a period of less than five years, his plans shifted from mechanical engineer, to career marine officer, to architectural engineer, to real estate agent, and finally to lawyer (with an engineering degree). In an eighteen-month period from 196465 he held six different jobsall menial and inconsequential. His best friend believed he wanted to be a lawyer with an engineering degreenot for any love of the law or engineering, but for money. Additionally, he had once confided to a friend that he would return to Lake Worth to work for his father. As an avocation, music seemed to give him respite, but he mostly repressed urges to play and often refused the requests of his closest friends to do so. On yet another occasion of extreme despair, he had decided to become a bum. Charles Whitman had what career counselors call a "flat" interest profile: he could do many different things, but loved nothing. As a result, from a career standpoint, he knew a little about and was fairly good at many things, but he excelled at nothing. (Except, of course, guns.)
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Whitman's indecision had not been limited to career options. The frequency with which he wrote the word "definitely" in his diary is striking. For instance, he had once written, "I am definitely going to learn more about electronics," but of course, he never did. There had been nothing definite in Charles Whitman's life. Consequently, there had been few accomplishments. 6
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The only person that Charles Whitman ever truly loved was Kathy and, without question, she loved him. Her attempts to get him to help himself had been limited to her gentle pleas to see a psychiatrist. Other than a single reference in his diary to her having been angry at him for gambling, getting himself court-martialed, and locked up in the brig at Camp Lejeune, there are no references or other documented occasions of her having been assertive with him. On the contrary, he wrote pages of gushing prose about how perfect she was in every respect. In neat penmanship he groped for superlatives to detail her physique and how she had satisfied him. 7 He clearly worshiped her, but his love for her had been immature as well. He sought to dominate her and in many ways he had succeeded, even recording in his notebook how he had "taught" her to satisfy him.
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Kathy Whitman, as Charles wrote on the note he left on her dead body, had been as good a wife as any man could hope for,
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