Authors: T. C. Boyle
The signâthe historical marker, that isâhad barely been damaged by Walter's assault on it. The stanchion was gouged where the footpeg had hit it and the whole thing was tilted back a degree or two so that the legend could most comfortably be perused from the lower branches of the maple across the street, but basically Walter was much more the worse for wear than the instrument of his mutilation. That much he could see from the car window as they pulled up on the shoulder. Emerging from the passenger side of Jessica's VW like a crab shrugging off its shell, he braced himself on his crutchesâevery time he put his weight on the still-tender stump of his right leg it felt as if it were on fireâand hobbled up to decipher the sign that had become for him as momentous and mysterious as the Sinai tablets must have been for the tribes of Israel. He could have asked Jessica or Lola or Tom Crane to go have a look at it while he lay helpless in bed, tormented by the image of his father and the brutal commingling of dream and reality, but he preferred it this way. After all, he hadn't hit a tree, mailbox, fireplug or lamppost, but a signâsymbol, token and signifierâyes, a sign, and it might as well have been inscribed with hieroglyphs for all the attention he'd paid it in the past. There was a message here. He yearned for enlightenment.
It was hot. The end of summer. Cars shot past with a suck of air. There was no blood, no oil slick on the roadâjust the sign, with its gouge. He read:
On this spot in 1693, Cadwallader Crane, leader of an armed uprising on Van Wart Manor, surrendered to authorities. He
was hanged, along with co-conspirator Jeremy Mohonk, at Gallows Hill, Van Wartville, in 1694.
He read, but he was not enlightened. He stood there like a man of stone, conning it over, word by word. And then, after a long moment during which he cursed his dreams, his father and the state historical society, he swung around on his crutches and stumped back to the car.
At homeâthe world had shifted beneath his feet, changed as surely and irrevocably as if it had been hit by a comet or visited by a delegation of three-headed aliens from Alpha Centauri, and yet here all was the same, right down to the muted bands of sunlight that fell across the Turkish carpet like a benediction and the twin lamps with shades the color and texture of ancient parchmentâWalter stood awkwardly in the middle of the cluttered den and gave himself up to Lola's sinewy embrace. The paneled walls were still hung with the dim sepia photos of Lola's parents in their Moldavian overcoats, galoshes and fur hats; the black-and-whites of Walter in his Little League uniform; the overexposed snapshot of Lola and Walter's mother as high school girls, their hair long, arms entwined; and the turgid official portrait of Lenin that occupied the place of honor over the mantelpiece. The cane plant in the corner was still dead and the empty aquarium still crusted with a jagged layer of petrified sludge. On the bookshelves, amidst the faded spines and crumbling dust jackets of books that hadn't been moved for as long as Walter could remember, crouched the ceramic tigers and elephants, the ivory rooks and knights and pawns he'd played with as a boy, all exactly as he'd left them on that distant morning of the potato pancakes. He'd been gone two weeks to the day. Everything was the same, and everything was changed. “Well,” Lola said. “Well. You're back.”
Jessica stood beside him, fidgeting with her purse. She was wearing an embarrassed smile. Lola was smiling too, but her smile was worn and rueful. Walter, despite himself, found that he was smiling back at her. His wasn't a comforting smile, though. He was too disoriented, too crushed by the ghost of the familiar that screamed like something choked in the bushes each time he glanced down at his
right foot, to smile like an unconstrained and doting son. No, his smile was more a baring of the teeth.
Did he want something to eat? Lola wanted to know. A little borscht maybe? With some rye bread? Tea? Cookies? Did he want to sit down? Was it too warm? Should she turn on the fan? Hesh would be thrilled when he got home from work.
Walter didn't want any borscht. Nor rye bread, tea or cookies either. It wasn't too warm. The fan could rest. He looked forward to seeing Hesh. But for nowâand here he gave Jessica a significant lookâhe just wanted to go up to bed. To rest, that is. He would not drink the champagne, he would not have a beer or monster burger and he would not engage in an act of love and affirmation with his fiancée. Instead, he would mount the stairs to his boyhood room like a soldier returned from battle, like a martyr, and he would draw the shades, stretch out on the bed and watch the shadows deepen toward night.
Next morning he awoke to the smell of potato pancakes, a smell that roused him like a slap in the face. He sat up in bed, seized with fear and loathing. The cycle was beginning again. Already his mother's sorrowful eyes had begun to detach themselves from the gloom in the corner behind the bureau. A minute more and his grandmother would be looking over his shoulder and his father poking fun at him or delivering yet another cryptic message. It was intolerable. How many pounds of flesh did he have to sacrifice? How many limbs? He fumbled with the straps of the prosthesis, jerked on his clothes, seized the crutches and flung himself down the stairs like a hunted man.
It was 7:00 A.M. Hesh and Lola were in the kitchen, their voices soft and murmurous. The house ticked with the small comfortable sounds he'd missed in the hospitalâwater trickling through the pipes, the hum of dishwasher and refrigerator. Outside, the sun slanted through elms and maples and spilled across the lawn and into the garden. Walter stood at the window a moment to collect himself. He saw corn. Tomatoes. Pumpkins, cucumbers, squash. Hesh had planted them. In May. Before Walter had gone to work at Depeyster Manufacturing, before he'd reconditioned the Norton and discovered a ghost in the scent of a pancake. And now here they were, rooted in the ground.
In the kitchen, he braced his crutches against the wall and sat down at the table across from Hesh. Lola stood at the gas range, flipping pancakes. “I made your favorite, Walter,” she said.
The smell was intolerable. It was death. He'd rather have snuffed the fumes of burning plastic, nerve gas, blood and offal and shit. A glass of milk stood beside his plate. He took a sip. It was warm. “I'm not hungry,” he said.
“Not hungry?” Hesh echoed. He was perched over his muffin like an eagle masking its kill. His forearms swelled against the edge of the table. “Come on, kid, snap out of it. You lost your foot. Okay. It's not the end of the world.”
Walter set down the glass of milk. “Please, Lola,” he said, craning his neck to look over his shoulder, “not now. I just can't eat.” And then, turning back to Hesh, who was licking butter from the tips of his fingers and chewing with a rhythmic roll of his great, clean-shaven jaws, he said, “It's not that. Really. It's”âhe didn't know how to tell himâ“I've been thinking about my father lately.”
Hesh had stopped chewing. “Your father?” he repeated, as if he hadn't heard properly. He picked up the butter knife and laid it down again. “You know how I feel about your father.”
Walter knew. But whatever had gone wrong with him had its roots hereâin the riots, on the ghost ships, in the conundrum of the marker and the burden of heredity. “Yeah, I know. But things are different now and I have a right to know what he did to you and Lola and my mother that was so awful, and I have a right to know where he is now. I have a right to ask him myself.”
Hesh's eyes had changed. They were openâfixed on Walter'sâbut they might as well have been shut fast. He'd begun chewing again, but more slowly, and, it seemed, without relish. “Sure,” he said finally, while Lola rattled pans at the stove. “You've got all the right in the world. But your mother made us your legal guardians, not him. He deserted you, Walter. And even after he came back, those summers, you think he was about to take on the responsibility of raising a kid even though he caused a big stink all the time? Huh? Do you?”
Walter shrugged. The pancakes were killing him. He felt as if he were about to cry.
“Look him up, go ahead. Where you'll look, God only knows.
But as far as I'm concerned, he's a bum. A Judas. Persona non grata. As far as I'm concerned, the book is closed.”
But the book is never closed.
Hesh went off to his glazier's shop on Houston Street and Lola sat at the table and told Walter the story of the riots for the thousandth time. He knew every nuance, anticipated her every pause and change of inflection as if he were speaking himself, but he listened now as if he'd never heard the story before, listened as he had the day after his eleventh birthday when Lola sat him down and tried to explain why Hesh and his father had nearly come to blows over so marvelous and inoffensive a thing as an Italian motorbike with red fenders and chrome-plated handlebars. He listened.
She hadn't been able to get near the placeâthe concert grounds, that is. But Hesh had. And Walter's father and mother too. The organizing committee had asked them to come early to set up the chairs and see to the lights and loudspeakers. After that, Christina would be in charge of programs and literature, and Hesh and Truman were supposed to mingle with the crowd and keep an eye out for trouble. It was going to be quite a night: the warmth of the summer evening like a big communal blanket, the stars overhead, a thousand voices joined in song. They'd talked about nothing else for weeks.
Will Connell was going to be there, to strum his guitar and sing his songs about the working people of America (later, when the whole country had caught the sickness of the riots, he would be blacklisted by every record company, every music publisher, booking agent and theater owner from Maine to California). A woman from the New York stage was going to sing too. And there were two speakers, one from the Garment Workers' Union, the other a party member who'd fought in the Abraham Lincoln Brigade. The big attraction, thoughâthe man everyone was coming to seeâwas Paul Robeson. Paul Robeson was a Negro and a Communist, he was an actor and a civil libertarian, he was a great huge lion of a man who could sing the old spirituals till you could feel them in the marrow of your bones.
Lola had seen him at the pavilion in Kitchawank Colony just the year before. Two hundred or so had turned out to hear him that time, local people from the Colony mostly, the graying Anarchists and Socialists who'd founded the community back in the twenties because
they wanted to free themselves from the diseases of city life and give their children a libertarian education, and the party-line Communists who'd begun to supplant them. People brought sandwiches and sat on the grassâold couples, children, pregnant women. There was no trouble. Just a nice time for everyone. A little culture in the hinterlands.
But the following yearâin August, late Augustâit was a different story. Lola was working then, a half-day shift at the counter in the old van der Meulen bakeshop in Peterskill, and so she couldn't go in early with Hesh and Truman. Walter's mother went, though. Christina made up some sandwiches and a thermos of iced tea, dropped Walter at his grandmother'sâhe'd just turned three, did he remember?âand then climbed into Hesh's 1940 Plymouth with her husband and his buddy Piet.
Lola tilted her head back and glanced around the room. A cup of black coffee sat before her on the table, going cold. She lit a cigarette, shook out the match and exhaled. “He was quite a character, Piet,” she said. “Short little guy, no higher than my chin. And always playing practical jokesâyou know, your father was a great one for jokes.” She took a sip of cold coffee. “The two of them were always at it. Silly stuff. Palm buzzers and squirting carnations and whatnot. I wonder what ever became of him?âPiet, I mean. Your father thought he was really something else.”
There were no jokes that night. Hesh drove. Christina sat up front, with the thermos and sandwiches and the box of programs and party literature; Truman and Piet were in back, boxed in by sound equipment. Lola was planning to join them later, as soon as she got out of work. There'd be plenty of timeâshe got off at seven and the concert wasn't scheduled to start until seven-thirty. She hoped they'd save her a seat.
Anyway, they were going to hold the concert down near the river, just off Van Wart Road, on some property owned by Peletiah Crane, who was then superintendent of the Peterskill schools.
(Yes, that's right,
Lola had said when she'd first told him the story,
Tom's grandpa.
) Peletiah wasn't a party member himself, but he was sympathetic to the cause and he'd been a supporter of cultural events in the Colony for years. When it became apparent that the concert and
rally would be much bigger than the lastâa show of solidarity for progressives that would attract perhaps two and a half thousand from the Cityâthe Kitchawank Colony Association realized it wouldn't have the space or facilities to handle such a crowd and dropped its sponsorship of the event. That's when Peletiah stepped in. He offered the Robeson people the use of his property for nothing, and this encouraged one of the trade unions to put up the money to rent chairs, sound equipment and floodlights. Sasha Freeman, the novelist, and Morton Blum, the builder, were the chief organizers. They didn't expect any trouble, but you never knew. They asked Hesh and Truman, both of them party members and big men, toughened by war and adversity, to be in charge of security.
Hesh had his hair then, and for all his gruffness he was a teddy bear inside. Truman was the best-looking man in Peterskill, wild, a daredevil who rented a plane and flew it under the Bear Mountain Bridgeâupside down, yetâand had his license taken away by the C.A.A. He and Hesh were best friends (
Yes,
she'd told him that first time,
like you and Tom)
âthey were all friends. Lola and Christina had gone through school together, first at the Colony Free School and then later at Peterskill High. After the war, when Christina brought Walter's father around, everybody fell for him. (Almost a local boy, but not quite, he'd grown up in Verplanck and gone to school at Hendrick Hudson. Hesh had played opposite him in football, and Lola recognized him at once as the vanquisher of Peterskill's best, the triple threat who'd so many times made her heart sink as he poked a baseball over the fence, dribbled downcourt in his silken shorts or burst through a gap in the line with his muddied calves and the angry black slashes of greasepaint masking his eyes.) He was working in the old Van Wart iron foundry, which had gone out of business during the Depression and been revived and retooled by a one-armed war veteran from Brooklyn, and he was going to night school at City College to earn a B.A. degree in American history. “History,” Lola said, lingering over the syllables, “that was his passion.