“What?” Astounded at his words, Orelia had to remind herself to close her mouth.
“Let me explain. When you first arrived home Alice convinced me that your child wasn't John's. She said at best you and John had agreed to allow someone else to father a child on you; at worst you'd been raped by some Scotsman.”
Orelia couldn't find her voice to answer such an outrageous accusation. She stood and faced Richard, checking her desire to slap his face. “How dare youâ”
“Calm down, Orelia. I'm trying to apologize for entertaining such thoughts. Although it pains me to admit it, if Iain didn't look so much like John, I might still believe Alice and not you.”
“But you do believe me?”
“Yes.”
Orelia shook her head in disbelief. “You will truly acknowledge Iain as John's heir? Even though you've told the king and everyone else that I died?”
Richard appeared chagrined. “I will throw myself on Edward's mercy, explain that I feared for my wife's . . .” He paused, put his hand to his forehead and rubbed it. “You've seen Alice. I fear for her mind. That will help explain our lie to some extent, but I am ready to face the consequences of my own actions.”
“But why, Richard? What do you gain from this?”
Richard's expression became grim. “Even though I have not behaved as such, I am a man of honor and no one, not even my wife, will force me to continue in such a reprehensible fashion. But please, Orelia, I beg you not to say anything of this to Alice. I fear . . . I'm not sure what she'll do from one day to the next. Let me see to things.”
“Would she harm the children?”
He swallowed so hard Orelia could see his Adam's apple bob. “I honestly don't know the answer to that. She has said she'd rather see Richard dead than see him denied the title.”
Orelia gasped. “ 'Tis worse than I thought.”
Once again he ran his fingers through his dark, wavy hair. “Much worse than I would have believed possible. I can't go to London to see Edward and leave her here unsupervised, so I've sent for Alice's cousin, George of Wellsey.”
With delight she said, “John's squire.” She hadn't seen George since he and John left the tent that day of the battle. “How is he? I had heard he suffered a wound at Bannockburn.”
He waved his hand. “A minor injuryâhe's fine.”
John had trusted George with his life, so Orelia felt sure she could trust George with Iain's.
“She's always been fond of the man, and he's agreed to watch over things here while I go to London. He'll keep her calm while I see the king and locate an appropriate healer for Alice.”
“Why not wait until Alice is better to see the king?”
“I have waited long enough. The lie doesn't get any easier to defend the longer it lives. Best to clear this up and see to Alice's malady afterward. Then you can resume your life, once you are brought back among the living.”
He gave her a rueful smile, and again Orelia saw his resemblance to her dead husband. The likeness among the Radbourne men was truly uncanny. Irrefutable. Orelia stood and went to Richard, giving him a hug.
Though he resisted at first, he obviously needed comfort and soon wrapped his arms around her. “Can you move to the tower by tomorrow, Orelia? Placate her on this?”
“Yes, I will do it for you.” She pulled away. “Thank you, Richard. For doing the right thing when it means losing so much.”
He dropped his arms. “If I had onlyâ”
“Let me finish. The title means little, but your acknowledgment of Iain as John's true son . . . your nephew . . .” She wiped away a tear. “That means all the world to me. Thank you.”
“I am only sorry it has taken me so long. Just take care while you're in the house; keep away from my wife.” He glanced outside. “I'd best go find her.” Richard left the cottage and Orelia stared after him, lost in thought.
Smiling, she rose and carried the cups to the kitchen area of the small hut. Her prayers had been answered! Soon she and Iain would be free to live where they choseâRadbourne Hall or perhaps she would inquire about the availability of her grandmother's cottage near Bolton.
A scream split the quiet morning. A woman's scream.
Mary!
Orelia jumped up and nearly flew out the door in the direction of the pond.
She heard Mary shouting for her as she drew closer to the spot where a wooden pier jutted into the still waters of the fishing pond. Mary came running toward her, a wailing Iain in her arms. Not the worst, praise God.
“Oh, my lady. He fell on the pier and gashed his head.” Mary stopped in front of her.
Blood poured from a cut on the child's forehead. Orelia gently pushed his hair back and took a closer look. The injury was not nearly as bad as the amount of blood indicated.
Someone came up behind her, and Orelia turned to see Richard, his expression questioning. Behind him Orelia could see Alice walking away from them and toward the cottage.
“Is he all right?” Richard asked. “Shall I carry him?”
“It's kind of you to offer, Richard, but I think Iain will resist going to anyone but me just now.”
“Ah, yes. You're right. Shall I send for a healer?”
Orelia took her sobbing son from Mary and began to walk to the cottage. “No, Mary and I have the skill and supplies to take care of him.” She smiled at Richard, grateful for his concern, especially in light of Alice's evident lack of the same.
Richard addressed Mary. “How did this happen?”
Orelia looked at Mary, but the woman would only repeat that Iain had fallen. Mary refused to look at Richard.
“I'm sure it was an accident, Richard.” Although if that was true, why hadn't Alice stayed to reassure them? What was she trying to hide? Or was Orelia letting her imagination get away from her now that Richard had confessed to Alice's unbalanced behavior?
Richard watched his wife before saying to Orelia. “I'm going to take Alice home. Please send word if Iain requires anything, anything at all. Otherwise I'll see the three of you tomorrow.”
Richard left while they tended to Iain, and Orelia observed Richard and Alice walk up the path to Radbourne. She and Mary took Iain inside and soon his wound was cleaned and bandaged. Mary took him to the bedchamber to change his bloodstained clothing.
Orelia followed them. When his clothing was changed she held him in her lap, something Iain rarely allowed anymore unless he was tired or in need of comfort. She kissed his forehead. In addition to the cut, he was scraped and bruised from his encounter with the wooden piling. But it could have been so much worse.
Mary fussed about them, bringing Iain his favorite toy and a cup of tea for Orelia. As she set the cup beside Orelia, Mary said, “I'm so sorry, my lady. I should have been more vigilant. I should never have let Lady Alice hold his hand.”
Immediately alert, Orelia said, “
She
was holding him?”
Mary clasped and unclasped her hands. “ 'Twas Lady Alice's idea. I protested but she insisted.”
Alice had insisted? “Are you sure it was an accident?”
Mary shook her head. “I'm not sure at all.”
Suspicious she said, “What do you mean?”
“I can't swear to it, my ladyâI was distracted for a moment. But I believe Lady Alice pushed the child. I grabbed him just in time to keep him from going in the water.”
“Dear God in heaven.”
Silence grew between them as each woman thought of the child being lost in the depths of the murky water.
The idea of living in closer proximity to Alice took on a more sinister cast. However, she'd promised Richard. “Mary, we must move to Radbourne Hall for a short time.” She told Mary about Richard's plans.
“I'm glad to hear the man will make things right. But if we take Iain to Radbourne Hall, the lady may try to harm him again.”
“I feel the same way. But I promised, so we must. If we do anything else, Alice might . . . We can trust no one but each other, Mary. I think that as soon as Richard returns with the king's seal on the paperwork we must leave Radbourne altogether.”
Mary nodded. “Where will we go?”
“My grandmother's cottage is but a day's walk north. That is far enough away to be safe from Lady Alice and still close enough to be in touch with Richard.”
“But until then we are to stay in the tower?”
“Yes. Richard said we won't be locked in, but we shall certainly lock Lady Alice out!”
Orelia placed the sleeping Iain in the cradle for a nap. He would soon outgrow the small bed, and she would not be able to rock him anymore. Mary left and Orelia sat down and rocked the cradle with her foot. The boy fussed and began to cry, and she realized the cradle was rocking in time to her agitated thoughts. Gently she pushed the cradle with her hand, soothing Iain back to sleep.
Yet her thoughts were anything but soothing. She stood up and went to the small casket where she kept the sealed parchment Ceallach had given her.
Do not open it unless you have need of me. When you read
my words, you will know that I will help you no matter what your need.
Did she need him? Was her situation desperate enough to ask Ceallach for help? No.
No matter what happenedâand no matter that Orelia wanted to know what he'd writtenâshe would never ask him to come to England. She would not ask him to face the risk of capture, no matter what the parchment said. She put his letter back into the casket, unopened.
Orelia feared the worst was to come. She shuddered at the thought of spending the rest of her lifeâand Iain'sâlocked in a room at the top of Radbourne's tower. And if anything should happen to Richard, Orelia suspected that being locked up would be the least of her worries.
Brothers shall always travel in pairs when "Brothers will refrain from boasting outside the Order. past prowess or brave deeds."
âfrom the Rule of the Templar Knights
I
have joined Bruce in another raid on England for purely
selfish reasons. I hope to get close enough to Radbourne to
obtain news about Orelia. I don't understand my feelings for
the woman. One would think that after all this time the
thought of her would not draw me so. Perhaps knowing she is
well and happy will put my fearsâand my unwanted
emotionsâto rest.
Fergus and Morrigan have joined us on this raid. I admire
Fergus and his easy way with Morrigan. She is strong enough
to wield a sword, yet I have seen her defer to Fergus with
charm and grace. This seems to be a match made in heaven.
Heaven is much on my mind these days. “Remember the
former things of old: for I am God, and there is none else; I am
God, and there is none like me.” Isaiah 46:9
I want to believe that God will be there when I need him.
DESPITE HER MISGIVINGS, Orelia did as Richard asked, clinging to his assurance that he would acknowledge Iain as John's son and the rightful heirâin spite of Alice's displeasure.
Perhaps, in time, Alice's health would return and her mind would be more stable. It was one thing to covet the title, a vastly different thing to actually inflict harm on a child to get it. Orelia had heard of such strange behavior beforeâit seemed to occur after childbirth in some women and was but a temporary condition. Once Alice had regained her health they could all live at Radbourne without the animosity and conflict her condition had wrought.
But for now, Orelia felt a terrible sense of foreboding. An undercurrent of tension between Richard and Alice permeated the castle.
Orelia established her little family in the castle's tower chamber. Mary was free to come and go, and she brought their meals and removed the tray afterward. They occupied themselves with games and storytelling, leaving the cozy room only to use the garderobe, the only other room here at the top of the steep tower stairs.
All in all the situation was bearable, but Orelia longed for their lives to be normal. Finally on the sixth day of their stay in the tower, Orelia called Mary to the window. “The guests are leaving.”
“Praise be. Now we can go back to our cottage.”
“Soon, I hope. I'm sure Richard will send for us when everyone has gone.”
But another two days passed before they were called to come downstairs to the great hall for the evening meal. Mary went to the kitchen with Iain to eat with Alice and Richard's son and daughter.
Though Richard greeted her with warmth, Alice acted as if Orelia wasn't there, and she began to wish she'd taken her meal with the children.
Alice's eyes appeared even more glazed, and her movements were slow and dreamlike.
She leaned toward her sister-in-law. “Are you feeling well, Alice?”
Alice didn't answer.
Orelia tried again. “Alice, you don't seem yourself. Are you all right?”
Alice slowly turned her head to face Orelia. “I'm fine. I have taken some tea to calm my nerves. Perhaps I drank too much of it. I'm sure it is no concern of yours.”
Richard said, “Alice, that will be enough of such talk. Orelia is our guest. Family.”
“An unwelcome guest, Husband. She and her baseborn child. Our kinship to her died with John.”
Orelia drew back as if she'd been slapped. She rose to her feet but Richard exploded from his chair. “That's enough, Alice. I will escort you to our chamberâyou obviously are not feeling well.”
Orelia picked at her food while waiting for Richard to return.
When he sat down again he said, “Please excuse Alice. I had hoped this new remedy would ease Alice's complaint, but it doesn't seem to be helping.”
“Perhaps you should send for a different healer. These remedies can be helpful in proper amounts, but I fear Alice is overindulging.”
Richard pushed his plate away. Servants cleared the table and brought hot tea, which Orelia sweetened with honey.