A Million Miles Away

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Copyright

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Lines from “And The Wind Sings Boo” from
The Wish Book
by Alex Lemon (Minneapolis: Milkweed Editions, 2014). Copyright © 2014 by Alex Lemon. Reprinted with permission from Milkweed Editions. www.milkweed.org

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Contents

1. Cover
   
2. Disclaimer
   
3. Title Page
   
4. Copyright
   
5. Dedication
   
6. Epigraph
   
7. Chapter One
   
8. Chapter Two
   
9. Chapter Three
   
10. Chapter Four
    
11. Chapter Five
    
12. Chapter Six
    
13. Chapter Seven
    
14. Chapter Eight
    
15. Chapter Nine
    
16. Chapter Ten
    
17. Chapter Eleven
    
18. Chapter Twelve
    
19. Chapter Thirteen
    
20. Chapter Fourteen
    
21. Chapter Fifteen
    
22. Chapter Sixteen
    
23. Chapter Seventeen
    
24. Chapter Eighteen
    
25. Chapter Nineteen
    
26. Chapter Twenty
    
27. Chapter Twenty-One
    
28. Chapter Twenty-Two
    
29. Chapter Twenty-Three
    
30. Chapter Twenty-Four
    
31. Chapter Twenty-Five
    
32. Chapter Twenty-Six
    
33. Chapter Twenty-Seven
    
34. Chapter Twenty-Eight
    
35. Chapter Twenty-Nine
    
36. Chapter Thirty
    
37. Chapter Thirty-One
    
38. Chapter Thirty-Two
    
39. Chapter Thirty-Three
    
40. Chapter Thirty-Four
    
41. Chapter Thirty-Five
    
42. Chapter Thirty-Six
    
43. Chapter Thirty-Seven
    
44. Chapter Thirty-Eight
    
45. Chapter Thirty-Nine
    
46. Acknowledgments
    

To my brother, Dylan

You know you’re in

The choicest of spots,

When, staring out the window,

You feel a gaping void wheeze

Inside you. Bang, bang, bang,

Flounders a bluebird against

The plate glass. Slap, slap,

Thump, drops the sad truth

Through your bones. So there

It all is.

—Alex Lemon, from “And the Wing Sings Boo,”
The Wish Book
(Milkweed Editions 2014)

CHAPTER ONE

“Cops?”

“Where are my shoes?”

“Turn the Beyoncé back up.”

Just a few blocks from Massachusetts Street, under the branches of century-old oaks, across a yard full of dozing sunflowers, silence fell over a peach-colored house with a wide porch. This was the Maxfield house. It had been the Maxfield house ever since Rob and Melody Maxfield returned from their honeymoon thirty odd years ago, and filled the rooms with two daughters.

It was Friday night, and their Subaru was absent from the redbrick driveway. Inside, a hush had fallen over the room, punctuated by the static of girls laughing behind the shoulders of their friends, while plastic cups of Bud Light were emptied and tossed aside.

Kelsey Maxfield moved through the crowd, holding the sweaty hand of a younger girl not so different from herself when she was that age—no hips, no boobs, body-glittered and hair-sprayed. Kelsey had been the one to turn down the music, and with a reassuring glance back at the nervous girl, who was still wearing her Lycra dance team uniform, she cleared a space around a silver beer keg resting in a bucket of ice.

“Y’all,” Kelsey yelled. She gave them a Crest-commercial smile.

Kelsey’s husky voice carried through the house. Her dark eyes changed color in the light from the kitchen. Her hair—not quite blonde, not quite brown—was pulled into a high, tight bun, left over from their halftime performance at the final football game of the season. The younger girl beside her adopted Kelsey’s hand-on-hip pose, following her captain’s lead.

“Hannah T. here has a proposition.”

A few catcalls from the male voices.

“Shut up,” Kelsey said, flipping the bird with a blood-orange nail. “As I was saying, Hannah thinks she can break my keg-stand record. Twenty-four seconds. You know it’s twenty-four, right, Hannah T.?”

Hannah whooped, and a chant began, building volume.

“Hannah, Hannah, Hannah…”

Hannah gripped either side of the keg, while Gillian and Ingrid took her legs.

“You ready, Hannah?”

“Ready,” Hannah’s small voice called.

“Go!”

Kelsey could picture the beer, flowing steady from the keg into the spout, into Hannah’s mouth, into her stomach, probably full of lasagna and Gatorade from the pregame dinner.

“Three… four… five…” the onlookers chanted.

Funny, Kelsey had always been the one to do the first keg stand. She felt kind of nostalgic. They used to count for her.

But she was a senior now. She was cocaptain of the dance team. She had to be responsible, or, you know, as responsible as possible. She had put the jade Buddha statues from the living room under her bed, pulled down the wooden Venetian blinds, and then called her mom and dad to make sure they wouldn’t be coming home early after another pointless argument with their friends over sauvignon pairings. (All had seemed well, or well enough, on the only vineyard in Central Kansas. They wouldn’t be home until tomorrow afternoon.)

Kelsey had also promised her sister she would lock her bedroom door. Michelle didn’t want anyone spilling beer on her paintings.
But wouldn’t that give them more character?
Kelsey always joked. Michelle didn’t find it funny.

“Ten… eleven… twelve…”

Oh, shit. She’d forgotten to lock Michelle’s door.

“Thirteen… fourteen… fifteen…”

Hannah was really getting up there. Close to Kelsey’s record. Too close. Kelsey looked at Hannah’s concentrated, upside-down face. “You had enough, Hannah T.?”

Hannah responded by continuing to swallow beer.

Kelsey knew how to deal with Michelle. She imagined her sister’s fist forming when she saw her sticky stereo equipment. They were a couple of punchers, the two of them. What did their parents expect, making twins share a room most of their lives? No head shots, no kidney shots, but the rest was fair game. The fights usually ended in split lips.
It’s how they show affection
, their parents had told suspicious teachers when they were younger. It’s healthy.

“Eighteen… nineteen… twenty…” Shoulder to shoulder, red-faced partygoers crowded the keg, getting louder.

Kelsey forced herself to chant with them. She started to plan her concession speech. And so the time has come. I must pass the keg-stand mantle.…

But right at twenty-three seconds, the younger girl lifted a finger, the universal Lawrence High keg-stand symbol for defeat. Guiding Hannah’s skinny legs back down to the floor, Kelsey allowed herself a celebratory swig and a couple of fist pumps.

“Don’t worry, Hannah,” Kelsey’s cocaptain, Gillian, said. “Kel’s keg-stand record is higher than her ACT score.”