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Authors: Orhan Pamuk

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The Museum of Innocence

Orhan Pamuk
The Museum Of Innocence

ALSO BY ORHAN PAMUK

Other Colors

Istanbul

Snow

My Name Is Red

The White Castle

The Black Book

The New Life

To Rüya

These were innocent people, so innocent that they thought poverty a crime that wealth would allow them to forget.


from the notebooks of Celál Salik

If a man could pass thro’ Paradise in a Dream, and have a flower presented to him as a pledge that his Soul had really been there, and found that flower in his hand when he awoke—Aye? and what then?


from the notebooks of Samuel Taylor Coleridge

First I surveyed the little trinkets on the table, her lotions and her perfumes. I picked them up and examined them one by one. I turned her little watch over in my hand. Then I looked at her wardrobe. All those dresses and accessories piled one on top of the other. These things that every woman used to complete herself—they induced in me a painful and desperate loneliness; I felt myself hers, I longed to be hers.


from the notebooks of Ahmet Hamdi Tanpınar

CONTENTS

Acknowledgments

1.
The Happiest Moment of My Life

2.
The Şanzelize Boutique

3.
Distant Relations

4.
Love at the Office

5.
Fuaye

6.
Füsun’s Tears

7.
The Merhamet Apartments

8.
Turkey’s First Fruit Soda

9.
F

10.
City Lights and Happiness

11.
The Feast of the Sacrifice

12.
Kissing on the Lips

13.
Love, Courage, Modernity

14.
Istanbul’s Streets, Bridges, Hills, and Squares

15.
A Few Unpalatable Anthropological Truths

16.
Jealousy

17.
My Whole Life Depends on You Now

18.
Belkıs’s Story

19.
At the Funeral

20.
Füsun’s Two Conditions

21.
My Father’s Story: Pearl Earrings

22.
The Hand of Rahmi Efendi

23.
Silence

24.
The Engagement Party

25.
The Agony of Waiting

26.
An Anatomical Chart of Love Pains

27.
Don’t Lean Back That Way, You Might Fall

28.
The Consolation of Objects

29.
By Now There Was Hardly a Moment When I Wasn’t Thinking About Her

30.
Füsun Doesn’t Live Here Anymore

31.
The Streets That Reminded Me of Her

32.
The Shadows and Ghosts I Mistook for Füsun

33.
Vulgar Distractions

34.
Like a Dog in Outer Space

35.
The First Seeds of My Collection

36.
To Entertain a Small Hope That Might Allay My Heartache

37.
The Empty House

38.
The End-of Summer Party

39.
Confession

40.
The Consolations of Life in a
Yali

41.
Swimming on My Back

42.
The Melancholy of Autumn

43.
Cold and Lonely November Days

44.
Fatih Hotel

45.
A Holiday on Uludağ

46.
Is It Normal to Leave Your Fiancée in the Lurch?

47.
My Father’s Death

48.
The Most Important Thing in Life Is to Be Happy

49.
I Was Going to Ask Her to Marry Me

50.
This Is the Last Time I’ll Ever See Her!

51.
Happiness Means Being Close to the One You Love, That’s All

52.
A Film About Life and Agony Should Be Sincere

53.
An Indignant and Broken Heart Is of No Use to Anyone

54.
Time

55.
Come Again Tomorrow, and We Can Sit Together Again

56.
Lemon Films Inc
.

57.
On Being Unable to Stand Up and Leave

58.
Tombala

59.
Getting Past the Censors

60.
Evenings on the Bosphorus, at the Huzur Restaurant

61.
To Look

62.
To Help Pass the Time

63.
The Gossip Column

64.
The Fire on the Bosphorus

65.
The Dogs

66.
What Is This?

67.
Cologne

68.
4,213 Cigarette Stubs

69.
Sometimes

70.
Broken Lives

71.
You Hardly Ever Come Here Anymore, Kemal Bey

72.
Life, Too, Is Just Like Love…

73.
Füsun’s Driving License

74.
Tarik Bey

75.
The İnci Patisserie

76.
The Cinemas of Beyoğlu

77.
The Grand Semiramis Hotel

78.
Summer Rain

79.
Journey to Another World

80.
After the Accident

81.
The Museum of Innocence

82.
Collectors

83.
Happiness

ORHAN PAMUK expresses his gratitude to Sila Okur for ensuring fidelity to the Turkish text; to his editor and friend George Andreou, for his meticulous editing of the translation; and to Kiran Desai for generously giving her time to read the final text, and for her invaluable suggestions and ideas.

1

The Happiest Moment of My Life

IT WAS the happiest moment of my life, though I didn’t know it. Had I known, had I cherished this gift, would everything have turned out differently? Yes, if I had recognized this instant of perfect happiness, I would have held it fast and never let it slip away. It took a few seconds, perhaps, for that luminous state to enfold me, suffusing me with the deepest peace, but it seemed to last hours, even years. In that moment, on the afternoon of Monday, May 26, 1975, at about a quarter to three, just as we felt ourselves to be beyond sin and guilt so too did the world seem to have been released from gravity and time. Kissing Füsun’s shoulder, already moist from the heat of our lovemaking, I gently entered her from behind, and as I softly bit her ear, her earring must have come free and, for all we knew, hovered in midair before falling of its own accord. Our bliss was so profound that we went on kissing, heedless of the fall of the earring, whose shape I had not even noticed.

Outside the sky was shimmering as it does only in Istanbul in the spring. In the streets people still in their winter clothes were perspiring, but inside shops and buildings, and under the linden and chestnut trees, it was still cool. We felt the same coolness rising from the musty mattress on which we were making love, the way children play, happily forgetting everything else. A breeze wafted in through the balcony window, tinged with the sea and linden leaves; it lifted the tulle curtains, and they billowed down again in slow motion, chilling our naked bodies. From the bed of the back bedroom of the second-floor apartment, we could see a group of boys playing football in the garden below, swearing furiously in the May heat, and as it dawned on us that we were enacting, word for word, exactly those indecencies, we stopped making love to look into each other’s eyes and smile. But so great was our elation that the joke life had sent us from the back garden was forgotten as quickly as the earring.

When we met the next day, Füsun told me she had lost one of her earrings. Actually, not long after she had left the preceding afternoon, I’d spotted it nestled in the blue sheets, her initial dangling at its tip, and I was about to put it aside when, by a strange compulsion, I slipped it into my pocket. So now I said, “I have it here, darling,” as I reached into the right-hand pocket of my jacket hanging on the back of a chair. “Oh, it’s gone!” For a moment, I glimpsed a bad omen, a hint of malign fate, but then I remembered that I’d put on a different jacket that morning, because of the warm weather. “It must be in the pocket of my other jacket.”

“Please bring it tomorrow. Don’t forget,” Füsun said, her eyes widening. “It is very dear to me.”

“All right.”

Füsun was eighteen, a poor distant relation, and before running into her a month ago, I had all but forgotten she existed. I was thirty and about to become engaged to Sibel, who, according to everyone, was the perfect match.

2

The Şanzelize Boutique

THE SERIES of events and coincidences that were to change my entire life had begun a month before on April 27, 1975, when Sibel happened to spot a handbag designed by the famous Jenny Colon in a shop window as we were walking along Valikonağı Avenue, enjoying the cool spring evening. Our formal engagement was not far off; we were tipsy and in high spirits. We’d just been to Fuaye, a posh new restaurant in NiŞantaŞı; over supper with my parents, we had discussed at length the preparations for the engagement party, which was scheduled for the middle of June so that Nurcihan, Sibel’s friend since her days at Notre Dame de Sion Lycée and then her years in Paris, could come from France to attend. Sibel had long ago arranged for her engagement dress to be made by Silky İsmet, then the most expensive and sought-after dressmaker in Istanbul, and that evening Sibel and my mother discussed how they might sew on the pearls my mother had given her for the dress. It was my future father-in-law’s express wish that his only daughter’s engagement party be as extravagant as a wedding, and my mother was only too delighted to help fulfill that wish as best as she could. As for my father, he was charmed enough by the prospect of a daughter-in-law who had “studied at the Sorbonne,” as was said in those days among the Istanbul bourgeoisie of any girl who had gone to Paris for any kind of study.

It was as I walked Sibel home that evening, my arm wrapped lovingly around her sturdy shoulders, noting to myself with pride how happy and lucky I was, that Sibel said, “Oh what a beautiful bag!” Though my mind was clouded by the wine, I took note of the handbag and the name of the shop, and at noon the next day I went back. In fact I had never been one of those suave, chivalrous playboys always looking for the least excuse to buy women presents or send them flowers, though perhaps I longed to be one. In those days, bored Westernized housewives of the affluent neighborhoods like ŞiŞli, NiŞantaŞı, and Bebek did not open “art galleries” but boutiques, and stocked them with trinkets and whole ensembles smuggled in luggage from Paris and Milan, or copies of “the latest” dresses featured in imported magazines like
Elle
and
Vogue
, selling these goods at ridiculously inflated prices to other rich housewives who were as bored as they were. As she would remind me when I tracked her down many years later, Şenay Hanım, then proprietress of the Şanzelize (its name a transliteration of the legendary Parisian avenue), was, like Füsun, a very distant relation on my mother’s side. The fact that she gave me the shop sign that had once hung on the door as well as any other object connected to Füsun without once questioning the reasons for my excessive interest in the since-shuttered establishment led me to understand that some of the odder details of our story were known to her, and indeed had had a much wider circulation than I had assumed.

When I walked into the Şanzelize at around half past twelve the next day, the small bronze double-knobbed camel bell jingled two notes that can still make my heart pound. It was a warm spring day, and inside the shop it was cool and dark. At first I thought there was no one there, my eyes still adjusting to the gloom after the noonday sunlight. Then I felt my heart in my throat, with the force of an immense wave about to crash against the shore.

“I’d like to buy the handbag on the mannequin in the window,” I managed to say, staggered at the sight of her.

“Do you mean the cream-colored Jenny Colon?”

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