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Authors: G. Norman Lippert

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The rest of the cottage was there, but it was different. It was as if every day of the cottage’s existence was crammed into a single moment. Nothing moved, and yet everything seemed to be strangely in flux, shimmering, night over day, winter over summer, decades and seasons all pressed together until they blended into a single seamless tone, like a ringing in the ears.

Boundary lands,
he thought for no reason. It was like a memory, one he couldn’t quite place, spoken in a woman’s voice.
We’re drawn to the boundary lands of life… rivers and valleys, shores and cliffs…
but this one is unusual. Here, the boundary line is a lot deeper… deeper…
The voice was familiar, but Shane couldn’t place it. All he knew for sure was that it wasn’t Marlena, even though—

He looked up. Marlena was there. She stood in the doorway that led down into the basement, her back to him. Shane tried to speak to her, but no sound came. It was as if there was no air, no medium to conduct the sound waves of his voice.

He pushed forward, toward her slight, straight frame. He meant to touch her, for here, unlike in his waking hours, he thought he truly could. He wanted to comfort her, soothe her, draw her into his arms. The cottage swam past him with infuriating sluggishness. It was that kind of dream as well, the kind where space is plastic, elongating in front of you so that you never quite seem to reach your destination, as if some capricious force was constantly pushing you backwards.

And yet he did reach her, suddenly, as if time had once again slipped its gears, launching him forward so that he nearly barreled into her where she stood on the top of the stairs, her back to him, her posture rigid and tense. He reached for her, but before he could touch her, she seemed to sense him. She turned, very slowly, and once again, time became sluggish, focusing in on that single action, as if Marlena herself were standing still and the entire world, Shane included, was swiveling around her, forcing him to look into her face.

Her eyes were as blank and black as ever, but they were no longer cold. They were blindingly hot, pulsing like a blast furnace.

Shane tried to stop himself from touching her, but the inertia was too great. He pressed against her, and she was as rigid as a statue, suddenly towering over him, looking down at him as if from a great height. She was monstrous, her face calm, but her eyes flaming darkly, as if they could turn him into ash right where he stood.

In that moment, he was terrified of her. Not because she meant to hurt him, but because he had disappointed her. He didn’t know how, or why he should even care, but he did. The weight of it crushed him, pressed him down, and she seemed to tower even further over him. The cottage itself drifted away around them, shredding like paper, incinerating into dust. And then, for the first time, Marlena spoke.

“See the sugar bowl do the Tootsie Roll,” she said, her voice huge and clanging, ringing like lead weights in a watery grave. “If you eat too much, uh-oh, you’ll awake with a tummy ache.”

It should have been funny, but it wasn’t. The words were terrible, heartbreaking, lonely, lost. Shane tried to cover his ears to drown out the sound of them, but it was no use. He wasn’t hearing them with his ears.

Darkness fell, and all that was left was the echo of those awful, senseless words and the heat of her eyes, baking out of the darkness, consuming everything. And yet, Shane did not wake. He tossed and turned, sweating, shivering, his pupils switching under the hot film of his eyelids, mumbling to himself.

Outside, Tom the cat had woken up. He sat on the stone wall watching the sunlight wane and die, watching purple storm clouds crowd in over the trees. His ears pricked as Shane thrashed and muttered, but he didn’t turn his head to look. Only his tail moved, twitching and writhing, as if it had a mind of its own.

Chapter Twelve

Shane awoke to the nagging warble of the cordless phone in the next room. He rolled over, not realizing where he was, and nearly fell off the couch. He threw out an arm and caught the top of the ottoman, saving himself from crashing face first onto the sunroom floor. Feeling stiff and stupid, he groaned and pushed himself upright.

The phone rang again. Shane stumbled into the library.

“Shane?”

“Yeah,” he answered, rubbing his eyes. “Hey Morrie.” The light outside the library windows seemed wrong somehow. Too bright.

“You sick or something, pal? You sound awful, if you don’t mind my saying.”

“Why would I mind that, you insensitive prick? I’m fine.”

“Glad to hear it,” Morrie replied cheerfully. “Even gladder to hear about how things are going with the Florida series. You really have the title piece done and ready to roll?”

“I do. It’s upstairs now, calling your name. How do you want it?”

“Any way I can get it. I was thinking about sending somebody out there this morning, but no couriers are running today. I’d do it myself, but I got priors. My nephew’s available this afternoon around two. I thought it’d be best for me to check in with you first, anyway. You going to be around?”

“Today,” Shane repeated, confused. “You mean tonight? Isn’t it a little late?”

“What do you mean? A little late for what?”

“For anything. I mean, it’s got to be…” Shane trailed off, looking out the window again. He’d been about to say
it’s got to be seven P.M.,
but that couldn’t be right. It was far too light outside for that. If it was seven, it’d be mostly dark outside, wouldn’t it? Instead, the sun shone brightly, sparkling on the wet grass of the side yard.

On the phone, Morrie went on. “I know, it’s Sunday, but I’m a control freak, all right? An extra day is an extra day, and my Photoshop guy doesn’t have your sparkling penchant for deadlines. Sooner I get that canvas to him, the better. But if it’s no good for you, don’t sweat it. We’ll work something out for Monday.”

“No,” Shane said distractedly, carrying the phone into the kitchen, peering through the window over the sink. The sun was bright over the trees on the other side of the river. Could he have actually slept through the entire night on the couch in the sunroom? He’d never done such a thing before. It was extremely disquieting. “No, that’s fine. Send your guy on over. If I’m not in, I’ll leave the painting in the front room and a key under the mat.”

“Great,” Morrie agreed. “His name’s Derek. Tall kid with glasses and a tat on his neck. Looks like a damn skinhead, but don’t let him fool you. He’s a decent kid. Two or three this afternoon, all right?”

“Sounds fine,” Shane replied, still staring out the kitchen window. Suddenly, he blinked and glanced aside. “Wait. What about Christiana?”

“What about her?”

“Er, I was just thinking, she’s the one you sent last time. Sorry, I’m probably being nosy. Just curious.”

“Well, she
is
a lot easier on the eyes than Derek, I’ll give you that, but it’s Sunday. I wouldn’t call her even if I thought I’d get hold of her. She’s been M.I.A. for a few days.”

“What?” Shane said, feeling suddenly very cold. “What do you mean? Is she on vacation or something?”

“Nah. She just hasn’t shown up at the office. Not since Thursday. Not answering her cell either. She left me a message saying she might have to take some time off, but I figured she meant to arrange something, not just up and vanish on me.”

Shane clutched the phone tightly and struggled to keep his voice even. “That seems pretty strange, don’t you think?”

“Nah, she’s done it before. She has a pretty loose schedule here, works whenever she wants to squeeze it in, unless I need something special. She’s never been gone this long before, but she’ll turn up, acting like nothing’s happened, like everything’s perfectly normal. That’s just how she is. Besides, I’m sure I’d have heard about it if she was found dead in a ditch somewhere.”

Shane couldn’t say anything. His lips felt sewn shut. Completely unbidden, snippets of last night’s dream sprang up in his mind:
Boundary lands
; Marlena’s searing black eyes, the dead clang of her voice, saying
if you eat too much, uh-oh, you’ll awake with a tummy ache
.

“You cool, Shane?” Morrie said, his voice sounding tiny and unimportant in the telephone earpiece. “You sound like you’re fading out on me there.”

“I’m here,” Shane said, amazed at how normal his voice sounded. “I’m cool.”

“Great. Nice work on the Florida series. Let me know when you get the last pieces done and maybe I’ll come collect them myself and we’ll hoist a few, all right? See you, Shane.”

“Yeah,” Shane said, and then dropped the phone on the floor as he reached to turn it off. He heard it clunk onto the kitchen tile and looked down at it dazedly. The dial tone buzzed up at him from the floor; Greenfeld had hung up, thankfully.

Feeling strangely numb, Shane squatted to retrieve the phone. His fingers were shaking as he reached for his wallet and opened it. Christiana’s card, the one she had given him at the art show, was tucked into a pocket in the back. He pulled it out and stared at it. Two numbers were printed underneath her name, one marked “office” and the other marked “cell”. Knowing it was no use, Shane dialed the second set of numbers.

He lifted the phone to his ear and listened. The electronic burr of the rings began. He counted them. After nine rings, the phone still hadn’t clicked over to her answering service. Shane lowered the phone, not even bothering to hang it up. Dangling at his side, the earpiece continued to burr incessantly. Shane listened, feeling weak and utterly hopeless.

Time seemed to have overlapped on him, taken him right back to that day at The Spring Garden, the day he learned that he’d never hear from Steph again because she was dead, struck down by a red truck with GMC printed on its huge chrome grill, just like in the drawing sprawled across his cellar floor. He’d thought he could change it, alter it with a few bits of leftover chalk, but of course that had been silly. You couldn’t change destiny. He felt vaguely sick.

Uh oh,
a voice in his head chided gaily,
you’ll awake with a tummy ache…

Shane lifted the phone to push the “end” button, and then stopped. There was something odd about the sound of the incessant ringing in the earpiece. It almost seemed to be echoing.

Shane stood very still and listened. The phone in his hands burred, and almost immediately afterwards, very faintly, came a sort of electronic chime. Shane frowned, straining to hear. The noise seemed to be coming from outside, near the front of the cottage.

Still carrying the phone, listening to the burr of the ring in the earpiece and the subsequent distant chime, Shane walked through the library. Sure enough, the chiming sound grew slightly louder. It was coming from outside. Shane began to walk faster, approaching the door. He pulled it open more forcefully than he’d intended to, clambering out onto the little porch that overlooked the driveway, his eyes widening and his heart suddenly pounding.

There was a car parked on the woods side of his pickup, a bottle-green Saturn. Shane had seen it before, but only once. Its rear windows were open slightly, and out of them came the persistent chime of a ringing cell phone.

Shane hunkered down to peer into the side window, cupping his hands to his face to cut the glare of the morning sun. There didn’t seem to be anyone inside. And then behind him, shocking him so much that his knees nearly unhinged, a voice spoke.

“Peeing outside is a lot easier for boys than girls,” the voice said, sounding bleary and vaguely annoyed. “I’m too tired to explain much more than that right now.”

Shane turned around, a grin of helpless, monumental relief spreading across his face. Christiana was approaching from the direction of the woods, her dark hair mussed and her blouse untucked, flapping over a pair of jeans. She’d obviously slept in her car, right here in his driveway. Shane couldn’t begin to guess why, but for the moment, he didn’t care.

Christiana stopped ten feet away and squinted at him. “What are you smiling about, anyway? Aren’t you wondering why in the hell I’m here?”

Shane shook his head wonderingly. “Just my lucky day, I guess.” He drew a deep, shaky breath and nodded toward the cottage, still smiling. “What do you say? You want some coffee this time?”

“I’d like to say that I didn’t know what Randy was like. It feels so stupid. To have known, almost from the very beginning, probably from the first time we ever went out, and to still stay with him.

“I wish I could say he kept up a really good image for a long time, until after we’d been together long enough to make me care about him. Long enough to make it hard to walk away. But that’s not true. My parents didn’t raise any idiots. I knew he was trouble, right from the very beginning. I didn’t know how
much.
There’s that, at least. But that’s no excuse.

“I kept telling myself he’d never turn it on me. Later, I told myself it’d never be more than words. He’d never actually raise a hand to me. He wouldn’t stoop that low. Then, after he did, I told myself the same thing that all women in abusive relationships eventually tell themselves: I told myself it was my fault; that I’d asked for it. When I heard myself say that, that’s what finally woke me up. I looked in the mirror, at the bruises on my upper arms where his fingers had dug in, where he’d held me and shook me, and I realized I’d begun to believe it—that I deserved it, that it was my fault for making him so angry.

“And I stopped and just stared at myself, my mouth dropped open. It would have been funny, at another place and time, that look of comic surprise. And I thought, ‘When did I become
that
girl? The weak one? The one who makes excuses for the abuse she takes?’”

Christiana stopped and pressed her lips together. She sat on the patio next to Shane, cupping a large red mug of coffee between both of her hands, staring out at the current below the bluff. She was sitting in the chair that Brian had occupied during his and his grandfather’s visit. Shane sat in the other chair, watching Christiana as she watched the river. She was wearing a long-sleeved button-down blouse, tangerine colored, still un-tucked. The sleeves were unbuttoned and rolled up, but not enough to show her upper arms.

She’d been virtually silent since Shane had invited her in. She’d merely perched on the edge of the kitchen counter and hugged herself, warming by the stove as Shane made the coffee. He’d been content with the silence, not knowing what her story was, but knowing that when it came, it probably wasn’t going to be very nice. Shane had known a few women who’d been in abusive relationships. He knew enough about the dynamics of such relationships to know that you could never guess what kind of woman might be involved in one. In Christiana’s case, he was surprised, but not quite shocked.

She drew a long, deep breath and went on.

“I’ve been with Randy since my second year at Wash U. We met in copyright law. I was interested in that class because I was interested in art, and copyright is an important issue with the arts, especially in the digital age. He was smart and funny. Decent-enough looking, even if he did dress a little like a grown-up version of Alex P. Keaton. You remember him? Michael J. Fox in that show, ‘Family Ties’? Huh. Hardly anybody remembers that reference anymore.

“Randy carried a briefcase. I mean, lots of guys carry briefcases in law school, but with Randy… it was kind of the whole package. He wore sweater vests and wingtip shoes and slacks with creases right down the leg, razor sharp, like his butler had ironed them fresh that morning. But I knew he lived alone, in an apartment off-campus, a little basement flat with nothing but a bedroom, a bathroom, and a cook-top. I knew that because he’d dated one of the other girls in class, a friend of mine named Angel. They’d gone out once or twice and she’d gotten bored with him. She said he was nice enough, but too intense. Too serious.

“He packed his own lunches and carried them in his briefcase. If it had been two or three years earlier, I’d have thought he was a hopeless geek, but I was in college then, and prided myself on my open-mindedness, my fairness. I could tell that he was interested in me. Randy was quiet, but he wasn’t timid. He had this insufferable, stupid confidence that drove me a little crazy. He seemed to believe that I’d go out with him, no matter what. It was like he knew that, anywhere else, he’d never have a chance with a girl like me, but there, in law school, in copyright law, he was in his element. There, he was the smart one with the bright future. There, he was the big fish in the little pond. Naturally, the girl fishy in that little pond would recognize how great he was.

“And the stupid thing is, he was right. That’s exactly how it happened. Back home, I’d never have dated a guy like him. Not just because he was skinny and arrogant and dressed like Alex P. Keaton, but because some part of me knew he was trouble, right from the beginning. Probably, that was even part of what drew me to him.

“And don’t tell me that it was a stupid thing to do. I already know that. I knew it then, even. All girls do. I went along with him
because
he was trouble, because I was already feeling some resentment at my parents for pushing me into their world, and I wanted to revolt. I wasn’t ready to quit school yet, like I did a little while later, but I was ready to rebel against my parents, at least in some small, secret way. I knew my parents would never approve of Randy. My father would have smelled him from across a crowded room. My parents would have hated him. That was enough reason for me to be with him, in spite of everything. Take
that,
Mom and Dad.

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