Blood Royal (69 page)

Harry smiled up when he saw her coming. ‘I’m winning,’ he said.

She patted his head; ignored his words. ‘We must do something,’ she said to Owain. ‘About Jeh—’ Remembering Harry, she stopped herself and nodded up at the tower. Before Owain had even begun shaking his head, she said, ‘
I
must do something.’

‘What?’ Owain asked. He sounded strangely cold. He didn’t seem to understand the wickedness that was going on under their noses either.

There was a silence. She didn’t want to admit that there was nothing she could do, or believe it.

‘Do you want to play?’ Harry asked, tugging at her skirts.

She said distractedly, ‘In a minute,’ and brushed off his hand, and went on looking at Owain.

In the end, Owain scrambled up. He put an arm through hers, and – leaving Harry looking disconsolately after them, squatting there with the knucklebones still in his little hand – walked her a few steps away. Then he said warningly, in a voice pitched too low for Harry to hear: ‘Choose your battles.’

‘I have,’ she said.

‘Well, choose again,’ he snapped. ‘This isn’t the time or place to make an enemy of Warwick.’

‘That bully; that brute. He’s committing murder. It’s
wrong
, what he’s doing.’

Owain shrugged. He said: ‘So what if it is?’

They looked at each other in anger.

Owain continued: ‘Listen to me, Catherine. You can’t save Jehanne. You shouldn’t even want to. Your only concern should be your son. Jehanne is Harry’s enemy as much as your brother Charles is.’ He put his hands on her shoulders. He looked down with hard eyes. ‘So let her burn,’ he said. ‘Play Warwick’s game. He tricked her. He probably raped her. He’s a cruel man. He enjoys fear. But he’s ours. He’s doing what we need doing – what Harry needs. And what’s Jehanne to you?’

She stared back. ‘Play his game? You’re as bad as the Cardinal. Worse. At least he just sounded relieved. But you actually want to
help
that man get away with it …’ She stepped away, out of reach of his hands. ‘You’re all the same, you English. Christine was right all along. You don’t have any idea of honour or chivalry or virtue, do you? You just get rid of anyone who gets in your way.’

Owain said, very quietly: ‘I’m not English.’ His eyes were burning. His cheeks were burning.

She shrugged and curled her lip. ‘Then don’t behave as if you were.’

She would have walked off, but a pair of hands suddenly
grabbed at her waist from behind and she heard a giggle. It was Harry. She’d forgotten him, she realised guiltily. He’d crept up. After a moment, he became aware something was wrong. He peered up at her with sudden fear in his eyes. He took his hands off her waist. He put one tenderly on her arm. ‘Why are you crying? Mama?’

Through her fingers she could see his scared face, a short figured-velvet coat and a thin black leg sticking out below with a small stumpy patten under his pointed shoe.

‘I don’t know,’ she said.

But she did know. She knew again as she’d kissed Harry and set off back to the keep. She knew that Jehanne would die as a result of dishonourable English trickery. She knew there was nothing she could do. It was enough to make anyone weep.

Suddenly she knew, too, that she didn’t have to ignore her conscience. She’d given in to the strong all her life, but nothing was making her now. She had her pride and her honour. Unlike Jehanne, she wasn’t a helpless prisoner – and so she could leave. It would be better for Harry, too. A child shouldn’t watch a burning.

She found Dame Butler. She told her to pack.

At supper, she didn’t wait for Warwick to sit down and bang his knife for attention, or make the announcement about the success of the trial. She could see what he was going to tell the table without waiting for that. It was shining like death in his boiled-fish eyes.

She went to him as he entered the room; and put a hand on his arm to stop him in the doorway.

‘My lord,’ she said formally. ‘We’re leaving, the King and I. We’ve been here too long. We should have been in Paris weeks ago, beginning the preparations.’

He didn’t take it seriously. He didn’t take her seriously. He never had. He just shook his head dismissively. She could feel his arm strain, as if he were about to shrug her off. She tightened her grip.

‘We’re all staying until the burning,’ he said curtly.

‘You are,’ she replied, just as curtly. ‘If that’s your duty. But it’s mine to take Harry to Paris to be crowned.’

He lifted his free hand; fingered the angry weals on his cheek. He gave her a slow, cold look. She could see a new enmity congealing in it, but he must have seen her determination. ‘We’ll be done in days,’ he said, keeping his voice low, bargaining with her. ‘By Michaelmas.’

She shook her head. ‘I’m not letting Harry watch a burning,’ she said. ‘He’s a child.’ She dropped his arm. She didn’t want to drag this out. She’d finished with Warwick.

Instead of going towards her place, she moved towards the door. She wasn’t going to eat with this man. ‘We set off in the morning,’ she said over her shoulder.

Owain didn’t come to her that night. In the morning she walked, with her head held high, onto the deck of the barge that was to carry her and Harry and their servants and guards to Paris. There were no ceremonial farewells; no quiet farewells among friends either, since, as she heatedly told herself, she didn’t seem to have any friends here. The deck was piled high with trunks and coloured cushions. Harry was entranced – peering over the edge, running below deck, laughing, with Dame Butler trotting behind.

But Catherine watched Rouen recede, and the golden leaves flutter down into the bright water, with a shimmering uncertainty in her eyes. She’d done what honour dictated. She’d refused to participate in a crime. She’d shaken off the craven self-interest of the English and been true instead to the demands of her French royal blood – the best blood in the world. It was the bravest she’d ever been.

She should be happy. But she’d left Owain behind. And it felt like the end of everything.

PART NINE

The Treasure of the City of Ladies

ONE

It took a week and a half to push up the Seine. In those long, overcast, often rainy days, Catherine discovered that the great river connecting Paris to the Channel was a stripe of thick grey, thronged with glistening dark boats, surging through a great brown wasteland of farmland gone wild. There seemed to be nothing in France but troop movements and mud.

‘It wasn’t like this before,’ she told Harry, as he looked mournfully out at the rain drilling away the last of the dead leaves from spiky trees. ‘France was beautiful.’ But had it really been? She tried to recall her childhood trips along the Seine. She couldn’t remember what the beauty had looked like.

In this watery gloom, Catherine couldn’t eat, and, even with Harry snuggled up against her in her bed at night in a way the Earl of Warwick would have most strongly disapproved of, she couldn’t sleep. The air was so damp; the blankets were cold. Wet ran off the table. The river gurgled outside the rotting planks of the walls. She couldn’t stop shivering.

And the further she got from Rouen, the more she found herself flaying herself alive with regrets over what she’d done. She’d left Owain behind; left the Cardinal. She had no idea when she’d find them again. She’d pushed away her friends, and she was rushing ahead a French coronation for Harry that would take her son away from her, too. And for what? All in a futile gesture of support for a peasant madwoman
with visions; someone whose one claim to fame was that she’d led armies in support of Catherine’s brother – her enemy. All to prove to an Englishman whom she didn’t need to prove anything to, and who wasn’t even really English, that she was brave and principled.

She could only hope the Cardinal would come to Paris. Surely he would, she yearned; surely he would have to follow the King, his charge.

But what about Owain? He might all too easily go back to his church. Somewhere, anywhere. Away. There was nothing binding him to her any more, if he wanted to be free. The seven years he’d promised her were up. There was only love, and if that went wrong …

She might not see him again.

When the barge finally docked by the Louvre and Duke John came out to greet them through the thin rain, Catherine felt years older. She knew that the secret tears she’d hidden, even from Harry, and shed only silently and motionless in the dark, were visible on her drawn face.

There was nothing to do but accept her fate. She stepped up onto the jetty in her crumpled tan robe. She could feel the dread clutching at her gut. Harry was at her side, relieved to be off the boat, looking round for fresh mischief.

Weary and sick though she felt, she could see at once that Duke John’s years in Paris had changed him. He was still pop-eyed and drably dressed, but he bowed with ease, spoke passable French, and had acquired some of the formal courtesy of a Parisian.

Before the Duke had even straightened up from his bowing and greeting, Harry had darted off. She let him be. She was too tired to mind him all the time, and too sad. But she looked up when he squealed, in his excitable treble, ‘Uncle Bobo!’

She looked, trying not to believe it. It couldn’t be true. It must be a cruel trick; a game.

Except it wasn’t. The Cardinal was right behind Duke John, under the canopy, laughing down at Harry, who was already chattering away without pause about the wetness of his clothes and the number of barges he’d counted (two hundred and
thirty-seven on the busiest day) and how much he would like some hot milk and a fire to warm himself beside.

She drew a step closer. She was peering forward. The rain was getting in her eyes.

Right behind the Cardinal, hanging back a little, was Owain.

Patting Harry on the head, the Cardinal turned his gaze to her. She could think of nothing but those two pairs of eyes on her, those two slightly nervous smiles, as if neither man knew exactly how she’d greet them. ‘My dear, you’ll get wet. Come under the canopy, quick,’ the Cardinal said, stepping aside to make way, and murmuring, as she flew up the carpet towards them, that they’d ridden all the way and got here last night. ‘Had to come, of course; follow the King,’ he added quickly. She could see he wanted to reassure her that she had nothing to reproach herself with. ‘But – grateful too. Very. Felt uncomfortable with all
that
going on … Distasteful. To be honest, I think the Pope would prefer me away from there.’

His generosity made her heart sing. She’d never felt relief like this. She didn’t care about ceremony or correctness. Not now. Not after everything she’d thought and felt in all that time alone on the water. She rushed to them, ignoring the astonished looks of the servants all around, and of Duke John. She flung her arms out and swept the pair of them into a three-person embrace.

‘Thank you,’ she muttered, not knowing what she meant, hardly knowing who she meant it for, too euphoric to care, but somehow finding Owain’s ear closest. ‘You’re here. Thank you.’

The smiles on both their faces, with Harry jumping around below, were reward enough.

Duke John lived at the Hotel Barbette now, he said, as they jigged up the little distance from the Louvre Dock to the Louvre Castle under the drizzle, at a leisurely processional pace. The Barbette was an appropriate-sized place for a bachelor. Duke John might look a little like Humphrey, but even the shortest conversation soon revealed how different they
were. Catherine liked his self-deprecating smile. He’d like to have invited them all there, he went on, to stay with him, but it was so small. So he’d put the King and his party up at the Louvre, where there would be room for their retinues.

Catherine hardly knew the Louvre. She’d visited her brother Louis there as a child, and stayed briefly with Henry in the state rooms, that was all. It was the part of Paris she knew least, outside the old city walls to the west; inside the new walls her grandfather had built, and as far as possible from the Hotel Saint-Paul to the east. She knew her mother, still alive, was almost certainly still living at the Hotel Saint-Paul; but she couldn’t quite bring herself to ask Duke John. She’d think later, maybe, about going to visit Isabeau. It would be too much now. She liked the idea of being in an unfamiliar place now she was in Paris; somewhere she had few memories. There was so much that was different that the city, the whole country, hardly seemed like the place she’d once come from. She didn’t want to be snarled up in old memories.

She certainly didn’t mind not visiting the Hotel Barbette, not in the least. It had been her mother’s house once; the private play palace where Isabeau had, at one time, entertained Catherine’s uncle, the Duke of Orleans. Catherine didn’t think she’d ever been inside there as a child. Back then it had been strictly for grown-ups only. But, over the years, since Charles had been denounced as a bastard, she’d come to think of it as the place where her brother must have been conceived in sin. The last thing she wanted was to revisit that memory. She wouldn’t have liked going up Old Temple Street to get to it, even – past the burned-out site on one side of the road where her uncle of Orleans had been murdered, and Christine de Pizan’s former home on the other. She thought it would have been Christine’s house, shut up and decaying, something she’d known herself in happier times, rather than all the ghost stories and legends, that she’d have felt most uncomfortable with. She was happy to avoid the whole street, with its unclean associations. She had no room in her heart for any of that.