Authors: Linda Castillo
The light flicks on. I glance over to see Tomasetti rise and reach for his clothes. “Where are we going?” he asks.
I tell him about Chloe going missing.
“That’s the girl you believe is the mother of Baby Doe?”
I nod. “I saw her earlier and she was scared, wouldn’t admit to anything. I didn’t push because I was hoping she’d come in on her own.” I finish buttoning my shirt, yank my jacket off a hanger. “Her father thinks she might be a danger to herself.”
Muttering a curse, he reaches for his coat. “Let’s go.”
The night is moonless and windy. The trees shake their fists at me as I fly down a backstreet toward Main. Leaves scramble across the road in the beam of my headlights as I speed toward the Maple Crest subdivision. Two minutes later, I pull in to Atherton’s driveway and park behind his Land Rover. The porch light is on. The front door stands open, yellow light pouring out. Atherton is standing in the entryway, dressed, his smartphone pressed against his ear.
Tomasetti and I disembark simultaneously and jog to the house. “Any sign of her?” I ask when we reach him.
The doctor’s hair is mussed. His shirt is untucked on one side. His hands shake when he drops the phone into his jacket pocket. “I searched the house twice. Her car is gone. Phone is gone. She’s not answering.”
“You had an argument?” I ask.
He sighs, nods. “I’m not sure what’s going on with her. We were talking about Phoenix. She got upset. Started to cry. Things escalated, so I sent her to her room to cool off.” He shrugs. “When I went to check on her later, she was gone.”
“How long ago?” Tomasetti asks.
“Twenty minutes.”
“Any idea where she is?” I ask. “Best friend’s house? Boyfriend’s place, maybe?”
“I don’t know.” He chokes out the words, his face crumbling. “I should know, but I don’t. What the hell kind of dad doesn’t know who his kid’s friends are?”
I touch his arm, not only to reassure, but to keep him focused. “What kind of vehicle does she drive?”
“A 2016 Mustang GT. Red. I bought it for her for her sixteenth birthday.”
I hit my lapel mike and put out a BOLO for Chloe and her car, with the added code for missing endangered. Then I turn my attention to Atherton. “You stated to the dispatcher that you believe Chloe may be a danger to herself?”
He stares at me, eyes wide and blinking, but his thoughts seem to turn inward. “She’s been … depressed recently. ained a lot of weight since her mom passed away. A couple weeks ago she actually said, ‘I wish I was dead.’” He rubs a hand over his face. “I thought she was just acting out. You know, the pressure related to the move to Phoenix. School. Grades. The usual stuff teenagers face. And I know she’s been missing her mom.”
“Her mother passed away?” Tomasetti asks.
“A year ago,” he says. “Breast cancer.” He looks down, then back at me. “I’ve been so tied up with work. So … damn blind. I should have seen this coming. I should have—” He bites off the word as if he doesn’t know how to finish.
“We’ve got a BOLO out for her. Agent Tomasetti and I are going to get out there, too, and look for her.” I pause. “Dr. Atherton, this may or may not be related, but it may help us find her and maybe fill in some of the blanks as far as her recent behavior, so I’m just going to lay it out for you. I’m not certain, but I have reason to believe Chloe may be the woman who abandoned Baby Doe.”
“
Wh—what?
” He chokes out a sound that’s part laugh, part sob. “But … that’s not possible. She hasn’t been dating regularly. How could she…? She doesn’t even have a boyfriend. For God’s sake—”
“Has she been wearing baggy clothes recently?” Tomasetti asks. “Oversize shirts?Anything like that?”
For an instant, I think Atherton is going to argue the point. At the same time, I see his mind working, a terrible realization entering his eyes. “My God, the weight gain. I didn’t…” He blinks as if waking from a nightmare. “She picked out an alpaca poncho when we were in Santa Fe a few months ago. Wears it all the time…”
“You’re not the first parent this has happened to,” I tell him.
“I’m a doctor. A pediatrician, for God’s sake. How could I not see it? Why didn’t she talk to me? How could I—”
“The most important thing right now is that we find her and make sure she’s safe,” I tell him. “We can deal with the rest later.”
He raises his hands, sets his fingers against his temples, and presses hard, misery etched into his every feature. “If you’re right about the baby, maybe she’s with the child’s father.”
The question pings in my brain.
Maybe she’s with the child’s father.
And suddenly I have an idea where to look first.
I glance at Tomasetti. “The Amish cemetery.”
The doctor’s eyes snap to mine. “Wait. The Amish boy? Noah Fisher? I knew they were friends, but … she never let on that they were … Oh, Dear God. No wonder she was so upset when he was killed. First her mom and then the boy … She must have been in so much pain. I was so busy with work I didn’t notice any of it.”
Tomasetti is already striding toward the door. “Let’s go.”
“I’ll go with you,” Atherton cries, following.
I reach the porch, glance over my shoulder at him, and raise my hand to stop him. “I need you to stay here, Mr. Atherton, in case she comes back or calls.”
“But she needs me.” He stops, but he doesn’t look convinced.
“If she’s there, we’ll bring her home.” I reach the Explorer, look at him over the hood. “I’ll call you the instant we lay eyes on her. In the interim, try to stay calm and keep trying her cell.”
“All right.” He’s already got his smartphone to his ear.
Giving him a reassuring nod, I get in the Explorer, crank the engine, and back onto the street.
Tomasetti punches numbers into his phone. “I’m going to call EMS.”
“Tell them to meet us at the Amish cemetery. No lights or siren. I don’t want to scare her. Tell them we need the hospital on standby.”
I push the speedometer to seventy when I hit the outskirts of Painters Mill proper. The engine groans beneath the hood, the tires humming against the asphalt. I’m not sure what we’ll find when we arrive; I’m not certain Chloe will even
be
there. But it’s the only place I can think of where she might go to seek comfort. The place where her lover—the father of the child she abandoned—was laid to rest.
The
Graabhof
is located on the township road west of town. A gnarled bois d’arc tree stands guard next to the gate, a brave sentry scarred by hundreds of harsh seasons. The gate, which is usually closed, stands open. Beyond, a sea of plain headstones form neat rows before fading into the darkness like white-capped waves. It’s a pretty place during the day, a peaceful and quiet sanctuary to reflect and pay homage to the dead. Tonight, the darkness is forbidding, the silence unbearably lonely.
Tomasetti points. “There’s her Mustang.”
Sure enough, parked in the shadows beneath the tree is a red Mustang. Neither of us speaks as I park in the gravel driveway, blocking in her vehicle, and shut down the engine. Reaching into the pocket next to my seat, I hand Tomasetti an extra Maglite and we exit the Explorer. The night closes over us like a black hand slamming down. The wind grabs at my jacket as we pass through the gate. I can hear the chain latch clanging with every gust. Our Maglites flip on simultaneously, twin beams illuminating hundreds of small white headstones that run in neat lines, parallel with the fence. In the darkness, they look like ghosts, restless souls rising from the earth.
This isn’t the first time I’ve been here. My parents are buried just a few yards away, and I’ve attended several funerals over the years. I’m familiar with the general layout and use my Maglite to scan the south side where any new graves would most likely be located. I nearly miss the mound of freshly turned earth fifty yards away. A small heap on the ground next to the headstone.
“There,” I whisper.
We break into a run, both beams focused on the small form huddled next to the headstone. A sick feeling augments in my gut when she doesn’t move.
“Chloe!” I call out. “It’s Kate Burkholder! Are you all right?”
“Doesn’t look good.” Tomasetti mutters the words beneath his breath.
I’m a few feet away when she raises her head. I see the pale oval of her face. The shimmer of tears on her cheeks. She’s lying on her side with her arms wrapped around the headstone, as if trying to keep it from sinking into the earth.
I reach her first, drop to my knees at her side. “Sweetheart, are you all right?”
When she raises her head and looks at me, her eyes are glazed and far away. “Noah…” she whispers. “He was here. Just a moment ago. I saw him.” She looks around. “Noah…”
Tomasetti kneels beside her. “Chloe, honey, did you take any medication or pills?”
She looks away. “It doesn’t matter. I just want to be with them. Noah and my mom.”
Locating her handbag, he upends it on the grass. A wallet, makeup bag, hairbrush and, finally, a brown prescription bottle spill out. He snatches up the bottle, shakes it. “Empty.”
I grab my lapel mike, put out the emergency call for the ambulance. “Ten fifty-two. Ten eighteen. Expedite.”
“Noah wanted to marry me,” Chloe slurs. “But I said no and he died before I could tell him I’d changed my mind. Why did that have to happen?” she asks. “He never knew.”
“It’s going to be okay,” I tell her. “Everything’s going to be okay. I promise.”
Chloe begins to cry. “Tell my dad I love him.… He worries all the time.…”
Grimacing, Tomasetti looks at me over the top of her head. “Let’s get her to where the Explorer is parked. Speed things up.” Even as he says the words, he lifts the girl into his arms, carrying her as if she weighs nothing.
We’re midway to the gate when I see the ambulance pull in behind my Explorer. “Hurry,” I say and we break into a run.
* * *
Three days later:
It’s the end of my shift and I’m thinking about heading to the farm, where Tomasetti is about to grill T-bone steaks and break the seal on a bottle of Cabernet. Not for the first time in the last few days, I’m reminded of how blessed I am to be loved by a good man and how lucky I am to know that we have a bright future to look forward to.
I’ve been thinking of Chloe Atherton on and off since Tomasetti and I found her at the Amish cemetery. She’d ingested all of her mother’s painkillers. Luckily, there had been only five pills left. Her condition had been dicey for a few hours, but she pulled through. Her father didn’t let her out of his sight the entirety of the two days she was in the hospital. There’s no doubt in my mind his love for her is strong enough to get them through the challenges they face in the coming weeks and months.
On the outskirts of Painters Mill, instead of turning north toward the farm, which is located just outside Wooster, I make a detour and head east toward Charm. Ten minutes later I turn into the long lane of the Fisher farm, park adjacent to the barn, and take the sidewalk to the house.
Miriam Fisher answers a moment later and greets me in Pennsylvania Dutch.
“Guder ovet.”
Good evening.
The aroma of frying bologna wafts through the open door and, for an instant, I’m transported back to my childhood, where fried bologna sandwiches were not only a staple, but a treat. “I hope I’m not disturbing your
ovet-essa,
” I tell her. Your evening meal.
“I’m still frying and Willis is washing up, so I have a few minutes.” Eyeing me guardedly, she opens the door wider.
“Witt du wennich eppes zu ess?”
Would you like something to eat?
I smile. “I’m tempted, but no thank you.”
“Come in.”
I follow her to the kitchen, stopping just inside the doorway while she goes to the stove and turns bologna sizzling in a copper skillet. “What brings you to our home this evening, Kate Burkholder?”
I tell her about Chloe Atherton without revealing the girl’s identity or mentioning the incident with the pills. “Your son loved her, Miriam. He’d asked her to marry him. She was going to say yes, but she never got the chance.”
She sets her hand against her stomach as if in pain. “Such a tragic, sad thing.”
“She was devastated when Noah died, and terrified of raising the baby on her own.”
She clucks her tongue. “Poor child. Can’t blame her for being afraid, I guess.”
“She’s going to officially relinquish her parental rights so Baby Doe can be adopted.”
Miriam goes back to her skillet, pushing the bologna around with a wooden spoon, but I can tell her attention is focused on me.
“Miriam, you understand that Noah is the father,” I tell her.
The spoon stops. Without looking at me, she turns off the burner, sets down the spoon, and leans heavily against the stove. “I know.
Mein Gott
.” My God. “I know.”
“I spoke to the social worker a couple of hours ago. She’s still trying to find a permanent adoptive home for the baby. Since you and Willis are the child’s biological grandparents…” I’m not sure how to finish the sentence, so I let the words dangle.
Finally, she turns to me, her mouth open and quivering. Tears shimmer in her eyes, but she doesn’t let them fall. “I’d like to meet this girl. The mother.”
“I can’t reveal her identity. She’s a minor, so a meeting between you will be up to her and her father. But I’ll let them know.”
She nods, but I see her mind working through all the possibilities. “There is a chance Willis and I could adopt and raise Noah’s daughter? Is that what you’re telling me, Kate Burkholder?”
I nod. “It’ll probably have to go through the court system,” I tell her. “But I thought you’d want to know it’s an option.”
She glances past me; her eyes widen slightly. I glance over my shoulder to see Willis standing in the kitchen doorway a few feet away. Neither of us heard him approach. But I can tell by the look in his eyes he heard every word.
Without speaking, without making eye contact with me or his wife, he brushes past us and walks into the kitchen. For an instant, I think he’s going to keep going and walk right past us, through the mudroom and back outside. Instead, he stops at the table, sets his palms against it, leans heavily, and lowers his head.