Because It Is My Blood (7 page)

Mr. Kipling offered to come to the meeting, but I thought it was better that I go alone. I didn’t want to remind Headmaster that I was the kind of girl who had a lawyer where a proper parent should have been.

Since the last time I had been at school in May, metal detectors had been installed at the main entrance. I could only assume that had had something to do with me. Way to leave a mark on the place, Anya.

I went straight to Headmaster’s office, where I was greeted by Mr. Rose. “Nice to meet you,” Mr. Rose said to me. “Headmaster will be with you in a moment.”

The familiarity of that office was almost unbearable. It was where I had found out my brother had shot Yuri Balanchine. It was where I had been accused of poisoning Gable Arsley. It was where I had met Win.

Headmaster poked her head out the door. “Come in, Anya.”

I followed her into the room, and she closed the door behind me.

“I was glad to hear you weren’t injured in that bus accident,” Headmaster began. “And I must compliment you. You did acquit yourself very nicely in the short interview I saw on the news.”

“Thank you,” I said.

“We’ve known each other a long time, Anya, so I’m not going to beat around the bush here. An anonymous donor has made a significant financial contribution to Holy Trinity. The only stipulation is that Anya Balanchine be allowed to continue her education.”

“I … That’s news to me.”

The headmaster looked me in the eye. “Is it?”

I returned her gaze. “Yes.”

“The donor, if I am to believe that it isn’t you or someone from your family, claims he or she saw your interview on the news and was impressed with your, I believe the word was
grace.
The donation is so sizable that the board and I feel we cannot merely ignore or return it without talking to you first. As you know, no one wants you with your guns and your drugs back on this campus.”

I nodded.

“Have you found another school yet?” Headmaster asked me warily.

“No. The places I tried feel the same way about me that you do. Also, I’m a senior, so…”

“Yes, I imagine that does make things more difficult. We don’t admit incoming seniors here either.” Headmaster leaned back in her chair and sighed. “If I was to let you return, your freedom here would have to be seriously curtailed. I have parents to answer to, Anya. Each morning, you would have to stop by my office so that Mr. Rose could search through your bag and frisk you. In addition, you could not participate in after-school activities, social or extracurricular. Do you think you could live with that?”

“Yes.” I would have agreed to almost anything at this point.

“Any violation of rules would result in your immediate suspension.”

I told her I understood.

The headmaster furrowed her brow. “It’s a public relations fiasco. If you were me, what would you tell the parents?”

“That Holy Trinity is first and foremost a Catholic school. And that Catholic schools have to practice forgiveness. That you showed me charity when no other schools wanted me.”

Headmaster nodded. “Seems sensible. Don’t mention the donation at all.”

“Exactly.”

“Would you even want to come back here?” Headmaster asked me in a kinder voice than the one she’d heretofore been using. “These haven’t exactly been happy years for you, have they?”

I told her the truth. “I’m sorry if I ever made it seem otherwise but I love Holy Trinity, Headmaster. It has, despite everything, been the one good and consistent place in my life.”

“We’ll see you tomorrow, Anya,” Headmaster said after a long pause. “Don’t make me regret this.”

When I got back home, I called Mr. Kipling to find out if he’d made the donation to Holy Trinity.

“I don’t know anything about it,” Mr. Kipling said. “I’m putting you on speaker so Simon can hear.”

“How are you feeling?” I asked Simon Green.

“Much better,” Simon answered. “Did your headmaster say how big the donation was?”

“Only that it was sizable.”

“Anya, I would tread carefully here. Someone may have an ulterior motive,” Mr. Kipling warned.

I asked Mr. Kipling if he was advising me not to go back.

“The fact is, we still don’t have any other viable options.” Mr. Kipling sighed a hurricane wind. “No, I just want you to keep your eyes open for anything that might seem strange. Someone wants you back at Trinity, and it makes me more than a little nervous that we don’t know who or why.”

“I’ll be careful,” I promised.

“And it goes without saying that you should keep your distance from Win Delacroix,” Mr. Kipling added.

I swore that I would.

“Are you happy, Anya?” Simon Green asked. “You’ll get to graduate with your class.”

“I think I am,” I said. And, for the first time in a very long time, I allowed myself to be, if only just a little bit.

That night, I called Scarlet to tell her I was coming back. I had to hold the phone away from my ear.
(Readers, I swear you could hear Scarlet’s screams all the way to Brooklyn.)

*   *   *

And then I was back at Trinity. Aside from the daily frisking—Mr. Rose and I were developing quite the intimate relationship—it was as if I had never been gone.

All right, there were a few changes, some for the better, others less so. Scarlet had definitely improved at fencing without me to lean on. Natty now took her classes in the upper-school building, so I got to see her several times a day. Win was in my FS III class, but his partner there, as everywhere else, was Alison Wheeler. He was friendly to me, but kept his distance. At lunch, I ate with Scarlet and Gable and tried not to feel like a third wheel. But, well, there were definitely worse things in life than being a third wheel. Mr. Beery announced that the school play would be
Romeo and Juliet
. When Scarlet suggested I audition, I was happy to inform her that the school had forbidden me to participate in extracurricular activities. It was no great sacrifice. Despite my triumph the prior year as chief witch in
Macbeth
, I was no actress and besides, I had had more than enough drama for one life.

I kept my promise to Mr. Kipling to be vigilant for evidence of conspiracy but I saw nothing. Perhaps I did not wish to see anything. I have, as you may recall, been guilty of such behavior in the past. I ignored messages from Mickey Balanchine that I probably should not have ignored. In my defense, I had missed a lot of work and my thinking was that there would be plenty of time to assume the mantle of my birthright.

I had been back at school almost two weeks when Alison Wheeler cornered me in the library, where I had been spending my lunch hour taking a makeup test. The library was one of the few places where they still had paper books, though no one ever used them. They were really there for decorative purposes.

Over the summer, Alison had cut off her red storybook hair and now she wore it in a pixie cut that made her green eyes look unnaturally large. She sat down in the seat across from me. In all the years we had known each other, I couldn’t remember us ever having had a conversation.

“That’s wrong,” she said, indicating a response I’d given on the test. (You may recall that she was ranked the number-one student in my class.)

Instinctually, I pulled my slate closer to me. I didn’t want to get thrown out for cheating.

“You’re hard to get alone,” Alison commented. “Always with Scarlet or Gable or your sister, or in the main office getting searched—that’s what they’re doing to you, right?”

I didn’t reply.

“What I think,” Alison Wheeler said to me, “is that sometimes the reason things don’t make sense is because they don’t make sense.” Her green eyes looked at me in a level way.

I turned off my slate and put it in my bag.

“I think Win and I should eat at your table with Scarlet and Gable Arsley. I think that is what we should do.”

“Why? So I can have a front-row seat to the boy I used to love with his new girlfriend?”

Alison cocked her head and studied me. “Is that what you think you’d be seeing?” she said after a moment.

“Yes, I do.”

Alison nodded. “Of course. I must be very cruel.”

I said nothing.

“Or maybe I think it good that Win should have his friends. His father’s campaign is very hard on him, Annie.”

I would rather she didn’t call me Annie. I was starting to really dislike Alison Wheeler.

*   *   *

The next day, I got a B on my test, and Win and Alison joined us at the table.

Though I had tried to discourage Alison Wheeler, lunch was livelier than it had been with just Gable and Scarlet. Scarlet was less boring, Gable less sullen. Alison Wheeler was odd but dry and smart, too. And Win, well you know how I felt about him as I have exhaustively and probably pathetically detailed those emotions. Suffice it to say, it was the closest Win and I had been since that day at the hospital, and you might think that would be torturous for me but it wasn’t. Seeing Win with his new girlfriend was easier than imagining it had been.

I did not even get him by himself until that Friday. Everyone else had left lunch early for one reason or another, and Win and I found ourselves alone, separated only by picked-over trays of lasagna and a gnarled wooden table.

“I should go,” he said, but he didn’t move.

“Me, too,” I agreed, but I didn’t move either.

“You must—” he began.

“How is—” I said at the same time.

“You first,” he said.

“I was going to ask about your father’s campaign,” I said.

Win chuckled. “That wasn’t what I was going to say at all, but since you asked, I think Dad’s going to prevail.” He looked me in the eye. “You probably despise him.”

My feelings about Charles Delacroix were nearly as complex as the ones I had for his son. On some level, I admired Win’s father. He had been a worthy adversary. But I hated him, too. That seemed a rude thing to say to someone’s son however. I decided to keep my mouth shut.

“I wish I could hate him but he is my father,” Win said. “And I think, despite everything, that he’ll be a very good district attorney. Campaigns…” His voice trailed off.

“Yes?”

“They seem like they last forever, but they don’t, Annie.” Suddenly, he reached across the table and took my hand, which I immediately pulled back.

“Are friends not allowed to shake hands?” Win asked.

“I think you know why I can’t shake your hand.”

I stood up and grabbed my tray. I slammed it down on the conveyor belt that led to the kitchen and a little bit of sauce ended up on my sweater.

The bell rang. As I was leaving the cafeteria, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned. It was Dr. Lau, my Forensic Science teacher. She was the only member of the faculty who had spoken up in my defense last spring and, not coincidentally, the only one who seemed glad that I had returned. “Anya,” she said. “I wouldn’t.”

“Wouldn’t what?” I asked innocently.

I made my way to Twenty-First Century History, where we had just begun studying the events that had led up to the second prohibition. I was familiar with several of the boldface names.

IV

I AM SURPRISED; I AM SURPRISED AGAIN

F
RIDAY NIGHT,
I was planning to stay in, but Scarlet insisted that I come out with her and Gable. “You haven’t gone out once since you’ve been back from Liberty,” she said to me on the ride home from school. “You can’t spend the rest of your life at home with Natty and Imogen. We’ll get dressed up and go to one of our old places. How about your cousin Fats’s?”

There was nowhere I wanted to go less except possibly Little Egypt.

“Or maybe you’d prefer Little Egypt?” Scarlet asked.

“Fats’s is fine,” I said.

“I thought you’d say that. Meet us there at eight. And, Anya?” she added just before we parted, “Don’t wear your school uniform!”

Around seven thirty, I changed per Scarlet’s instructions, then took a bus downtown.

“Hey, kid,” Fats greeted me. “Your friends are in the back room.”

Fats had lost quite a bit of weight since I’d last seen him. “You’re skinny,” I said.

“Gave up sugar,” he informed me.

“Cacao, too?”

“No, never cacao, Annie.”

“Maybe we should stop calling you Fats.”

“Nah, it’s got a nice bit of irony now.”

I went into the back room.

“Surprise!”

The place was packed, and it took me a second to realize I knew everyone there. Scarlet, Gable, Natty, Imogen, Mickey and Sophia Balanchine, Mr. Kipling and his wife, Simon Green, Chai Pinter, and several other of my classmates. Even Alison Wheeler was there, though she had come solo.

As you already know, I was a fan neither of surprise parties nor of parties in particular. Still, I could not help but appreciate that so many people had come out for me. Scarlet came up and kissed me on the cheek. “What kind of best friend would I be if I let you come back to Trinity without a party?”

I made the rounds, talking to everyone, thanking them for having shown up.

“Win really wanted to come,” Alison Wheeler whispered in my ear.

In the back of the room, a bit separate from everyone else, stood Mickey and Sophia Balanchine. They were talking to a third person. How could I not have noticed him before?

“Yuji Ono!” I exclaimed, throwing my arms around him in a manner I’m not entirely sure was dignified or appropriate. But, well, he had saved my brother’s life.

He smiled at me in his shy way.

“What are you doing here?”

“Business, of course,” he said.

“Had you returned any of my calls, you would have known this,” Mickey Balanchine remonstrated me.

Yuji Ono gave me a look. I could tell he was disappointed in me.

“It took me longer to resolve my high school situation than I would have liked,” I explained. Even as I was saying this, I knew how pathetic it sounded.

I turned to Yuji Ono. I wanted to ask about my brother but not in front of Mickey and Sophia. “Will you come see me at the apartment tomorrow?”

“I don’t know if I will have the time,” he said. “I am only in town for three days and my schedule is inflexible.”