An Honorable Rogue (4 page)

Ben smiled. 'They have tally sticks in Normandy too,
cherie.'
He rubbed his thumb against the back of her hand. Her fingers were clinging to his as though she'd never let go. Her breasts were something of a distraction, rising and falling as they were, under that flimsy nightgown. Rose thinks of me as a brother, he reminded himself, and kept his eyes fixed firmly on her face. It struck him that her dimples were surprisingly kissable and her mouth too looked inviting...

No.
No.
What was he thinking? Abruptly he released her hand and reached for his wine-cup. This was Rose, who openly admitted she wanted stability, the security he could never give her. Thank God, she seemed unaware of the temporarily lustful direction his thoughts had taken.

He indicated the money pouch at his belt. 'I've a few deniers with me, if that will help,
ma belle.
Don't mention it to Countess Muriel, but I was in Rennes recently with Duke Hoel. He paid handsomely to hear Turold's new "Song of Roland".'

When she nodded, Ben knew he did not have to expand. Rose might not know of his secret work for the Duke, but it was common knowledge that while Duke Hoel was titular Duke of Brittany, many of the barons, Count Remond of Quimperle included, merely paid lip-service to his authority. The nobles made, and broke, other alliances every day. Deals were struck with Bretons, with Normans, with anyone--nothing mattered but that the arrangement gave a temporary advantage. Frankish noblemen had about as much honour as court whores.

Rozenn laid her fingers on his arm. It was the lightest of touches, the friendliest of touches, but it had muscles clenching in Ben's belly, sensual muscles that had no business clenching when she touched him. He frowned.

'That's sweet, Ben. but not necessary. Fortunately Mark Quemeneur offered a reasonable price for most of Per's stock. I hope to sell the rest on market day.'

Sweet. Now there was a novelty. 'So you can settle Per's debts?'

'Yes.'

'I am glad of that. Rose?'

'Mmm?' She smothered a yawn.

'If you ever did need me--for anything--you only have to ask. I am--' he raised her hand to his lips '--yours to command."

Her brown eyes danced, her dimples winked at him. 'I know that, but you're not often around to ask, are you?'

Ben's heart contracted as guilt took him. Was he wrong to think of using Rose as cover to get him to England? Rozenn was no more suited to the wandering life than his mother had been--few women were. Rozenn craved security, Rozenn craved position. Ben understood, of course, but privately he wondered if she would for ever be making up for being a foundling. If it were not for the fact that the Duke vitally needed to establish a line of contact with his men in England, he would abandon the entire plan....

'Rose, I must ask, have you heard from Adam since he left? When I heard of the great battle at Hastings, I prayed that he would survive.'

'He did. Word came via a messenger bringing news to Count Remond. Adam distinguished himself at Hastings and Duke William--that is, the new King of England-- has rewarded him with lands and a wife.'

'A
wife?'

'Aye, her name is Cecily of Fulford.' Rozenn said, with a little yawn. 'And very soon I am going to visit them.'

'You are?" Ben said, affecting disbelief. 'My Rozenn leave Quimperle--impossible!" She shot him a strange look and, deciding it was probably best not to overdo the disbelief, Ben shook his head and continued. 'But Adam--remarried--I can scarcely believe it. Poor woman, he will never love her as he loved Gwenn.'

'How could he? But Adam is kind. He will be a considerate husband, I'm sure, and that will be enough.'

'Will it? Was your marriage with Per like that? Was Per a considerate husband?'

Anger flared in her eyes. 'Ben, you go too far, even for an old friend." Then her shoulders slumped and just as swiftly, the anger was gone. 'Per was
not
considerate, as you now know. How could he have just borrowed and borrowed?' Sighing, Rozenn leaned on her hand and stared into the fire.

There was more, he knew. Ben waited, but Rozenn continued to gaze blindly into the flames. There was a time when she would have trusted him with all of her secrets. His heart ached. He needed to know more about her plans to visit Adam, he needed to know her reaction to Sir Richard's 'offer', but she was tired and melancholy, so he held his tongue. Tomorrow would be soon enough.

'Sorry, little one.' Leaning forward, he touched her cheek. 'Don't be sad. You drive those dimples away, and they are very beautiful."

'Beautiful dimples?" She roused herself and covered his hand with hers. 'You fool.'

'It's true, they are beautiful. I dream of those dimples; I sing songs about them; knights have jousted over them...'

'Idiot. Oh, Ben, it
is
good to see you. I... I've missed you."

'And I you."

She smothered a yawn.

Ben pushed himself to his feet. 'Has Countess Muriel asked for you on the morrow?"

'Aye, at first light."

'I'm keeping you up. We can exchange more news tomorrow.' He made his voice as brisk as he might, to hide an inexplicable wave of longing that Rozenn might lie in his arms till dawn. 'Shall I sleep in the shop?'

'What? Oh, no. Make your bed over there, if you like, on the other side of the fire.'

Once the candle had been snuffed out and there was only the flicker of the fire to see by, she fell asleep quickly. She lay on her side on the bed. facing him, cheek pillowed on her hand, lips slightly parted. She was, Ben hoped, relieved to have him there. Happy, as he was to see her. He had always been content in Rozenn's presence, even when they had been children. And every time he and his father had worn out their welcome at the castle, every time they had decided to move on, it had been a wrench to leave her behind. So it would be again, no doubt--she was a good friend.

Ben lay on the pallet she had found him, wrapped in his cloak, and watched the dying flames burn till they were little more than a soft glow. Then at last, his eyelids drooped, and he too found sleep.

Rozenn woke when the first fingers of light were edging round the shutter. She was conscious that her mood was lighter than it had been in months, if not years. Hazy with sleep, she rolled on to her back. She dare not linger long because her neighbour's cockerel was crowing and Countess Muriel had commanded her presence in the solar at first light.

The Countess and her ladies were working on a wall-hanging intended for the Great Hall, above the dais. Rozenn had been commissioned to design it and, though the designing was done and the Countess and her ladies were perfectly capable of embroidering it without her, the Countess liked her to be present when they sewed.

This was another reason why Rozenn had not made public her intention to journey to England to find Adam and Sir Richard. If she feared upsetting Mikaela and Adam's mother, she was twice as worried about Countess Muriel. As a rule the Countess was even-tempered, but when crossed she could be spiteful and vindictive. And since the wall-hanging was her current obsession... Oh, Lord.

Eyes firmly shut. Rozenn stole a few more moments in bed, her thoughts drifting. When complete, her tapestry--half-a-dozen yards long and as many deep--would dwarf the other castle wall-hangings. At her first sight of the unworked linen unrolled on the trestle in the solar, the Countess had been delighted.

'Rozenn Kerber..." The Countess had smiled, lightly fingering the charcoal figures Rozenn had sketched on to the fabric. 'You are a wonder. Our hall will be the envy of Brittany. This figure riding out to hunt before all his men, is it Count Remond?'

'Yes,
Comptesse.'

'And this, the lady in the orchard by the castle--is this me?'

'Yes,
Comptesse.'

'You have done well, Rozenn. This will indeed enhance my husband's prestige."

And that, more than decoration, was the purpose of the wall-hanging. Luckily Rozenn had been quick to realise this. That was why she had designed the hanging with her two powerful patrons in pride of place. Count Remond was ambitious, his Countess was ambitious and the wall-hanging was a visual representation of their aspirations. Rozenn understood about ambition; she had ambitions of her own--she was going to marry a knight. A man of honour, Sir Richard would never have given her the gold cross if his liking for her was not strong.

Sighing, Rose stretched and opened her eyes. Her heart gave a crazy lurch.

Ben.

Fast asleep on his stomach on the pallet on the other side of the room with his face turned to the wall. His dark hair was tousled and he must have pulled off his tunic and
chainse
--his shirt--in the heat of the night, for his torso was bare. He was not as large as her adopted brother Adam or her husband Per, but he was beautifully formed, with wide muscled shoulders and a narrow waist...

One arm was trailing over the edge of the pallet on to the floor. She looked at his hand, the hand she knew so well, with its slender musician's fingers relaxed and still. She wanted to touch him. How silly. She must have missed him more than she had realised.

Rozenn's gaze wandered down Ben's length to the cloak twisted at his waist, to the curve of buttocks concealed beneath it and finally to the naked foot sticking out at the bottom. Ben was no warrior, no Sir Richard of Asculf, and yet his body was strong, well muscled and athletic, like the tumblers and dancers that had visited Castle Hellon last month. But then Ben, she remembered, could tumble and dance along with the best of them.

She swallowed, and a disturbing sensation of longing made itself felt in her belly. Shaking her head, Rozenn flung back her sheet. No, not longing. It was not longing that she felt when she looked at Benedict Silvester. She, Rozenn Kerber, whose first marriage had been contracted on the grounds of practicality, and whose second would, like Countess Muriel's, be one of ambition, did
not
feel longing for men. It was only pleasure that she was feeling, the simple pleasure of seeing a dear friend again.

The cockerel had gone quiet, but the wood pigeons were cooing on her roof and above the town the martins were screeching....

Rozenn scrambled up. Quickly, she breathed life into the fire and put some of yesterday's water on to heat for washing. Then, dragging her gown over her head--a new one she had made a month ago out of the best blue linen in the shop--she slipped out for fresh water from the well in the square. At the tavern she bought a loaf of warm bread from Mikaela. She was careful to make no mention of Ben's reappearance because she was already late and there was no time for lengthy explanations. Half a loaf already lay in her bread crock, but Ben would appreciate a fresh one.

Back at the house, she set the loaf on a platter with a small round of goat's cheese and a couple of apples. Digging Per's house key out of the strongbox, she placed it on the table next to the food, where Ben would be bound to find it.

Then, picking up her workbag, she slipped out. The martins were swooping and diving for flies. Young Anton was ahead of her, trotting down the hill in front of his cart. She had better hurry, if she was not to incur Countess Muriel's wrath.

When Rozenn entered the solar, Countess Muriel was pacing up and down in front of the fire that she insisted should burn day and night, winter and summer. The wall-hanging was still rolled in its protective covering to one side of the trestle, and several ladies were taking their ease on the window seat, murmuring softly to one another.

Countess Muriel strode up, full skirts swishing through the rushes. 'Rozenn, there you are!'

A tall, slender woman with narrow shoulders and a slight build, the countess nevertheless dwarfed most men. Her forthright manner could be intimidating, but Rozenn refused to be intimidated. She tipped back her head and met the Countess's gaze directly. 'Good morning,
Comptesse.'
Wondering why they could not have made a start without her. Rozenn put her workbag on the trestle and set about unrolling the tapestry. It occurred to her that though the Countess might command her person, she could not command her mind. Her heart lifted. Today, her happiness made her impervious to Countess Muriel's impatience. It must be because she would be leaving soon.

Countess Muriel made an irritable gesture. 'No, wait."

Rozenn's hands stilled on the cloth. She ought to tell the Countess of her plans to leave Quimperle as soon as possible. It was most odd, but this prospect did not unnerve her as much as it had last week. Giving only half an ear to what was being said, Rose wondered when the best moment would be. Perhaps she ought to wait until after market day, when she was absolutely sure she had enough money to settle Per's debts...

'Rozenn!' The Countess drew her dark brows together. 'Are you attending?"

'Y-yes, of course. My pardon,
Comptesse.'

'So? You know where to find him?'

'Find who,
Comptesse?'

Countess Muriel tutted. 'Really, Rozenn! I was talking about the lute-player. Benedict Silvester. My husband tells me he was seen last eve and I recollect you know him. Do you know where he might be?'

Rozenn's cheeks warmed. The thought of the Countess and her ladies learning that Benedict Silvester was staying at her house was disconcerting to say the least. Ben's reputation was such that they would never believe her relationship with him was innocent. Since she would soon be leaving Quimperle, she should not really care what anyone here thought, but...

'B-Benedict?'

'Wake up, girl, for heavens' sake! You know perfectly well who I mean. The man's the best lute-player in the Duchy. I recollect he used to be a friend of your brother, so you should know his usual haunts. Do you know where he is? This morning I want him to entertain us while we sew.'

'I...I know where he might be,
Comptesse.'

'Good, you may fetch him. Tell him he may have his usual fee, unless he'd rather settle for food and lodging.' Another imperious wave sent Rozenn hurrying to the door.

'Very well,
Comptesse,
I'll see if I can find him."