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Authors: Paolo Giordano

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This time Egitto isn't able to suppress his irritation. “And you came all the way here to give me your condolences?”

“You're so harsh. Always on the defensive.” Then, suddenly cheery, she adds: “So, tell me, what have you been up to all this time? Are you married? Do you have a million kids?”

“I have the impression you're already in possession of that information.”

Irene shakes her head. “You're the same as always. You haven't changed one iota.” Is that meant to be a criticism? Or rather, a show of relief? Friendships fall into exactly two categories: those who'd like you to change and those who hope you'll always stay the same. Irene undoubtedly belongs in the second camp. “Anyway, no,” she continues, “I'm not in possession of ‘that information,' as you put it. Still, I admit to having noticed that your ring finger is still bare.”

Hers is too, Egitto observes. “And you're in Gulistan for what? To investigate?”

“Let's say I'm making a tour of the bases in the south. Just to see how things are going.”

“And how are they going?”

“Worse than they seem.” She remains absorbed for a moment, withdrawn.

“Meaning?”

She turns back to him with an icy expression. “Forgive me, Alessandro. I can't discuss the details of my assignment with you. I have instructions that come . . . from above, you know.” She flutters her hands vaguely.

“Of course. I didn't know you were involved in such a mission, that's all.”

In fact, he's irritated by Irene's superior manner, as well as by being more curious than he'd like to be about the circumstances that brought her to Gulistan—and about her life. He's also remotely envious. All of a sudden there seems to be an implicit disparity between them: while Irene Sammartino has become someone who receives
instructions from above
, he has pursued the inconsequential career of a junior army officer.

“You've moved up. I get it,” he says.

“Oh, no big deal,” Irene replies, self-importantly. “I'm just staff, like all the others.” Then she adds, as if offering him a small concession: “In recent years, however, I've learned Dari. It's a language that fascinates me. So ancient. It has convoluted and very elegant ways of saying the simplest things.”

At one time, like many of his willing colleagues, Egitto had also attempted to learn Dari. He still has the manual somewhere in his footlocker. He didn't get beyond the greetings. Irene, however, must have taken the challenge seriously—she's a persistent woman. His brilliant classmate let the fruit of her awesome study ripen and is now waving it, succulent and sweet-smelling, under his nose. It doesn't work out that way for everyone, Egitto thinks; the tree of knowledge also produces fruit that is stunted and bitter. He remains silent.

Irene unplugs the power cord from the laptop, as if it were really her computer after all and he merely some annoying pain in the neck. “If you don't mind, I'll take it over there. I have an urgent report to finish. With us, it's a disaster—they're continually seizing our computers for security reasons, they always have to . . .
update
them. It's exasperating. I'll see you for lunch, if you want.” Once again without asking his permission, with the impulsiveness that characterizes her, she picks up the laptop, blows him a kiss, and disappears around the canvas divider. Once again Lieutenant Egitto, as dismayed as if his lunch has just been snatched away, is unable to object.

 • • • 

I
etri's face is red, his lips scored by small, dark cracks with a blob of saliva clotted at each corner. He feels confused. He has the urge to vomit and he's more fatigued than he's ever been in his entire life. He dumps his helmet and backpack on the ground, grabs his canteen, drinks until he has to come up for air, then spits.

“Well? Did you get them?” Zampieri had stayed behind the whole time to guard the vehicles; she probably gnawed her fingers till they bled while she was waiting.

Ietri shakes his head, avoids looking at her.

“The bastards,” she says.

He'd been afraid, scared shitless, and now all that fear can't find a way out. It's stuck in his throat. He's about to start crying, but he can't, he mustn't, because the men are around and Zampieri is right there. Is he a soldier or what? Isn't this what he wanted? Isn't this the reason that he trained, the reason he marched for dozens of hours up and down the mountains? If Zampieri doesn't quit staring at him that way, he really might burst into tears. He leans against the hood of the Lince. It's sizzling hot, but he doesn't move. He'd stayed outside, frozen against the wall of the house, while the others scoured the interior. When they came out escorting the family, he tagged after them, like the last of the seven dwarves, the dopey one whose tunic is too long.

Cederna surprises him from behind. He pounces on him, grabs him by the collar of his camouflage vest, and knocks him to the ground. “Were you trying to get yourself killed,
verginella
? Huh? Did you want them to put a hole in your belly, you son of a bitch? Right here? Did you want a fucking hole right here?”

He presses his knee into Ietri's stomach, against the lead plate of his bulletproof vest. Ietri protects his face with his hands. “I'm sorry,” he gasps.

“Sorry?
Sorry?
Sorry doesn't fucking cut it,
verginella
! Tell God Almighty you're sorry. He's the one who saved you.”

Cederna slaps him once, then a second time. Quick smacks that take Ietri by surprise and cloud his vision. Cederna picks up a handful of dirt and throws it at his buddy's face—maybe he'd like to stuff it in his mouth, suffocate him, but he doesn't. Ietri doesn't defend himself; Cederna is right. He feels like his chest might cave in at any moment. The dirt gets in his nose, his eyes.

It's Zampieri who comes to his aid. “Leave him alone,” she says, but Cederna shoves her away.

“Why didn't you move? Huh? Why didn't you move, you ugly piece of shit?” His eyes are red, possessed. He knees him again, cutting off his breath. “Fuck it!” Cederna swears, then lets go of him and quickly walks off, swearing at the Virgin Mary.

Ietri coughs for a long time, writhing, unable to stop. After he'd kicked in the door he'd stood there, rooted to the spot, until Cederna covered him. If there'd been a gun in there, he'd be in the arms of the Creator now. His first taste of action was a total failure, and everyone witnessed it. His head abandoned him almost immediately and instinct did not take over. Not even the worst, the most inexperienced soldier in the world would have behaved that way. Surely René thinks so too: when he'd slapped him lightly on the butt and said “Good job” earlier, he didn't really mean it; it was just to encourage him, and in fact he'd quickly turned on his heels.

Zampieri kneels beside him. “Look what he did to you,” she says.

She slips the keffiyeh from around her neck. She pours some water from the canteen on it and wrings it out. She pats his face, first his forehead, then his cheeks.

“What are you doing?”

“Ssshh. Close your eyes.”

She wets the keffiyeh again and wipes his neck. When it goes behind his ears, Ietri feels an intense pleasure. He shivers. “I don't know why he acts like such an asshole sometimes,” he says.

She smiles at him. “He cares about you. That's all.”

But it's not true. Cederna didn't beat him up because he cares about him, he beat him up because his own life could have been at stake. Ietri had put every one of them in danger. He tries to get up, but the girl holds him down. “Wait.”

She passes the cloth under his nose to wipe away the encrusted snot.

“Doesn't it disgust you?”

“Disgust me? No. Not even a little.”

Symbols and Surprises

T
orsu's illness is never-ending. The food poisoning led to dysentery, the dysentery to a fever. To bring it down he took antibiotics, which caused a gingival abscess and another fever, which kept him in bed so long that he developed hemorrhoids. The shooting pains make him cry like a baby. If that weren't enough, now that his temperature is at least under control, he feels really depressed. His platoon mates treat him with a lack of concern, or open hostility. When they bring him his meals in the tent, the food is cold and even more disgusting than usual. No one is eager to stop and keep him company during the afternoon, and all those hours alone in bed have a crushing effect on him. At the beginning it wasn't like that—they took care of him—but his lingering infirmity quickly irritated them. This morning Cederna, going past his cot, taunted him with a resounding gibe: “Another day of jacking off, honeybunch?”

“I'm sick.”

“Right, you're yellow as piss. If you ask me you're going to die, Sardinian.”

There's more. He's just made a disturbing discovery. If he lines his toes up on the sleeping bag, he can clearly see that his right leg is longer than the other. He'd never noticed it—it must have been the illness that made him asymmetrical: the affliction modified his body. Just to be sure, he does a few tests. He lies down nice and straight on the cot, arms down along his sides, flexes the arches of his feet as far as he can, then raises his head slightly to look: there's no doubt about it—the right leg is longer than the left, the tip of the big toe extends much farther out. The thought drives him wild. He imagines half of his body expanding. There was a guy in his village who wore corrective shoes, with a black wedge under one of his feet to balance him out, but even so he walked like a cripple and was plainly avoided by everyone. Overwrought, Torsu writes to his virtual girlfriend, the only person he can confide in. It takes a great deal of courage to explain what's happened to him, but she appears indifferent, skeptical.

THOR_SARDEGNA:
i wasn't like that before, don't you see?

TERSICORE89:
it's just your impression. you must be tired, try to sleep on it

THOR_SARDEGNA:
that's all you tell me these days, that I should sleep. hell, that's all i do. i've had enough of sleeping. and if i tell you that my right leg has gotten longer you should believe me, but no, because you always know everything

TERSICORE89:
i don't like you talking to me in that tone

THOR_SARDEGNA:
i'll talk to you any way i like

For nearly half an hour Torsu stares at the screen of the laptop that's resting on his belly (besides being the only place possible, it warms his stomach pleasantly). He doesn't write anything and Tersicore89 doesn't either. Every now and then he takes a peek at his feet; now it seems like his right leg is growing longer by the minute. He's becoming a monster! Tersicore89 is still online, mute.
Come on, say something!
In the end, he's the one who gives in.

THOR_SARDEGNA:
would you still love me if i were different than i am?

TERSICORE89:
i've never even seen you! . . . i love you for what's expressed in the words you write, nitwit. i don't care how long your legs are. and you?

THOR_SARDEGNA:
me, what?

TERSICORE89:
would you love me even if you found out i'm different than you imagine?

Torsu stiffens. He plumps up the pillow to straighten his back. What does she mean? Different how? Zampieri's words run through his head:
If you ask me, she's a he
.

THOR_SARDEGNA:
different how?

TERSICORE89:
who knows . . .

THOR_SARDEGNA:
stop teasing me!!! different how?

TERSICORE89:
look, i really don't like the way you're talking to me today. you're abusive and aggressive. i think you need to get some rest. we'll talk when you're feeling calmer.

THOR_SARDEGNA:
I ASKED YOU DIFFERENT HOW! ANSWER ME!

TERSICORE89:
hey i don't take orders from you. i'm not a serviceman

THOR_SARDEGNA:
why did you write serviceman?

TERSICORE89:
???

THOR_SARDEGNA:
you wrote
SERVICEMAN

TERSICORE89:
so?

THOR_SARDEGNA:
you should have written
SERVICEW
OMAN
, not
SERVICEMAN

TERSICORE89:
i don't know what you're talking about

THOR_SARDEGNA:
oh no? you don't know? i think you know very well

TERSICORE89:
you should get some sleep

What a fiasco! Torsu feels his temperature rising quickly, clenching his temples. His sweaty fingers slip on the keyboard. A man! For months he's had a relationship with
a man
, a fucking pervert. He feels like throwing up. He writes the question and deletes it, then rewrites it, looks at it for a while, and finally presses the send key.

THOR_SARDEGNA:
are you a guy?

His virtual girlfriend—or his boyfriend, at this point he has no idea anymore—takes her time thinking about it. It's not a question that requires reflection: either you're a man or you're not; few issues are that simple in the world. If she's hedging, it's because she's considering how to get around the truth. From time to time, Torsu continues to monitor the state of his lower limbs. Very soon he'll end up deformed, and alone.

TERSICORE89:
you're pathetic. good-bye.

She disconnects immediately. Torsu figures it's probably over between them and, at the moment, he doesn't feel any great regret.

In the afternoon, however, as he crosses the square (with the impression of limping, as if his pelvis were now off kilter), he automatically thinks, Now I'll go write to Tersicore89, and the recoil from that thought chills him. What the hell was he thinking? Tersicore89 can't possibly be a man, not after all the wonderful, intimate things they wrote to each other. It must have been extreme exhaustion that made him imagine something so absurd. And that meddlesome Zampieri. The problem is he's not sure how to put things right now, he's not too experienced in apologizing. But what is he worrying about? He'll find a way for sure.

For a few moments optimism even alleviates the nagging concern about his legs. In fact, when he'd revealed his discovery to the doc a little while ago—better they know it right away; if they had to kick him out they might as well do it as soon as possible—the lieutenant had merely shaken his head skeptically: “Bones don't grow after you've developed.” In return, he'd listed a number of absurd maladies that should be considered, given the ineffective response to the drugs: cholera, typhoid, some amoebic infestation, and others he can't remember now.

He was a little put out by the doc's failure to show concern for his problem. Lieutenant Egitto is a decent enough sort. Torsu has seen him regularly, he hasn't skipped even one injection, but the doc has a brusque way about him all the time; he never says one word more than necessary. Who the hell cares. Now Torsu knows the leg isn't serious, he's had to run to the latrines only once since this morning, and soon he'll have Tersicore89 all to himself again. Feeling confident, he hurries to the tent.

The spark of terror that runs through his body at the sight of the snake coiled up near his foot gives him instant, unexpected vigor, proof that his body, if it wants to, is fully capable of reacting. Torsu jumps backward, then takes a few more steps back, stumbles, and gets up again, never once taking his eyes off the reptile.

“Fuck!” he cries. His face feels all tingly from the fright.

The snake's triangular head swings slowly from side to side, as though dazed. The skin is glossy, pale blue, marked with bands of a lighter color. Torsu feels dizzy, for a moment the fever flares up again, clouding his mind, and he regards the reptile with the detachment of a delirious vision. Then the snake makes a 180-degree turn, languidly unwinds to its full length, and begins to move away from where Torsu is standing. The first corporal major is fascinated. He glances around, looking for something. Finally he bends down and cautiously grabs one of the large bricks piled around the tent stake. “Stay still,” he whispers.

He knows quite well that snakes are fast. He saw a documentary once about constrictors and he recalls how quickly they can pounce. He wonders if this snake is the kind that constricts or if it has poison in its glands. There's no way of knowing: snakes all look somewhat alike. He raises the brick with both hands. He holds his breath and hurls it down.

The snake's head explodes, splattering bluish blood around; the brick teeters for a moment, then tips over on the battered head again. Deprived of its brain, the reptile's long tail begins thrashing wildly; it wheels around, waving its dripping extremity. Torsu slowly moves closer, mesmerized. Seized with a violent spasm, the decapitated snake grazes his calf, as if trying to sink its fangs into it though it no longer has any. Torsu lets out a scream.

Then the slimy creature grows quiet. It continues pulsating on the sand for a few seconds, then expires completely. The soldier is forced to close his eyes the instant the creature dies.

“Wow!” he yells. “Holy shit! Wowww!” His heart is pounding with excitement. In their first days in Gulistan the guys set up a kind of locker area outside the tent where they could hang their towels: simple S-hooks affixed to the iron mesh of the HESCO Bastion wall. Torsu removes his stuff, hangs it on a buddy's hook, then slips his hook off the wall. He walks back to the dead snake, bends down, and plants the iron S-hook in its tail, raising the decapitated reptile off the ground and above his hip. It seems a bit slender to be able to strangle a man, but Torsu knows that nature is full of paradoxes—you never can tell. In any case it's a respectable prize.

He hangs the carcass in the Wreck, in the middle of the clothesline. Then, suddenly exhausted, he flops down on a chair and sits there admiring it for a long time. He's never seen anything so repulsive and attractive at the same time. As a child he fished for crabs and, sure, sometimes he happened to come upon an eel or a river snake, but they were small and scary, nothing to do with the creature that now dangles limply before his eyes in the lethargy of early afternoon. It's majestic, that's what. In his region, he recalls, they say that every snake guards a treasure.

 • • • 

C
ederna and Ietri are working out on a bench in full sun. They've lifted makeshift dumbbells and are now grinding out mixed abdominals: normal, twisting, and reverse crunches, so as to involve all the muscles. The body must be sculpted piece by piece, methodically, although many people don't know it. There are some who always repeat the same three or four exercises at the gym. They have no idea what they're doing.

The two soldiers take turns holding each other's ankles down and now it's Cederna's chance to catch his breath. When Ietri rolls up toward his knees, he can smell his buddy's pungent odor: sweat mixed with the “keto” breath you get during physical exercise. It's not unpleasant, not too much.

“You're not pumping much,
verginella
. You look like a sack of potatoes. What's up?”

Ietri grimaces with fatigue. He's in a bad mood. Since they scoured the village, he's felt out of sorts. At night he's had distressing dreams that he can't shake off by day. “I don't know,” he says. “I just don't feel like being here anymore. Maybe.”

“If that's it, I'll let you in on a little secret:
no one
wants to be here.”

“You're going on leave in a week.”

Ietri loosens the fingers laced behind his head to help push himself up. At eighty crunches he stops with his back flat on the bench. His stomach is pulsing rapidly. The acute pain in his lower back tells him he did well. “Cederna?”

“Yeah?”

“Remember the house we swept yesterday?”

“You call that a house? It was a shitty pigsty.”

“Maybe it wasn't right to burst in that way. We broke down their door, those poor people.”

“No,
you
broke down the door.”

“Well, okay, that's not the point.”

“And anyway, who the hell cares about the door?”

“It was just a family.”

“What the fuck are you saying? How do you know? Those Taliban bastards disguise themselves. Maybe the guy had a stick of dynamite hidden up his ass and we weren't even aware of it.”

“Mattioli dragged him by the hair. There was no reason to.”

“He wouldn't move.”

“He was scared.”

“Hey, what the hell's got into you,
verginella
? Are you getting soft-hearted? Watch out, that's how they try to fuck with you, by making you feel guilty. They make sheep's eyes at us and then they kill us.”

Ietri isn't convinced, though. As he sees it, that was just a family of poor unfortunates. He starts a new series of crunches, even though his back pain hasn't entirely subsided. He twists his torso ninety degrees to the left, then to the right, alternately working his obliques.

“Besides, haven't you seen how they treat women?” Cederna asks.

“What does that have to do with it?”

“Keep your heels down, man! It has a lot to do with it.”

“It's their culture.”

“I'm fed up with that story about cultures, get it? If a culture sucks, it sucks, case closed. There's nothing more you can say. Like Japanese food.”

“Japanese food?”

“Never mind. Someone needs to teach these barbarians how to be civilized, sooner or later. And if kindness doesn't work, then we'll find another way to teach them. Keep those heels down!”

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