They cross the uneven cobblestones toward McGurk's Suicide Hall. Peter holds the door open for her and they enter.
Inside, the saloon is half empty. He chooses a table on the main floor, near the back but with a line of sight to the entrance. She fixes her eyes on the surface of the table. The other patrons glance at them, briefly curious about the newcomers, but their ragged clothes arouse little enough interest and these gazes soon drift away. When the waiter comes around, Peter orders two glasses of beer.
“You all right?” he asks. “You want anything to eat?”
She shakes her head, fighting the urge to run away. Out of all the strange surroundings she has wandered through since arriving in New York, none has felt more alien and threatening than this.
“Used to come here with Klaus Neumann,” he tells her. “The mechanic I work with. He first showed me this place. That is to say, I used to work for him. All that's over now, I guess.” He shakes his head. “Funny, isn't it? Keep thinking I'm still part of all that. The subway, I mean.”
He gulps his beer, and she suddenly understands that Peter is just as nervous as she is. Somehow this realization calms her. She straightens and tries to smile at him.
“Do not worry,” she says. “You will not need to do, or say, anything. I will handle Tesla.”
“Well, I'm here.” He forces a smile in return.
“And I am grateful for it.” Her reply is automatic, but it's also the truth. At this moment, Peter's presence feels like the only thing keeping her anchored to the world.
“I'm glad weâ” he starts. But at that moment Tesla steps into the bar, regal and incongruous in his eveningwear, and Peter falls silent, gesturing toward the door.
The inventor hesitates in the entrance, surveying the room with distaste. She raises her hand, beckoning. Seeing this gesture, Tesla crosses to their table and sits without waiting for an invitation. His expression is pleasant and neutral, and suddenly she remembers the inventor telling her how, in college, he paid his bills by gambling. Now, she realizes, he has his poker face on.
Tesla places a leather document folio in front of him on the table, and on top of that his pocket watch. The other occupants of Suicide Hall glance appraisingly at the expensive timepiece before turning back to their drinks; the three of them are a bizarre sight, but this is a part of town that deals in unlikely figures and improbable odds, anonymity its chief export to the better-heeled city that begins a few blocks away.
Sitting across from Tesla, Peter looks aroundâthe whores in their pancake makeup and the sailors lounging by the bar all suddenly becoming figures of waiting peril. Inwardly he struggles to regain the feeling of abandon and extravagance in the face of dangerâhis unspoken gift to herâthat he'd experienced by the river. Picturing his own rough clothes and unkempt appearance, he tries to return the inventor's coolly appraising gaze.
“Mr. Tesla,” she says after a moment of tense silence, “I see that you read my letter. Thank you, and thank you for coming.”
Tesla nods, revealing nothing. “Thank you for giving me the opportunity. Particularly after the misunderstanding of our last meeting.” He rests a hand on the document folio. “I am to understand, then, that it was you who worked this out?”
“Then you believe it does work?” She blurts the question without thinking, her memory of hours spent studying with the inventor overriding her sense of caution.
Tesla glances at her sharply. “You do not know?”
“Iâ” She looks away. “I was not certain.”
“That is very interesting.” The inventor steeples his fingers, stifling a smile. His mind is racing as he tries to recall the details of their last encounter and to piece together how she might have escaped from the police. Still, he realizes already that all the cards here are in his hand. He waits until she has begun to answer and then interrupts briskly.
“But we will return to that subject. First, I must see where I stand: I expect you invited me here for a reason?”
She nods. Her recollections of Tesla superimpose themselves over the man seated across the table, forming a double-image that makes her stomach knot. “For several reasons. Firstâdo you really not remember me? My family?”
The inventor begins an easy denial but then, struck by the grief in her voice, stops himself. Studying her face, Tesla feels again a flicker of something like déjà vu. He recalls the few unremarkable months that he spent in Ohio nearly a decade ago, and the shy girl with whom he had shared a laboratoryâbut this mental image bears no resemblance to the woman facing him now. In any case, he clearly remembers hearing about her death, and his memory, he thinks, has always been perfect.
“My apologies.” He inclines his head a fractional degree. “But, as before, I truly do not know you.”
“Then howâ?” the words tumble out of her, fueled by outrage and despair. “It seems so much to me that I remember you, Mr. Tesla! How we studied together at my father's house. I remember your confiding in me that you solve mathematical problems to help yourself sleep, that you have always been terrified by germs. So many things! How can this be?”
Fidgeting uncomfortably in his seat, feeling useless and forgotten, Peter watches this exchange. He sees the flush of emotion cross her cheeks, the gleam of tears in her eyes, and the impassive calm of the inventor's faceâand suddenly he wants to smash things. He clenches his fists beneath the table, squeezing the grip of his father's pistol in his pocket.
Tesla hesitates, studying his polished fingernails to hide his shock over how much she seems to know about him. For an instant, like a fragment from a dream, the image comes to him of walking beside her in a garden. But that is impossible, he tells himself. And she could have guessed or discovered all these things from any number of sources. Stillâhe concedesâbehind the dirt, the gross flush of blood and the filthy condition of her hair, she is a lovely girl. And a remarkable mind, an intelligence nearly equal to his own, if she reallyâ
“You must remember!” In the face of the inventor's silence she presses desperately ahead. “Think of your birthday, the tenth of July in the year 1893. How we dined together at my father's house. You cannot have forgotten that!”
“On my birthday that year, I was at the World's Fair in Chicago,” Tesla interrupts. “I spent the day working on my exhibit there, and dined alone.” In his voice, she can hear the truthfulness of this statement.
“But howâ?” She shakes her head, fighting back the prick of tears. “How is this possible? You were with me, I remember. . . .”
A glib reply is on the tip of the inventor's tongueâknowledge is currency, after all, and he has always been a miser. But despite himself, Tesla remembers a moment from years ago, when he was a boy in the countryside of his native Serbia. A day when he had sat in the yard outside the thatched-roof cottage where he and his four siblings lived with their father, the severe Russian Orthodox priest, and their long-suffering mother. Kneeling in the grass of a mountainside meadow in Eastern Europe, building a waterwheel out of twigs in the little stream that ran through the yard . . .
“But that is always the case, is it not?” Tesla murmurs. “We all carry a half-imagined world inside ourselves, the world of our childhood and its lost wonders.
“However”âhe clears his throat and straightens, annoyed with himself for permitting such a lapseâ“in fact, I do not know the answer to your question. Were it not for this”âhe taps the document folioâ“I might say that you were deranged. Perhaps you still are. These equations, after all, are only a fragment of a wholeâand indeed, out of context, they might simply be gibberish. Still, if I were to see that whole, I might be able to give you an explanation.”
He waits, and Peter waits as well, holding his breath without knowing exactly why.
She hesitates. Then shakes her head.
“The equation I sent you was a by-product, an offshoot from another direction of research.” She smiles briefly. “And since I do not know you, even if I had the whole I would hesitate to show it, realizing that you could grasp its meaning. As Mr. Morgan was kind enough to explain, its misuse would be catastrophic.”
He is not surprised by the financier's name, she notices, and a wisp of fear unfolds in her chest like smoke. She seems to see the inventor sitting across the table for the first time, abruptly noticing the differences between this Tesla and the figure she remembers: a degree of cold calculation in his expression utterly foreign to the conscientious, otherworldly man she knew.
“Mr. Morgan is a coward and a pessimist,” Tesla answers mildly. “Besides which, if all you say is true, the only possible explanation is that somehow you traveled from one world, where you did know me, into this one, where you do not. Therefore, should you not trust me as you trusted my other self?”
She shakes her head mutely and the inventor shrugs. He removes a cigarette from his silver case and lights it, exhaling a stream of smoke through his nose. “Regardless of that, you said there were several reasons for which you wished to see me?”
Around them, the bustle and clamor of the dirty saloon. The door bangs open, admitting a gust of cold air along with a flurry of snowflakes. Someone yells for more beer. More beer or more fear, she thinks randomly.
She struggles to put her words in order and speak clearly. “Yes, there was another reason. Speaking plainly, I wish to warn you against what I believe you now seek.”
“Oh?” The inventor raises an eyebrow. He is entirely collected again, his mind alive with calculation. If she has met with Morgan, he muses, most likely it was the financier who arranged her release from jail. Meaning it is also likely that she has spoken with Edison. In which case, the crucial thingâTesla decidesâis to ascertain how much she might have told him. And then to discover what else she may knowâor, at the very least, to ensure that no future conversations like this will take place.
“And how exactly,” he asks mildly, “would you warn me?”
“Against the consequences of such a device.” She leans toward him, and the inventor tries not to flinch from the heat of her proximity. “With such a thing, one man might throw the world into chaos.”
Briefly, Tesla considers pretending ignorance and denying any knowledge of what she meansâbut gauging her expression with a gambler's eye, he realizes that somehow, impossibly, she understands fully what prize is at stake. The limitless power that would come with possessing such a thing. Which meansâwith a wrenching effort of will, he overrides his distaste at the ideaâbetter to treat her as an equal, at least for now.
“I appreciate your concern.” The inventor inclines his head solemnly. “But at the same time, imagine its benefits. The wars that might be averted, the cities evacuated before they were destroyed by some catastrophe.”
She hesitates.
“Think of it,” Tesla continues, warming to his subject. “The citizens of Pompeii saved, the Boer uprising averted!”
“No.” She draws a deep breath, as if shouldering a great weight. “No, Mr. Tesla. It cannot be.”
“No?” Tesla raises an eyebrow. “And why, pray tell, is that?”
“Perhaps you are right, in the best of all possible worlds. But you know what men are capable of. None of us is responsible enough for such power. The world would be torn apartâ”
“To be remade as it should have been,” Tesla interrupts.
She looks at the inventor, his unreadable expression and polished demeanor. But despite his charm and elegance, this Tesla is not the man she seems to remember.
Abruptly she recalls a classroom lesson from her time at boarding school. On that day, the teacher had exhibited a sphere of amber that enclosed a row of fossilized ants. Peering into the golden orb at the procession of tiny creatures, frozen on their way to some vanished destination, she had felt a wave of pity and horror at this glimpse of an alien world, a fragment of long-gone time torn from its rightful place and meaning. Those small shapes that had once been alive, now become an unmoving schoolroom exhibit.
She looks over at Peter, the tension and fear on his unshaven face, then back at Tesla.
“I am sorry.” She bows her head. “I cannot. Even in the best of hands, it would be too great a power.”
“I disagree.” The inventor shrugs. “After all, any great advance may be used for the ill or the betterment of mankind. Electricity has brought us light, and may bring a great deal more. It has also created the electric chair.”
“But this”âthe words burst out of herâ“this is different. It is something else entirely! You speak of electricity and its effects. But time is the very substance of cause and effect! Undo that foundation, andâ”
“I see that you and Morgan are of the same mind in this regard.” Tesla shakes his head. “But I have never been one who shrinks from the risks of what might be.”
From the impassivity of the inventor's face, she realizes abruptly that whatever arguments she could offer would be in vain. The fear in her chest begins to tighten into a knot as she thinks of how badly she may have miscalculated in coming here. That she may have, in fact, actually helped him accomplish exactly what she hoped to avert.
“And did ThomasâI mean, Mr. Edisonâagree with your dire assessment?” the inventor inquires. “I am certain he must have also, at the least, been interested in your formulae.”
“I did not show Mr. Edison any formulas or proof,” she says. “Nor did he ask.”
“Well, then.” Tesla leans back in his chair. He exhales a stream of smoke, running a hand through his hairâand abruptly, some perhaps-memory tells her that the inventor is satisfied by this answer. A fact that she wonders at, trying to understand what it could mean.