “I believe in destiny. Yours. Even if you do not. And I believe you will win and that you will become a force for good in the world. You have it in you, Anna.”
His voice has taken on a gruffness that reflects more than concern. It’s startling. Confusing. I don’t dare move, don’t dare raise my head to see if I’m misinterpreting a friend’s attempt to comfort for something else.
His arms are still tight around me.
If I did raise my head, what would happen?
The voice of reason answers.
This is Frey.
Layla’s
Frey.
Nothing will happen.
I draw in a breath and push against his arms. “Sorry. I don’t know where that came from.”
He doesn’t let go right away. He doesn’t let go until the rapid pounding of his heart slows. The rhythm of his blood—and mine—tempers and cools. For a moment, I’m able to suppress the fear.
The moment passes. He steps back. “Shall we get back to it?”
The book. The damned book.
“May as well.”
FREY REVERTS QUICKLY TO BUSINESS AS USUAL. We’ve gotten through the
how
and
why
of the ceremony.
Viewed from the perspective of the twenty-first century much of the book is difficult, if not impossible, to understand. Some of the book contains tidbits of history not relevant but interesting. Animal sacrifice to the gods was actually prohibited before the draining of a human host. Animals were a valuable commodity. Humans were fodder.
Frey is reading a passage he’s translated. The pages in his hand are clean, free of beer stains. He must have printed out a new copy when he went home to change.
I rest my chin on a cupped palm. “How did you translate this, Frey? Did you find a vampire Rosetta stone?”
He taps a finger against his temple. “All here. Part of the Keeper tradition. The ability to see meaning behind words, no matter what language they’re written in.”
“So, it’s not like the other books in your library?”
“No. This is not a book I’d loan out. This book is irreplaceable. The others belong as much to the supernatural community as they do to me. Any supernatural can read a book in my library. The secrets of this book are revealed only to a Keeper.”
It’s a new side of Frey I never knew before. His being a Keeper. Along with having a son. Things I hope I’m alive to pursue when this is over.
I push gloomy thoughts of the alternative out of my head to listen. Frey has moved along to who is likely to be in attendance.
“We can assume there will be a representative from each of the thirteen tribes and more than likely they will each bring an ambassador or two. Judith Williams and her entourage.”
A thought occurs to me that I can’t believe I hadn’t entertained before. “Is Judith the North American representative?”
Frey laughs. “Hardly. She obviously likes to think she has an important role to play because of her husband’s involvement. She’s no more than an invited guest.”
And more than likely sponsor of the challenger. Frey doesn’t say it, but he doesn’t have to. We both suspect as unlikely as it might be, if there is a challenge, she’ll be behind it.
“Then who will be representing the North American vampires?”
It sounds more like a summit meeting of world leaders than convocation of vampire bigwigs. If I weren’t so personally involved, I’d find the whole idea absurd.
Frey consults his notes. “Joshua Turnbull from Denver.” The name snaps me to attention. “Are you sure?”
Frey looks again. “Yep. Why?”
“Because he’s the vamp who helped me when I was looking for Sophie Deveraux.”
It’s Frey’s turn to look surprised. Sophie Deveraux was the witch who helped save his life when he was under the spell of the black witch Belinda Burke—her sister.
I nod. “And he was a good friend of Avery and of Warren Williams. Which, it’s safe to assume, means he’s no friend of mine. While we parted on amicable terms, Turnbull was happy to see me go.”
I pause, remembering. “He never mentioned who he was. In fact, he made it a point to talk about the importance of vampires keeping a low profile in their communities.”
Frey shrugs. “And I’m sure he does. No one in the supernatural community, especially those in power, would want to draw attention to himself.”
“But don’t they want some kind of tribute? What’s the point of being king if your subjects don’t know it?”
He laughs at the analogy. “Vampires, especially old ones, don’t need tribute. Chances are, he knew who you were, though. Sensed it just like Williams and Avery. Don’t forget, when this is over, he’ll be answering to you.”
He sounds so confident. I’m not so sure. I’ve assumed Judith Williams will be the one arranging the challenge. I know now that there’s at least one other vampire who lost a friend by my hand. Joshua Turnbull.
“Okay, assuming I survive tomorrow night’s festivities, what happens then?”
“There’ll be an induction ceremony. Then anyone who has a grievance or a petition will present it. You’ll listen to their arguments. You’ll make a judgment. Then it will be over and everyone will go home.”
It sounds too easy. Even the way Frey
isn’t
looking at me as he recites the innocuous schedule of events makes the hair rustle on the back of my neck.
“After I make the choice, right?”
“You were paying attention in Palm Springs.”
I press fingers against my eyes. “And the choice I make is the one the vampire community must live with for the next two hundred years.”
“Not just the vampire community,” Frey says. “The mortal community ascended to its place in society because the last Chosen One relegated vampires to a position of subservience. If you change that, the positions reverse.”
He pauses. “Vampires rise to rule the world.”
A moment passes while we absorb the implication. It’s not as disturbing to me as it should be because I know there’s no fucking way
I’d
ever make a decision like that. Frey knows it, too. But we both also know if there’s a challenge, it might not be up to me.
After another minute, Frey rises, stretches, reaches for a small leather suitcase at the end of the couch.
“I’m going to take a shower. When I get out, maybe you should go to the cottage for a change of clothes. I’ll stay here with David.”
Just what does one wear to a coronation? Especially when the opening act is a fight to the death.
I watch Frey walk back toward the bathroom, wondering again what would have happened a few minutes ago if I’d let him kiss me.
He would have kissed me. I know it, Layla or no. I’ve never listened to a voice of
reason
. Why did I this time?
The water in the shower comes on with a rush. I picture Frey naked and wet. I could test my theory. Join him right now.
So what’s stopping me?
Sex is sex.
We’ve done it before.
I’ve done it too many times to count.
Why would this be different? It’s scratching an itch. A biological urge.
It means nothing.
Lance proved that.
Still, I can’t rouse myself from the couch, can’t take that first step.
I need Frey in my life. I don’t want to give him a reason to feel guilty when he goes back to his real life. He will have a real life to go back to even if I may not. And Layla is a part of it.
My thinking is remarkably mature. Am I actually letting my head and not hormones dictate my actions?
Scary.
I’m staring at the doorway through which Frey disappeared moments before. I’m so focused, I don’t realize until he opens his mouth that David has come into the living room.
“What are you doing here?” David asks. “And who’s in my shower?”
CHAPTER 43
D
AVID IS BARE-CHESTED, BUT HE’S PULLED ON A pair of sweatpants and has flip-flops on his feet. His eyes are clear, his expression puzzled but not vacuous.
“What’s going on?” he asks again.
“How do you feel?”
He rubs fingers against his forehead and shifts. “I’m sore. In strange places. Was I in an accident?”
“What do you remember?”
He narrows his eyes, expression morphing to irritation. “Are you going to answer every question with a question?”
“Are you?”
He turns his back on me with a grunt and heads for the kitchen. I jump up from the couch and follow him.
He has his head buried in the refrigerator. “I’m starved. What happened to the steaks I had in here?” He pulls out a bottle of water and turns around. The empty bottle of wine on the counter grabs his attention. “Hey. That’s a bottle of Cavallina.” He eyes me. “Anna, did we . . . ?”
Just then Frey pads out on bare feet. He has one towel wrapped around his waist and is rubbing his hair with the other. He stops when he sees David and me.
David stares. “Do I know you?”
Frey addresses himself to me. “I was coming out to tell you you could leave now. Looks like I’m the one who’ll be leaving.”
He backtracks into the bathroom.
David’s irritation is blossoming. He rounds on me. “Do I know him? I don’t think I do. So what’s he doing taking a shower in my bathroom? Anna, what the hell is going on?”
I pat his arm. “Humor me and I’ll tell you. But first, what’s the last thing you remember?”
He scrunches his face, looking again like the kid with the computer games and the two buxom playmates. “Thursday. I think. Thursday night. I was with Miranda and I got a call that you were in an accident.” He narrows his eyes. “You don’t look like you were in an accident.”
I wave a hand at him to go on. “Anything else?”
“I caught a shuttle back, went to the cottage . . .” He stops. “That’s it.” He looks disappointed. “That’s the last thing I remember. Except—”
I cringe inwardly.
“I had some really crazy dreams. I was having sex. There were a couple of girls. And an older woman.” He closes his eyes as if trying to remember. “I think she told me something about you.”
Can’t wait to tell Judith about the “older woman” remark, but I temper my enthusiasm and say, “Sex with a couple of girls and an older woman. Sounds like getting a bump on the head worked out pretty well for you.”
He rubs his forehead again. “Can’t remember anything else. It’s gone.”
I steer him back to the living room. “Sit down and I’ll fill you in.” Sort of.
He sits, noticing newspapers splayed over the coffee table. “What day is this?”
“Monday.”
“Monday? I’ve been out three days?”
In a manner of speaking. “You have a concussion. Mild. Nothing to worry about.” Unless those blondes aren’t as squeaky clean as they looked. “My friend and I have been taking care of you.”
“How did I get a concussion?”
“It’s the damndest thing. You fell. At the airport. At the hospital they found my contact number in your wallet and called. My friend and I have been taking care of you since you were released.”
“But what about the call I got? Someone said
you’d
been in an accident.”
“A mistake. It was a woman named Hannah Strong, not Anna. Weird, huh?”
“My god. Miranda. She must be frantic. I told her I’d call her when I got back.”
“Not to worry. I took care of it. She wanted to cut her business trip short, but I assured her there was no need. She’ll be back in town on Friday.”
Still, he lunges to his feet, heads for the phone.
I intercept him at the kitchen door. “You need to rest a couple more days, David. Miranda understands. Concussions are nothing to fool around with.”