Authors: Rachel Higginson
Fin was quiet after that and so was I. But all in all it was a productive night. I finished his rules and regulations document, set up a spread sheet of the past year and half of winners and winnings. Which, holy cow, Fin only took a percent of the winnings and he was doing more than alright. No wonder this was so important to him. But I had to wonder again, why the money he wanted from me was so important. He should have tons of money, especially if he wasn’t paying for school.
I also continued to monitor players for some of the upcoming games, the more suspicious ones. I learned something very important tonight, and that was my generation puts way too much of their lives posted on the Internet. I even had to go back and check through the last of my own genius-level posts. Did I really need to advertise to the world how much I loved coke from the soda fountain? No probably not. But still it was better than baring my innermost secrets for my entire friends list. Come on, people!
Like, maybe if you want to join an exclusive poker game, don’t complain to the entire internet world that you’re flat broke…. I just shook my head and crossed them off my list.
Denied.
This job gave me the false impression I wielded some kind of super power, but I just went with it. I was actually having fun.
When Fin went to the bathroom I checked his Facebook account and tried to see if I could get a girl over to the apartment while I was still here. I was excited to watch that play out and see firsthand how Fin would react.
Was I testing him?
Maybe, if I answered truthfully. But I argued to myself that it didn’t really matter because there was nothing between us and I didn’t want anything between us. I just wanted to be friends. And because we were just friends, if even that, I wasn’t testing, I was just kidding. This was just a practical joke.
Besides, it didn’t matter. There were no fish biting tonight. I clicked off as soon as Fin reappeared in the hallway and pretended to be watching the end of the last online game. There were only two players left, both trying to win the remaining hundred dollars.
“I think I’m done for the night,” I announced.
Fin had changed out of his jeans and t-shirt and into black sweatpants and a different faded gray t-shirt that stretched tight over his biceps and broad chest. Apparently he wore contacts, because he put on black, square framed hipster glasses too and his hair was more tussled than when he left. He looked adorable. Not really like the intimidating college senior I was used to seeing, now he was this comfortable but gorgeous friend and I wanted more than anything to curl up on the coach with him and watch a movie with the lights off.
Something was wrong with me. I was suddenly embarrassed that he was ready for bed and I was still hanging around.
Fin studied me from across the room, as if he were trying to solve an impossible puzzle. Naturally this made me extremely fidgety because I had no idea what he was putting together in his head. I stood up and started gathering my things, stuffing my phone into my backpack.
“You don’t have to go just because I changed,” Fin said and when I looked up at him I wondered if he realized he was blocking the front door, blocking my quick escape.
“Fin, you’re in your pajamas,” I laughed.
He made a sound in the back of his throat like I offended him, “I don’t really call these pajamas.”
“Well, whatever they are. You can just ask me to leave when I’ve out stayed my welcome. I’m just trying to help you out.” I stated obviously. I shouldered my backpack and moved across the living room.
“You haven’t,” Fin said quickly. “I mean, you don’t have to leave.”
I gave him a patronizing smile. Surely he had homework to do, or just wanted to be alone. We spent the last five hours together; even I was ready to get away from myself. “Don’t you have to get up early for your track workout?”
Ignoring me, Fin gestured to his couch, “We could watch a movie.”
I shivered involuntarily at the sound of his low voice and suggestion. He was just offering a movie, I had already started imagining him pinning me down on the couch and taking my mouth as hungrily as he had before.
It was time to go.
“It’s alright, we should probably try to avoid friendship as much as possible.” I shrugged.
Fin stayed quiet but in my way as he digest my words. The rugged planes of his face seemed to sharpen and his lips twisted into a dark smirk. His expression was sensual,
pure sex,
and I couldn’t even pretend not to be effected. I fell into it, mesmerized by this gorgeous boy that was focusing all his carnal attention on me.
“I think avoiding friendship between us is a good idea.” The innuendo was clear and for some reason that embarrassed me.
I wasn’t used to all this flirting. I felt like I could barely keep up with him. Teasing was easy, avoiding, ignoring and being rude, also easy; but trying to keep it together while he threw out sexy suggestions or blatantly made out with me was too much. I was way out of my league.
Besides, I didn’t trust that Fin wanted anything more than his money. He was just used to flirting, to more than flirting; he was used to girls who would give him whatever he wanted, whenever he wanted it.
So, with all those thoughts tumbling around my brain I came back with a very witty, “Yeah, Ok.”
At least I didn’t snort. “See you Thursday, Fin.” I gave him a platonic smile that seemed to wipe some of the sex appeal off his face and tried to walk around him.
I took a step forward and Fin shocked me to death by pulling me into a hug. He murmured something against my hair, but I couldn’t make it out since my brain was still reeling from our close contact. Slowly I relaxed- after, I realized he wasn’t going to throw me up against another wall- and returned the hug.
His body responded immediately to my willingness and he pulled me closer against his chest. His arms wrapped around me, one tight against my lower back so that I had to lean up on my tippy toes and one across my shoulders. I felt tiny in his embrace, itty bitty compared to his long, muscled frame. But at the same time we fit together easily, like pieces of the same puzzle.
I shook my head against his neck, trying to get those thoughts of familiarity out of my head. For Fin, being anything but friends meant something entirely different to a girl like me. He was charming me, showing me bits and pieces of him I wasn’t emotionally ready to know. And at the end of this all I would be was a hot make out and an uncollected debt.
I gave myself five more sEconds in his arms, inhaling his aftershave and mouthwash. Embarrassingly I closed my eyes against the heady scent. God, this felt too good. But at the end of the five sEconds I wiggled out from his arms and just to put my own thoughts and feelings back where they belonged I punched his bicep.
Hard.
“Ow!” he groaned, as shocked as I was that I hit him.
I didn’t actually know why I hit him; I just needed to separate myself completely from the girl that was just wrapped up so contentedly in Fin’s arms, to the girl that just punched him.
I was losing my mind.
I let out a nervous burst of laughter so embarrassed that I was such a social spaz. “Sorry!” I squeaked and let my head fall into my hands. My shoulders started shaking uncontrollably as I laughed hysterically at myself.
“Why did you hit me?” he demanded, but I could hear the amusement in his voice.
“I better go,” I ignored his question when I had finally gotten ahold of myself. “I’ll see you Thursday.”
“Are you and Britte going to run anymore in the mornings?” he asked while I stepped around him.
Just three more feet to the door. I was almost there.
“Because I like to do my workouts then. I could meet you. Jameson and Charlie don’t really like to run in the mornings. I could use a partner. Or, uh, partners.”
I gave him a double take. “Uh, I don’t think so.”
“Why not?” he asked, but it was around more laughter.
“Fin, you’re in the height of your track season. I run off Ramen Noodle calories. There’s no way I would be that cruel to my self-esteem. I like to pretend I’m in pretty good shape.”
“I could run at your pace,” he insisted.
“Then it’s not much of a workout for you, is it?” he opened his mouth to argue that point but I cut him off. “Stop trying to spend time with me, it’s getting weird.” Which would have been totally believable if I wasn’t smiling at him.
“It’s only weird that you keep rejecting me!”
He was kind of right about that.
“Goodbye, Fin.” I finally reached the door handle and pulled. I thought I would be really excited to finally get to the door, but now I was disappointed to be leaving him. Especially now that he was being so cute….
“Wait, I’ll walk you to your car.” He started slipping on leather flip flops that were piled by the door.
“Don’t you dare!” Seriously, I had to stop this.
“But-“
“Seriously, if you even try to, I’m marking it down as overtime.”
He scowled at me as if my threat actually meant something and that’s when I realized there really was all this money in between us. I hadn’t been able to get it out of my head, but this was the heavy confirmation I was looking for. I didn’t know why he kept flirting with me, or insisting he wanted more than friendship. He didn’t. He wanted his money.
Money I didn’t have.
“Fine, Ellie,” he sighed, seeming resigned to the fact that he wasn’t getting anymore with me.
“Night Fin,” I smiled brightly at him, hoping to erase some of that bad attitude.
Instead of saying goodbye he pointed a finger at me and said, “Text me so I know you got home Ok.”
“Sure.” I took another step into the hallway.
“Ellie, I mean it. Text me or I’m coming over to make sure you got home alright,” he threatened.
“Fine,” I sighed. “I’ll text you.” Knowing this goodbye had dragged out long enough I turned on my heel and sashayed to the stairwell. I was as all poise and confidence and not once did I look back at Fin, even though my entire body was humming with awareness that he was watching me. I refused to let him see how much all his attention got to me, how my body thrummed like it was being turned on for the first time in my entire life. And not turned in the “ooh baby” way, but as in coming to life, like he brought me to life for the first time ever.
A flutter of panic rippled through my stomach when I realized this was only the middle of week two. I still had four more weeks left.
The panic subsided a little once I was safe and alone back in my own apartment. I closed and locked the door behind me, thankful for the peace and quiet once more. Tara left a million problems for me when she left, but she also solved a few too. I no longer had to deal with her for starters.
I set my backpack down and walked over to grab a glass for water. My cell phone dinged not a sEcond later and from the shot of nerves straight to my chest, I had a feeling who it might be.
I told you to text me when you got home.
Fin. Was he serious?
I was just about to.
Lie.
I literally just walked in the door.
Not a lie.
And then I quickly added:
Stop stalking me!
His response was immediate.
Just protecting my assets.
I just rolled my eyes at you.
Goodnight, Eleanor Harris.