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Authors: Margaret Mallory

The Chieftain (21 page)

 

C
onnor was in his chamber when Lachlan stormed in and banged the door open with such force that it bounced against the wall.

“Next time, you’ll knock and await permission before ye enter my chamber.” Connor folded his arms and raised an eyebrow at
Lachlan, who was seething over something, judging by his clenched hands and heaving chest. “I take it ye lost Hugh?”

At the end of the battle yesterday, Connor had sent Lachlan with a galley of men to follow Hugh’s departing boats in the hope
of discovering his new lair. After seeing how Lachlan fought against Hugh’s men, he had decided Lachlan could not be his uncle’s
man. That did not mean Connor trusted him completely.

“Aye, I lost him,” Lachlan bit out.

“Well, you’re not the first. Hugh has a well-earned reputation for disappearing into the mists.” When Lachlan did not relax
his stance or offer an explanation, Connor asked, “Is there something else?”

“I thought ye were different from your father—better than him,” Lachlan said. “But now that I see how you’re taking advantage
of that sweet, innocent lass, I know you’re just the same.”

Lachlan must have seen him kiss Ilysa in the midst of the battle. It was unlike Connor to forget himself like that, but his
attempts to hide their relationship were probably futile anyway. In the close quarters of a castle household, that sort of
secret was nearly impossible to keep.

“It wasn’t enough that she takes care of your household, heals your wounds, and sees to your guests,” Lachlan said, spreading
his arms. “By God, that lass cares for ye—she threatened to kill me to protect ye. How could ye mistreat her?”

Connor did not defend himself, though he could have argued that he was not mistreating her. Chieftains took wives to make
alliances, and they had mistresses and second “wives” to please themselves or to make other alliances. It was expected. Yet
he knew in his heart that it was wrong to do this to Ilysa. She was meant to be a man’s one and only.

“You’re right. I should give her up.” Connor sank into his chair and rested his head in his hands. “But I’m a weak man. I
love her too much to let her go. At least not yet.”

“Do ye mean that?” Lachlan asked. “That ye love her?”

Connor didn’t bother lifting his head to answer.

“Then why don’t ye make her your wife?” Lachlan said. “If a lass like Ilysa loved me, I’d do the right thing before she changed
her mind.”

The thought of Ilysa falling out of love with him hit him like a blow to the chest.

“I am chieftain,” Connor said. “I must choose for the clan and not for myself.”

“For such a clever man, Connor MacDonald,” Lachlan said, “you’re a damned idiot.”

*  *  *

“Chieftain, we have visitors!”

They were practicing in the muddy field again, and Connor crossed it to take a look. From the top of the cliff, he watched
as a single war galley drew into the bay. He narrowed his eyes, wondering whose it was. It was not one of the MacDonald’s,
and MacIain would be coming with half a dozen galleys.

The bad feeling in his gut turned sour when he saw two women, whose brightly colored gowns showed from beneath their capes
as they were lifted out of the boat. For a moment, he thought perhaps MacNeil had come with a couple of his daughters, but
Alex’s father-in-law would not bring them here just days before the battle for Trotternish was to begin.

This was a poor time to entertain guests, but there was no exception to Highland hospitality. Connor took a deep breath and
started down the steps. As he approached the group gathered on the beach, the two women clutched each other and stared at
him as if in fear for their lives. What was wrong with them? He stood alone, while they had two dozen warriors to protect
them, and no Highland chieftain would attack his guests.

The blade of Connor’s claymore made the familiar
whoosh
as he swung it over his shoulder and slid it into the scabbard on his back. Unaccountably, the younger woman emitted a loud
gasp and buried her face in the older woman’s bosom.

“A thousand welcomes,” Connor greeted the group. “I am Connor, son of Donald Gallach, and chieftain of the MacDonalds of Sleat.”

This set off a flurry of excited whispers between the women. Connor felt sorry for the men who traveled with them. After a
day at sea in the confines of a galley with them, Connor would be ready to drop over the side and drown himself.

An old warrior separated himself from the others and stepped forward. “I bring ye greetings from my chieftain, John MacIain
of Ardnamurchan.”

No, it could not be that MacIain had sent only one galley.

“Where is your chieftain and the rest of his warriors?” Connor demanded.

“They’ve been diverted for a short time.”

“Diverted?” Connor asked, holding his temper with an effort.

“Aye, more trouble with the rebels,” the man said, shrugging as if it were nothing. “My chieftain expects to be here within
a couple of days with his fleet of galleys.”

Connor’s shoulders relaxed a fraction. He could not fight with promises, but if MacIain arrived with his warriors in two days,
that should be soon enough. Alex, Ian, and Duncan would be here by then as well, and it would begin. Connor’s thoughts went
to the attack he planned to launch on Beltane night.

“While my chieftain is detained…” The old MacIain warrior cleared his throat, dragging Connor’s attention back from his battle
plans.

“Aye?” Connor asked when he tired of waiting for the man to continue.

“He gave me the great honor of delivering his granddaughter to ye.”

*  *  *

Ilysa watched for an opportunity to speak with Lachlan while Connor was busy elsewhere. She did not want to raise Connor’s
suspicions unnecessarily. After Lachlan left the keep, she waited a bit and then followed him outside with her basket over
her arm. She caught a glimpse of him as he went into the armory. Perfect.

Rather than go directly, she took the long way around the courtyard. She went into one of the storerooms, pretending she needed
something there, before circling around to the armory. When she tugged open the heavy, wooden door, she found Lachlan sitting
on the long bench that ran the length of the room while sharpening his dirks with a whetstone.

“Ilysa in the armory?” he said, in lieu of a greeting. “Looking for a new axe?”

Despite the dry humor, his eyes were wary. This time, Lachlan’s perpetual mistrust was well founded.

“No,” she said. “I’m looking for a lighter weapon.”

“Ye shouldn’t be going into places like this alone,” he said. “Our spy has killed two men. If I were him, you’d be dead now.”

Connor had given her a similar lecture. “I am careful,” she said, though her reason for following Lachlan into the armory
belied that.

“Hmmph.”

When Lachlan went back to sharpening his blade, Ilysa snatched an arrow from the quiver that lay beside him on the bench.
As she stared at the distinctive, jagged tip, she felt as if the ground were tilting under her feet. It was a perfect match
for the arrows she had cut out of Connor’s chest and thigh.

Truly, she had not expected this. After watching Lachlan shoot with such skill during the battle, the idea that he could be
the archer who’d tried to murder Connor had come into her head. She had only wanted to assure herself that it could not be
true.

Ilysa’s eyes blurred with tears at the memory of Connor’s head slumped forward while Alex and Ian half carried him into Dunscaith.
Then tears, this time of bitter disappointment, slid down her face because it was Lachlan, her friend, who had done it.

Her hands shook as she held the arrow out to him, her gesture an accusation. The tension between them was like a taut rope.
Lachlan did not pretend he did not understand; nor did he try to rip the evidence from her hands.

“How could ye do it, Lachlan?”

*  *  *

Connor was furious.

He had been absolutely clear that his willingness to enter the marriage was wholly dependent upon MacIain’s joining the fight
against the MacLeods for Trotternish. Given that understanding, MacIain should not have sent his granddaughter ahead of his
war galleys.

In the event that MacIain failed to arrive in time to participate in the battle, Connor would be in the awkward position of
returning a bride. On the other hand, Connor would probably lose the battle and be dead, so any awkwardness would be short-lived.

It was a complex situation, and he would have liked to have Ilysa’s advice. Of course, she was the last person he could discuss
this with. How would Ilysa react when she learned that MacIain’s granddaughter was here?

By the saints, how was
he
going to live with two women? He suspected that removing the MacLeods from Trotternish would be the easier task.

Connor hid his growing despair as he approached the two women. He assumed they were mother and daughter, for they were twenty
years apart and looked very much alike. They were tall, dark-haired, pretty women with heart-shaped faces and meat on their
bones. Their fashionable headdresses and delicate slippers had not fared well on the sea journey in an open boat.

“This is Lady Eleanor, widow of our chieftain’s first son, and her daughter, Jane,” the old warrior said.

“Welcome, ladies,” Connor said and gestured toward the steps. “I’m sure ye would like to get out of the wind and rain.”

The two women continued staring at him without budging.

“I hope ye speak Scots or English,” the old warrior said. “Neither of them have the Gaelic.”

MacIain’s granddaughter did not speak the Highland language? Connor was beginning to understand why MacIain had not allowed
him to meet the lass sooner. Still, he told himself she could learn Gaelic. But one thing was certain—this lass sure as hell
had not chosen him. MacIain had lied about his granddaughter wanting him for her husband.

“Mind the steps.” Connor spoke in Scots because it was slightly less distasteful to him than English. “They can be slippery
when they’re wet—and they’re always wet.”

The old warrior laughed, but neither woman showed any sign that she appreciated his jest. Connor stifled a sigh and held out
his arm to the older woman, but she took the old warrior’s arm and indicated he should help her daughter.

Connor’s bride-to-be leaned her head back to look up the cliff. “I can’t go up those steps! What if I fall?”

“Take care that ye don’t,” Connor said, struggling for patience. “I live on top of the cliff. There’s no other way to get
there from here.”

When he offered his hand, she looked at it as if it were a poisonous snake. In the end, he had to heft the lass up the steps
on his back. He found it hard to believe that such a helpless creature had any Highland blood in her at all. Between her cloying
perfume and her arms clenched around his neck, she choked him all the way up the steps.

C
onnor was in hell.

He glanced down the head table at Ilysa, but she would not meet his eyes. When would this interminable meal be over so he
could talk with her? He’d had no opportunity to forewarn her of his bride’s arrival. He did not like how pale Ilysa looked,
and it did not appear that she had touched her food.

“Must we come to this place often after we’re wed?” Jane asked, her Scots harsh in his ear.

“Trotternish Castle is my home.” Connor took another long swallow of whiskey. “This is where I stay.”

“But we will spend a good deal of time at court,” she persisted. “My grandfather promised me.”

“I only go to court when commanded to appear,” Connor said, then added, “and not always then.”

“Not go to court?” Jane said and made that irritating gasp that had him reaching for his whiskey again.

Good God, the lass was going to turn him into a drunkard. He rubbed his forehead and reminded himself how badly he needed
MacIain’s warriors. Marriage for a chieftain was a political arrangement, and he had no cause to complain. He glanced sideways
at her. Jane looked strong and healthy, and she was pretty—just not his kind of pretty.

How many times would he have to bed her to fulfill his duty to get her with child? The thought of bedding her made him feel
dirty when his heart was elsewhere. Men did it all the time. Certainly his father had without it ever troubling him.

Connor’s gaze returned to Ilysa. Niall appeared to be telling her quite a tale, judging from his wild gestures. Perhaps she
would retell it to him later, when they were in bed…

“Is that your mistress?”

The question startled Connor out of his reverie. When he turned to Jane, she was looking down the table at Ilysa with narrowed
eyes. Had she really asked him that, in the midst of supper? He hoped no one sitting near them understood Scots.

“I must say, she doesn’t look the sort,” Jane added.

The sort?
That was such a Lowlander way of thinking. Since there was nothing polite Connor could possibly say in response, he poured
himself more whiskey.

“My mother says Highland men are…demanding, and that I should be glad if you keep another woman,” Jane said, making Connor
choke on his drink.

“Keep your voice down, lass.” After taking a deep breath, he decided he may as well ask, as long as she raised the subject.
“And what do you say about it?”

Jane shrugged. “Why should I care?”

Though Connor had felt guilty at the prospect of hurting his wife’s feelings, the idea of her being wholly indifferent to
his bedding another woman did not sit well with him, either.

“So long as she knows her place,” Jane added.

Knows her place?
“So, you’re looking forward to managing a large household?” he asked, deciding to take her statement in the least offensive
way possible.

“Oh yes,” Jane said, her eyes lighting up with the first spark of interest since her arrival. “To start with, there is so
much I’d want to change in this hall.”

“What, in particular, would ye wish to change in my hall?” Connor asked, speaking slowly. Someone who knew him better would
take heed from the dead-calm of his tone, but not Jane.

“I’d buy all new tapestries and replace the paneling as well,” she said, turning her head from side to side as she glared
at his walls. “And I’d love to have one of those elaborate ceilings with rows of carved paterae, like I’ve heard the English
king has in his palaces.”

By the saints, Connor had to nip this in the bud. There was so much he objected to that he hardly knew where to begin.

“We Highlanders do not emulate the
filthy
English,” he explained in a calm, reasonable voice, and he even managed to call the English filthy rather than what Highlanders
usually called them, “most especially their king, who is responsible for the deaths of a great many Scottish warriors.”

“I could be content with the French style—” Jane began.

“My clansmen have suffered great hardship,” Connor said, cutting her off. “As chieftain, it is my duty to provide for those
who cannot provide for themselves before spending coin redecorating my perfectly good hall.”

Tears filled Jane’s eyes, and she abruptly fled the room in a rustle of fine silks. He was so relieved to have her gone that
he could not even feel guilty for driving her from the table. Perhaps she would take her next meal upstairs with her mother,
who had refused to come down at all.

And he had thought he had no romantic notions about marriage just because he did not expect love. Ha. His hope of a quiet,
companionable partnership—a friendship even—in which they fulfilled their respective duties to the clan with consideration
and respect for each other now seemed like a foolish dream.

He had a thousand memories of Ilysa quietly and efficiently bringing order to his household—decorating the hall with wildflowers,
cajoling the servants with an encouraging word here and a firm suggestion there, and winning over the obstreperous cook. Without
flinching, she bandaged wounds, helped babes into the world, and prepared the dead for burial.

Connor could not imagine his bride-to-be doing any of that. Jane was utterly useless. He was even more grateful, if that was
possible, that Ilysa had decided to stay. Perhaps she could keep him from murdering his wife.

*  *  *

Ilysa made herself as small as possible and lay as close to the edge of the bed as she could without falling out. Jane and
her mother breathed too loudly and flopped around like beached fish. While it had been a luxury to have a bedchamber to herself
as the only highborn female in the castle, Ilysa was accustomed to it.

Or to sleeping with Connor in his bed.

Unfortunately, the other chambers in the keep either lacked beds or were in need of repair, due to the MacLeod occupancy and
the castle changing hands twice through violence. Regardless, Ilysa intended to have her things moved to one of the smaller
chambers first thing in the morning.

A lass could only take so much, and sharing a bed with Connor’s bride—and the bride’s mother—was more than Ilysa could bear.

The moment she saw Jane enter the hall on Connor’s arm, she felt as if she had been struck in the heart with one of Lachlan’s
arrows. All day, the wound festered, spreading poison through every vein. She went about her duties, seeing that a fine meal
was prepared for their guests, all the while enduring looks of sympathy from everyone. If she had any doubts before, it was
clear that every man, woman, and child in the castle knew about her and Connor—and pitied her now.

Ilysa had hoped Connor’s bride would be a duplicitous creature like her grandfather so she could hate her and not feel guilty
about what she and Connor did. Instead, Jane was a guileless lass.

What was she going to do? Ilysa already knew. The decision had taken hold in the back of her mind, but she could not yet face
it.

“Ilysa,” Jane whispered, ruining Ilysa’s hope that she was asleep. “Is the chieftain always so frightening?”

“Frightening?” Ilysa asked.

“When he came down the cliff to meet us, he was streaked with mud like a barbarian, and he was carrying that enormous sword.”
Ilysa heard a
thump
as Jane slapped her hand to her bosom. “Truly, I feared for my life.”

“Connor would never harm a woman or a child,” Ilysa assured her.

“Hmm.” Jane did not sound convinced.

“I imagine this is a harsh place compared with what you’re accustomed to,” Ilysa said. “Here, you’ll be glad to have a husband
who can protect ye so well.”

“Without the mud, he is no doubt handsome, though he’s a bit large,” Jane said. “I just wish Highlanders were not such barbarians.”

Ilysa refrained from pointing out that, despite her diminutive size, she was a Highlander. Eventually, Jane’s breathing grew
even, and Ilysa believed she was finally asleep.

She heard a soft knock on the door. As a healer, she was often awakened in the night to tend to someone. She quickly slipped
out of bed, wrapped a plaid around her shoulders, and went to see who it was.

When she cracked the door, she saw Connor in the torchlight from the stairs. He did not speak a word until she slipped out
and closed the door behind her. Then he enfolded her in his arms like a dying man clinging to life and said her name into
her hair. He held her for a long, long time before he spoke another word.

“I couldn’t wait any longer for ye to come to me,” he said. “I need ye so much.”

How could she resist him? When he lifted her in his arms to carry her to his chamber, she buried her face in his neck. He
smelled of sea air and peat smoke—and Connor.

After he closed the door to his chamber, he pressed her against it. His kisses were demanding, urgent, desperate.

“I know what you’re thinking,” he said, his mouth against her ear. “But ye can’t leave me. Ye can’t.”

When he hiked up her nightshift, the roughness of his shirt against her breasts sent tingles of awareness through her. She
felt the familiar soft scratch of the calluses on his palms as he ran his hand up her side and over her back.

Tomorrow, she would think it all through, but right now she just wanted to be with him. Tonight, he was still hers. She wanted
to touch him, to feel his warm skin and strong muscles under her hands, to be surrounded by his heat and passion.

He drew in a sharp breath when she reached between them and ran her hand up his shaft through his clothes. While their tongues
entwined in a slow, sensual kiss, he unfastened his trews. When she wrapped her hand around his freed shaft, he deepened their
kiss and sucked on her tongue.

“I’m going to show ye that you’re mine,” he said in a ragged voice against her ear.

He dropped to his knees and covered her breasts with his hands. His breath was hot and moist on her skin as he kissed and
ran his tongue along her breastbone. All the while, he rubbed her nipples between his fingers and thumbs, sending jolts of
desire sparking through her and causing a throbbing ache between her legs.

She clenched her fingers in his long hair as he sank lower and encircled her thighs with his hands. Tension curled inside
her like a spring as he teased her with his tongue and mouth, planting moist kisses across her abdomen and down her hip.

“Aye,” she gasped when he finally dipped his tongue between her legs. Her breasts ached, and her breathing grew shallow as
she watched him pleasure her. But then she dropped her head back against the door. She gave herself over to the sensations
coursing through her body as he worked his magic, licking and circling and sucking, until her knees grew weak.

He gripped her buttocks, holding her up and pulling her harder against his mouth. When he slid a finger inside her, her vision
went black behind her eyelids. She heard herself cry out as if from a distance as bursts of bright light sparked and shimmered
through her in waves.

Connor rose to his feet and lifted her off hers. Her nipples were so sensitive that she gasped when they brushed against his
chest.

“I need to be inside ye,” he said between frantic kisses. “Now.”

“Aye,” burst from her throat as he thrust deep inside her in one stroke, and her body clenched around him in another spasm
of pleasure. Before she could catch her breath, he thrust into her faster and harder. Her back was banging against the door,
but she didn’t care. She could never get enough of him, never. She held on to him more tightly as he moved against her, sending
hot shards of pleasure darting through her that were almost painful. He shuddered, and she cried out again as he called her
name and exploded inside her.

He rested his forehead on the door and held her up, which was good because she could not have stood on her own. They were
both panting and sweaty. After a long while, he leaned back just far enough to look into her face with his silvery blue eyes.

“I love ye with all my heart,” he said, rubbing his thumb across her cheek. “You’re part of me, and I am part of you. We are
two halves of one whole.”

*  *  *

Connor turned to Ilysa again and again in the night, trying to persuade her with his body to stay, to show her how much he
loved and needed her. As he watched the room in the eerie light of dawn, lack of sleep made him feel as if he were floating.
And yet, he did not want to close his eyes for fear she would slip away from him while he slept.

She stirred, restless in her sleep. When she opened her eyes, he saw farewell in them.

No, I cannot let her go.
He caught her tear with his finger, and then her arms came around his neck. He breathed in the familiar scent of lilies and
held her.

“Make love to me as if it were the last time,” she said.

He did as she asked.

He pressed his lips to her palm, then he laid her on her back and kissed every inch of her, starting with her toes. Though
he already had her body embedded in his memory, he memorized it again as he traced the arch of her foot, her slender ankle,
the softness on the back of her knee.

He let the gold and red strands of her hair slide through his fingers.

He knew her, knew how to make her sigh, knew what the slight hitch in her breath meant. He used it all against her, trying
to convince the stubborn woman he loved that what was between them was all that mattered. That it was enough.

She was quivering with need before they finally joined.

“Ye belong to me,” he told her. She did not argue, but with Ilysa that never meant agreement.

They made love with a desperate passion.

*  *  *

Ilysa held Connor to her a final time, then she forced herself to pry her arms loose and slide out of bed—and out of his reach.
She slipped on her nightshift before she changed her mind.

“I thought I could do this,” she said, swallowing back her tears. “But I’ve met her now, and I can’t.”

“Ilysa, please,” Connor said but stopped when she held up her hand.

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