Read Winter Be My Shield Online
Authors: Jo Spurrier
Delphine peered around the crates again. The prisoner hadn't moved. She wasn't sure if he was even aware of their presence.
Curse you, Torren
, she thought. Now that he had mentioned it, she did see something of her father in him. It was no physical resemblance. Ballenar, dark-skinned and merry, had run to fat in his later life, as did so many Sympaths â he had been worlds away from this gaunt and broken warrior. What reminded her of him was the hopelessness, the utter dejection and the sense of wilful withdrawal from this world, to actively seek out the next.
In his younger years Ballenar had taken myriad lovers but as he grew older he'd settled down with just one â a man, much to the consternation of the staid Collegium governors. One day while out in the city Galwin had been knocked down by a runaway wagon and seriously injured. It had taken him days to die and Ballenar had been unable to see him even long enough to say a brief goodbye. While Sympaths shared the pleasure of those around them, they were also sensitive to the suffering of those nearby. Instead of deriving power from it, the suffering of others aroused a sympathetic agony that could, over time, cripple their powers and turn a Sympath into a twisted, dangerous creature, as vicious as any Blood-Mage. Even if the Collegium governors had allowed him to risk himself in Galwin's presence in those final days, Ballenar wouldn't have been able to physically stand it.
After Galwin's death Ballenar had lost his will to live and entered a steady decline. Years of indulgence had eroded his health and, despite Delphine's efforts to coax him out of his overwhelming grief, he had wasted away over a matter of weeks.
Studying the chained prisoner, Delphine doubted this one would take anything like as long to die.
âLook, Delphi, will you just try?'
Delphine pulled out the slip of parchment again. She'd spent months looking for a prisoner who could read Ricalani. Of course she had hoped to find an ageing priest, someone long past any thoughts of resistance or escape, someone she wouldn't have to watch around her girls the way she'd watch a dog rumoured to be vicious. But he was all she had. âAlright. I can't promise anything but I'll try.' She turned to Torren with a frown. âBut only if you guarantee I'll get access to him as a translator.'
âI can't promise anything,' he said, âbut I'll try.'
âOh, very funny,' she said with a roll of her eyes. âDo you have transcripts of the interrogation? I'll need to see them.'
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A delicious scent tickled his nose on a waft of steam. Isidro lifted his head with a groan. Even while his mind had been too muddled to think clearly, that scent had gone straight to the most visceral part of him and made his mouth water.
A rustle of paper made him look up. His eyes were blurred and with his arms still chained outstretched he couldn't wipe his face on his shoulder or his sleeve. All he could do was try to blink them clear.
A woman was sitting across from him, perched on one of the crates with her legs crossed and her head bent over a sheaf of papers. One of those small, flameless lanterns hung from the ridge-pole near her head.
The wound on his neck stung and the muscles of his back and shoulders protested at being forced to hold this unnatural posture. Isidro tried to shift his position but between his weakness and the chains he could barely move an inch.
The woman glanced up from her papers. âAh! The sleeper awakes.' She had nut-brown skin and dark, wavy hair pulled back into a braid, though small strands had escaped to frame her face in a frizzy haze. Her features reminded him of Rhia's, although her colouring was quite different.
That delicious scent was still teasing him. Isidro twisted around until he found the source. A bowl, wooden this time, was resting on the crate to which he was bound. It would have been within arm's reach had he been free to reach for it. From the scent it was a good meat broth, plain and wholesome, the sort that wouldn't upset a starved and empty stomach.
âI've been reading about you,' the woman said, waving the papers at him. âIt seems you've been through the wars. Captured by Blood-Mages, tortured and rescued only to be taken by Slavers. After what you've been through, despair would seem the only reasonable option.' She turned back to the page, holding it up to the light to read through to the end. Isidro guessed she was a little older than him, but it was hard to tell. The skin of her face and hands was fine and unlined, not roughened by the weather. The only thing that gave her age away were the strands of silver in her dark curls. Some of them gleamed red, dyed with henna, but nearer the scalp they were untouched. She was definitely a mage. He could sense the power in her and when she lifted a hand to brush back a strand of hair he saw a blotch of ink staining her sleeve. Perhaps a scholar as well.
âWhat I don't understand,' she said, âis why on earth this Blood-Mage is trying to keep you alive. He must know we can use you against him. Did you know that? You had a slight touch of talent before they got to you, a Sensitive, I'd say, but by blasting through you the way they did, they've expanded your capacity significantly. Fascinating really, to know that you can turn a weak mage into a more powerful one just by raping and torturing him, but somehow I doubt it'll catch on. Of course it's a bit late for you to learn how to use it, but we can still teach you to spy on them and perhaps use you to weaken them enough to bring them down. So I can understand why a Blood-Mage would want you dead. What I can't understand is, if you are so determined to kill yourself that you'd rip your own throat out with a bit of broken pot,
why in the hells would he try to stop you?'
She paused for a moment, giving him a chance to speak, but Isidro held his tongue and she continued with a shrug. âI have to say,' she said, leafing through the papers again, âthis fellow Rasten seems a fascinating case.'
Isidro cursed himself silently. He couldn't remember what he had or hadn't told the men who'd interrogated him. At first he'd tried to hold
back some of the details but they'd gone over his tale again and again and his mind had been too overwhelmed with pain and shock to remember what he'd admitted from one recital to the next. The one thing he was certain of was that he'd left Sierra out of it.
âYou said his master took him as an apprentice when Rasten was just a boy. Can you imagine what it would have been like for the poor lad? In a way,' she said, leaning forward, âit's a little like what has happened to you, only worse. He saw his family slaughtered, then he was taken prisoner and made the plaything of a vile old man who brutalised him until he relented to brutalise others to spare his own hide. You said he has been with his master for ten years. Ten years! Can you imagine it? You've been here only a few days and already you're fighting like a wild beast caught in a snare. Ten years and he's still alive. By the Good Goddess, imagine how much he hates his master. What do you think he would do if he happened to be here in your place? Do you think he'd try to kill himself, or would he see this as an opportunity to take revenge on the one who tortured him? It looks to me as if he's stronger than you are. What else would you think when one man survives a decade of torture and another is prepared to kill himself after just a day?'
Something shifted within his mind. Isidro knew that sensation by now and squeezed his eyes shut, wishing to the Black Sun he had some way of repelling that touch. He hadn't felt Rasten's awareness settle over him, so Rasten must have been there, silent, since before Isidro woke.
You know
, the Blood-Mage whispered into his mind,
the Akharian bitch has a point.
âRasten's a monster,' Isidro rasped in Akharian. âHe has no conscience. He'll turn on anyone his master tells him to.'
That's ⦠only
partially
true
, came Rasten's measured response.
âThat's right,' the woman said, unfolding herself from her perch. She slipped off the crate and crouched down beside him. âBut you're not like that. You're an honourable man. I can see that from what you went through to protect your brother. Why should Rasten thrive and a man like you starve himself to death in chains? Especially when you can help us destroy him and his master and make sure they can't do this to anyone else?'
Why
did
you save my life
? Isidro asked Rasten.
I'll tell you later. Once she's gone
, Rasten replied.
The woman stepped delicately over his long, sprawled legs and loosened the end of the cord binding his broken arm. As it dropped from the horizontal the rush of blood back into the limb was painful enough that he thumped his head back against the crate, fighting not to cry out. The sound of it and the sudden movement startled the woman. He felt her power pulse and for a brief moment there was a violet flicker of light between them as she cast a shield over herself. It vanished again when she realised there was no threat, but she watched him carefully as she went to the end of the chain attached to his good arm and loosened that as well. âThe broth is good,' she told him. âI had a bowl of it myself. Drink it, leave it, or tip it through the twigs. No one but you will ever know.' She gathered up her papers and unhooked the lantern from the ridge-pole. âI'll be back to speak to you again in the morning. Try to get some rest.'
When she left Isidro was still pressing his back against the crate, gritting his teeth as he waited for the pain to subside.
The tickle in his head came again.
Leave me alone
! he snarled at Rasten.
Issey?
It wasn't Rasten's voice he heard, but Sierra's. The voice was faint and distant but it was undoubtedly her.
Sirri?
He sounded as querulous as a child and hated himself for it.
Yes, it's me. I'm talking through Rasten. I'm sorry, Issey, but it's the only way. He says if I reach for you directly the Akharian mages might sense it.
She doesn't have enough control
, Rasten broke in.
She might spill over. They already know about me, but I don't want them finding out about her.
Well that was one thing they could agree on, even if the thought of sharing
anything
with Rasten repulsed him.
Issey, I swear by the Black Sun we'll get you back. We'll find a way â¦
No! This place is crawling with mages. They can do things we've never dreamed of.
I don't care! We'll find a way, even if I have to come to Akhara to find you!
If you die she'll want revenge
, Rasten interrupted.
She's not ready for this yet. She might be able to handle a few of them, but if the Akharian mages corner her they'll kill her. Is that what you want?
Isidro swallowed hard. He didn't want to admit this in front of Rasten but pride was a luxury he could no longer afford.
Sirri, I don't know if I can take this.
I ⦠I understand.
What
? Rasten demanded.
I went to all the trouble of saving his worthless life and now you're giving him permission to kill himself?
Shut up, Rasten! It's not a matter of permission! It's a matter of forgiveness. I can't ask him to do something I'm not prepared to do myself ⦠If you have to do it then I understand, but please try to survive. For Cam's sake, if not for mine.
Isidro was braced for Rasten's scorn but to his surprise Rasten remained silent. This peculiar connection shared more than just a person's words â it gave the same sense of mood and demeanour as talking to someone in person would. He was expecting contempt from Rasten, but what he sensed instead was puzzlement, and perhaps a little envy. Of course â there was no one Rasten cared about and no one who cared about him, except perhaps Sierra. If he was willing to endanger himself to protect her, then he must have some degree of care for her.
If he died, Isidro realised, it would mean Sierra had one less ally against Rasten's voice whispering in her ear.
Issey, please â¦
I'll try
, he told her.
I can't promise, but I'll try.
That's all I ask. We'll find a way to free you, I promise.
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The bowl was empty when Delphine returned the next morning. Isidro was curled up beneath the blanket and dozing when she rapped her knuckles on a crate to wake him. He saw a young girl with her when he lifted his head blearily, blinking in the lamplight. She was about fourteen with honey-coloured skin and hair the hue of sun-bleached straw. She held a cloth-wrapped parcel to her chest and stared at him with wide eyes.
As he sat up slowly, moving carefully because of his stiff and bruised muscles, Delphine tossed something to the ground beside him.
It was an oblong plaque of jade as long as his palm and half the width, carved with an abstract motif. After a moment Isidro realised it held an enchantment. The power tickled against the back of his hand like a cool breeze.
âWell, Master Sensitive, what do you make of that?' Delphine said.
He reached for it gingerly. Most of the enchantments he had contact with were unpleasant, like the warding-stones or Sierra's punishment
bands. When he laid his fingertips against the jade it felt warm and comfortable and seemed to buzz slightly in his grasp.
Delphine perched on the crate again, with her legs stretched out in front of her and crossed at the ankle. The girl hovered in the background. âClose your eyes,' Delphine told him gently. âThink of an empty bowl, on a shelf in a dark room. The bowl is your mind. It is quiet and still, just waiting. You can feel the enchantment fluttering against your palm. Open your mind and let it in. What do you see?'
He didn't know why he obeyed her. Perhaps it was because she was the only person who had showed him a little human kindness, or perhaps it was out of simple shock that the only time he was able to learn anything about mage-craft was after he had been made a slave. Exactly why he did it Isidro never knew, but he closed his hand over the plaque and did as she requested.