“Your mamma.”
“I don’t understand. My parents died when I was a child, and my mother’s name was Sara. I’ve seen it on my family tree.”
“Your daddy died, that’s the truth, but your mamma’s alive as sure as I’m standin’ here. And you know the thing about family
trees down South, they’re never quite as right as they claim to be.”
The color drained from Lena’s face. I strained to reach out and take her hand, but only my finger trembled. I was powerless.
I couldn’t do anything but watch as she tumbled into a dark place, alone. Just like in the dreams. “And she’s Dark?”
“She’s the Darkest Caster livin’ today.”
“Why didn’t my uncle tell me? Or my gramma? They said she was dead. Why would they lie to me?”
“There’s the truth and then there’s the
truth.
They aren’t likely the same thing. I reckon they were tryin’ to protect you. They still think they can. But the Greats, they’re
not so sure. I didn’t want to be the one to tell you, but Melchizedek’s a stubborn one.”
“Why are you trying to help me? I thought—I thought you didn’t like me.”
“Doesn’t have anything to do with likin’ or not likin’. She’s comin’ for you, and you don’t need any distractions.” Amma raised
an eyebrow. “And I don’t want anything to happen to my boy. This is bigger than you, bigger than the both a you.”
“What’s bigger than both of us?”
“All of it. You and Ethan just aren’t meant to be.”
Lena looked confused. Amma was talking in riddles again. “What do you mean?”
Amma jerked around as if someone behind her had tapped her on the shoulder. “What’d you say, Aunt Delilah?” Amma turned to
Lena. “We don’t have much time left.”
The pendulum on the clock began to move almost imperceptibly. The room began to come back to life. My dad’s eyes started to
blink slowly, so that it took seconds for his lashes to brush his cheeks.
“You put that bracelet back on. You need all the help you can get.”
Time snapped back into place—
I blinked a few times, glancing around the room. My father was still staring at his potatoes. Aunt Mercy was still wrapping
a biscuit in her napkin. I lifted my hands in front of my face, wiggling my fingers. “What the hell was that?”
“Ethan Wate!” Aunt Grace gasped.
Amma was splitting her biscuits and filling them with ham. She looked up at me, caught off guard. It was obvious she hadn’t
intended for me to hear their little girl talk. She gave me the Look. Meaning, you keep your mouth shut, Ethan Wate.
“Don’t you use that kinda language at my table. You’re not too old for me to wash your mouth out with a bar a soap. What do
you think it is? Ham and biscuits. Turkey and stuffing. Now I been cookin’ all day, I expect you to eat.”
I looked over at Lena. The smile was gone. She was staring at her plate.
Lena Beana. Come back to me. I won’t let anything happen to you. You’ll be okay.
But she was too far away.
Lena didn’t say a word the whole way home. When we got to Ravenwood, she yanked open the car door, slammed it behind her,
and took off toward the house without a word.
I almost didn’t follow her in. My head was reeling. I couldn’t imagine what Lena was feeling. It was bad enough to lose your
mother, but even I couldn’t guess what it would feel like to find out your mother wanted you dead.
My mother was lost to me, but I wasn’t lost. She had anchored me, to Amma, my father, Link, Gatlin, before she left. I felt
her in the streets, my house, the library, even the pantry. Lena had never had that. She was cut loose and coming unmoored,
Amma would say, like the poor man’s ferries on the swamp.
I wanted to be her anchor. But right now, I didn’t think anyone could.
Lena stalked past Boo, who was sitting on the front veranda not even panting, even though he had dutifully run behind our
car the whole way home. He had also sat in my front yard all through dinner. He seemed to like the sweet potatoes and little
marshmallows, which I had chucked out the front door when Amma went into the kitchen for more gravy.
I could hear her shouting from inside the house. I sighed, got out of the car, and sat down on the porch steps next to the
dog. My head was already pounding, a sugar low. “Uncle Macon! Uncle Macon! Wake up! The sun’s down, I know you’re not asleep
in there!”
I could hear Lena yelling from inside my head, too.
The sun’s down, I know you’re not asleep!
I was waiting for the day Lena was going to spring it on me and tell me the truth about Macon, like she’d told me the truth
about herself. Whatever he was, he didn’t seem like an ordinary Caster, if there even was such a thing. The way he slept all
day and just appeared and disappeared wherever he felt like it, you didn’t need to be a genius to see where that was going.
Still, I wasn’t sure I wanted to go there today.
Boo stared at me. I reached out my hand to pet him, and he twisted his head away, as if to say, we’re good. Please don’t touch
me, boy. When we heard things start to break inside, Boo and I got up and followed the noise. Lena was banging on one of the
doors upstairs.
The house had reverted to what I suspected was Macon’s preferred state, dilapidated antebellum finery. I was secretly relieved
not to be standing in a castle. I wished I could stop time and go back three hours. To be honest, I would have been perfectly
happy if Lena’s house had transformed into a doublewide trailer, and we were all sitting in front of a bowl of leftover stuffing,
like the rest of Gatlin.
“My mother? My own mother?”
The door flung open. Macon stood there in the doorway, a disheveled mess. He was in rumpled linen pajamas, only what it really
was, I hate to say, was more of a nightdress. His eyes were redder than usual and his skin whiter, his hair tousled. He looked
like he had been run over by a Mack truck.
In his own way, he wasn’t all that different from my dad, a fine mess. Maybe a finer mess. Except the nightdress; my dad wouldn’t
be caught dead in a dress.
“My mother is Sarafine? That
thing
that tried to kill me on Halloween? How could you keep this from me?”
Macon shook his head and rubbed his hand over his hair, annoyed. “Amarie.” I would’ve paid anything to see Macon and Amma
square off in a fight. My money would be on Amma, all the way.
Macon stepped across his doorway, pulling the door shut behind him. I caught a glimpse of his bedroom. It looked like something
out of
Phantom of the Opera
, with wrought iron candelabras standing taller than I was and a black four-poster bed draped with gray and black velvet.
The windows were draped with the same material, hanging sullenly over the black plantation shutters. Even the walls were upholstered
in fraying black and gray fabric that was probably a hundred years old. The room was pitch dark, dark as night. The effect
was chilling.
Darkness, real darkness, was something more than just a lack of light.
As Macon stepped through the doorway, he emerged into the hall perfectly dressed, not a hair out of place on his head, not
a wrinkle in his slacks or crisp white shirt. Even the smooth buckskin shoes were without a scuff. He looked nothing like
he had a moment before, and all he’d done was step through his own bedroom door.
I looked at Lena. She hadn’t even noticed, and I felt cold, remembering for a moment how different her life must have always
been than mine. “My mother’s alive?”
“I’m afraid it’s a bit more complicated than that.”
“You mean, the part about how my own mother wants to kill me? When were you going to tell me, Uncle Macon? When I was already
Claimed?”
“Please don’t start this again. You’re not going Dark.” Macon sighed.
“I can’t imagine how you can think otherwise. Since I am the daughter of, and I quote, ‘the Darkest Caster living today’.”
“I understand you’re upset. This is a lot to take in, and I should have told you myself. But you have to believe I was trying
to protect you.”
Lena was more than just angry now. “Protect me! You let me believe that Halloween was just some random attack, but it was
my mother! My mother is alive, and she was trying to kill me, and you didn’t think I should know about it?”
“We don’t know that she’s trying to kill you.”
Picture frames started to bang against the walls. The bulbs in the fixtures lining the hallway shorted out one by one, down
the length of the hallway. The sound of rain pelted the shutters.
“Haven’t we had enough bad weather in the last few weeks?”
“What else have you been lying about? What am I going to find out next? That my father is alive, too?”
“I’m afraid not.” He said it like it was a tragedy, something too sad to talk about. It was the same tone people used when
they talked about my mother’s death.
“You have to help me.” Her voice was cracking.
“I will do everything in my power to help you, Lena. I always have.”
“That’s not true,” she spat back at him. “You haven’t told me about my powers. You haven’t taught me how to protect myself.”
“I don’t know the scope of your powers. You’re a Natural. When you need to do something, you’ll do it. In your own way, in
your own time.”
“My own mother wants to kill me. I don’t have any time.”
“As I said before, we don’t know that she’s trying to kill you.”
“Then how do you explain Halloween?”
“There are other possibilities. Del and I are trying to work that out.” Macon turned away from her, as if he was going to
go back into his room. “You need to calm down. We can talk about this later.”
Lena turned toward a vase, sitting on the credenza at the end of the hall. As if pulled by a string, the vase followed her
eyes to the wall next to Macon’s bedroom door, flying across the room and smashing against the plaster. It was far enough
from Macon to be sure it wouldn’t have hit him, but close enough to make a point. It wasn’t an accident.
It wasn’t one of those times Lena had lost control and things just
happened
. She had done this on purpose. She was in control.
Macon spun around so fast I didn’t even see him move, but he was standing in front of Lena. He was as shocked as I was, and
he had come to the same realization; it was no accident. And the look on her face told me she was just as surprised. He looked
hurt, as hurt as Macon Ravenwood was capable of looking. “As I said, when you need to do something, you’ll do it.”
Macon turned to me. “It will be even more dangerous, I’m afraid, in the coming weeks. Things have changed. Don’t leave her
alone. When she is here, I can protect her, but my mother was right. It seems you can also protect her, perhaps better than
I can.”
“Hello? I can hear you!” Lena had recovered from her display of power and the look on Macon’s face. I knew she’d torture herself
over it later, but right now she was too angry to see that. “Don’t talk about me like I’m not in the room.”
A lightbulb exploded behind him, and he didn’t even flinch.
“Are you listening to yourself? I need to know! I’m the one being hunted. I’m the one she wants, and I don’t even know why.”
They stared at each other, a Ravenwood and a Duchannes, two branches of the same twisted Caster tree. I wondered if this would
be a good time for me to go.
Macon looked at me. His face said yes.
Lena looked at me. Hers said no.
She grabbed me by the hand, and I could feel the heat, burning. She was on fire, as angry as I’d ever seen her. I couldn’t
believe every window in the house hadn’t blown out.
“You know why she’s hunting me, don’t you?”
“It’s—”
“Let me guess, complicated?” The two of them stared at each other. Lena’s hair was curling. Macon was twisting his silver
ring.
Boo was backing away on his belly. Smart dog. I wished I could crawl out of the room, too. The last of the bulbs blew, and
we were standing in the dark.
“You have to tell me everything you know about my powers.” Those were her terms.
Macon sighed, and the darkness began to dissipate. “Lena. It’s not as if I don’t want to tell you. After your little
demonstration
, it’s clear that I don’t even know what you’re capable of. No one does. I suspect, not even you.” She wasn’t completely convinced,
but she was listening. “That’s what it means to be a Natural. It’s part of the gift.”
She began to relax. The battle was over, and she had won it, for now. “Then what am I going to do?”
Macon looked distressingly like my father when he came into my room when I was in fifth grade to explain the birds and the
bees. “Coming into your powers can be a very confusing time. Perhaps there is a book on the subject. If you like, we can go
see Marian.”
Yeah, right.
Choices and Changes. A Modern Girl’s Guide to Casting. My Mom Wants to Kill Me: A Self-Help Book for Teens
.
It was going to be a long few weeks.