The Draig's Woman (12 page)

“Is there more to the story?”

Ian explained the great battle that took place, a battle for the lands belonging to the clan. He told all he knew of the aftermath of their victory. The building of the new keep was in part due to Samantha’s wisdom and in part due to the gold and silver she brought. In truth, he did not know much of building. Ian spoke of the great love between his great-grandparents and of the six children they had and of their lives as he had heard it told. She sat mesmerized and listened to his every word. The only detail he left out was the one he feared she would blame him for: his great-grandmother Samantha had opened the door between times.

Claire sat back in the chair. She reached for the cup and indulged in a large drink.

“Did I err in telling this to you?” Ian asked hesitantly.

Though she faced the flames, he caught her soft smile as the tale settled within her mind. She turned to find Ian watching her intently. “No, you didn’t. I’m glad you told me. It explains a lot of what I see here and why you never questioned my . . . my arrival. I’m just trying to put it all together in my mind.”

“I understand, ‘tis a big tale.” Ian blinked in amazement as she laughed.

“A big tale is quite the understatement. Do you have any more? Are there more stories of people like me?” Claire asked as she looked expectantly at him.

“There are no others like you” was the reply not made. Ian closed his eyes at the thought. Now it was his turn to study the flames. Finally, he answered, “There may be, lass. I will save those for another evening.”

“That may be for the best. I think I have had all I can handle for one night.” Claire looked over the board. “Your move.”

Taking her pawn in hand, he said, “You did a fine thing this night helping my sister with the wee one.” As hoped, her expression brightened at the mention of Cerwyn.

“It was no big deal. Aliana was so tired. It would have been cruel to let her handle him. She needs to rest.” Trying hard not to smile, Claire removed his remaining bishop from the board.

“Dinna look so innocent, lass. I see what piece of mine you hold in your hand.” Feigning anger was difficult when he just wanted to laugh. The joy of the evening was too great for Ian to measure. “For someone without children you dinna seem fashed by his foul spirits.”

Claire looked past Ian as she told of the times she had cared for Michael’s three children. “The last time I had them all, the youngest, Ethan, decided to start cutting his molars. I had them for a long weekend. Michael and Sarah had gone away for a few days. The first night was easy. The next two were miserable. The poor little guy had a stuffed head, and his cheeks were bright red, and he was hurting. We spent those two nights walking and sitting up in the rocking chair. It was the only way to get him to sleep. By comparison, Cerwyn was super easy.”

Her expressions mirrored her love for the children as she reminisced. “This Michael must have had great trust in you to leave his family in your care.”

“I’ve known the kids since they were born. My time with them was always something I enjoyed.” Claire’s heartbreak was visible in her eyes. She added, “I’m grateful for Cerwyn and that he accepts me. Chasing him around the grounds in the morning makes things feel normal.”

Claire was trying to get past it, but he saw the flash of pain. Ian kept forgetting there was so much and so many that she had left. He offered, “Mayhap the new bairn will be a lass.”

Moving her queen on the board, she said, “That would be nice. Little girls are fun, too. It would be interesting seeing Hagan with a growing daughter. He’ll be worried non-stop.”

A wee lass, it would be a fine thing to witness Claire with such a bairn.
Ian was going to ask if she wished for children of her own, but that was one question not needed. If she took such care for the child of another, he knew she would make a fine mother. His eyes closed as he added one more reason to the large list of what was special about Claire.

Her voice ended his sad trail of thought. “You look like you’re ready to fall asleep. I should go.” She started to stand, and his hand went up to reach hers across the table, effectively stopping her motion.

“Nay, I was just thinking of my next move.” Ian looked over at the board and frowned. “Are you going to say it?”

“Checkmate, Ian.” Claire gave his hand a light squeeze as she pulled away. “Thanks for the game and the tale. You were right, it was a fine way to pass the time.”

Ian walked with her to the door of the chamber, and as she moved to leave, he asked, “Will you join me tomorrow night? A chance to mayhap best you in this game?” He could see the “nay” on her lips ready to be spoken. They both knew it was wrong to spend this time alone, with no one present. Still, he wanted it, time alone with Claire. Speaking quickly, “‘Tis merely a game. There can be no harm in this.”

Claire’s answer came fast, “A rematch it is then.”

The smile covered his face with the promise of another evening with her before the fire. Ian said, “Then I will make sure to leave the hall earlier to allow us more time.” A look of uncertainty crossed her features. He knew instantly she also felt it too—the pull toward the other, the one thing never spoken between them, and the reason they should not spend their evenings together. The quiet of the evening farewell placed them face-to-face, close enough to touch with a kiss, merely a breath away. Ian saw the falsehood in her responding smile, her want covered by polite courtesy.

She looked away. “Good night, Ian.”

Chapter 11

Michael’s voice rang out through the dojo. “What are you, half asleep? Focus, Claire, or you are going to get hurt.”

“Maybe if you would stop trying to hit me so hard, Michael, this would be easier.” Claire dodged his swing as her left foot connected with his padded ribs in a perfectly executed side-kick. It worked exactly as she had hoped, and finally she knocked her teacher out of the ring. “Half asleep, my ass, I win this round, and you know it!”

Michael removed his protective headgear and swiped a hand across his damp brow. “I didn’t think you would be able to keep up. I thought you were getting lazy on me.”

Claire laughed as she took off her own headgear. “Me, lazy? You should know better than that. I may be far away from the dojo, but I get my workout in every day. There is more than enough space in my chamber for some yoga, Pilates, and some basic moves.”

Michael looked at her and shook his head. “Maybe not lazy, but you are definitely tired. I can see it in your eyes. You shouldn’t stay up so late, not every night and definitely not with him.”

Claire knew she stood a little straighter while answering, “It’s only been four or five nights. I’m not doing anything wrong. We play chess, drink a little wine, and talk. It is hardly misbehaving. Besides, I’m a big girl, I can stay up late if I want.”

Michael held out his hands and motioned for her to calm down. “Hey, relax. Just trying to be a bit helpful here. You two spend a lot of time together. I just don’t want to see you hurt when that changes.”

Claire bent to remove the rest of her padding. “I know it’s going to change. I know the bride is coming soon, very soon. It’s just chess. There really isn’t much else to do at night.”

“How about getting some sleep?”

“Michael, I’ll have plenty of time to sleep very soon.” She took a breath and placed her gear in its bag. “We’re just friends, and we leave the door open so people don’t assume things they shouldn’t.”

Now it was Michael’s turn to laugh. “Friends, that’s what you’re going to call it? First of all, you had sex with him, and friends don’t do that. Friends also don’t find any excuse possible to touch. Ian touches you whenever he can.” Gauging her reaction, he said, “Claire, you do realize that, don’t you?”

Claire replied, “Ugh, now you sound just like Hagan. Ian is just being courteous.”

“Don’t give me that crap. This is me you are talking to. The man wants you. It’s in every move and gesture he makes. What’s worse is that you want him, too. Your day is spent waiting for your time alone with Ian. Plus, you wait for those small touches. Admit it.” Michael sighed as Claire looked away from him.

Still facing away from Michael, she answered, “I know that. Believe me, I am aware of everything. Do you think I planned for this? Do you think I want this? It truly sucks. Ian is so amazing and sweet and so many things I never knew existed. For the first time in my life there is someone that I . . . that I . . .” Her words failed as she felt Michael’s hand on her shoulder. Immediately, she turned in for the hug she instinctively knew he would offer.

Holding her and speaking softly, Michael said, “You did the right thing. I know you are aware of that. His world is so different from ours. The needs of his people have to come first, even if the cost is a bit of happiness. You have always made me proud. The fact that you are dealing with everything that has been handed to you and everything that has been denied to you, my pride just keeps growing. Live your life with honor, Claire. In the end, it’s all that matters. Be able to hold your head high knowing that you are doing the right thing.”

Stepping away from his hold, Claire replied, “I’m trying, Michael. Every day I am trying.”

Michael spoke with the tone he reserved for classes. “Don’t try, do. You’ve done a good job with his business, just as you always did with mine. Trust your instincts, Claire. You are always at your best when you follow your instincts.”

Claire found some peace in his words.
Doing the right thing, who knew it could be so hard?
Noticing Michael’s face change, she asked, “What is it?”

Michael looked her up and down and replied, “Next time we spar, try to dress more appropriately. No wonder it took you so long to take me out.”

Looking around to face the mirrored wall of the dojo, Claire noticed her long blue gown. “We all dress this way. Honestly, it’s more comfortable than you think it might be.”

“It suits you somehow.” With the small compliment, Michael turned to walk to the offices. Over his shoulder, he called out, “Claire, you forgot something.”

She laughed at the remark. “What are you talking about, I never forget anything.” Still waiting for a reply, she said, “Michael, what are you talking about?” Her mind raced and still she had no idea what she could have missed. She was fairly certain Michael wouldn’t have said that without a reason.

Ian’s smooth baritone voice disrupted her confusion. “Are you finished with your training, lass?” Claire felt his arms wrap around her waist from behind as she melted her back against him. Enjoying the feel of being wrapped in his arms, she practically purred with pleasure. Turning without breaking their contact and curling her arms around his neck, she looked up to meet his gaze. “Why, Ian? Why does this have to be so wrong?”

Ian moved his face to a mere breath away from hers. “Shhh, sweeting, what could be wrong about this?” Ian’s lips met hers in a soft sweet lingering kiss while her hands moved to his hair, pulling him closer, deepening the kiss. Their mouths were in perfect harmony as they leisurely explored each other. A small whimper escaped her lips, as the kiss was softly broken. With gentle hands on her hair and face, Ian asked, “Michael does nay approve, does he?”

Savoring the feel of Ian, like this, close to her, she said. “He worries about me. Michael is afraid that I will get hurt.”

Ian’s lips found hers again, just a gentle brush. “Would it hurt? Does it hurt you, sweet Claire? To love me like you do?”

Claire’s eyes opened to the light of the new day. She could hear the waves in the distance crashing against the cliffs while the word “yes” formed on her lips.

Claire walked beyond the gates of the keep into the bright afternoon sun. She was glad the day was warm. In another circumstance she might have enjoyed the walk to the training field but not today. No one ever wanted to be the bearer of bad news. The sight of the forty or so men practicing their combat skills was something that still overwhelmed her. Metal rang on metal, and the air was filled with good-natured taunts and mild cursing. Her body longed to grab a weapon and join instead of searching for Ian.

Finding her target, Claire paused to watch Ian and Hagan battle each other. Their strength was obvious as was their stamina. Both men were sweating heavily as they continued to hack away at each other. There was none of the grace of the eastern style in which she had been trained; they were simply trying to wear the other down. Moving closer, it was obvious they had noticed her, and Hagan took advantage of Ian’s loss in concentration and knocked him in the side with the flat of his sword.

“You will pay for that, brother. I had stopped to see what Claire wished.” Ian was clearly surprised to see her. She never left the study this early in the day. “Have you come to train, lass?” He laughed as the men closest to him shared in this jest.

Claire’s eyes lit up immediately. “Could I?”

“Forgive me. I jest with the wrong woman,” Ian teased.

“I get it. Wouldn’t want to make your men look bad now, would you?” Claire’s quick reply earned her praise and a chuckle from the men closest to Ian.

“What brings you here?” Ian asked as he stepped closer.

“I’ve finished with the books, and there are a few things we need to discuss.” Seeing that Ian was waiting for her to continue, she added, “I should say we need to talk in private, as you need to see what I have found.”

At the statement, Ian’s face grew more serious. He quickly responded, “I will clean up and meet you in the study shortly.”

“Sounds great.” Claire turned to head back but couldn’t resist the opportunity before her. “Hagan, a word with you.” Not waiting, she stood in front of him.

Hagan’s breath was still winded from the afternoon’s exertions. “Is something wrong with Aliana?”

“No, nothing at all. I’m sorry if I worried you.” Claire’s head tilted at bit sideways as she took him in. “I was just wondering why you let Ian constantly hit you on your left side?”

Hagan’s mouth opened in shock before he answered gruffly, “Do you think to criticize me, cousin, before the men I train?”

Claire could see he was a bit angry at her interference. It was nothing new; men were always a bit upset when she corrected their form. “No insult is intended. I was paying attention, and your left side is your weak one. Not due to lack of strength, but your balance. Hand me your sword, and I’ll show you.” She held out her hand, nothing. In a soft voice, “I am not trying to embarrass you, only correct something simple. Trust me, I’ve done this before.”

Hagan put the sword into her empty hand, and Claire tested the balance by swinging the blade in small figure eights using only her wrist. “I had forgotten that you have trained to handle a sword. You handle that well, cousin.”

“It’s a fine weapon.” Claire stopped her motion and noticed that most of the men had stopped their practice to watch her. It wasn’t the first time she had interrupted a class. “The problem is in your footwork.” She proceeded to demonstrate where Hagan’s misstep occurred and how to place the foot for better support and balance before she handed the sword back. “There, now you try.”

At first it was a bit awkward, and then as Claire moved his foot where she wanted it, Hagan swung again. “I cannot believe the difference this makes.” Hagan turned to stare at her with a bit of wonder. “Forgive me for forgetting that you bear such skills.” Hagan noticed his men watching and called out, “Beware men, the women of my clan know how to handle a sword.” His laughter broke the moment effectively, sending the men back to their training. He looked at Ian. “Come, brother, one more time. I would see if this truly works.”

Claire knew Ian had caught every moment. His eyes had burned into her back as she assisted Hagan. Responding to Hagan’s request, Ian said, “Once more, then the duty of my study calls.”

The men started their mock battles once again. She cheered as Hagan used his newly found balance and bested Ian.

“Lass, ‘tis bad form to cheer for other than the laird,” Ian teased.

“I was merely supporting my cousin.” With a quick wink to Hagan, Claire spoke to Ian. “I’ll be in the study whenever you are ready.” Leaving the training field, she made her way back to the keep. She was not looking forward to what came next.

Usually when Ian met her in the study there was a warm smile to greet him, but not this day. “What is it you wished to speak of Claire?”

Her somber expression matched her gray dress. Moving to his customary seat across from her, he felt his apprehension grow.

She steadied herself with a deep breath. “I have some bad news for you, and honestly I don’t quite know where to begin.”

Claire’s hands clenched on the ledgers, and it was obvious she was nervous about what had been discovered. Willing himself to stay calm and to control his own fear, Ian offered, “Start where you think is best.”

Turning the ledger to face Ian, she began, “I had to go through some of the older books, and it helped me understand what should be logged and in what format. There were a lot of discrepancies between what was recorded only five years ago to what I found in the books from the last year or two.”

Ian sat a little straighter. “Are you saying the last year or two are done poorly?”

“No, that’s not what I’m saying.” Claire let out a sigh. “Forgive me, I am going to need to be really blunt. The man who last cared for your accounts was stealing from you, or at least that is what I believe I am seeing.” She went on to show him the older logs, from his father’s time, the rents, the livestock, the coin, and the tax receipts. “You can see how everything is, well, simply laid out.” She showed Ian the more recent ledgers where there was a change. “The formats remained the same, everything listed separately, but more is added to the end of each cycle. It looks like livestock was sold and the coin never recorded in your accounts. Rents were shown as collected, but again, only a portion was entered here.”

Listening to Claire, seeing the truth in the pages before him, was a shock to his system. A man he had trusted had stolen a great sum from him all the while leaving an obvious trail for any who wished to look. The real problem was that Ian had never looked, much too content to leave these matters in someone else’s hands. Hagan was correct: as laird, these matters were his duty to oversee, not merely delegate.

“There’s more.” Claire was waiting for Ian to process what she had told him. “The taxes are not as up to date as you had believed.”

Finally, news he was aware of. “This much I ken already. This year’s taxes have yet to be paid. They are merely a bit late.” Ian spoke with confidence that in this matter he was current.

“I remember that. We spoke of this when I asked to handle your accounts a few weeks ago,” Claire answered.

Ian could feel the moment shift, and he knew this would be the deathblow that sealed his fate. “Tell me, lass, and tell me now.” Hearing the anger start to rise in his voice, he could do nothing to stop it. The brave lass didn’t even acknowledge this.

“It’s more than the taxes for this year.” She pulled out a different book along with loose parchment. “The books show your taxes as paid. He logged the date and the amount you gave him to give the collectors. Yet the receipts given to him only show about half of that money going to the Crown.”

When she paused, he demanded the rest. “Dinna stop now. This matters too much for you to stop now.” Ian’s voice was harsh as he tried to remember what had been so important to him before, what had he been doing that mattered so much more than his duty as laird.

“The last two years’ payments were half of what they should be. The truth is that you owe two full years to the Crown plus a small fee because a portion is late.” Claire drew a deep breath as the last of the news left her lips.