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Authors: Anni Taylor

The Game You Played (12 page)

Padding over to the window at the front of the house, I peered out. One diehard reporter remained.

I couldn’t take the sleeping pills tonight. I couldn’t risk ending up out there on the streets again. First, I needed to find a way of securing myself so that there was no way of getting out.

God, I’m like an addict planning my next fix. Is this real—are my dreams really giving me clues? Or have I just become addicted to the dreams or to the sleeping pills or to avoiding life?

Behind me, the sudden peal of the home phone in our silent house made me jump.

 

 

19.
                
LUKE

Saturday afternoon

 

I GRABBED THE PHONE FROM THE kitchen wall before it woke Phoebe.

“Hello?” Crazily I was almost expecting it to be the letter-writer himself, reading out one of his rhymes over the phone.

It wasn’t.

“Luke,” said Gilroy, “we’ve got some new information.” An edge cut into his voice.

I jumped to my feet. “What have you got?”

“I’d like for you both to come down to the station.”

Phoebe came running into the kitchen, stopping and staring at me with wide eyes.

“Just tell me one thing,” I asked Gilroy, trying to keep my teeth unclenched. “Do you have an idea which fucker is sending those notes to us?”

“We need to discuss this in person, and naturally it’s going to be very upsetting for you both. But yes, we do have information.”

“Hell. You
do
know. We’ll be there.” I ended the call, a million thoughts ramming my head.

There’d been something in Gilroy’s tone that had flattened me. He should have sounded a bit more celebratory if they had their guy. What was wrong here that he wasn’t saying? Did the police now know for certain that Tommy was dead? Was this the end of the journey that started with Tommy being abducted? Whatever the news was, it wasn’t going to be good. I didn’t know how to begin to prepare Phoebe.

“They know who it is?” Phoebe put a hand across her mouth, pinching her cheeks in.

“Sounds like it.” My breath caught on the end of that sentence.

During the drive to the station, I could tell that Phoebe was like me, struggling to just
breathe
.

It wasn’t just Gilroy in Gilroy’s office when we got there either. When we walked in, there was a team of three detectives looking back at us.
Three.
I’d met the other two before but hadn’t seen them in a while.

“Please have a seat.” I couldn’t read Gilroy’s expression, nor the expressions of the other detectives.

I needed them to lay it down on the table. Tell us. But I sensed a hesitancy.

“Who is it?
Who?
” I held Phoebe’s hand in mine as we sat.

It was Detective Ali Haleemi who spoke first. His thick eyebrows rose and made waves of creases all the way up to the shiny bald dome of his head. “Luke and Phoebe, so, it’s been three months or so since we last spoke in person. But I’m still one of the detectives working on this case. Trying to solve it as best I can. I know you both want answers, and this has been a nightmare for you both. I need to say up front that at this stage, we don’t have new information on where Tommy is. But we do have information on who was sending the letters.”

Mentally, I recalibrated. They didn’t know anything about Tommy. Didn’t know whether he was dead or alive.

Phoebe gasped quietly. “The man from last night?”

“No,” Haleemi said shortly. “No, we don’t think he has any connection.”

“Then. . . ?” She shook her head questioningly.

He exhaled, his eyes directly on her. “As far as I understand, Detective Gilroy informed you that we were going to install surveillance cameras on your street and in the café. Do you remember that conversation?”

She touched her head, her eyes growing large. “God, I’d forgotten. So you have this person on film?
Actually on film?

He nodded. “I was in charge of that operation, and the cameras were installed yesterday morning. This morning, I went through the footage together with Detective Yarris.” He glanced at the female detective beside him. “And the footage clearly shows who placed the third letter in the mailbox.”

I couldn’t control the frustration simmering in my stomach, turning the toast and eggs I’d had for lunch into some kind of toxic sludge. Why didn’t they just come out and tell us? “Who the fuck was it?”

Gilroy walked around the desk to sit on the edge of it, in front of us.

It was obvious that
he
was going to be the one to tell us.

 

 

20.
                
PHOEBE

 

Saturday afternoon

 

I HEARD A NAME.

A name that didn’t fit Luke’s question about who this person was.

A name that didn’t fit anywhere. A name that suddenly turned as sharp as a knife, slicing everything I knew into tiny julienne pieces.

“I don’t—” I started, unable to finish my sentence.

“Phoebe,” said Detective Gilroy, his voice breaking through this new alternate reality. “It’s you.”

Luke’s hands slipped away from mine and hovered mid-air, like he didn’t know what to do with them anymore. “What the hell? Of course it’s not Phoebe.”

“This is difficult for us,” Gilroy said in a careful but determined tone. “But the video leaves no doubt. Before we say anything more, we’d like you both to come with us now and see the footage for yourselves.”

Luke and I followed the detectives like obedient children into what they called the interview room. The room was dead plain. White walls, a single table, chairs. We were instructed to sit.

Detective Annabelle Yarris loaded a micro card into a computer tower. A screen on the wall blinked and then showed a still. A still of my house. I’d completely forgotten that Trent Gilroy had said he’d install a camera. The last two days had been a rush, a whirlwind.

Annabelle turned and looked back over her shoulder at Luke and me. “I’ll be starting the film at the point where you left the house that night.” She pressed a brief smile against her teeth.

Luke had his arm around me, his hand on my shoulder—the pressure of it seeming more apprehensive than it was comforting.

As I watched, I saw myself. But not any self that I knew. This was a raw, stripped me, without societal pretensions. I walked the pathway from my front door, looking from side to side. But my expression was not one of a woman searching for her child. It was, without a doubt, the cool, intent expression of a hunter. The turmoil I remembered inside my mind didn’t show on my face. I stepped through the gate and headed away. The film now showed an empty scene. Just dry leaves being scattered by the wind near our mailbox.

“I’m going to fast-forward it here,” said Detective Yarris. “Nothing happens for the next couple of minutes. But I’ll do it so that you can still see the frames and see for yourself that nothing else happened during this time.”

As she’d said, the scene remained as it was during the time she fast-forwarded the footage. She glanced at her watch, seeming to be waiting for the right time to put it back into play.

And there I was again, walking back to the gate.

I had something in my hand. An envelope.

Luke’s fingers pushed into the flesh on my shoulder.

I watched myself insert the envelope into the mailbox and then head back down the street again.

There was no mistake. I had done this.

I was the one who delivered the letter.

Me.

But how was that possible?

Sweat dampened my palms, making small dark patches on my white dress. What was happening? The police were supposed to tell us who’d written the letters. Instead, we’d been shown a video that made no sense.
No sense.

Annabelle stopped the video at that point and turned to Trent. Luke’s hand dropped away from me, and he studied my face in confusion.

“Now that you’ve seen what we’ve seen,” Trent Gilroy told us, “I can tell you that based on this footage, we’ve been conducting some further enquiries.”

His eyes were grave, the graph line wrinkle in his forehead forecasting that what he had was more bad news.

He eyed me directly. “Because of the nature of the letters and the reports about the man that’s been loitering around, we’ve had to take this very seriously. We had to be absolutely sure of what’s really happening. We’ve spoken with neighbours on your street this morning. Phoebe, we have two witness accounts that state that you were seen out on the street early on the morning you found the first letter.”

Luke was on his feet before the detective finished his last word. “Don’t you think we should have been informed all of this was going on?”

“We thought it best we have a more thorough understanding before calling you in,” Detective Gilroy answered.

“Look, she didn’t even have the letter when she left the house.” Luke crossed his arms. “What the fuck is going on here?”

Trent’s expression was guarded. “There’s a bit more we need to tell you. Please, sit.”

Luke stood there staring at him for a moment before looking defeated and slumping back into his seat. I wished he would have grabbed me and stormed out, saying that it was all nonsense, so that I could believe that this was all a mistake and that I hadn’t seen myself on that video.

But that didn’t happen.

I was still here, in a world more surreal than in any of my sleepwalking dreams. And I couldn’t escape it by waking.

Why didn’t I remember the envelope or putting it in the mailbox?

Detective Eli Haleemi took over then. “Between leaving through the front gate of the house and returning to the letterbox was a time period of just over two minutes. Long enough for Phoebe to reach her grandmother’s house, get the letter, and bring it back.”

“That’s not enough time,” Luke snapped. “My wife was sleepwalking. Nan’s house is towards the harbour end of the street. It would have taken—”

“Not if she ran.” Detective Yarris raised her thinly plucked eyebrows.

“She was
sleepwalking
,” Luke repeated. “Not doing an Olympic sprint. And what makes you think she got the letter from her grandmother’s house anyway? What if someone in the street gave it to her?”

They were talking about me in the third person. I was no longer part of this. It was all about logistics now.

Detective Haleemi took the baton again, bowing his head and crinkling his forehead as if he were thinking very hard—no, as if he were demonstrating the revolutions that should be turning in Luke’s mind. “Well, I can’t claim to know a lot about sleepwalking and what people are capable of in that state. But it is possible to get from your house and back in that time, if you run. And the grandmother’s house just seemed the most logical place for Phoebe to have gone, seeing as that’s where she ended up later. And because of one other thing. We believe that the letters were written at that house, at some point.”

Ali Haleemi waited for a few seconds before continuing. “And so we went there earlier today, Detective Yarris and I, to Mrs Hoskins’s house. We asked if we could take a look around, and she showed us through the house.” Stopping again, his eyes rested on me. “And we discovered a typewriter in the storage area under the stairs.”

I couldn’t help but flinch. They’d been in my grandmother’s house, going through all the things belonging to my family. I knew of the typewriter they were talking about. But I hadn’t seen it for a long time. I hadn’t known that Nan still had it.

“Mrs Hoskins allowed us to take the typewriter.” Words continued to drip from Detective Haleemi’s mouth. Nonsensical words.

Luke sucked in a shallow breath.

Haleemi straightened, as though he was about to come to his end point and needed to look official. “We had one of our experts check it out. It’s the same typewriter used to write the letters.”

My upper lip began quivering even before I’d fully processed what he’d said.

Luke swore under his breath, exhaling noisily. “Doesn’t that mean Phoebe’s
grandmother
is the one who’s been writing those letters? Why the fuck would she do this to us?”

Detective Gilroy knitted his eyebrows tightly. “We don’t have reason to believe that the grandmother wrote them. We only found one set of fingerprints on the third letter and envelope.” His gaze lingered on me. “Phoebe, those prints were yours. Your prints shouldn’t have been inside the sealed envelope at all. I think you can see where we’re at.”

Thoughts ground through my head, each thought turning to ashen powder before it could form anything coherent.

How? How? How? How? How? How?

How was any of this possible?

Someone needed to explain it to me. But the three detectives had grown quiet, and their attention was all focused on me, waiting for a response.

I was making movements—I wasn’t sure which—shaking my head, shrinking into myself, opening my mouth to speak. Maybe all of those at once. I was too numb, too
inside my mind
to be aware of how I was presenting myself in that moment, let alone speak or defend myself against these terrible allegations.

Even Luke, who always found the right words, was silent. When I turned to him, he had his head in his hands. I didn’t know how long he’d been like that. When he raised his head, his expression was different to how it had been before. “What happens now?”

Detective Gilroy’s very official posture seemed to relax. “Look, all of this—these letters—have come after months of the worst kind of trauma. A week before the letters started, the six-month mark of Tommy’s disappearance came. That’s a terrible milestone. We understand that it must feel as though we’re not doing everything we possibly can to find Tommy. We understand that. And perhaps, Phoebe felt that she would like us to do more. Our position is that this has been a cry for help, to try to make us start moving on Tommy’s case again.” He rubbed his temples, attempting a grim smile. “The truth is, we’ve never stopped moving on his case. We’ve thrown everything we humanly can at it. Tommy remains a top priority.” Inhaling steadily, he fixed his eyes on me, softening his expression. “So, what we’re going to do is to dismiss this latest wrinkle in the case. If this is a case of sleepwalking, then you’re hardly to blame. We’d just like some assurance that you’re going to see someone about how you’ve been feeling lately. Do you see anyone at the moment? A counsellor?”

“She sees Dr Leona Moran,” Luke cut in. “A psychiatrist.”

Detective Gilroy nodded. “Okay, good.”

“I’ll set up an appointment,” said Luke. He then faced me with eyes that no longer knew me. “I don’t understand. Did you think this would get us anywhere?”

“I didn’t write those letters.” There. I’d gotten the words out, pushed them out from somewhere deep in my chest.

“I watched you on the video, Feeb, putting the letter in the letterbox. Just . . . stop. Hell, imagine if we’d caught up with the guy from last night. That would have been damned difficult to explain.” Luke looked away from me. I could tell he was embarrassed by what he thought I’d done.

There wasn’t anything I could say to my husband right now. They had him convinced. I looked at each of the detectives in turn. “I didn’t write them,” I repeated.

My words sounded even hollower the second time.

No one in this room believed me.

I wanted to run home and take my pills and climb into bed and dream of Tommy. I didn’t want to be here with four sets of eyes judging me, pitying me.

Detective Yarris gave me a smile that I was sure she meant to be warm, but she just wasn’t capable of doing
warm
. “I used to sleepwalk when I was a kid. Ended up peeing in a cupboard one night, thinking it was the bathroom.”

“Go easy on Phoebe,” Trent told Luke. “She wasn’t in control of this. Like I said, I’m no expert on sleepwalking, but we’re guessing she just doesn’t have any clear memory of writing those letters.”

Luke closed his eyes briefly. “Okay. It’s just . . . I came here thinking we were about to get answers, and instead I get hit with
this
.” He turned to me. “Sorry I was a jerk.”

I didn’t answer. He still believed that I wrote the letters. Nothing had changed.

Luke looked back at the detectives. “Is everyone going to find out what really happened now? I mean, is this going to be all over the news?”

Trent Gilroy shook his head. “It won’t come from us. Things have a way of getting out, but if you keep it under your hat, you’ll give this the best chance of blowing over. That doesn’t include Phoebe’s psychiatrist, of course. She’s going to need to talk this whole thing through with her. From our side of it, our official statement is going to remain that some notes were sent to your house and the café, but our new statement will be that the police don’t believe they have any connection to Tommy’s disappearance.”

Luke exhaled quietly. I knew the most important thing to him was that no one found out about his crazy wife.

I wasn’t crazy.

But people who weren’t insane didn’t need to tell themselves that, right?

 

 

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