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Authors: Nina Lane

Tags: #Contemporary Romance

Always (Spiral of Bliss #5) (22 page)

While Dean and I have always had a phenomenal sex life, I’m no stranger to masturbation. If he’s traveling or at work, and I’m feeling needy, I’m accustomed to fantasizing and getting myself off. I don’t have to do it often, but it’s part of my sexual repertoire—one Dean is well aware of, to his own erotic pleasure.

Will I even be able to do
this
again? I press a finger against my clit, my breath catching when it pulses in response. I’m still dry down there, but maybe if I…

Anxiety coils through me. I force it away and close my eyes, pulling my nightgown up farther to bare my breasts. The rush of cooler air sensitizes my nipples—my right one at least. I settle my hands over my breasts, feeling their familiar weight, trying to accept that the scar and indentation will be there from now on.

I press my fingers over the scar, which is tender but no longer hurts. I can’t feel my own touch, only the slight pressure. I nudge my fingers around until I reach the area where there’s still sensation. According to the doctor, more feeling will come back as the nerves heal.

I glide my hands back down over my belly, pushing the sheet away as I lift my knees and spread my thighs. I curve my fingers between them, settling the heel of my hand against my clit as I work my forefinger gently into my opening. The sensation is pleasant enough, though I’m unable to rouse myself to wetness.

Relax,
I tell myself.

Alone, there’s no pressure, no one to disappoint. I close my eyes and think of how Dean and I have managed to sustain our sex life through all the changes in our lives—certainly not without a few bumps in the road, but we’ve always gotten past them and rediscovered each other.

And Paris… being there again after our wedding and honeymoon lit a new fire between us, one fuelled by the lure of adventures. Even in our small apartment, Dean and I found time for each other—usually either after the kids were asleep or before they woke up in the morning.

I think of myself back then—whole, sexy, happy—with nothing more to do in those stolen moments than enjoy the incredible sensation of fucking the man I love with such intense, tender devotion.

I think of Dean—masculine, confident, generous—and the way everything about me has always aroused and excited him, like I’m a feast he wants to indulge in for eternity. Even the changes in my body over the years, the weight gain from both pregnancy and an admitted overindulgence in croissants, the heavy sensitivity of my breasts during nursing, the
here forever
curves of my belly and hips—he loves it all. He just loves me.

I want that life back. I want to relive our honeymoon, our travels with our children, the months when Dean and I were first dating. I want to look up from the cash register at Jitter Beans and see him standing there looking at me with that warm, gentle smile, and I want to feel the quickening flutter of happiness start deep inside me.

“Medium coffee, please. No room for cream.”

I still fill his coffee cup almost to the rim. When we went to cafés in Paris, he drank espresso, and I learned to ask for
une noisette,
which was an espresso with foamed milk. In our apartment, we brewed our own coffee in the mornings and always, without fail, went downstairs to the boulangerie for croissants or a baguette to have with breakfast. Even in another country, we found our café.

One bright, chilly morning in October, I bundled up the kids and walked downstairs to buy croissants. Dean had returned very late the previous night from a week-long trip to Russia and was still sleeping when Marie-Laure arrived to take Nicholas to his morning preschool and Bella out for a walk.

Shortly after they left, I heard the shower start. I brewed coffee, and arranged a tray with a plate of croissants and a scraggly little flower I’d plucked from the courtyard garden.

I was so happy Dean was back. He often took short trips to Italy, Germany, and England, but a week had seemed like an exceedingly long stretch of time for him to be away from us.

I set the tray on the table beside the bed. A warm shaft of sunlight speared through the curtains, and I stretched out against the pillows to enjoy it.

“Hmm. Which one do I get for breakfast?”

Dean’s voice washed over me. I opened my eyes to see him standing in the doorway to the bathroom with only a towel wrapped around his waist. Fragrant steam wafted from behind him, and water beaded on the taut skin of his chest and shoulders.

“Whichever one you want.” I turned, lifting myself onto one elbow so I could admire him as he walked toward me. “Welcome home. Sorry I missed you last night.”

“I missed you all week.” Dean sat on the edge of the bed and moved in for a kiss, the scent of his shaving soap rising from his skin in a delicious, heady aroma.

I parted my lips, meeting him in the hot rush that always followed our separations, no matter how brief. Arousal flared inside me immediately, like a struck match. Dean lifted his hands to either side of my neck, angling my head so he could fit his mouth more securely against mine.

“Are you hungry?” I whispered.

“Mmm.” He brushed his lips back and forth against mine. “Hungry for my wife.”

I smiled. “Me too. I’ve been hungry for you all week.”

“Yeah?” He climbed onto the bed, pressing me back against the pillows. “What’d you do about it, Mrs. West?”

“I might have…” my heart beat faster, “…fantasized a little.”

His eyes darkened. “Did you now, naughty girl?”

“Maybe.”

“You don’t get to tease me.” Dean’s voice took on an implacable tone as he slid his hand down the V-neck of my fleece shirt. “You’re going to have to
tell
me.”

I squirmed when his hand slipped down into my bra. When I didn’t speak, he pinched my nipple.

“Tell me,” he ordered.

“Oh… I, well, at night I’d lie here thinking about you… about us,” I admitted breathlessly, which was the truth.

“And tell me what you thought about.”

“All sorts of dirty things,” I breathed, resting my hand on his bare chest. “Like how good it feels to sit on your cock and bounce up and down. And how much I love it when I’m on my back and you’re holding my legs apart so you can fuck me as deep as you can. Or when I’m on my hands and knees and you’re driving into me from behind, and I’m moaning every time your cock slams into me… and I can feel you dripping down my thighs…”

A noise rumbled in his chest as he pushed his hips against my leg, his erection already hardening beneath his towel. He lowered his head to nuzzle my neck.

“Go on,” he said gruffly.

“I’d just get so aroused,” I whispered in his ear. “So wet. I’d spread my legs and imagine you sliding that big cock into my tight pussy while I pleaded for more… but you liked hearing me beg, so you’d rub your cock over my clit and tease me with it until I couldn’t take it anymore. Then you’d push into me, so slow and deep… and even in a fantasy, I could feel your shaft pulsing inside me, feel my pussy clenching around you… God, Dean, just a few little tickles on my clit and I’d come so hard I had to bite down on the pillow to stop myself from screaming your name…”

“Christ.” Dean pulled at the hem of my shirt. “I’m going to come right now if you keep that up.”

I blinked up at him innocently. “You mean you didn’t fantasize at all while you were gone?”

“I fantasized, all right. Mostly about what I was going to do to you when I got back.”

“Tell me.”

He shook his head, his mouth curving with a wicked grin.

“I’m not going to tell you,” he said. “I’m going to
show
you.”

Lust and anticipation flickered through me. I slid my hand down the plane of his chest, over the ridges of his abdomen to the front of his towel. I cupped the length of his cock in my hand, my own body responding with a surge of heat.

I put my hand on his stomach and pushed him back so I could unknot the towel and pull it off him. My breath caught at the sight of his beautiful, thick cock half-rising from his groin, the shaft still damp from his shower.

“God, Dean.” I pressed my thighs together and shivered, thinking our reality was so much better than any fantasy.

I watched hungrily as he moved his hand down to grasp his cock, stroking his fist up and down the shaft with the slow, easy rhythm I loved. His erection hardened further in his grip, the tight head dampening with moisture.

Dean nodded to my shirt and yoga pants. “Off.”

I wasted no time shucking the shirt over my head and reaching for the clasp of my bra. My breasts popped free, my nipples already hardened to tight points. I felt Dean’s hot gaze lock onto them, and I made a point of wiggling a bit excessively to pull my pants off.

“Ah,
fuck
.” Dean’s breath escaped on a groan as he watched my breasts, heavier with milk since I was still nursing, bounce and sway with every movement.

“Push them together,” he ordered.

Excitement shivered through me. I loved it when Dean fucked my breasts, and the act was even more deliciously submissive when I was lying on my back and he straddled my waist—all hot, hard male looming over me like a dark shadow. His eyes burned into me as he positioned his cock at my cleavage.

My heart thudded. I pushed my breasts together, creating a deep valley for him to thrust his erection. I couldn’t get enough of the sight—the glossy head of his cock appearing and disappearing between my pillowy cleavage, my flesh hugging his slick shaft, the sound of his testicles slapping against the undersides of my breasts.

I twisted my nipples, pulling a rush of hot air into my lungs as a current of sparks shot to my clit. I was still wearing my panties, and the cotton was getting wet between my legs, the friction heightening my arousal.

“Dean.” My voice was strained, thick with longing.

He stopped, his chest heaving and his hand braced against the wall above me. He moved lower on my body, his cock sticking straight out, so big I shivered anew at the thought of him pumping into me. He palmed my breasts and slid his hands over my torso, his touch lighting a path of heat across my skin. I shifted, reaching to push my underwear down, but he stopped me and shook his head.

“Leave them on,” he said.

I stared at him, wondering exactly what he had in mind. He knelt between my legs, pushing them gently apart before running a finger up and down my damp panties. I squirmed, aching for him to touch my bare flesh.

“You’re just all wet down here, aren’t you?” he said, lust darkening his eyes to black as he edged his finger into the elastic of my panties and touched my slit. “Wet and hungry.”

“Oh, yes,” I breathed, wiggling my hips to encourage him to touch me deeper. “I’ve been waiting for you.”

I fully expected him to yank the underwear off me, but instead he just pulled the elastic aside farther, stretching it to my thigh and exposing my pussy.

“Dean, what…” I pushed to my elbows, mildly shocked and highly aroused by the sensation of being both covered and bare at the same time.

“Open up, sweetheart.”

He shot me a wicked grin and edged closer, fitting his cock right up against my slit. In one surge, he thrust into me, filling me so hard and deep that a shriek tore from my throat.


Dean
. Oh my God…”

Riveted, I watched as he twisted his fingers into my panties, holding them off to the side so he could fuck me. It was a strange and intensely erotic feeling—his big cock pumping in and out of me as the panties tightened around my thigh and dug into the crevice of my bottom, stimulating me in all sorts of secret places.

Dean eased out of me and sat back, his chest heaving and glistening with sweat. He released the elastic band of my underwear, and it snapped back into place with a pleasurable little twinge. Our gazes met, hot and heavy. He made a circling gesture with his forefinger.

I turned, excitement rippling through me as he grabbed a pillow and positioned it under my hips. My breasts rubbed against the sheet, the cotton sensitizing my nipples to such heightened levels that I tingled all over. I felt Dean’s hands grip my hips and he pulled my ass up higher, his groan settling deep inside me.

“Christ, you have a fucking perfect ass,” he muttered, rubbing the cotton stretched tight over my bottom. “I want to see you move.”

I nodded, my breath scorching my lungs as Dean twisted his fingers into my panties again and pulled them away from my ass to expose my spread pussy. He pushed his cock into me with a slow, deep glide.

“Oh, God… Dean…”

“Yeah.” His grip tightened on my hips. “Move, baby. Work that gorgeous ass against me. Show me how badly you want it, how deep you can take it.”

I fisted the bed covers and pumped my hips backward, impaling myself over and over on his thick cock. My bottom bounced against his flat stomach with every thrust, and the elastic of my underwear dug with an erotically delicious pain into the creases of my thighs.

I wished I could see what Dean was seeing—his slick erection sliding in and out of my slit, my blue panties stretched tight over my bouncing rear, the push-and-pull of our bodies fucking in unison.

The sound of our grunts and panting drenched the air. I lowered my head, my hair sticking damply to my shoulders and back. Sweat trickled between my breasts. Fire licked my nerves, need building in every cell of my body.

“Dean.”

He pulled out of me, turning me onto my back again. His gaze raked over me, hot and intense. He braced his hands on either side of me and lowered his mouth to mine. His erection throbbed against my thigh. He slipped his fingers into my sex and began rubbing my clit.

“Dean, I’m going to come,” I gasped, putting my hands over my breasts. “I feel it… oh, yes…
oh!

He plunged his tongue into my mouth at the exact instant an orgasm tore through me, hot sensations sweeping over me so strongly that my whole body shook. I cried out, gripping his shoulders and arching up against him. Dean captured my lower lip between his teeth, massaging my clit until the blinding vibrations began to wane.

“Oh my God,” I gasped, sinking back against the pillows. “We need to have
welcome home
sex more often.”

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