The way he said his brother's name woke a ghost of pain in my chestâthere was a certain emptiness in it, and vulnerability. I found myself wanting to take his hand, not to draw power but to give comfort. That was how humans did such thingsâflesh to flesh.
I was reaching out to him when the next attack descended on us with shocking suddenness.
The lights of Albuquerque blacked out ahead, and I felt the sudden burn of power being released in the physical world. “Luis!” I snapped, and braced myself against the dashboard with one hand. It was good that I did; he slammed hard on the brakes, and I felt a heavy thud from behind as my motorcycle slammed into the cab of the truck. The tires screeched and jittered, but held against a skid.
“Shit,” he breathed, and slammed the truck hard into reverse, gave it gas, and whipped it in a fast, reckless turn. “Can you do anything about that? Because I'm a little busy.”
He offered me his right hand, steering with his left. I grabbed hold and rose into the aetheric for a look. Night fell away, and the world erupted in a chaos of color. Reds, maroons, oranges, hot flashes and sparks of yellow.
We were in trouble.
“It's coming in!” I shouted. “From the right!”
The passenger's side. I had just enough warning to duck, and the wind hit the truck with so much force that the entire heavy vehicle rocked up on the left two wheels, threatened to overturn, then settled down with a heavy, rattling thump.
A spray of stones, fired at hurricane speed, began pelting us, like bullets from a machine pistol. The window next to me cracked into icy shards, then blew in. I put up a shield as quickly as possible, but even so we were both bleeding and shaken from the attack, and that was only the opening salvo.
“Faster,” I said. “It's circling, trying to cut us off.”
“This is insane,” he said, and somehow held the truck on the road as another gust lashed at us. “What the hell do they
want
?”
“One or both of us dead,” I said. “Hold on. I'm going up.”
I rose into the aetheric again, scanning the boiling mass of neon colors. There seemed to be no center to it, no weak point to target.
We
were the weak points. I sensed other things from itâa hunger, a blind and furious menace that gave me chills.
Someone hated us on a scale that seemedâeven by human standardsâinsane. I had earned no such enmity during my brief stay in flesh; if Luis had, I could not imagine what he had done to trigger it. But we had to fight it, nevertheless.
Didn't we?
Luis was readying a counterattack, but I hesitated. Something . . . something was not right.
“Wait!” I snapped, as Luis began to strip the rocks and sand from the rushing wind. The theory was good; the wind itself would do damage, but not as much as the hurtling debris. But there was a sense to this that wasn't
right.
“What?” Luis threw me a wild look. Another gust slammed into the truck, this one head-on, and the impact was vicious. Cracks formed in the windshield. “Wait for
what
? They'll pound us into scrap!”
I didn't bother to reply. I was busy. Instead of sending power out, I gathered it in, close around us, an armored shield
within
the cab of the truck. Let the metal and glass take the damage for now; I was waiting.
It was a brilliantly focused attack, so tightly wrapped that it punched through my shields like a laser through butter. Aimed not at me, but at Luis.
I lunged forward as he gasped and collapsed forward against the steering wheel. His chest was heaving, his face going dirty-pale.
I had a flash of the singing snap of Manny's bright presence leaving the world, leaving me, and of the exploded meat of his chest. That had been a bullet.
This was pure power, a fist around Luis's struggling, pounding heart. Squeezing.
They were trying to crush the life out of him, and I would fail again,
lose
again.
No.
I would
not.
I batted away the attack with brute force, giving Luis a few precious seconds of recovery time, before it came back, fast as a striking snake. It was almost invisible on the aetheric, a shifting mass of color that blended into the general storm of chaos. Difficult to anticipate.
Difficult to stop.
I couldn't allow them to get a hold on him. Seconds counted in this, and the damage could be mortal, beyond my ability to repairâI didn't know enough about the human body, didn't have the fine surgical instincts of an Earth Warden. My healing of the boy had been lucky, and I'd had no risks; this time, failure would be utter destruction.
I threw myself into the aetheric and put myself in the way of the attack.
Better me. He can heal me after.
That seemed logical enough, until the attack actually struck me full force.
In the mortal world, I gasped and folded, hands pressed to my chest. The pain was extreme, the panic even worse. Trying to form an effective shield under the assault was near useless; my instincts, my
human
instincts for breath and survival, overrode my logic, made me struggle madly like an animal in a trap.
I felt Luis's hands on me, holding me. “Cassiel!”
I would not fail. I could not allow it. Weakness was a human trait; I was
Djinn. . . .
I screamed, and the world shattered into knives of agony.
Death. This is death.
Shadows on the aetheric, and a blazing white outline of a human form in front of me, dazzling my eyes.
Luis. He'd had a chance to prepare himself, while I'd taken the brunt of the attack, and this time, he not only gave me relief from the pain; he struck back, hammering away the assault. He'd done something to shield himself; his heart glowed a brilliant red on the aetheric, and as I watched, the tint spread through his ghostly form, tracing organs, veins, arteries. It tinted his aura into spectrums that reminded me of the hot surface of the sun.
He was
beautiful.
And as I collapsed, shaking and defeated, he stood against them.
Human, and beautiful.
The attack ended not with an explosion, but with a whimper, fading away into mutters and fitful gusts, rattles of pebbles on scarred metal, a final angry spurt of dust.
Silence.
Luis was whispering under his breath, a long monologue in Spanish that I thought was a string of prayers and curses, followed by more prayers. He was shaking, and somehow I was pressed against him, his arms enfolding me.
Breathe.
My lungs ached with the effort, but I forced them to work. Bright sparks of pain leapt through my body, the afterimages of what our attackers had done to us, and I knew I was trembling as much as Luis.
“Hey.” His voice was low and rough. “You still with me?”
I nodded, unable to speak. My body was sticky with sweat, my hands cold as if they'd been plunged into wet snow. When I swallowed, I tasted bitter salt and blood. I waited for him to release me, but Luis didn't seem inclined to let go. There was something comforting about the warmth of his chest against me, the strength of his arms holding me.
I did not struggle free.
“I'm sorry,” I said.
“For what?”
“I couldn'tâ”
He laughed softly, and his breath brushed my ear. It woke new shivers, pleasurable ones. “You got in the way and gave me time to get it together. You saved my damn life,
chica
. What are you sorry for?”
Not doing it well enough, I supposed. There seemed no logic to that, but there it was, immutable and inexplicable. “I'm sorry about your truck,” I said instead.
“Yeah,” he sighed. “Damn. Me too. Soâdid we learn anything from that?”
“They're strong.”
“We knew that already.”
“They're vicious.”
“Knew that too.”
I looked up into his face. “They're in Colorado.”
“Oh.” His arms tightened around me, and his dark eyes widened. So did his smile. “
Didn't
know that.”
Chapter 9
I HAD TRACKED
the attacker through the aetheric across New Mexico, into mountains to the north. I had lost the trail somewhere near the border, according to the map. I was considering this as we crossed the Albuquerque city limits, but there were no answers to be found on the flimsy paper, which flapped in the wind coming from the shattered passenger's window, and I folded it carefully and put it away.
“Where are we going?” I asked.
“First thing, I'm dropping the truck off at the body shop,” Luis said. “Then I'm crashing for about two hours.” He paused for a moment, and his voice changed timbre. “I have to go to the funeral home at ten.”
Funeral home.
An odd combination of words. Homes were for the living, and for a moment I thought about the houseâno longer a homeâwhere Manny and Angela and Isabel had lived. Someone else would make it a home, in time, but for now it was a reminder, an empty shell filled with inert, abandoned things.
A place I had once felt happy.
“Should I go with you?” I asked. That earned me another glance, and a moment of silence. “If I shouldn'tâ”
“It's not that you shouldn't,” he said. “It's that we have to get you cleared by the Wardens and the cops before you start showing your hot pink head around town. Know what I mean?”
I did. “How do we do that?”
“I'm working on it. You're going to have to sit down with a couple of representatives from the Wardens, eventually, but I heard yesterday that some odd things turned up at Scott's apartment, and the Wardens are looking at that differently.”
“And Molly Magruder?”
Luis shrugged. “That one's a little tougher. I don't know yet, but they said they've got some other leads on that, too. Anyway. I should find you a hotel; you dig in and wait for a while.”
“I could disguise myself,” I said.
“Yeah, you've done a great job so far.
Pink
hair?”
“No one looks at my face.” I thought I'd done a good job. It stung me that he disagreed. “I don't like to hide away.”
“Nobody likes it, but it's the smart thing to do,” he said. He pulled the truck off the road into the parking lot of a small, cleanly kept motel coated in pink adobe. “I'll get your bike out of the back, but promise me you won't go anywhere.”
I looked at him, said nothing, and got out of the truck. Luis shook his head and went around to the bed of the truck to wrestle the Victory down the ramp, while I entered the motel office to use my credit card to buy a room. It was a new experience for me, but not unpleasant; the clerk was efficient and impersonal, and the process short. By the time I came out again, Luis had the motorcycle parked in an empty spot next to the truck, and I had a chance to survey the damage.
The Victory had come through remarkably un-scarred. The same couldn't be said for Luis's truck, which was pitted, dented, and scraped where the paint hadn't chipped or at least been dulled by the abrasive scrub of sand. The passenger's window was gone, only jagged fragments remaining. The front windshield was a web of cracks and pits.
Luis was staring at it with folded arms and a miserable expression.
“Man,” he said, “knowing you is expensive.”
I wanted to say something appropriate, something that would mean I valued his company. Something to recognize the moments in the truck when the two of us had beenâdifferent.
Luis continued to look at the truck, and for a moment I caught the sadness in him, the loss, and I knew he was thinking of his brother. The brother he would have to see again soon, in the
funeral home.
The brother I had failed.
“I want to see Isabel,” I said. That made him turn toward me, frowning. “I understand it's a risk. But you said she was asking for me.”
“Yeah,” he said. “Yeah, she was. But I don't want to put any more of my family in the firing line right now. Do you?”
I shook my head slowly, haunted again by the image of Isabel crouched against the fence as bullets passed overhead to strike her parents. No. I could not risk her. Luis was a target, but so was I, and I could not guarantee the child's safety.
“May I call?” I asked.
Luis took out his cell phone, dialed a number, and turned away to speak in Spanish. After a moment he handed the phone to me.
“Cassie?” Isabel's voice was bright and hopeful, and I felt warmth grow inside me in response.
“Cassiel,” I automatically corrected her, but my heart was not in it. “I'm here, Ibby.”
“Where are you?”
“Close,” I said. “I'm watching over you.” I had a sickening memory of saying the same thing to Angela. Empty promises.
“I thought you left us. I thought you went away.” Her brightness dissolved into tears. “Mama and Papa can't come home anymore. Can you?”
“Yes,” I said softly. “Yes, I can. But, Ibby, you must be patient. I'll see you soon, I promise.”
“Okay.” She was a brave child, and she mastered her tears into wet snuffles. “I love you, Cassie.”
Human words. Human emotion. It felt too large for my chest, this feeling, too heavy with meaning. “Be well,” I whispered. “I will watch over you, Isabel.” I meant it.
I hung up the phone and handed it back to Luis, whose dark eyes were full of understanding. “She'll break your heart,” he said. “I know.”
Our fingers brushed, and then I walked away to my small, silent room.
Â
I slept very little, tormented by the memories of Manny and Angela lying dead, by the haunting sounds of Isabel's tears, by the touch of Luis's hands as he healed my injuries. These things were anchors, weighing me down. As a Djinn, I had been weightless, and without ties or cares, and that seemed far away now. Unreachable. All around me, the sounds of the human world roared on, and I found no peace within or without.