Barefoot Season (11 page)

She walked slowly, taking her time, being careful not to do anything stupid. When she was only a dozen or so feet from the trees she realized the cranes had their attention on Carly’s daughter. Or at least on the small plate of cookies on the blanket next to her.

The girl was reading, her attention completely caught up in the book. Michelle took a second to study the blond hair, the slight body. She still had trouble believing Carly had a kid, but here was proof.

As she watched, she realized Gabby wasn’t reading at all. That she was tense, her shoulders hunched, her head pulled close to her chest, her breathing rapid. Michelle recognized the symptoms of fear, but it took her a second to find the cause.

The cranes.

Like every other student on the island, Michelle had studied cranes in grade-school science classes. She knew the Puget Sound cranes were on the small side—maybe forty inches tall. They migrated every year, lived in pairs during breeding season and their dove-gray body feathers darkened to an almost blue-gray by the tail.

“Hey,” Michelle said softly, before she could stop herself.

Gabby jumped, then looked up. The cranes hopped back.

“What are you doing here?” the girl demanded.

“I came outside because I couldn’t stand being inside anymore. You ever get like that?”

Gabby studied her. “Maybe.”

Michelle looked toward the chattering cranes. The boldest of the three started toward the cookies again. “When I was about your age, the cranes had it out for me. I spent the whole summer getting pooped on. It was disgusting.”

“Really?”

Michelle nodded. “They’re hard to avoid around here.”

“I know. We have scientists who come and do research on them.”

“Have they figured out how to stop them from pooping?”

Gabby smiled. “No.”

“Figures. They’re probably studying things like population and eggs and stuff.”

The smile widened. “They are. You should talk to Leonard. He knows all about them. You can ask about the poop.”

“There’s a way to start a conversation. ‘Hey, Leonard. About that crane poop.’”

Gabby giggled.

Michelle pointed to the cranes. “Are you afraid of them?” she asked bluntly.

The humor faded. “They always follow me.”

“You have cookies. They want food.”

“Not always. Sometimes I’m just out.”

Michelle glanced at the blanket and thought about sitting down. The problem was she couldn’t figure out how she would manage to get back on her feet. She didn’t think the visual of her crawling back to the inn would help their guests feel more comfortable.

“I read this article once,” Michelle said. “Puget Sound cranes can recognize human faces and somehow they tell other cranes about certain people. So if somebody is mean to a crane, the whole flock learns about it.”

“I know,” Gabby said, glancing at the nearby birds with more than a little fear in her eyes. “Scientists thought that only crows had facial recognition, but they’ve realized our cranes have it, too. They’re special.”

“Interesting. How do you know that?”

“I’m smart.”

“And modest.”

Gabby grinned.

“Okay, so one crane tells the other cranes and somehow everyone in the flock knows about the latest gossip.” Michelle shrugged. “Obviously they associate you with food, which is why they’re hanging around, trying to intimidate you into giving up your cookies.”

Gabby’s eyes widened. “You’re right. Because when I read out here, I usually bring a snack. Do you think if I stopped having food around, they’d stop bothering me?”

“Sure. They’d figure it out. You’re not the only smart one here.”

Gabby tilted her head. “Does your leg hurt?”

“Pretty much all the time.”

“You were injured in the war, right? That’s what Mom said. That you were protecting our country.”

Michelle shifted, not sure what to say to that. Carly being nice made her uncomfortable. Michelle was old-school. Enemies should be clearly defined, like in cartoons.

“I was serving, yes.”

“That was really nice of you. Thank you.”

Despite her resistance to the compliment, she found herself touched by the girl’s sincerity. “You’re welcome.”

“Next time I come out, I’ll bring a chair so you can sit down.”

Michelle smiled, pleased by both the gesture and the proof that Gabby wasn’t afraid of her anymore. She had enough demons to deal with. Especially ones that involved another little girl in a faraway place.

“I’ll bring a book,” she said, “and we’ll read together.”

Ten

“S
he’s so annoying.”

Carly made the pronouncement while stacking dishes in the sink and running water over them. Robert had joined them for dinner as he did at least once every couple of weeks. She appreciated the adult conversation and the chance to cook for someone with more adult sensibilities than Gabby, but there were times when she missed having a girlfriend to rant to. Robert was a typical guy. He had trouble simply listening and mostly wanted to fix the problem.

“Don’t get me wrong. I’m happy to have a job.”

“And job security,” he said from a chair at the tiny kitchen table.

“That, too. That more than anything.”

With her raise and careful planning, she could grow her nest egg. And if Michelle really did mean for her to work fewer hours, then she could get serious about getting her associate’s degree in business.

“She’s going to be different,” Robert said. “It’s been ten years and she’s been through a lot.”

“I know.”

“She’s wounded.”

Carly sighed. “I should be more patient.”

“You’re not the only one figuring it all out.”

She wasn’t thrilled with him taking Michelle’s side, but knew he was actually being reasonable.

“It is a lot to take in,” she admitted, plunging her hands into the soapy water and scrubbing the first plate.

The rhythm of the familiar work relaxed her. There were too many evenings when she’d grabbed food from the kitchen and brought it back to have a quick dinner with her daughter before starting the evening ritual. Whatever else might be going on with her day, Carly was there at night.

The amount of love she felt for her child continued to surprise her. She hadn’t been pleased to find herself pregnant—things with Allen had been difficult even before the wedding. She’d thought about breaking things off. But getting pregnant had made that impossible. She’d been terrified of being alone and had made what she thought was a deal with the devil to keep that from happening.

She would marry a man she knew wasn’t good for her but in return she wouldn’t be a single mother. Apparently she should have been clearer about the bargain.

Not that she would change anything now, she thought, rinsing plates and stacking them in the dish rack. The first couple of years had been harder than she’d believed possible. She’d been terrified all the time, overwhelmed with responsibility, barely able to afford diapers on the tiny paycheck she’d earned at the inn. Brenda had been there for her, both a blessing and a curse.

Brenda had seen them as similar. Abandoned by their husbands, single mothers. But Brenda had never had to worry about getting enough to eat or having to decide between gas for the car and getting her daughter vaccinated.

Over time the situation had improved. Carly had learned how to do nearly every job at the inn and slowly she’d made more money. Just when she’d decided she needed more financial stability, Brenda had started hinting she would allow Carly to earn her way into an ownership position.

“She lied to me,” she said, staring down at the soap bubbles. “She stood there, looked me in the eye and lied to me.”

“Michelle?”

Carly glanced at Robert and shook her head. “Brenda. All those years she told me I was part owner. I worked for practically nothing and I believed her.”

He stood and crossed the two steps to the sink, then rested his large hand on her shoulder. “You couldn’t have known.”

“I should have. I should have asked for something in writing. I should have gone to see a lawyer.”

“You trusted her.”

“I was stupid.”

The weight of his hand seemed to anchor her in place. She wanted to shrug out of the contact, but couldn’t make her muscles move. Tension built between them. Not the good kind.

They’d been doing this too long, she told herself. Playing at being in a relationship. One without benefits. Maybe because they were too lazy to get into something meaningful with other people or because they were afraid to. Either way, they’d grown comfortable in a sort of half life.

“Things will be different now,” he told her.

“I can’t decide if that’s good or bad.”

“You don’t have to worry about moving.”

“That’s something. I don’t want to have to uproot Gabby more than necessary. She loves it here.”

She ducked around him to wipe down the table. The tiny kitchen she’d always loved suddenly felt confining. She eyed the living room and wondered how to get him to go sit on the sofa. Or maybe leave.

“Give it time,” he told her. “You and Michelle used to be friends. You’ll get to know each other again.”

“Friends? It’s been years. We weren’t exactly speaking when she left town.”

“I’m sure her time in the army has changed her.”

Carly rinsed out the dishcloth and hung it over the sink. “How do you know that? You barely knew her before.”

“How could war not change someone?”

She wanted to point out that he had no clue what he was talking about. Watching
Band of Brothers
didn’t make him an expert on the military. But she kept quiet because Robert had always been kind to her and there had been so many times when she’d needed that.

She studied his dark hair, his rugged face.

He’d gone to work in the family auto shop right out of high school. He’d dated the same girl for five years and would have married her if she hadn’t been killed in a car accident two months before the wedding. He’d taken care of things when his father had died eight years ago and had gotten his mother settled in a nice condo in South Carolina.

He paid his bills on time, he liked to watch sports and he’d never deliberately hurt another person even once in his life.

Robert was the type of man who made a good husband and a better father. He could fix a faucet, explain fractions and sit through a foreign film with only minor grumbling.

She should have wanted to be with him. But she didn’t. And it wasn’t as if he was pushing
her
to settle down. Yet here they were, acting like husband and wife, talking about what was going on in their lives over dinner and kitchen cleanup.

No matter how she tried to talk herself into caring about him as something other than her former brother-in-law, she couldn’t.

“Don’t you want more than this?” she asked, blurting out the question. “Than what we have? Don’t you want to fall in love, or at least find someone you’re desperate to sleep with? We’re both hiding, Robert. From the world or love or something. Don’t you think we need more?”

“I like what we have.”

“I do, too.” She sighed. “It’s easy. But easy isn’t always right. I think maybe we should take a step back. Look for other options.”

For a second he looked stricken, then he nodded once, grabbed his jacket and headed for the front door.

Carly groaned, hurrying after him. “Robert, wait. Don’t be mad. Don’t go.”

He stopped, his hand on the knob. “You don’t get to have it both ways,” he said. And then he was gone.

* * *

Michelle could feel the daisies mocking her. They were everywhere. She could accept them in the garden—they were plants, after all, and it was easy enough not to look out the window. But they were other places, too. On the walls, both as paper and in a mural someone had painted. In vases and on pillows. There were books on daisies in the lobby, note cards with them in the gift shop. They were printed on fabric, woven into wreaths and worn as enameled pins, their colors brighter than nature intended. Blackberries were fine. At least you could eat them, but the damned daisies served no purpose.

When she’d served in the desert, she’d quickly learned what to watch out for. Camel spiders were poisonous and aggressive, moving toward anyone who approached rather than running away. Michelle knew if she turned her back, the daisies would act the same way, taking over more territory, eventually suffocating them all with petals and leaves.

An image of the inn buried in giant flowers was both humorous and slightly disturbing. Probably not something she should discuss with anyone.

A light rain fell. Despite the weather, the inn was busy. They’d been full the previous night and would be tonight. The blessing of weekends, she thought, moving through the lobby. A few families were in residence, along with several couples. The restaurant had been busy that morning, as well. She’d walked through on her way to the kitchen and her morning cup of coffee with Damaris.

Money flowing in would help, but it would take more than that to restore the business’s financial footing. Michelle pulled the daisies from the small glass vase on her desk and dumped them in the trash, then returned her attention to her computer screen.

People were going to have to be let go. She’d been dancing around that reality for nearly a week, but couldn’t escape the truth of it. The payroll was ridiculously large for an inn this size. Nearly every position was overstaffed.

Michelle had dealt with personnel issues before, but in the army, you got transferred rather than fired. Now she would be messing with people’s lives in a way that didn’t make her comfortable.

She’d been back nearly two weeks. She’d had a chance to review the books, the tax returns, the financial statements. Her mother had a lot to answer for. She wasn’t going to have to explain herself to anyone in this world, but Michelle hoped there would be an accounting in the afterlife. Her mother’s actions had been criminal at worst, and beyond selfish at best.

Nearly as distressing was the realization that Carly had been a voice of sanity, speaking out against the worst of Brenda’s craziness. Michelle had heard it from several vendors and more than a few of the staff. Carly cared about the inn, did the right thing and made the guests love her.

Michelle stood and left her office. The ache in her hip was her constant companion. Sleep would probably help her heal faster, but she’d been unable to relax enough to let it happen. There were too many threats in the dark. Nightmares were sneaky, attacking where she least expected. Better to lie awake in the dark, safe.

She’d been in her rented room for several nights, enjoying the quiet and privacy. But liking the surroundings didn’t make the past go away. She spent the hours of darkness waiting for an unknown, unnamed enemy to attack, and even though he never came, every morning she was as exhausted as if she’d fought him off by herself.

She limped toward the reception area, using the wall for support every few steps. She was going to have to talk to Carly about who should be let go. As much as Michelle didn’t want to rely on her, she didn’t have a choice. Carly knew the staff and she understood the inn. Just as helpful, she was willing to say things Michelle didn’t want to hear. Like her crack about Michelle’s clothes.

A quick trip to Wal-Mart had given her a selection of black trousers and different shirts. Black athletic shoes replaced the lace-up boots she’d been wearing.