Three Weddings And A Kiss (12 page)

“One,” she corrected in a trice. “I’m particular about who I drink with.”

Clint shoved back his hat. “Meaning you ain’t interested in drinkin’ with me?”

She turned her back to the bar and rested her elbows on the polished surface. Another time Clint might have enjoyed the snowy expanse of female bosom above the gaudy lace of her cheap green dress. Tonight, however, he had one thing on his
mind,
and one thing only—pouring enough whiskey down his throat to take away the empty feeling in his belly. Now he knew how his da must have felt after losing his ma.
Hollow clear to his marrow.
Not really caring if he lived or died. Rachel had been gone a month now, and every second had been an agony for him.

“Suit
yourself
,” he said to Dora Faye as he tipped the bottle over the glass. A second later, he slugged down the liquor. Five drinks later, some of the knots in his mood had come untangled, but not all.

“For someone claimin’ she’s not eager for my company, you sure are hangin’ fast to my shirt-tails,” he told the soiled dove sourly.

“Only so’s I can tell you what an ass I think you are. You broke Rachel’s heart, you bastard.”

Clint bit down hard. “The hell I did,” he retorted. This time when he poured, his hand wasn’t as steady as it should have been. And when he downed the triple shot, the whiskey had suddenly acquired a foul bite. Or was it loneliness he
was tasting
?

“She’s lost weight since she
come
home. Big Jim’s at his wif’s end.”

Clint tapped the bottle with a forefinger. “Sure you won’t have a drink?” he offered, trying to ignore what she said. “There’s plenty left.” A good half jug, by his reckoning.
Too much to waste.

“Last time I saw her at the mercantile, her eyes were all red from crying.”

Clint poured faster this time, slopping the equivalent of a shot on the bar. Shrugging, he swiped his forearm across the spill,
then
downed the whiskey that
had
ended up in the jigger. No good. He could still see Rachel’s face on the pillow, her thick brown hair spread like a dark angel cap on the slightly singed linen.

“Nobody told her to go,” he muttered, his voice whiskey thick.

“Maybe not in so many words,” Dora Faye exclaimed in a low hissing whisper. “But a woman as sensitive as Rachel can read between the lines.”

“What the devil are you talkin’ about?” Clint demanded, his head beginning to swim ever so slightly.

“You jackass!
I’m talkin’ about that bully of an aunt you imported.”

Clint drew his head back and squinted down his nose at his red-headed accuser. It took a full second to get her face in good focus, and then he realized he liked it better when he couldn’t see the green sparks shooting out of her eyes. Was this the way Rachel felt without her glasses?
he
wondered. Like

the
whole world was on the opposite side of fogged glass?

“Bully?
Aunt H—Hester?”
Damned if the whiskey hadn’t numbed his tongue instead of his head. “Is that what Ra—Rachel told you?”

“Not in so many words, but I could tell she was hurting.” She poked a finger at his chest. “Rachel gave everything she had to that ungrateful family of yours, and what did she get back? Not so much as a ‘thank you, ma’am’ or a ‘don’t let the door hit you where the good Lord split you.’”

“Where the good Lord what? Now wait just a minute—”

She jabbed a finger at his nose this time. “So she can’t cook as good as a woman who’s been doing it for thirty years or more? She tried her best, didn’t she? And maybe she did singe a few underdrawers, but that don’t mean you boys didn’t have clean clothes when you needed ’em, along with a smile and a cheery word when you come home tired and hungry.”

“I never said—”

“That’s just it, you fool cowboy. You never
said
nothing
she needed to hear, like how much you appreciated her tryin’ so hard. Or how nice it was that she was there when you come home, or how pretty she looked, or how sweet it was at night to pull her close.” She paused to haul in a breath. “Instead, you washed your hands of her the minute you didn’t need her any more.
Even in the bedroom, behind closed doors, you worthless toad.”

Recalling the nights after his aunt’s arrival when he’d felt too self-conscious to make proper love to his wife, Clint felt heat sear his cheeks. “What occurs between a man and his wife behind closed doors is no concern of yours,” he muttered, staring at the amber liquid in the bottom of his glass.

“Pathetically little happened for you to keep secret, from what I heard! Crinkling corn husks, my hiney.”

Clint stared at her in amazement. “Is
that
why she left? Because I was worried about makin’ noise and wasn’t very—well, you know?”

“That and other things.
Like maybe because you never told her you loved her. Don’t deny it. If you had, she never would of left, not in a million years.”

Clint bristled at that. “I did so! Plain as can be! I told her several times.”

“Not according to Rachel. She says you told her you
thought
maybe you did.”

Clint had no answer for that. Thinking back on it, he recalled now that he had skirted the issue, telling Rachel he thought he loved her, but never saying he knew it for certain. “That still didn’t give her any call to leave,” he said under his breath.

Dora Faye, who glared at him nearly nose to nose, caught the words.
“Oh, really?
And what would have convinced her to stay, you stubborn mule? You married her for her talents as a housekeeper. As I understand it, you never made any bones about it, not from the very first, and Rachel feels like she failed you at every turn.” When Clint tried to protest, she waved him to silence. “Her words, not mine. After good old Aunt Hester showed up, she didn’t feel needed anymore. In fact, she felt like she’d done such a miserable job that you were all hoping she’d leave.”

“That is
not
so.”

A pulse throbbed in Dora Faye’s temple. “She thinks you wish you’d never married her in the first place.”

“That’s silly.”

“Is it? I don’t think so. And after you think about it, I don’t think you will, either.” She fixed him with those fiery green eyes of hers for a long moment. “She’s leavin’ on Monday, you know. Goin’ back east to stay with some relatives and go to some kind of school. And why wouldn’t she? Now that you’ve tossed her back, she has no hope for making a life here in Shady Corners.”

12

The church seemed to be unusually crowded for early services. Rachel stood just outside the doors with her father and sister, held back by the press of people trying to move en masse into the church. Molly kept standing on tiptoe, craning her neck to see. “I wonder what’s happening?” she asked for at least the dozenth time.

“I have no idea,” Rachel replied.

“Well, I’m going to find out!” her father vowed.

He began shoving his way through the crowd, cutting a path for Rachel and Molly in his wake. They fell in after him like farmers behind a plow. Just inside the church doors, Rachel realized the interior of the building seemed oddly quiet. Once people got inside, they usually visited right up until the preacher stepped to his pulpit. She strained to see over the shoulders of men, wondering why the crowd seemed to have gathered at the back of the church.

When at last her father had worked his way through the throng, Rachel felt sure she would discover what was holding everyone back from finding their seats. But at first glance around the church, she saw nothing unusual.

“Hells bells, there she is.
Took you long enough, darlin’.
We were about to give up on you.”

Rachel’s heart leaped. She would have recognized Clint’s voice anywhere. She homed in on the sound and finally made out his blurry outline. He was sitting on the floor, almost precisely where the two of them had been discovered together that other ill-fated morning over two months ago. His back was supported by the rear church pew, one knee raised so he might rest his arm. Beside him sat a jug of liquor.

“Folks, may I present to you my wife?”

Her only thought to get out of there, Rachel pivoted to leave. But the crowd had closed ranks behind her, and there was no way out.

“You can’t run from me, Rachel. Hightail it, and I swear I’ll come after you.”

She turned back to find that he had pushed to his feet. “Why are you doing this?” she asked thinly.

“The way I hear it, you’re planning to leave town. I thought maybe I should clear up a few things before you take off.”

“What things?” she asked expressionlessly.

“Like the fact that I love you.” He took a step toward her. “And that I think you’re beautiful and sweet and absolutely wonderful. And that’s not to mention that I can’t live without you.”

Rachel felt her skin pinken, and she lowered her gaze to the floor. “Oh, Clint, don’t.”

“Oh, Clint, don’t? Why not? Do you think I want to lose you? Dammit, Rachel, you had no business runnin’ off without talkin’ to me. Do you think I care that much if Aunt Hester makes good pies? Hell, no. I like pie as much as the next man, but I can live without it, and so can my brothers. What we can’t do without is the heart of our family.
The love and the laughter.
Havin’ someone around who’ll leave the laundry tub to boil dry if we need her.
Someone to tell stories.
Hell, even Useless misses you.”

She squeezed her eyes closed. “You don’t need me. None of you do!”

“Mart’s drinkin’ again!” he bit out. “And last night I joined him. Cody’s got the nightmares again, too. To top that all off, there’s beef and venison hangin’ in the smokehouse again, and I gotta tell you that
neither the buck or
the steer died of old age. And there’s chickens gettin’ their heads chopped off right and left. You gotta come back, Rachel. That’s all there is to it.
To save the poor animals, if for no other reason.”

“You’ll just have to save them yourself.”

“The place is goin’ to rack and ruin without you.”

“Not with Aunt Hester there! I’m sure she has everything under control. She’s a paragon.”

“She’s someone to help you with the work, and nothin’ more.
Someone to make life a little easier so you can have more fun with your family.
When the babies start comin’, she’ll be an even bigger help. But the bottom line is
,
she’s just a side dish, Rachel, not our main meal. We need you, honey.” He broke off and swallowed hard. “
I
need you.”

Rachel gave a start when his scuffed boots suddenly came into view. The next instant, his large warm hand curled under her chin, and he forced her to look up at him. Rachel discovered that she was standing so close to him that she could see the sooty lashes that lined his eyes, the stormy gray-blue of his irises,
the
burnished tone of his skin. Her heart kicked hard against her ribs. He looked good enough to eat. He surely did.

“You have to come home,” he said huskily. “There aren’t any flowers on the table, and I love you so much, I can’t live without you.”

With no warning, he bent and began fishing in her skirt pocket. When he came up with nothing, he dived his hand into her other pocket as well. A satisfied gleam entered his eyes. The next thing Rachel knew, he was settling her spectacles on her nose. Bending slightly at the knees, he made a great show of looking her over. Then he flashed
her a
devastating grin.

“I knew it. You look adorable in spectacles.” He glanced around, as if to draw comment from others present.

Someone nearby said, “I didn’t know you wore spectacles, Rachel.”

Clint replied, “She darn sure does. She just doesn’t wear them in public because she has the fool notion they don’t look good on her. I disagree. I thin she looks beautiful in them.”

Rachel cried, “Clint, stop it. You’re embarrassing me!”

“Then come home with me,” he demanded in an oddly gruff voice, “so I can tell you in private how beautiful I think you are.”

Tears filled Rachel’s eyes, and her spectacles began to fog over. Clint took hold of her hand.

“Please, Rachel. Come back home where you belong. Every hour I spend apart from you, I die a little more inside. Please…” When she didn’t immediately speak, he hastened to add, “I’m sorry you felt cast aside after Aunt Hester came. Lookin’ back, I can see how it must have seemed to you, me all of a sudden backin’ off and usin’ the corn husks as an excuse. But I swear it wasn’t that way. I truly was worried about her hearin’ us.”

Rachel shot a horrified look around. “Be quiet! Do you want everyone to
hear!
”

“See?” he said with a devilish grin. “It’s a private affair, isn’t it?”

She narrowed her eyes, but it was all she could do not to smile. “You’ve made your point.”

“Then come home,” he said huskily.
“Where we can talk in private.”

“Oh, Clint.
Are you certain you really want—
”

He cut her off with a kiss that answered her question far more eloquently than words. A sweet, wonderful kiss that sent tingles down her spine and made her toes curl. Exactly the kind of kiss Rachel had always dreamed of and had never received.
Until she met Clint Rafferty, of course.

“I love you,” he whispered against her cheek. “Please believe that, Rachel. I’ll love you forever.”

The throbbing timber of his voice, so packed with emotion, would have convinced Rachel. The way his hands shook when he touched her was added proof that he was sincere. Joy welled in her chest, nearly cutting off her breath, and she threw herself into his arms.

His arms…His wonderful strong arms.
The instant they closed around her, Rachel knew she was where she belonged and where she would remain.

For the rest of her life.