Angel nodded. “If we spot a deadhead, we flag it.”
“Then what? Notify the Canadian equivalent of the Coast Guard?”
“Nope. Usually a log scavenger will pick up the flagged stuff. With the price of lumber so high, a log is worth several hundred dollars.”
“What if no one picks it up?” Hawk asked.
“Then the flag makes the deadhead easy to spot and avoid, even at twice this speed.”
“Be nice if all of life’s little trouble spots were so neatly posted,” said Hawk, his voice sardonic.
“The flags only work if you have the sense to heed them,” Angel said, her tone as sardonic as his.
Are you listening to your own advice?
she asked herself in silence.
There are flags sticking out all over Hawk, but I keep seeing past them to the man beneath, hunger and intelligence, heat and strength, all that made life valuable.
And danger. I see that too. Clearly.
Angel didn’t underestimate the danger inherent in Hawk. Nor did she fear it. She respected it.
Danger always existed, as much a part of life as love. To have the one you must accept the other. Grant Ramsey had taught Angel that . . . love and death.
The learning had nearly destroyed Angel. She didn’t know if she was strong enough to risk learning again.
She knew only that she was going to find out.
Angel directed Hawk toward a quiet stretch of water by touching his arm and pointing to the right. During the run up the
Inside Passage
, neither of them had attempted to talk over the unleashed thunder of diesels.
Smoothly, Hawk brought the boat into calm water in the lee of a gray headland. He put engines in neutral and waited, testing the amount of drift. There was very little.
With an easy motion, Hawk slid out from behind the helm. When he stood up, he was so close to Angel that she could smell the clean scent of his aftershave. His eyes were a clear, crystal brown with surprising flecks of gold. His mustache was as black as the center of his eyes.
Angel wondered what it would feel like to have that mustache against her skin. She wanted to know if it would be rough or soft or a tantalizing combination of the two.
Would his mustache be cool beneath my fingertips, or would it have the same heat that the rest of Hawk’s body has, a heat that touches me even though I’m not touching him?
The intensity of Angel’s silence and speculations froze her, overriding even the need to breathe. Then she saw Hawk’s pupils dilate suddenly as he became aware of her appraisal.
Angel retreated, looking away from the hard, sensual line of Hawk’s lips. She wanted to say something, anything, because she sensed that he was looking at her as completely as she had looked at him.
No words came to her.
With downcast eyes, Angel brushed past him and sat behind the helm of the powerful boat.
Hawk bent over her and the boat’s controls, knowing from her quickly indrawn breath that his presence disturbed her. He was careful not to touch her. He had seen her retreat as clearly as he had seen the consuming sensuality of her appraisal.
Though Hawk controlled his desire to stroke the rapid pulse beating visibly in Angel’s throat, he couldn’t deny the sudden coursing of blood through his veins, the adrenaline and heat as the chase began. None of what he felt showed in his voice or his body.
Like the prey, the predator was capable of measured retreat, knowing always that retreat was temporary.
“Have you ever handled anything as powerful as this?” asked Hawk, his voice low, almost intimate.
Angel kept her eyes on the gauges in front of her.
“No,” she said.
The word sounded ragged to her ears. She breathed deeply, evenly, calming the erratic race of her pulse.
“No,” Angel repeated. “
Derry
’s boat was about half this size and a quarter the power.”
“Was?”
“He sold it a few months ago.”
What Angel didn’t say was that it had been sold without her knowledge. Sold to pay off debts that had piled up in the last year of
Derry
’s undergraduate education.
Angel would have given him the money if she had known he needed it. At least, she would have tried. But
Derry
was determined not to take any more from her, even though she could think of nothing she would rather spend money on than his future.
“You didn’t approve,” Hawk said flatly.
“Of what?”
“
Derry
selling his boat.”
“It was his to sell.”
Angel’s voice was calm. She was in control again.
“But you loved taking it out on the water,” Hawk said.
Angel looked up, caught by the harsh current of emotion in Hawk’s voice.
“Yes,” she said.
“Lucky for you I came along,” Hawk said, straightening. “Otherwise you might have had to sell your pretty little . . . smile . . . to get a ride.”
“The people who take me out pay for more than a smile,” said Angel, deliberately giving Hawk an opening.
“I’ll bet.” Hawk’s voice was laced with contempt.
“You’ll lose.”
Angel watched his face impassively while the silence stretched.
“I’m a licensed fishing guide,” she said calmly.
Other than the rakish tilt of his left eyebrow, Hawk made no reply.
“As I told you once, Hawk, you don’t know a damn thing about me.”
“You’d be surprised, honey,” he said.
His voice was flat but for the slight, sardonic lilt that was as much a part of Hawk as his thick black hair. For an instant Angel wondered what woman had so embittered Hawk that he assumed all women were shallow and unfeeling.
But speculating about the woman or women in Hawk’s life splintered Angel’s calm into a thousand sharp pieces. She had no control over Hawk, his women, or the conclusions that he drew from his past and then applied to the present, to her.
All Angel could control was herself, her own reactions and conclusions.
Deliberately, as she had learned to do in the terrible months following Grant’s death, Angel created again in her mind a vision of the most beautiful thing she had ever seen. . . .
A single rose unfolding in the summer dawn. The petals were crimson, luminous, serene. The possibility of beauty that had endured through the cruel winter and uncertain spring was consummated in radiant silence.
A simple thing.
A single rose, victorious and serene.
Calmness spread visibly through Angel as the rose unfolded in her mind. Confidently she put her hands on the boat’s controls, her body and mind united in a sensitive appraisal of the unnamed boat.
Fascinated by the change that had swept over Angel, Hawk watched her every move with narrowed, measuring eyes. He sensed that she had retreated.
No, she hasn’t retreated,
Hawk realized after a moment.
She simply gathered herself into an inner place, a quiet place.
A place where I can’t touch her.
Angel slid the throttles up, increasing the revolutions on the twin diesels. She watched the gauges carefully. The engines were beautifully balanced, performing in exact synchronization with each other.
With a sound of approval, she decreased the revs, shifted the engines into gear, and began to put the boat through its paces under Hawk’s intense, and finally approving, scrutiny. The boat responded eagerly to her touch, the prow curving and recurving through green water, sending chaotic wakes slapping across the shifting surface of the sea.
Angel flipped on the sonar and watched the changing pattern as the boat roved up and down the strait. Hawk looked curiously at the plate-sized screen that looked like green TV.
“Ever used a fish finder before?” asked Angel.
“No.”
She pointed toward the lower part of the screen, then indicated the depth scale alongside.
“Right now,” Angel said, “the bottom is about twenty fathoms. There’s nothing between us and the bottom but—wait!”
Without looking away from the screen, Angel cut back on the throttles and turned the boat, retracing her path slowly.
“There,” she said, pointing to a bright, shifting series of lines that had appeared at about ten fathoms on the scale. “A school of fish. Herring, probably.”
“How can you tell?”
Angel shrugged slightly, a graceful movement that caught Hawk’s eye.
“Experience,” she said simply. “Herring are erratic yet dense. See how quickly the lines shift?”
Hawk watched the screen, but much of his attention was on the slender hands that had so quickly learned how to handle the powerboat. Whatever else Angel was, she had the confidence and coordination of a race driver.
“What do salmon look like on the screen?” asked Hawk in a quiet, deep voice.
He bent over as though to see the screen more clearly, but it was the woman that filled his senses. His nostrils flared as he smelled the delicate perfume he had come to associate with Angel, a blend of sunshine and wind and hidden flowers.
“Salmon look less well defined, unless you happen onto a good school.”
Angel closed her eyes for an instant, sensing the heat radiating from Hawk’s body. Her thoughts scattered. Grimly she recalled them.
“Salmon are rarely on the bottom,” she said. “If you see a school just above the bottom, you’ve found cod, not salmon.”
Why did he have to stand so close?
Angel asked silently.
I can’t take a breath without breathing him in.
She felt caged by Hawk’s heat, serenity burning away with each breath she took, bringing his male scent deeply into her body.
“Are you nearsighted?” Angel asked tightly.
“Nearsighted?” There was surprise in his voice.
“As in not able to see things unless you’re right on top of them,” Angel explained dryly.
Hawk glanced sideways. His face was only inches from hers. In the slanting morning light her eyes were as green as matched emeralds.
“Sorry,” he said. Then, “Am I crowding you?”
“No more than I’m crowding you,” Angel retorted.
“Good,” Hawk said huskily, “because I don’t feel a bit crowded.”
Angel turned the wheel suddenly and gunned the engines. The motion forced Hawk to step back in order to keep his balance. She took the boat closer to the cliffs looming on the east side of the passage.
Hawk watched the cliffs approach at an alarming speed. He glanced at the sonar. The bottom was thirty-three fathoms and getting deeper every moment. He measured the cliff with narrow eyes.
One hundred feet at least,
he estimated
. No. Closer to two hundred.
Huge evergreens clung to cracks in the cliff’s face, but the trees looked no bigger than weeds against the immense expanse of rock.
With a sideways glance, Angel measured Hawk’s response to the cliff. To someone unaccustomed to the
Inside Passage
, it would seem like insanity to approach the shore at such speed because of the danger of running aground.
But Angel knew the land and the sea.
“Geologists call this land the drowned coast,” Angel said, automatically pitching her voice to carry above the sound of the engines.
“As in drowned people?” Hawk suggested sardonically.
“Nope. During the last ice age the sea level was several hundred feet lower. Then all the ice melted, flooding the land. That cliff ahead of us goes straight down about three hundred feet below the sea. There’s no way to run aground here unless I ram the cliff itself.”
“Like
Norway
,” Hawk said, understanding. He looked at the land with new eyes.
“That’s what one of my fishing clients said,” Angel agreed. “He was born in
Norway
. Said that all these fjords made him homesick. It was the first time I’d realized that a fjord is nothing but a valley drowned in salt water.”
Amused, Hawk glanced sideways at Angel.
She didn’t notice. She was easing back on the throttles and turning the boat so that they paralleled the cliff face at a distance of about twenty feet. Then she put the engines in neutral and left them idling while she estimated the amount of drift that would be caused by wind and currents.
The boat moved slowly away from the cliff.
“How much do you trust these engines?” Angel asked matter-of-factly.
“To do what?”
“Start the first time.”
“I wouldn’t bet my life on it. But then, I don’t bet my life on anything anymore.” Hawk shrugged. “They’ll start ninety-nine times out of a hundred.”
“Good enough. I wouldn’t mind a little silence.”
Angel cut the engines, then restarted them. They caught immediately. She turned them off again, giving the boat to the subtle movements of wind and water.