This Beautiful Thing (Young Love Series) (18 page)

“He dontah half tha turck anya moe.” He stares drunkenly at her and I fight off a laugh.

“Okay well we will let them figure that out on their own okay? Let’s just get you home.” She rubs the top of his head and he nuzzles her like a cat.

After helping her get him to his feet I watch them stumble out the door. When I can’t see them anymore I turn back to Declan. He’s doing anything but look at me. I know I fucked up big time but I would do anything to erase the hurt written all over his face.

“Come on Declan let’s get you home.” I say trying to meet his eyes. “You don’t have to be this way.”

A look of pure anger came over his face. “Actually Teagan I have to be this way. I don’t care what you have to say to me. I don’t know what you think you’re going to accomplish by coming here and helping. I don’t fucking care.”

Well he certainly isn’t as drunk as Caden. “I don’t know what you’re thinking but I’m just here to get you home. Caden called Grace pouring his heart out while shit faced drunk. She said you were here as well and that I would need to drive your truck home.”

I got a chill that ran down the center of my spine when I see none other than that bitch Claire walk out of the girl’s room. That would have been fine and all but when she walked right over to Declan’s table and sat down next to him all I could see was red. I got even more irate when he looked like he was expecting her. I completely snapped. “What the hell Declan you had to down grade? You can do way better than this cheap slut.”

“Excuse me? Who are you?” she says and she truly looks like she doesn’t know who I am. Great this should be fun.

“I’m Teagan Harper. Ring a bell? I’m the reason you had to have plastic surgery to fix your already fake nose.” I feel as if I have steam coming out of my ears.

She sputters trying to think of a comeback. She turns to Declan “I thought you said she dumped you?”

“She did dump me Claire. Caden called Grace who is roommates with Teagan.” He tells her but she doesn’t seem like she gets it. Airhead much?

“Well then why are you still here? Can’t you see that you’re not wanted?” she curls up to him and I feel sick. She’s touching what should be mine, what I let go because I couldn’t handle my own problems.

“Yeah I can see I’m not wanted. I’ll get out of your hair.” It takes all the will power I have in me to say those words. I have acted immaturely towards Declan and I fucked up big time so there’s no use trying to fix something I can’t.

I turn before crazy bitch has anything to say to that. I walk out the door hoping that I can make it far away before the tears start to fall. That’s when I realize I don’t have a ride home and the dorms are ten miles away. Yeah I’ll tell you right now karma is a bitch.

“Wait Teagan.” I hear him say from behind me. To late those stupid tears started to come. “Let me give you a ride home. Or you can drive because I have had a few to drink.”

I just nod not even turning around. He walks past me out into the parking lot next to the bar. I follow him to his little brother’s Audi. What kind of sick freak I’m I that I made him give up Betty? He loved that truck as much as his brother.

He climbs into the passenger side after unlocking it. I walk to the driver’s side and pause trying to get my tears under control. It’s no use. He leans over and honks the horn scaring me half to death. I get into the car and I look at him. He’s staring out his window avoiding looking at me again. I can’t control my tears anymore as I place my forehead on the steering wheel and sob.

Declan

I can’t take this shit. I couldn’t take it before when I just loved her. Now I love and hate her. I know she isn’t doing this to get a reaction out of me. Teagan was never one to go to dramatic lengths to get what she wants. “Hey stop that. Your making my heart hurt.”

“I can’t…they never stop…I just cry like this all the time…”she sobs into her hands. Her breathing starts to get iritic so I do the only thing I can think of.

I place my hands on her shoulders bringing her to face me. “Teagan baby you have to breathe. Please don’t pass out on me.” I plead with her. “Just look in my eyes and breathe with me.” I breathe in through my nose and out through my mouth. She slowly starts to mimic me and her breathing becomes normal again. Then she doesn’t the one thing that I can’t resist. Her perfect little white teeth bite down on her bottom lip.

I move in quickly before I come to my senses. Just one more night I tell myself. That’s all I’ll take before she walks out of my life forever. When our lips meet I feel like I have come home. When our tongues touch the past four months don’t matter, didn’t even happen. When she runs her fingers through my hair it’s okay to breathe again. And when she climbs over the console and into my lap I no longer hate her at all.

She has her arms caged around my head sucking me into her and I love every second of it. I shouldn’t be doing this with her. She’s only going to break my heart again but I can’t stop. I run my fingers along the end of her shirt moving them up under to feel her creamy skin. It’s better than I remember.

As always with Teagan she can’t take her time with anything. Though right now and not having touched her in four months I’m on this speed train. My shirt goes over my head and I almost lose it when she starts running her hands up and down my bare skin. I want to touch her bare skin to bare skin so I find myself taking off her tank top and tossing it into the back seat. I go for her lacey black bra next and it joins her shirt in the back.

When I see her perfect little pink nipples I think my eyes cross. Then I find myself leaning forward sucking it into my mouth and tonguing the hell out of it. She has her arms caged around my head again with her back arched and her head thrown back. The skin of her back feels so soft as I hold her to me, suckling at her. She’s moaning and rubbing her heat into my groin and I know this is going to be over quick. Almost before it starts. I let her nipple go with an audible pop and look up into her sparklingly green eyes. “Are you wet baby?” I ask her breathless

In answer she closes her eyes and nods her head. I reach my hands under her skirt to tug off her black boy short panties and we have to maneuver around till they are off leaving her in just her skirt. I see her sex in the lamplight from outside and my dick throbs painfully. I pop the top button and pull the zipper and then she takes over taking my dick out of my underwear. She leans her head down to mine and places her lips on mine and then we are devouring each other like it used to be.

Her soft hands make a fist around my hardness tugging it up and down making me crazy. I break from the kiss and pull a condom out of my wallet which is sitting on the dashboard. I tear open the foil package and roll the thing down my dick.

I look up and stare intently into her eyes willing her to say no to get out do something other than have sex with me in my brothers car. She doesn’t listen and before long she is sliding her wetness over my length making me wild. I still her hips with my hands and hold her still while I slowing impale her on me. We both let out a groan when I’m in her all the way. She is so tight and fits me like a glove.

I haven’t even wrapped my head around the face that I’m inside her and she starts moving her hips in a circular motion. That feels so incredibly good. I run my hands up her sides, past her breasts, up her shoulders and neck into her hair and bring her forehead to rest on mine. We stare into each other’s eyes as she rides me. The slow pace she is using is driving me crazy so I put my hands back at her hips and start moving her up and down faster. My thumb moves down to rub at her swollen nub and she moans low and deep. Not once does she look away from my eyes.

I see it when she’s about to come. The fire in her eyes blazing and her mouth forms a perfect O. Her movements get jerky and she lets out a scream while her channel clutches my dick milking it for all its worth. I pound her body into mine as I come groaning. Not once do her eyes leave mine.

*****

After the mind blowing sex we put our clothes back the way they were supposed to be and she drives to my house. We haven’t said anything to each other. I don’t even know what to say. It’s eating at me what we just did. That has to be the stupidest thing I have ever done in my whole life. You don’t have sex with your ex-girlfriend while you’re still in love with her. She’ll just think that it’s okay to come back into my life. Well I have news for her. We are done and we will stay that way. She torn my still beating heart out of my chest and stomped on it. You can’t just let a connection like ours go like she did. I won’t forgive her for something I won’t even forgive my own father for.

As we near my house my hands start to get really sweaty and there’s a nervousness to my stomach like I swallowed butterflies. How do you tell someone that you don’t want to be cruel too, to get lost? Yeah this is going to be one of my favorite conversations ever. She pulls into the driveway and shuts off the engine. We don’t say anything and after a while she just gets out and heads into my house. Well that went so well.

I quickly exit the car and race after her only to find that she grabbed a blanket from the back of the linen closet and curled up on the couch to sleep. “What are you doing?” I ask her for reasons I have no clue.

“I’m going to sleep, what does it look like I’m doing?” she replies without even opening her eyes.

“You’re not sleeping on the couch Teagan. We may not be together anymore but I’m not a complete asshole. I won’t let you sleep there so go up to my room and crash in my bed.” I wait for her to get up and leave but she doesn’t even flinch. “Teagan I mean it go sleep in my bed. I’ll sleep on the couch. Hell it’s the least I can do you drove me home.”

“I’m not sleeping in your bed Declan. “She says it all sternly like a mother or something.

I’m starting to get really pissed here. “Why the fuck not?” I all but yell at her.

“Because it fucking smells like you dumbass!” she does yell at me and I hope she doesn’t wake up Cade or Marcus.

“What’s that have to do with anything?” I sit on the couch because I’m so tired of standing.

“What’s that have to do with anything? Are you a fucking idiot? Really? I fucking love you and you don’t love me back anymore. How am I supposed to sleep somewhere that smells like you and have all those memories? It hurts just being in your house. I feel like someone is stabbing me in the gut just sitting here with you.” She doesn’t look at me while she says this but I feel the pain coming off of her in waves. It matches my own.

“You know this couch has just as many memories. I wanted to burn it but Marcus didn’t like the idea.” I lean back to rest against the back of the couch. I feel like we might get some things off our chests and I want to be comfortable.

“Yeah well it doesn’t smell like you so it’s easier to be here then up there.” She states pointing her finger up the stairs to my room.

“Why did you do it then? You didn’t have to leave me; I would have been there for you. We could have saved ourselves four months of hurt. You could have anyway.” I stare at the back of her head and will her to turn and talk to me. Tell me why she did this to me.

She starts to fidget with her fingers in her lap. “It was too much for me. I know it wasn’t your fault but still the pain of what I lost then having to see you hurt as well. It was overwhelming. I was immature and couldn’t handle the pain I had to carry. So I let you go thinking it would ease but it didn’t. I believe it only made everything worse.”

“I’m sorry that you felt you had to carry that burden all on your own. For someone who has as many family members as you do I don’t see why you have to do everything solo. I would have been there for you Teagan. In fact I’m always here for you, forever and always.” I sigh rubbing my hand down my face. “You aren’t the only one who hurt you know. I think what you did was selfish. We are the only two who went through it. And you left me to go through it on my own. Hell you let yourself go through it alone. You’re right on the fact that you made it worse than it had to be.”

“I know and I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for everything. You didn’t deserve what I put you through. That’s what I do when I panic. I run and push people away. I know what we had was special and I want us to get back to that place. I want us to be happy again.”

I feel my anger boil the blood in my veins. “So you think that you can just walk back into my life and everything will go back to normal? Whose the stupid one now? I can’t be with you again Teagan. I just can’t. You leaving me was the worst thing I have ever had to go through and I won’t do it again.”

Silent tears start to fall down her eyes and I want to hold her and it takes all my will power not to run to her. “So it’s okay to fuck me in your brother’s car out in public but it’s not okay to be with me? Way to make me feel like a whore.”

I flinch. “That’s not what this is about and you know it. We have a strong connection and things happen. You’re not a whore nor will you ever be a whore.”

“Yeah I get what you’re saying. I’m going to go now.” She says and I watch her walk out the front door. I want to get up off this couch and run after her telling her everything will be alright. I don’t I just cry.

Chapter 21

Teagan

I make it to the end of his driveway and pull out my phone. I call the only person who would come and get me. My brother Forest. He answers on the third ring and says he’ll be right there. I don’t have to give him directions so I guess that Caden has had him over here.