Authors: Joseph M Labaki
Anxiously staring through the window, I was gripped by a cold, icy feeling of disappointment. All we could see was a high, crumbling wall made with soil and sand, but full of holes.
This looks like a besieged town
, I thought.
The full horror of the scene caught me when I looked to my left â a high shrine surrounded by a massive graveyard in the middle of a hill. The shrine door was painted green, yet there was nothing peaceful about it, and it opened onto Bab Ftouh.
Was this some ancient ritualistic design or pure coincidence?
I wondered. Women lumbered from Bab Ftouh and went straight up to the shrine, while others descended from it and disappeared through the gate into a black hole â like ants, but there was no sense of rush or urgency.
Shrines and graveyards I had seen before, but I had never seen men, women and children wandering through them. Some were sitting on the gravestones and using them as tables for their picnics! From an early age, I was taught that a cemetery was a silent city of souls. Every person carried a seed of immortality under his armpit, and his seed was indestructible. Although it was detached from the body that was buried under the ground, the living seed preserved all its prime characteristics: life, feeling and memories. The seed would bloom at some point. It would begin like a mushroom in the form of a human being, but footless, armless and neckless with the head looking up to the sky. That was how resurrection had been explained to me and I believed it implicitly.
Disappearing behind the gate of Bab Ftouh and inside the old town, the medina, I didn't know what would happen next; certainly nothing was as expected, and the streets were not paved with marble. No palm trees lined the way, nor in fact were there any trees to hide the billowing dust. The coach squirmed through a narrow winding street, and the driver had to fight peddlers for every inch.
The road ended a few hundred metres away from the gate and in front of a dilapidated garage, which was small and narrow, but deep like a vault. Parked in front of the garage, the driver stood up and shouted, âGet off! Bab Ftouh travellers!'
I stood quickly and glanced at the French woman, waved goodbye and wished I could speak French. She nodded with a gentle smile.
In the chaos, luggage had been lost or mixed up. âMy luggage is at the back!' yelled an angry traveller to the porter on the roof. âOpen your eyes! My bag is right beside you!' shrieked another. âMine isn't that colour!' screamed a woman. âI know you have no brain!'
The porter became confused amidst the shouts and personal insults. We secured our luggage and turned to Kamil, a returning student, as our guru. Older and more experienced, he had been to the medina before, but seemed to be struck by amnesia and remembered nothing of his previous life here.
âKamil,' I said, âwe need a roof over our heads.'
âYes,' agreed Samir.
â
Funduqs
are the places to find a cheap room,' instructed Kamil.
âDo you know of any
funduqs
nearby?' I asked a porter passing by on his mule.
âYes,' he said. With the possible exception of Kamil, we didn't know what
funduqs
looked like or even exactly what they were, only that they had cheap rooms for hire. âGood
funduqs
are in the new French town,' the porter said. âYou will need to take a taxi there. They are expensive, though. They are for the Americans, the owners of the dollar! Most
funduqs
in Medina are no more than brothels.'
âWe are not Americans,' I said, âbut we don't want to stay in a brothel either! What else do you suggest?'
âThere isn't much left, son,' he said sympathetically. âAh,' he muttered to himself. âI know of one or two places,' he said. âThough they are far away, they are worth a try. But, there is one close by we should try first.'
I cheered with relief at our close escape from a brothel. I didn't, however, trust the porter straight away. âHow much do you charge?' I asked.
âCharge is according to the distance! Can't you see who I am?' he said wearily, looking at me. âI am a black
Saharaui
. I charge the right price and people pay me for it. I wouldn't have done this job for forty years otherwise! This is my fifth mule. They all perished from hard work and overload. If this present mule dies, I will stop, but maybe I will die first! I am old and frail. If I'm first, my mule will be orphaned, left to starve.' He gently pulled the reins of his mule and loaded our luggage. â
Zid! Zid!
(Move on! Move on!)' The mule cocked its ear, head down and refused to move. Familiar with the pain, it scurried when it saw the whip twirling in the air.
Overwhelmed by the porter, we followed blindly. Despite the narrow, crowded street, he moved fast, very fast. The mule stumbled several times, but never fell. We scurried behind him like mad. At the corner of a dark, twisted tunnel, Moussa collided with a veiled woman who was waddling behind her husband. She stumbled and yelled.
âBarbarians should be kept out of Fez!' shouted her husband. Twice the size of Moussa, he lost his temper, lurched on him, grabbed and tore his shirt, then pushed him against the wall. Moussa gathered himself and punched the man straight on the nose. To everyone's horror, the man's nose became a fountain of blood. At the speed of light, Moussa lunged at him again, pushed him to the ground and trampled over him. The event and the speed at which it had happened terrified me. Words had ended in blood. Nobody butted in to help.
The wife shouted, âScum! Thugs!'
Kamil and I pulled Moussa off the man and sprinted to catch up with the porter, who had been waiting for the fight to finish.
God forbid I ever fight Moussa
, I thought to myself
.
The porter took us to the nearest
funduq
. It was built in the middle of a poor, narrow, dark, busy street. A man emerged, his face a patchwork of varying pigmentation, with beady eyes staring out of the incongruous whole. He looked surprised, twitched and glanced at me, but looked disturbed by the sight of Moussa. Apprehensively, I peered inside the building. A clothesline dangled in front of each room. A few seconds later, two women emerged from the back and moved to the front door. Both of them were wearing short nightgowns, half-naked. I realised we had been taken to the wrong place and urged the porter to try somewhere else.
âAre you prepared to go farther away from here?' he asked.
âYes,' I responded.
He took us straightaway to the other side gate of the town, Bab Guissa. Confused, we followed him down a dark alleyway. âHere we are. This is another
funduq
,' he said.
Two men emerged, the owner and the caretaker. The snooty owner was unmistakeably a city dweller; he had light skin and was wearing traditional Fezzi clothes: the Fez hat with swishing tassel and yellow, clomping mules. His assistant was an Arab, a country man, rough like a cob, short, wide, and wrapped in a very heavy woollen
jellabah
.
We were raw enough to take anything, and the owner was desperate for cash. The
funduq
was a dilapidated complex. On the ground floor, it stabled between five and seven horses. Big piles of raw sheepskins covered practically two-thirds of the courtyard. A steaming stench, worse than a frog's puff, circulated through the air. There were two men sweating and toiling over the hot tanning vats. A blind woman and a crippled boy were busily involved in pulling the wool. There was a tiny toilet with a teeny hole in the middle, but no door. To keep people away, one had to make noises, whistle or sing. The
funduq
had a few rooms on the first floor. Some were rented to artisans, some to shoemakers, and the rest were for cursed tenants like us. Desperate, we hired the room.
âFollow me!' said the caretaker with a loud, booming voice. âHere is the key.' He stomped down the stairs.
I opened the door tentatively, but Samir dived straight in; he jumped about and shouted, âLook! Look!' Cockroaches were jumping and crawling everywhere. Samir grimaced and shook his head, indicating that he didn't want the room, and in actual fact neither did I. Looking at Samir, Moussa murmured, âWell, what did you expect?'
What Samir had seen was just the tip of a filthy iceberg. I switched the light on, and the room immediately turned into a blaze of fire, the dancing flames made of what seemed to be thousands of copper-coloured cockroaches jumping about in the rubbish, which filled the room. Samir, in shock, kept moaning softly to himself. We deliberated leaving but it was getting late. It was either a filthy room or a night on the street, and however unpleasant the cockroaches were, we thought we would be a lot safer here than on the street where we had seen gangs roaming this part of town after dark.
I whispered to Samir in the hope of calming him, âLet's stay tonight and look for other places tomorrow. We can tidy and clean up the room.'
The room had been used as a dumping ground: hard boards, hundreds of sheets of paper of all kinds, odd pieces of leather and the remainder of a long-since eaten watermelon all littered the floor. As a team, we worked hard, throwing everything out, sparing nothing. The change in the room was unbelievable; the bare rectangle suddenly looked spacious, if still not clean, as we had no brushes, brooms, water or soap, let alone disinfectant.
Like refugees, each one of us occupied a corner of the now-barren room. Despite the conditions, we were pleased to be in Fez, and even happier not to be in the street. It was dark, and we were ravenously hungry. I ventured outside alone to buy two loaves of white bread and a handful of olives, dumped in salt and smelly garlic. I hurried back to the room with the shopping in my hands, but I found the bread had little taste and was not at all filling.
This was too much for Samir. He wept and ranted. I buried my face in an old manuscript on Arabic grammar and pretended to read.
Seconds later, we heard a thump on the door, and the caretaker's voice boomed out, âSwitch off the light! Switch off the light!'
âNo!' I shouted, but nobody supported me.
Dawn burst with the cobblers' hammering. In a tiny room with no window adjacent to ours, several cobblers, sitting side by side, rubbing shoulders, shook the walls with hammers in their hands and anvils on the floor. It sounded like machine-gun fire. I got up, went out, and peered through their door.
Not happy with my staring, one spat and said, âPush off!'
One of them shouted, âHe's our neighbour! Four of them!'
The first man retorted, âTrash!'
Their hammering, however, was nothing in comparison to their gigantic radio â very tall, one metre long and volume turned up to its max. The shoemakers were tireless workers and never had a complete day off. After work at the end of the day, they rushed to the auction market to sell their mules, but often came back with them, many scorned, unsold.
Alternative accommodation proved to be impossible. Three weeks passed, and we had found neither a better
funduq
nor discovered how to register at the school, much less take the entrance exams. Those were still looming.
Disorientated in this town with which I had nothing in common, I went out to find the headquarters of the Scientific Assembly of the school, whose Board was composed exclusively of those who, after years of study, had obtained their degrees from Kairaouine University. They were arrogant, dismissive and politically dangerous, but also masters of their subjects. They also played an important part in Moroccan culture, its judiciary system and its political history. As academics, they were ruthless. I could expect no charity from these people, but had to prove I was worthy of being given a chance.
The office was on an unassuming corner of a noisy street, facing an open square filled with an army of silversmiths working their trade, feverishly hammering, looking demented, arms flying, engraving tea pots and trays. The noise permeated the surrounding area like an out-of-tune orchestra. While some artisans were working silver, others were dipping wool into large vats of dyes of different hues, then hanging the yarns over cords strung from tree to tree. Watching the artisans made me feel like a confident tourist rather than the lost boy I was.
Clusters of people were coming in and out of a narrow wooden door ornate with black metalwork. Pushing the door open, I was surprised by what I found. What I had seen from the street gave no indication of the secret jewels hidden there; the Scientific Assembly was a mini-palace hidden out of sight of the world beyond. Beautiful ceramic tiles glistening like a copper-red carpet stretched out before me.
âWalking barefoot on the tiles would have been preferable to having them spoiled and demeaned by my scruffy shoes,' I told Samir and Moussa later.
The walls were covered in complex mosaics that spiralled like coordinated rainbows up to the grand ceiling twenty feet above. The huge doors leading off the room were covered in leather and brass. Mosaic sinks were built into the wall and jutted out in each corridor like mini-fountains, each of which had two streams of water; one ran constantly and the other was controlled by a tap. For me, used to travelling many miles to a half-dry well for water, the sight of so many continually running streams was nothing short of miraculous.
I waited nervously to register and find out when I could sit my entrance exams. By midday, it became clear there were unfortunately no staff except the caretaker on site, neither professors nor secretaries, and only empty corridors stretching endlessly into the distance. I was not the only boy left waiting; hundreds of boys of all ages gathered in the hall day after day to register, but the assembly remained a lifeless shell. I went back to our room, optimistic that I would be able to register the next day. The following day, however, turned out to be no different from the one before.
I settled into a boring routine. Each morning, deafened by the hammering cobblers, nostrils choked by the invasion of dust sweeping in from newly fluffed wool and the overwhelming smell of tannic acid from the tanners below, I gratefully left our little room and journeyed to the Scientific Assembly, a daily pilgrimage that I made from September to mid-October. Alas, the assembly hall was always empty. During this time our diet was very poor, just white bread and tea with sugar. We all suffered, for about ten days on average, from bleeding constipation.