Authors: Fern Michaels
"Good-bye, Sawyer."
Maggie stared at the phone for a long time. She'd been happy too long. Things had been too idyllic. She hadn't actually been sitting around waiting for the other shoe to drop, but she'd known that sooner or later her life was going to be intruded upon. Later always came, no matter how you tried to prevent it. She'd handle it.
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Tess sipped her coffee and kept on talking at the same time, no mean feat, Coots thought. His wife always did two or three things at a time. Sometimes Tess awed him. Today she looked cranky, and when she was in what he called one of her star moods, he tried to absent himself as quickly as possible.
"You are one foolish girl, Lacey," she scolded. "You should have insisted on going to Japan with Riley. The configuration was just right. When will you learn to trust the stars?"
"The same time I do." Coots guffawed. He loved poking fun at Tess's astrological jabberings and detested the area of the house that she referred to as her offices. He particularly hated the decor: the bright half moon and the yellow glittery stars she'd pasted on one of her black velvet walls. The weird charts and maps that hung in the room made him nervous, not that he believed for one minute that Tess could predict the future, although at times she came damn close. He knew for a fact that she never made a move until she'd consulted the stars. As far as he was concerned, it was devil doings and he wanted no part of it.
"Ah know your opinion all too well, Coots, and ah'd appreciate it if you'd keep it to yourself," Tess said in the affected drawl she pulled out when she was upset. "Ah was talking to mah daughter, so let her speak for herself. Well, Lacey?"
"Mama, Riley was gone before I got up. Cole called and gave me the message. There was nothing I could do. Why on earth would you want me to fly all the way to Japan and deadhead back hours later? You know how those airtight jets suck all the moisture out of your face. Your skin just flakes. I think your... configurations must be off this time. I'll go to Japan when the time is right or when the stars say I'll enjoy myself."
Tess nodded. She knew when not to beat a dead horse. Now that her dander was up, she honed in on Coots. "Some-
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day, Coots honey, y'all'11 beg me to chart your course. You're in a bad trend right now. Mercury is retrograde, and that bodes ill. Y'all mind my words."
"We'll mind them, Tess," Coots snickered. "What do you ladies plan on doing today?" It wasn't that he cared, but he'd been saying the same thing for years now, and he was a creature of habit. He beamed down at his daughter Ivy, his favorite. She was eating what he called a hearty he-man breakfast, the kind he liked to eat. He approved of Ivy, and she was smart as a whip, something else he approved of.
Lacey watched her father's approving gaze. It irked her. She knew she was her mother's favorite, and she also knew her father didn't care much for her. But she was good enough for him to put the squeeze on when he wanted something from the Colcmans. She didn't like these little family scenes. They were never loving and warm. There were never kind words, only bickering and accusations. It was a wonder anyone could eat a bite. Ivy never seemed to be bothered, but Ivy was an entity unto herself. When she was little she used to pretend she was born into royalty, and the hospital had gotten the babies mixed up. She probably still believed it.
"Ivy, it's disgusting the way you shove food into your mouth." Ivy ignored her. "Mama, what do the stars predict for Ivy? Surely an ulcer, or some kind of stomach gas."
Tess also detested Ivy's robust appetite. She was tempted to lie about her daughter's chart, but she took her work seriously where the family was concerned. "Ivy's a true Scorpio and suffers no health problems," she said. Her voice sounded tight, as though the words were being forced from her mouth against her will.
Ivy finished the last of her coffee and lathered a third piece of toast with butter and jam. She looked up at her sister. She neither liked nor disliked Lacey, and the feeling was the same for her mother. They were two of a kind, and both of them had tormented her from birth. Over the years she'd built her own protective shield to ward off the hurt and pain they dished out to her. But she loved her rough, crude father, almost as much as she loved Riley Coleman, who thought of her as a child, a squirt, a pest to be dealt with kindly but brusquely.
She'd chosen geology and engineering as her major and minor because of Riley and her father. She was going to be the best goddamn geologist ever to come out of the state of Texas. Two degrees would be something they couldn't ignore. As
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soon as those diplomas were in her hand, it would be look out Texas, look out world, here I come. She folded her napkin and stood. Nobody said a word as she walked toward the door.
She'd hoped for at least a good-bye, or maybe drive carefully Ivy, that old car is a death trap. Something to show she was part of the family. She didn't care anymore. Right now, this minute, she could walk away from this breakfast table and away from this family and never look back. When she was little, she'd wondered, like all children, if her family would grieve if she died. She'd decided then, and the feeling was still with her, that they'd put on a good show and a week later say, Ivy who?
"It must be nice to cut classes when you feel like it. For God's sake, Ivy, don't you have any decent clothes? Why do you insist on humiliating us by wearing those bib overalls and those stupid wooden clogs?" Lacey called out.
"To annoy you," Ivy said over her shoulder. "I'm carrying a 4.0 so I can do what I please. Is it my fault you came out of school knowing less than when you went in?" She turned and faced her sister, riled up now. "You're a slut, Lacey. You know it and I know it. Someone should tell Riley what you're really like." She jabbed home with, "Obviously, someone clued Cole in. He smartened up and dumped you, and Riley caught you on the rebound. He deserves better than you." Ivy's voice was bitter and angry. She was annoyed with herself for speaking out. She knew better, but Lacey always managed to get her going.
"And that someone is you, right? I've seen you look at Riley with those lovesick eyes. He wouldn't give you the time of day, so forget it. I'm going to marry him, and where does that leave you?"
Ivy snorted, a manly sound that grated on Lacey's nerves. "Praying that Riley comes to his senses before it's too late. You'll ruin his life. Doesn't that bother you at all? Of course not; you have no feelings. Watch my lips, Lacey. You-are-a-snake-a-tramp-a-slut." Ivy enunciated each word slowly and clearly.
Lacey recoiled. It would be just like Ivy to push her off the chair or take a swing at her. "Testy, testy. Guess unrequited love does that to people."
Ivy wanted to strangle her sister. She hated this gutter talk. She never should have come home, but she'd felt the need to
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see Riley, to talk to him, even for just a few minutes. Each visit somehow sustained her to the next one.
There was no reason for Riley to even look at her. Compared to Lacey, she was a shaggy dog. If Lacey was a Rolex, she was a Timex. Durability and good service weren't desirable qualities these days. She wanted to cry, to scream that she deserved more. Instead, she favored her sister with a final scathing look. "All I can say is Cole was one smart dude unloading you. I think I'll drop him a note and congratulate him. Have a nice day, and if anyone should ask, I'm driving back to school."
"Good riddance," Lacey sniped. The minute Ivy was gone, she regretted the words. She actually liked Ivy. She felt sorry for her, but for some reason, jealousy probably, they fought like cat and dog. Ivy was going to make it, and when she did, she'd know she'd done it on her own.
Lacey sat at the table for a long time, picking at the loose threads on the cuff of her dressing gown. When she'd unraveled the entire cuff, she tossed it carelessly across the table. It didn't matter. Cole had seen this particular dressing gown before.
Riley pushed the baseball cap farther back on his head. He watched the rusty Mustang eat up the snowy road, the white flakes spiraling backward like a low-slung tornado. He grinned in spite of himself; a storm outside the car and another tornado inside it. The analogy between Ivy Buckalew and a tornado was fitting. Lacey's little sister, Lacey's intelligent little sister, black sheep of the Buckalew family. Riley liked her. He saw through her defensive facade of abrasiveness and hostility. Get them first, get your licks in, and you don't get hurt was Ivy's motto. The car drew up beside him.
"Yo, Riley, how's it going?" Ivy shouted over the sound of the engine.
"Yo, yourself," Riley said, grinning. "I can't believe this old car is still running. Don't you ever have it serviced?"
"Every five years," Ivy quipped. She got out and flung her arms around Riley. "I miss talking to you. I do talk about you, though. To my professors."
There was something different about this hug. In the last year Ivy had changed. She protruded and indented in all the right places. The bib overalls and sheepskin jacket were bulky, deceiving, but his arms told the truth. And she must have a
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new haircut or something. He commented on the change in her.
"I thought you'd never notice. I lost eighteen pounds. Young men vie for my attention, if you can believe that. I'm still a virgin, though."
This was Riley's cue to say, "Keep it that way; you're supposed to save yourself for me." The words were on the tip of his tongue and he could see Ivy waiting, but the old camaraderie between them was gone. Ivy'd grown up when he wasn't looking. He felt a keen sense of loss. He smiled, but it was forced. "You make sure if one of those guys does catch you that I get to put my seal of approval on him. Pretty soon you're going to be my sister, and someone has to watch out for you."
"I don't want to be your sister, Riley."
"Be my friend then. Okay?"
Ivy wanted to cry. She didn't want to be his sister and she didn't see how they could just remain friends. Sooner or later she would give her feelings away, or someone would pick up on it. Her family would mock her and beat her into the ground. Riley would be embarrassed and wouldn't be able to look at her. He'd start to avoid her. Seeing him on her visits home, his chatty letters, and the occasional phone call kept her going. But it was all starting to go awry. Riley, always astute where she was concerned, was picking up on something. When he married Lacey, things would never be the same. Maybe she was naive, but she didn't know how a guy could pick up his cousin's leftovers and still be friends with that cousin as though nothing had happened. Wouldn't he always wonder and be reminded of what Cole and Lacey had had together? Didn't he wonder if Lacey compared him with Cole? Couldn't he see that Lacey was still in love with Cole? Poor, dumb, wonderful Riley.
Ivy smiled, a smile that was no more genuine than Riley's. "I'll always be your friend, Riley. No matter what I have to get going. I have a long drive ahead of me."
"Don't your parents worry about you in that car? It's a death trap. Why can't you fly, like everyone else?"
"I do some of my best thinking when I'm driving. I'm careful, and this little gem only looks terrible. Sound as a dollar. I'll tell you what, you worry about me, okay? Then I'll feel special. My parents have forgotten me already. They know I can take care of myself."
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"Now, that's a defensive statement if I ever heard one," Riley muttered.
'The next thing you'll be telling me is I don't have a right to be defensive. Pretty little delicate Lacey, the firstborn and the apple of Mommy's and Daddy's eye. Sweet, wonderful Lacey, who only has to pout to get what she wants. I'm the only one in the whole damn family that has a brain, and you know it. I should have said a brain that's used on a daily basis," she snapped.
Ah, this was the old Ivy. Sharp-tongued and cynical. He said what he always said when she went through her routine. "Use that brain every day and make me proud of you. Call me when you get back to school so I know you got there okay."
"I don't need a wet nurse, Riley, so stop acting like one. If I crash and die on the way, you'll have to read about it in the papers, like everyone else. Another thing. Don't believe everything my father tells you. My old man has been known to lie his way through a few deals. Take that for whatever it's worth. I'm telling you this because you're my friend. That doesn't mean I don't love him," she added hastily.
Riley reached out to her and looked at her closely. She and Lacey were like night and day. He pulled her to him and hugged her, aware now of the warm, clean smell of her. She felt soft and comfortable. Lacey was always hard and stiff in his arms, and she smelled of powder and perfume. He held Ivy a moment longer than usual, savoring the feel of her. He patted her head, and before he realized it, he was running his fingers through her soft curls. Lacy's hair was stiff and sticky, and it was always, "Don't touch my hair, Riley." He found himself nuzzling his chin in Ivy's hair. She made a mewing sound that reminded him of a hungry kitten. Her hair smelled wonderful and it was faintly damp. His grandfather liked Ivy. Come to think of it, everyone liked Ivy except her own family.
It was Ivy who stirred first. Gently, she pushed herself away and her eyes locked with Riley's. "You made a mistake, Riley. Lacey's not for you. Do something about it before it's too late. She loves Cole; she calls his name in her sleep. It's better you know now than later. I'm sorry if I hurt you, and you know I wouldn't do that for the world. I have to go now. I'll call you."
Riley watched the old Mustang wobble down the road, a
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cloud of black smoke shooting out from behind it. A small tornado.
Ivy Buckalew. Up front. Tell-it-like-it-is Ivy. Black sheep of the family. There were times when Riley felt himself almost as one with Ivy when he would see the deep hurt in her eyes. A kid, she'd always been a kid, a pesky kid. Until today.
Riley squinted in the cold winter sunshine. He realized suddenly that he hated winter. There were a lot of things he hated lately, it seemed, but Ivy Buckalew wasn't one of them. The ominous warning she'd given him about her father and sister made him hunker into his sheepskin jacket. All she'd done was reinforce his own thoughts. Hearing them voiced by Ivy only made them more serious. He had to pay attention.