The Honeymoon Period (The Austin Series) (29 page)

‘Gabe,’ I gasped
as he grabbed me in tight embrace, crushing my lips.

‘Strip,’ he
ordered between forceful thrusts of his tongue into my mouth. I kicked off my
trainers as he broke away for a second while he flung his t-shirt onto the
floor and unravelled my top and started to pull it down. I wriggled it off, my
lips not leaving his, my hands roaming his hot tight body as we kissed
frantically. It felt like days since we’d last touched each other. I felt his
hands pulling at my vest as he pushed and walked me back toward the bed and we
only stopped kissing long enough to pull it over my head. Desire spiked through
my body as we collapsed onto the bed and rolled back and forth, our mouths
melding and his hands grasping at my bottom and breasts.  I pulled away panting
and rolled onto my back and started unbuttoning my jeans while he did his. He
quickly stood and peeled them back and pulled himself out of his boxers before tugging
at my jeans and knickers forcing them down to my ankles. I scrambled backwards
across the bed and tried to kick them off, but he was on me like lightening, his
lips working furiously on mine.

‘Damn it, I
needed this,’ he groaned hoarsely as he impaled me deeply in one quick thrust
making me cry out then he silenced me by sealing his mouth over mine again as
he started to fuck me hard and fast. He seemed seriously frantic to get down to
the business end of the deal and for a moment I even wondered if he cared that
it was me he was buried inside. It felt like he just needed a release and I
happened to be a convenient hole to fill, there again did it matter? I wanted
him too and I knew he’d make me come regardless, just like he always did, but
the way he was going about it just didn’t seem like him. I dug my nails into
his taut bottom as he rode me forcefully. My legs were anchored by my jeans
around my ankles and I could feel the buttons of his digging into my pelvis,
which only added to the frenzy. He was crazily wild, we’d gone from making love
in such a gentle way last night to this hot manic fucking.

‘Gabe … o God
…
o God
,’ I moaned as I felt myself getting hotter. I let go of his bottom
and reached up to claw at his damp shoulders and dug my nails in to hold on as
he chewed on my neck groaning.

‘Say my
name again,’ he ordered.

‘Gabe,’ I
sighed.

‘Again.’

‘
Gabe,’
I
cried as he ploughed into me forcefully.

‘Louder,’
he barked.

‘
Gabe?
’
I was getting a seriously bad vibe about this. Amazing as it felt having him
inside me, giving it all he had, he seemed totally detached from me, he hadn’t
even said my name since I walked through the door. I groaned as I felt his thick
shaft caressing my inner muscles as he rammed in and out, his pubic bone
rubbing my clit with each thrust. My mind and body were suddenly fighting right
now, my head told me to push him off, to make him stop because I was just a
piece of meat to him right now and I hated that, but my body couldn’t help but
react to just how good he was at fucking. I closed my eyes and turned my head
to the side to catch some cool air as I panted, my hips and stomach pushing up
to meet his downwards thrusts and my muscles squeezing around his girth. I was
on the verge of coming when I heard him groan painfully and felt him flood me,
then he took me completely by surprise by quickly rolling off me and laying on
his back, an arm across his face as he panted. I lay there feeling completely
empty, sexually frustrated and
hurt.
He’d never treated me like that
before, or left me hanging.

‘What the
hell was
that
?’ I uttered as I got my breath back.

‘What?’

‘You know
what. Did you even care that was me you were just fucking?’

‘Don’t be
so bloody stupid, of course I care,’ he snapped and sat upright without looking
at me as he rubbed his hands over his face.

‘Do you?
You haven’t even said my name since I walked in the door tonight, you won’t
look at me and you didn’t let me come. I may as well have been a bloody blow up
doll for all the caring you just did.’

‘I just
wanted
sex
alright, to blow off some steam. I’m a fucking guy Mia, that’s
what we do, sometimes we just want to fuck with no emotions involved. Christ,
I’ll get a bloody blow up doll next time I need a release, at least I won’t get
a load of grief after,’ he snapped angrily and stood up and strode to the
bathroom door.

‘Don’t you
dare
walk off,’ I hissed, beyond angry as I reached down and grappled with my
knickers and jeans and tried to yank them up. ‘
You
don’t do that with
me
Gabe, I don’t give a shit if you did that with all the other girls you had
before me, you’ve
never
done that with me, I never thought you’d
ever
do that to me. You always make me come, this isn’t like you.’ I sat up and
grabbed my vest and pulled it over my head as he turned to face me, but it
wasn’t his gorgeous face looking back at mine and I didn’t like what I saw in
his eyes.

‘So what,
there’s an obligation for me to make you come every bloody time? Sorry I mustn’t
have got the Mia Page handbook of sex regulations. I don’t get to come as many
times as you, in fact I’m well behind you when it comes to orgasms, maybe you
should drop on your knees right now and suck me off to start making up for it.’

‘What the
fuck
is your problem?’ I yelled as I stood up. I was on the verge of slapping him to
try and get him out of this shitty mood because right now I was hating this
version of him, he was making me feel like a cheap convenience.

‘Right now
it’s you, having a girly fucking tantrum because your feelings got hurt, well
welcome to the world Mia, it’s not all fucking sunshine and roses.’ He glowered
at me as I tucked in my vest and gave back as good as I got, feeling the heat
from my eyes stabbing him as I glared.

‘I don’t
know what the
hell
is going on with you, but this isn’t you Gabe, and
right now I don’t care for the person who’s standing right in front of me.’

‘Well, it’s
only been a couple of months Mia, maybe you don’t know me at all. Ask any of
the women I fucked before you, this is the real me. If you don’t like it, you
know where the fucking door is,’ he yelled and stepped into the bathroom and
made to slam the door before I stuck my foot it in and my palm against it to
stop him.

‘You’re
so
out of order,’ I spat. ‘But because
I’m not
a shit I’m going to give you
the benefit of the doubt Gabe, because you’ve gone through a serious load of
crap recently, but guess what, so have I. I’ve been with you every single step
of the bloody way and I don’t deserve to be treated like some cheap prostitute
you just picked up to get your end away, to be told to fuck off now you got
what you wanted. So whatever your deal is, man the fuck up and sort your shit
out, or you’ll be doing it alone from now on.’ I stormed out of the room and
slammed the bedroom door and headed straight to the kitchen and slammed that
one too and stalked to the kitchen sink and clutched at the edges of it as my
knuckles went white and I tried to take a few deep breaths to calm myself down.
I don’t think I’d ever felt so insulted, furious and hurt at the same time. I
heard the kitchen door open behind me and clenched my jaw and turned around
ready to tell him to leave me in peace, instead I saw a concerned looking Lexi
leaning back on it and I took a deep shaky breath and flexed my neck to try and
get rid of the pent up frustration.

‘What
the
fuck
is going on?’ she asked. ‘It’s like an episode of a soap opera in here
with all the shouting and door slamming.’

 ‘I’ve no
bloody idea, Lexi,’ I sighed with a shake of my head and pinched the top of my
nose to stave off the brewing tension headache. ‘But I’ve pretty much reached
my limit with it tonight, I don’t know how much more I can take.’

‘Mia,
you’re shaking’ she said and I put my hands in front of me to see them
trembling and bit my lip and nodded. ‘O God, come here.’ She walked toward me
and opened her arms and I ran into them and took a pained gasp of air as she
stroked my back and I hugged her tightly.

‘I don’t
know what just happened, Lex. It was like he was someone else, he was so cold
and mean.’

‘He hasn’t
hurt you has he? Physically I mean?’

‘No,’ I
shook my head.

‘Are you
sure?’

‘I promise,
he hasn’t, but he just had sex with me and I may as well not even have been
there, Lex. It was like he was somewhere else and he didn’t even seem to
realise. He didn’t even let me come before he finished, which he’s never done
before, he’s always been so considerate in bed. I could have coped with that if
it wasn’t for the way he just reacted when I questioned him about it after, he was
horrible. I just don’t know what’s going on with him. I feel like we’re making
progress, that he’s finally getting back to normal, then he just takes a
massive step backwards and I don’t know why.’

‘God, he
hasn’t told you has he?’ she sighed.

 ‘Told me
what? Lexi what’s going on?’ I stepped back and looked up at her concerned.

‘Well, I
don’t know about the rest of the times he’s had these moods, but I know why
he’s having a reaction today. Doug rang earlier, he said the therapist gave
Gabe some seriously tough love this morning and told him that he needs to look
at swimming as a recreational hobby only, that his shoulder’s never going to
get him back to competitive swimming levels and if he carries on trying, he
could damage it even further and could face having to have more surgery.’

‘Shit, why
didn’t he
tell
me? Why didn’t
you
tell me if you knew?’

‘I didn’t
think it was my place Mia, I thought you’d want to hear it from him and I’m
sure he would have talked to you, but he’s just been told one of the things he
loves doing is over, he probably wanted to try and forget it for a while by
doing his other favourite thing, fucking.’

‘Well, I
can understand that, wanting to blot everything out, but even when we’ve had
sex before he’s never been so detached Lex, it was
awful
.’

‘Don’t take
it personally Mia, from what Doug tells me that’s how Gabe was with everyone
before he fell in love with you, he’s just reverted back to what he knows best
to help him cope, his armours back up.’

‘Don’t take
it personally?’ I gasped. ‘How the hell can I
not
?’

‘Because he
may have just been a stupid arsehole, but he still loves you, Mia. He’s not
like that with you normally because he loves you, but today wasn’t about you,
it was about him and this was how he needed to deal with it.’

‘You’re
defending his behaviour?’ I looked at her shocked.

‘No, I’m just
trying to make you see that it’s nothing you’ve done wrong Mia, it’s him with
the problem tonight, but I can sort of understand how much he might be hurting
right now. He’s had years of being cold and detached from people and you made
him access the warm fuzzy Gabe we all know and love. Today though he’s scared
and just temporarily lost himself. He’s pushing you away, just like you’ve done
with him loads of times when you didn’t want to face the things that hurt you,
but Gabe doesn’t let you, he forces you to deal and you’ve become a stronger
person because of it. Maybe that’s what you need to do, go in there do it for
him right now, don’t let him shut you out. Your Gabe’s still in there.’

‘
God
damn it
,
Lexi
,’ I yelled with frustration as I stepped back and
leaned on the sink and I covered my eyes. ‘I don’t know how much more crap Gabe
and I can deal with. When are things ever going to be
easy
for us? It’s
one bloody crisis after another.’

‘I know
Mia, but you once told me if the good times outweigh the bad then it was worth
it and I told you if I thought they’d gone too far in the wrong direction I’d
tell you. Personally I don’t think they have, but you’re the only one who knows
when they have for you. Go and see him, sort this out. I’m in the lounge if you
need me, ok? If you think he’s going to get violent though you get straight out
of there and join me and we’ll ring Doug and the swim boys to come and calm him
down.’

‘Lex, thank
you,’ I sighed. ‘You should be a counsellor, for someone who’s never really had
any relationships you seem to know exactly what to say and how to deal.’

‘Hey, it’s
easy when you’re on the outside looking in, just don’t ask me to be all
objective when it comes to my own issues. Besides, I’ve had a seven year
relationship with you, Mia Page. That’s got to have given me some relationship
worthy ammo to fire back at you. So are you going to go and sort this out?’

‘Yes,’ I
nodded and she smiled sympathetically at me and headed out. I to the fridge and
opened two beers and took a deep breath to prepare myself. I
had
to view
this as a reaction to his bad news, he’d never been like that with me before
and I needed to trust that it
was
a one off and forget how bad he’d just
made me feel. I knew how important his swimming was to him and he must be
feeling devastated. The bedroom was empty so I opened the bathroom door and walked
in. He was just standing in the shower with his hands on the wall, the water
running down over his neck, shoulders and back. I stood looking at him
wondering if he even knew I was in the room, then I inhaled sharply when I
realised he was sobbing, proper heavy can’t catch your breath sobs, and my
chest constricted for him. I put the beer down quickly and walked straight into
the shower fully clothed, wrapped my arms around his waist and felt him tense
up.