She reddens now, the contrast deepened by the pale before. “I do not know what you mean.”
“I think you do, Miss Clairmont. The papers I just referred to are not all I have since discovered. Byron’s was not your only child. By then you had already borne another. To Shelley.”
“I bore him no child.” Her voice is small, desolate.
“Please, Miss Clairmont—it is of no use to lie to me! It is not only the papers for 1816 that I have read. I have talked to Fraser—heard his account of how you and my uncle first met. I know why they sent you to Lynmouth—I know it was that the birth might be concealed—”
“But do you know what happened
before
I took that long journey alone? When as little more than a child myself I was cast out from all I loved into such a lonely and miserable place?”
Charles flushes. “I know that she—that there was an accident—”
“It was no
accident
! She laid violent hands upon me—lashing out at me in a frenzy of vicious hatred. I have never seen such enmity in another being’s eyes as I saw that day in hers. Mary wished to be rid of me—and rid of my baby. I remember, even now, sitting alone upon that desolate sea-shore, without a friend to comfort me in my loss, and being sure of nothing but that my life was more than I could bear.”
She is silent, so beset by the past that she is struggling for self-control.
“The child did not live,” says Charles eventually.
“I had scarce been there three months when I was brought to bed. The injury—the fall I had taken—the doctor said—”
She stops and raises her hand for a moment to her eyes, then forces herself to go on. “My baby was—damaged. They would not even let me see it. When I wrote to Shelley to tell him he contrived to come to see me, but aside from that one visit I was alone. Alone, and utterly miserable. And when at last I did return, wretched and exhausted, I stepped down from the coach to see them both awaiting me. He haggard, but
she
exultant as her eyes met mine and she moved her hand to rest on her swollen belly. He had not found the words to tell me, but
she
needed not language to convey her message:
I
had lost his child;
Mary
would now give him the son he longed for, the son he doted upon from the day he was born.”
Charles looks away, unable to hold her gaze. How different her life might have been, he wonders, had Shelley known that precious baby might not have been his own. But the truth, told now, will change her nothing, and only render the past more poisonous with lost possibilities.
“The first moment I saw Shelley take William in his arms and his face light up with love of that little boy, I knew she had triumphed. Why else do you think I hurled myself so desperately at Byron that spring, if it were not to secure a life of my own, a
lover
of my own? It was a mistake so disastrous it has ruined all the years that have succeeded it, and I have never once spoken of what drove me to it. But I will do so now. My long silence has availed me nothing, and served only to afford
her
a protection she has done nothing to deserve. And so,” she says defiantly, “I will break that silence. I will tell the truth.”
Charles frowns. “The whole truth? You will speak without reserve of all that happened between the three of you?”
“
I
have nothing to fear. It is time an account were given that will speak honestly not only of him, but of those of us who shared his life.”
Mary Shelley, too, insisted no such account had ever been given, but she, by contrast, has done all in her power to prevent it. And given what Charles now knows of her baby daughter’s death, he can understand why. Even if Mary has found a way to live with that, even if she has long since excused that terrible deed as unwitting and unintended—she knows the rude cold world she dreads so much will not be so forgiving. But if her reserve is comprehensible, Claire’s new candour makes no sense. Why should this woman, who seems to have loved Shelley no whit the less, be so willing to destroy his reputation now?
He goes to the window and looks down into the street. Nancy is making her way up to the Strand through the snow, the market-basket over her arm. He turns back to the room. “You will speak openly even of those events you say you have striven to forget? Of Fanny’s death—and of Harriet’s?”
She flushes. “I cannot speak of what I did not witness.”
“But there were other events, were there not, that you
did
witness? Where your testimony would serve only to harm the man you say you loved?”
“I did love him; I love him still.”
“In that case I am only the more confounded.”
She rises from her chair and walks away. “I have no idea to what you refer.”
“I think you do, Miss Clairmont. I am speaking of the Shelleys’ first daughter. And how that baby died.”
She glances at him quickly, warily. “She died from convulsions, brought on by a fever. It is all too often so with infants born before their time.”
“That is true, and I know that was the story you all told. But it is not what you believed then, is it, Miss Clairmont? You thought Shelley was to blame. You thought he had risen in the night, in his sleep, and put his hands about his own daughter’s neck.”
She turns towards him. “And if I thought that,” she says slowly, “it is because
Mary
said so. Because
your uncle
confirmed it—”
“And that is what he, too, believed. But it was not so. Shelley thought himself guilty, but he was wronged. My uncle only discovered the truth years later—when it was too late—but whatever you supposed then—whatever you have written since—it was
not so.
”
It should have been overwhelming—it should have been a revelation to change her whole life—but she merely glances sideways at him and returns, in a rustle of scented silk, to the chair.
“You tell me nothing, Mr Maddox, that I have not known these thirty years.”
Charles gapes at her. “But how in God’s name—?”
She raises an eyebrow and folds her hands upon her lap. “By the same means, I imagine, as your uncle came to know it. That vile man Absalom Blackaby.”
“The sexton at Tom-All-Alone’s? How could he possibly—”
“Find us? Know who we were? I am sure that, for a
detective,
a mere moment’s thought will be sufficient to resolve that mystery. Your uncle should have been more careful in letting slip Shelley’s name. It is, after all, hardly a common one, and when his case came before Chancery it was the talk of London. It was then that that horrible man tracked Shelley down—it was then that he embarked upon his loathsome scheme of extortion.”
Charles can barely absorb so much new information. “Extortion? But if the baby died a natural death, how could Blackaby possibly turn that to his advantage?”
“Because by then Shelley was petitioning for the custody of Harriet’s children. How could he hope to win the case if the slightest whisper came to the judge’s ear about what had happened to Mary’s baby? That he and the woman he proposed as step-mother to those children had allowed their own baby to die, and left it to be buried in a workhouse grave?”
Charles flushes, remembering that word had indeed come to the judge’s ear, and it was not only the site of the baby’s grave he had discovered by it.
“Shelley was tormented by that man Blackaby for years,” Claire says bitterly. “Even after we had left England.”
“He told you of this?”
“Not at first. I discovered it later by chance, when I found a copy of a note he had written to his banker, asking that ten pounds should be paid to a person who would present himself with a note signed ‘A.B.’ ”
“And Mary—did she know?”
“He made me promise not to tell her.”
Charles can scarcely believe it. “But if he never told her about Blackaby, surely she must have continued to believe him guilty of his daughter’s death? What husband would allow his wife to persist in such an appalling ignorance?”
“I believe he dared not speak of it, because he dreaded to hear the answer she might give.”
Charles frowns. “I do not take your meaning.”
“If you have indeed spoken to that man Fraser, you will know that Mary claimed she saw Shelley that night, standing over the cradle.”
He sees the quick flush across her cheeks and sees she fears what else he has discovered; but her own long-past shame is not what matters to him now.
“I have not forgotten it, Miss Clairmont, but I do not see that it makes any difference. Shelley suffered from bouts of sleep-walking, did he not, and especially when he was anxious or under strain? Surely it is possible he was indeed at the cradle that night, even if he never actually harmed the child?”
But she is already shaking her head. “I said this to your uncle then, and I will say it now, to you. Shelley awoke that morning in his
own bed.
In all the years I lived under his roof I never once knew that to be so when he had risen in his sleep in the night. After such episodes we would always find him wandering distractedly in the next room, in the next street, even halfway across the town—”
“But if that is true, you are accusing her—”
“Yes,” she says quietly. “I am accusing her of lying. I do not think she saw him that night at all.”
And as she looks at him steadily, holding his gaze, willing him to believe her, Charles imagines himself for a moment in Mary Shelley’s place, that morning long ago when she found her daughter dead. She was not married, she already had a rival for her lover’s affections, and now she did not even have his child. Mary must have been terrified he would consider himself no longer bound to her—that he would abandon her, as he already had his wife. But this woman had for parents not some portly tavern-keeper and his spouse, but two of the most outstanding intellects of the age; this woman had been taught from a child to believe herself the world’s darling—the beautiful lure of every eye. Poor little Harriet Westbrook might be casually set aside but not
her—
not Mary Wollstonecraft Godwin. It was inconceivable—she could not permit it—she
would not
permit it. Was it at that moment, as she gazed down at the cradle at her daughter’s cold and rigid form, that it came to her that a dead child might be even more useful to her than a living one? Did she realise suddenly that if Shelley believed
he
was responsible for that death he would be bound to her forever by a bond he would never dare break—an unbearable guilt he could never redeem?
“But to make him believe he had killed his own child,” says Charles slowly. “Could she really have committed an act so—”
“Horrific? Monstrous? An act as monstrous, perhaps, as the crime perpetrated by that abhorrent creature in
Frankenstein
? The inhuman wretch that strangles a little child in the darkness, leaving the print of the murderer’s finger on its neck?”
“But you claim that
he
wrote that tale, not her—”
“And remember
when
he wrote it, Mr Maddox! It was the summer of 1816. Before we returned to London.
Before
that man Blackaby told Shelley the truth.”
“So that is what you meant—when you wrote of Frankenstein as a man tormented by the abominable crime he believes that he has committed—”
“When Shelley wrote that book he still thought himself guilty of his own daughter’s death—it was
his own horror
he was re-living. I remember, even now, my shiver of dread when first I read what the monster tells its creator on the icy Northern wastes.
You and I are bound by ties only dissoluble by the annihilation of one of us.
It was those words—those
exact
words—that Mary said to him the day she discovered I was carrying his child—after he had torn her away as she rained blows down upon me, where I lay on the floor fainting in my own blood.”
Claire looks down at her hands; her lips are white, but Charles does not see it. His eyes are on the floor as he begins to pace up and down the room, re-forming the sequence, re-casting the chain of events, “Very well, Miss Clairmont. Let us assume for the moment that you are right—let us suppose Mary did indeed lie about seeing Shelley that night—a lie that is not merely believed by Shelley, but corroborated by one of the finest thief takers in the land. And as the days pass and her deception holds, she finds that falsehood has accomplished everything she hoped for—Hogg is banished, and Shelley returns to her side, to comfort her in the depths of her inconsolable grief. Grief he believes
he
has caused. And then she finds herself once again pregnant and Shelley’s love for that little boy makes her believe herself, at last, secure. Yet when his wife dies and he is free to marry her, she is horrified to find that he hesitates—he seeks to postpone—and the only way she can compel him to fulfil his promise is by threatening to destroy both herself and the new baby she is by then carrying, the new daughter that will replace the one she lost. And why does Shelley try to evade the marriage? Not because he knows she has lied, because by then Blackaby has not yet tracked him down. No.” he turns to Claire. “He seeks to postpone because even the black depth of his guilt has not been enough to destroy his love for
you.
And from that moment on she knows her lie is flawed, because even if she can prevent him from leaving her, she cannot eradicate those feelings—feelings so strong that he can never wholly sever his connection with you, never accept being long from your side—feelings so strong, indeed, that they endure even your liaison with Byron, and the child that is its consequence.”
Claire lifts her chin in defiance. “Allegra was an exquisitely beautiful little girl. Shelley adored her—and William adored her. When I gave him a sweetmeat he would crawl over and place half his share in my own darling’s mouth. Then Mary would insist he give some to Clara too, and the poor boy would cry and cry until his sister was taken away and Allegra restored to his side. It was then that Mary started to say my darling should be sent to her father—that it would be for her own good—that he could provide a better future for her than I.
Allegra must go—I do not want her remaining here—if no-one can be found to take her, we will have to go ourselves—
on and on, day after day after day. By the time we left England Shelley’s health had completely broken down.”