And then his mind, which had been woolgathering, was snapped back to the present. Two gentlemen on horseback paused beside the curricle and Hugo, looking at the nearer of the two, saw a man he did not know. It was hardly surprising. He knew no one.
It was the other one who spoke to Lady Muir.
“Gwen, my dear girl!” he exclaimed in a voice that was so familiar that Hugo’s stomach immediately churned with nausea.
“Jason,” she said.
Lieutenant-Colonel Grayson, not in uniform today, looking as coldly handsome as ever and as arrogant and as supercilious. He was one of the few military officers of Hugo’s acquaintance whom he had truly hated. Grayson had made his life hell from the first day to the last, and he had had the power to do it in style. Twice he had succeeded in blocking promotions that Hugo had earned both by seniority and by prowess. Climbing the ladder had been a slow business as long as Grayson’s eyes had been on him—and they always were—gazing contemptuously along the length of his aristocratic nose.
His eyes were on Hugo now.
“The hero of Badajoz,” he said, making his words sound like the grossest of insults. “
Lord
Trentham. Are you sure you know what you are doing, Gwen? Are you sure you have not granted the favor of your company to a mirage?”
“I take it, Jason,” Lady Muir said while Hugo looked steadily back at him, his jaw tight, “that you know Lord Trentham? And that he was indeed the commander of the brilliantly successful Forlorn Hope at Badajoz? Have
you
made his acquaintance, Sir Isaac? Sir Isaac Bartlett, Lord Trentham.”
She was referring to the other rider. Hugo switched his gaze to him and inclined his head.
“Bartlett,” he said.
“I did not know you were in town, Gwen,” Grayson said. “I shall do myself the honor of calling upon you at … Kilbourne House?”
“Yes,” she said.
“It would seem,” he said, “that Kilbourne is too indulgent. You need advice and guidance from the head of your late husband’s family, since you are not getting it from the head of your own.”
And he nodded and rode on. Sir Isaac Bartlett smiled at both of them, tipped his hat to Lady Muir, and followed.
The hatred was pointless, Hugo decided as he moved his curricle onward. What had happened during his years in the military was long in the past and would remain there. But he was too preoccupied with quelling the hatred he felt anyway to concentrate any attention upon Lady Muir beside him as they completed the circuit and she called gaily to a number of acquaintances. He was surprised, then, when he turned his head to ask if she wished to do the circuit one more time, as most people seemed to be doing, and discovered that her face was pale and drawn. Even her lips were white.
“Take me home,” she said.
He drew the curricle away from the crowd without delay.
“You are unwell?” he asked.
“Just a little … faint,” she said. “I will be fine after I have had a cup of tea.”
He turned and looked at her again. And he heard the echo of the words she had spoken with Grayson—or, more particularly, the words he had spoken to her.
“Lieutenant-Colonel Grayson upset you?” he asked. Probably the man had an even higher rank by now.
“Viscount Muir?” she said.
He frowned in incomprehension.
“He is Viscount Muir now,” she said. “He was Vernon’s cousin and heir.”
Ah. Small world. But the man’s final words to her were now explained.
“He has upset you?” he said.
“He killed Vernon,” she said. “He and I together.”
And she turned her head to look away from him as his curricle moved out into the street. Only the brim of her bonnet and the primroses and greenery were visible to him.
She did not look back again or say anything else. She offered no explanation.
And Hugo could not think of a blessed thing to say.
Incredibly, Gwen had not seen Jason, Lord Muir, since he succeeded to the title, or at least not since Vernon’s funeral.
Or perhaps it was not so very surprising. He had not given up his career when the title became his. He still had not, as far as Gwen knew. He was a general now. He was, presumably, a very important man in the army. He was probably away from England for much of his time or else was in parts of the country remote from London. If he had ever spent time in town, it must have been when she was not here. She had even stopped holding her breath each year for fear that she would see him.
He had been two years Vernon’s senior, and had dominated his younger cousin in every imaginable way except possibly in looks—and in social rank. He had been larger, stronger, more successful at school, more athletic, more popular with his peers, more forceful in character. Whenever he had had an extended leave from his regiment, he had spent much of it with them. He had needed to keep an eye on his inheritance, he had always said with a loud laugh, as though he were making a joke. Vernon had always laughed with him in genuine merriment. Gwen’s laughter had been more guarded.
Vernon had adored Jason, and Jason had seemed fond of him. He had tried to jolly Vernon out of the dismals whenever he found him in one of his black moods, with admonitions that he had the title to live up to, that he must be more of a
man,
more of a husband for his beautiful wife. He had always been loudly jocular with Gwen, telling her that she must hurry up and produce an heir as well as a spare so that he could relax and concentrate upon his career. He had always laughed loudly at his own joke, and Vernon had laughed with him. He had once or twice set an arm about Gwen’s shoulders and hugged her to his side, though he had never made any more overt advances to her. She had always cringed with revulsion anyway. He had apparently been the first to reach her side when she fell from her horse. He had been with them on that occasion, riding a short distance behind her—a very short distance when she had made the jump, almost as though he had felt that he needed to urge her horse to jump high enough.
He had wept inconsolably at Vernon’s death and again at his funeral.
Gwen had never known how much was sincerity with him and how much was artifice. She had never known if he loved Vernon or hated him, if he coveted the title or was indifferent to it, if he was really sorrowful at her miscarriage or secretly glad.
And of course he had not
literally
killed Vernon, any more than she had.
She had always hated him with a passion and felt guilty about it, for he never did anything overt to deserve it and she might have been doing him a dreadful injustice. What other military man, after all, would weep publicly over the death of a cousin? He was one of Vernon’s few surviving relatives and the only one who had been in any way attentive to him. Vernon’s father had died young, and his mother had not lived much longer. Vernon had succeeded to his title at the age of fourteen and had been governed by a pair of competent but humorless guardians until he reached his majority. He had had no brothers or sisters.
Now she had seen Jason again after seven years. And he was threatening to call at Kilbourne House. Neville, he had had the effrontery to say, was too indulgent with her. He must give her advice
as head of her late husband’s family
. As though he were head of
her
family. She liked him no better now than she had all those years ago.
She fumed inwardly but said nothing at home.
She called at Lord Trentham’s the morning after he had called upon her and was introduced to his languid stepmother, who resembled her daughter to a remarkable degree. Gwen bore Miss Emes off to her own dressmaker.
The shopping trip cheered her up a great deal, long and exhausting though it was. She always enjoyed shopping, and having a pretty young girl to dress from head to toe for any number of upcoming occasions was as much fun as she had expected it to be. Especially as the girl’s brother had given them carte blanche to spend as much as they wished.
She had missed a visit from Jason while she was out. So had her mother and Lily, who had gone to spend the day with Claudia, Joseph’s wife, who was suffering from the nausea that came with early pregnancy—her second. But Neville had been at home.
“He said something about feeling responsible for you as head of the family,” Neville said to Gwen as they sat at a late luncheon. “I was obliged to poker up and stare him down and ask him to which family exactly he was referring. No offense intended, Gwen, but the Graysons have not been scrambling to take care of you since Vernon’s passing, have they?”
“I suppose,” Gwen said, “he thought it ought to be beneath the dignity of a Grayson, even just the widow of a Grayson, to be seen in Hyde Park with a former military officer whose heroism was so extraordinary that the king himself rewarded him with a title.”
“He did hint,” Neville said, “that Captain Emes—that is how he referred to Trentham—was perhaps not as heroic on that occasion as the king among others was led to believe. I did not invite him to elaborate. I am sorry, Gwen. Ought I to have? You have never said much about Vernon’s cousin and successor. Are you fond of him and inclined to take advice from him?”
“Neither,” Gwen said, “and I never did like him, though admittedly he never gave me particular cause. I hope you informed him, Nev, that I reached the age of majority years ago and no longer have a husband to whom I owe obedience. I hope you informed him that I am quite capable of choosing my own friends and escorts.”
“It is almost exactly what I told him,” Neville said. “I even flirted with the idea of raising a quizzing glass to my eye, but I decided that would be too much of an affectation. Are you regretting that you refused Trentham’s offer at Newbury?”
“No.” She paused in her eating and looked at him. She was glad her mother was not here. “But I have agreed to introduce his sister to the
ton,
Neville, and therefore I will be seeing him. I like him. Do you disapprove?”
He set his elbows on the table and steepled his fingers against his mouth.
“Because he is not a gentleman?” he said. “No, I do not disapprove, Gwen. I am not Wilma, you will be glad to know. I trust your judgment. I married Lily in the Peninsula, you will remember, when I thought she was my sergeant’s daughter. I loved her then, and I loved her when I discovered later that she is actually a duke’s daughter. The apparent change in her status made no difference whatsoever to my feelings for her. Trentham just seems … morose.”
“He is,” she said. “Or, rather, moroseness is the mask behind which he feels most comfortable.”
Gwen smiled, and no more was said on the subject.
Jason did not call again at Kilbourne House.
Chapter 15
Fiona had succumbed to a mysterious illness, which kept her confined to her bed in a darkened room. No one but Constance was able to bring her any comfort. Her physician, whom Hugo summoned to the house at her request, could not shed any light upon what ailed her beyond saying that his patient was of a delicate constitution and ought to be protected from any major changes in her life. According to him, she still had not recovered her health after the untimely demise of her husband just a little over a year ago.
Constance proclaimed herself willing to devote her time to her mother’s care—or to
sacrifice
herself, Hugo thought.
He went to see his stepmother in her room.
“Fiona,” he said, seating himself on the chair beside her bed, which his sister had occupied all too frequently in the past few days, “I am sorry you are unwell. Your family is sorry too. Quite deeply concerned, in fact.”
She opened her eyes and turned her head on the pillow to look at him.
“I went to their shop to call on them yesterday,” he said. “They are prospering and happy. They made me very welcome. The only real blot on their happiness is never seeing you, never knowing how you are. Your mother and your sister and sister-inlaw would be very happy to call on you here, to spend time with you, to help nurse you back to health and cheerful spirits.”
He did not know if cheerful spirits were even possible for Fiona. He suspected, painful though it was for him since it was his father of whom he thought, that she had sacrificed all real hope for happiness when she had been offered a chance to marry a man who was so wealthy that it was impossible to refuse him.
She stared at him with dull, red-rimmed eyes.
“Shopkeepers!” she said.
“Prosperous and happy shopkeepers,” he said. “The business does well enough to support them all, and that includes your two nephews, your brother’s sons. Your sister is betrothed to a solicitor, younger son of a gentleman of modest means. They have done well, Fiona. And they love you. They long to meet Constance.”
She plucked at the sheet that covered her.
“They would have been
nothing,
” she said, “if I had not married your father and if he had not squandered a small fortune on them.”
“They are well aware of that,” he said, “and they feel nothing but gratitude to both you and my father. But money is squandered only when it is wasted. The financial assistance he gave them because they were your relatives and he adored you was used wisely and well. They never applied to him for more. They never needed to. Let your mother come to see you. She asked me if you were still as dazzlingly pretty as you used to be, and I told her quite truthfully that you are—or that you will be when you are well again.”
She turned her head away from him once more.
“You are the head of the house now, Hugo,” she said bitterly. “If you choose to bring my mother here, I cannot stop you.”
He opened his mouth to say more but then shut it again. She did not feel she could say yes, he supposed, without somehow losing face. So she had put the responsibility of the decision upon his shoulders. Well, they were broad enough.
“It is time for your medicine,” he said, getting to his feet. “I’ll send Constance to you.”
All people, he thought with a sigh as he left the room, had their own demons to be fought—or not fought. Perhaps that was what life was all about. Perhaps life was a test to see how well we deal with our own particular demons, and how much sympathy we show others as they tread their own particular path through life. As someone had once said—was it in the Bible?—it is easy enough to see the speck of dust in someone else’s eye while remaining unaware of the plank in one’s own.