Read Tear You Apart Online

Authors: Megan Hart

Tags: #Fiction, #Literary

Tear You Apart (16 page)

BOOK: Tear You Apart
9.36Mb size Format: txt, pdf, ePub
ads

Chapter Twenty-Six

Find a balance. That’s what I’d told Will we should do. It was certainly what I believed I wanted when I said it, but sitting here alone on a Friday night with nothing but a carton of ice cream and a spoon to keep me company, I’m feeling decidedly...unbalanced.

We’ve been cautious with each other. Not talking every day. It isn’t like it used to be. There’s a distance. I don’t like it, but I understand it. We haven’t seen each other in what feels like forever, and though I’d told him I would be alone this weekend, he’d already planned to have his son.

I try to miss my husband instead. Isn’t that what good wives do? Pine for their mates when they’re away on business trips? It’s what Andrea would do, and even though she’s my best friend, I shudder at the thought of ever being like that.

Still, I try. I thumb his number into my phone. Ross picks up just before the call gets shunted to voice mail. “Hi.”

“What’s up?”

“Nothing. What’s up with you?” I keep my voice light, just a little teasing.

“Working,” he says, after a hesitation that’s just a little too long. “Finishing up some stuff, then heading out for dinner.”

He’s in Arizona. I forgot about the time difference. “Oh, right. Where are you going?”

“There’s a Ruth’s Chris Steak House here. We’re going there.”

“Out, after?” I know how those guys work.

“With clients.”

“Have fun,” I say, and add impulsively, “Maybe some pretty girls will ask you to dance.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

I hadn’t meant anything by it, actually. Just teasing. “Nothing, Ross. It means nothing. Have fun, that’s all.”

“You think I’m out having fun? It’s taking clients out, that’s all. A few drinks, some sports on TV, maybe some pool or something. Jesus, Elisabeth. You act like I’m out stuffing dollars in a stripper’s g-string!”

“I wouldn’t care if you were,” I counter. “It sounds like that would be more fun than pool, anyway.”

Another short but weighty silence. “Dinner and drinks, that’s all. Jesus.”

“I was teasing you!” I snap, and bite my tongue against anything else that tries to slip out. I take a breath. Try again for sweetness and light. Be a good wife, a good wife. “Anyway, I’m jealous. Ruth’s Chris. Yum.”

“Did you get the letter about the home insurance payment?”

I think for a minute of the stack of mail on my desk. “...Yes?”

Ross’s voice is muffled as though he took the phone from his ear. I can hear him muttering to someone else. Then he’s back, voice clear. “Did you take care of it?”

I taste burnt sugar. Bitterness. “Yes.”

“Because you know we don’t pay that. You have to send that to the mortgage company.”

“Yes, Ross, I know that,” I say around the stinging flavor his voice has pressed against my tongue. “I’ve been paying the bills now for...oh, eighteen years or so. I got it.”

“Well, sometimes you ask me about it. You have to send that to the mortgage company.”

“Yeah, I got it.” A sting in my palms alerts me to the fact I’m about to ruin my manicure from pressing my nails into my flesh. I relax my fingers. “Thanks.”

“It’s not a bill,” my husband starts, and I lose it.

“I got it! Okay? I understand all about how the home insurance is paid, Ross, I take care of it every year. I’ve taken care of it every year since we bought this house. I’m completely and totally capable of making sure it’s all taken care of,” I say tightly, without taking a breath. “And stay the hell out of my stuff.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?” he cries, wounded.

“It means that you wouldn’t even have known about the letter if you hadn’t been sifting around through the mail on my desk.”

“What, I’m not allowed to look at the mail?”

“If there’s something you need to see, I put it on your desk. The rest of the stuff is mine, and I take care of it. You’re more than welcome to start paying all the bills and balancing all the accounts and making sure everything in this goddamned house is taken care of, Ross,” I say, too loud, too harsh. Too angry. “But since I don’t see that happening, just leave my desk and everything in my office alone, and stop acting like I need you to hold my hand through every little fucking thing.”

“We never got a letter like that before,” he cries. “I just wanted to make sure you knew!”

I rub my tongue against the back of my teeth to scrape away the flavor of his voice, and force myself to calm down. “We get a letter like that every year. Just because it’s, like, brand-new to you doesn’t mean I don’t know how to handle it.”

Ross says nothing.

“Go to dinner,” I tell him, and disconnect the call.

Friday night alone, ice cream and a fight with my husband. It’s no wonder I’m ripe for seduction, and still I’m surprised when Will pings me. He says his ex won’t be dropping the kid off until tomorrow, and yep, I hate her.

At least there’s video chat.

“I’m just your little lady in the box,” I tease. “Your genie.”

“You gonna grant me a wish?”

I wish I could. “Depends what it is.”

Will laughs, and his phone shakes a little. “I’m getting ready for bed now. Come with me?”

“Do I have a choice? I’m in the box. I go wherever you take me.”

I watch my laptop screen carefully as he lifts his phone. The sensation is disorienting; for a moment I can imagine I am actually in a box, being carried in his hand. That I am tiny, that I am small. That I am made of magic.

I’ve been in his bathroom before, of course, but the angle is different and everything is off-kilter. Will props his phone on the sink and bends to look at me.

“Hi.”

“Hi,” I reply.

We’re both grinning like idiots, like dogs in August, as my grandmother would say. She had a lot of folksy sayings, most of which I never understood. This one, I do. We grin and grin because there are no words, because joy is manifesting itself in my face.

Will runs the water in the sink and brushes his teeth, making a show of it. Eyeing me once in a while while he makes a grand display of scrubbing. Suds foam from the corners of his mouth. I’m totally charmed, incapable of doing anything more than watch raptly as he mugs for the camera.

With an audience, I discover, Will is a showman.

He rinses. Spits delicately. Looks at the camera.

“See what you’d be in for,” he says, “if you had to face that every day.”

But I want to,
are the first words that come to my lips, and of course they’re bitten back.
I’d love to. I want you.

I say nothing.

I smile and he smiles, and he leans again across the counter, his face immense, and then only his smiling mouth is on my laptop screen. I wait. He retreats a little, peering into the lens as though he’s looking into my eyes.

“What next?” he says.

“You tell me,” I say, then boldly add, “I think you need a shower.”

“Do I?”

“Oh, yes.” Excitement quickens in my stomach, the beat of my heart, the pulse and throb of my blood in my throat and wrists and cunt. “Definitely.”

Will gives the shower, which I can just catch a glimpse of in the corner of the screen, a sideways look. Then back to me. A quirk of his grin. “You think so?”

“Yes. You’re filthy.”

He straightens, brow furrowed as though considering. His hand taps, taps on his stomach, fingers inching his shirt up to tease me with a hint of his belly, but so casually, so nonchalant, as though he has no idea what he’s doing to me. He looks again into the camera.

“I’d have to take my clothes off,” Will says seriously. “Be naked.”

“That’s how one usually takes a shower.” My voice is serious, too. Cool. Almost disinterested, if you didn’t know me, but of course he does. Too well. Better than anyone ever has, I think.

Will reaches to tug his shirt over his head. I’m breathless, watching. He takes his time, easing the shirt up, up, bunching the fabric in his fist and revealing himself to me one torturously slow inch at a time.

I was dressed for ice cream gluttony and bedtime, and there’s no hiding the sharp jut of my nipples through the thin fabric of my tank top. I could cross my arms, but I force myself to keep my hands on the table in front of me. I want him to see what he does to me without even touching me.

Chest bare, Will straightens. His fingers slide along his ribs before he puts both hands flat on the counter. He bends again to look into the camera.

“Now what?” Will says, but his fingers are already hooking into the waistband of his jeans, tugging them a little lower. I can see the hint of the hair just below his belly button. “I guess I should take these off.”

I make my eyes wide. “Oh, not that. Anything but that!”

His fingers flip open the button. The zipper parts a single metal tooth at a time, just a few before he pauses to look again into the camera, serious as a heart attack. “I can’t take a shower with the jeans on, Elisabeth. I have to take them off.”

I clasp my hands in front of me like Brer Rabbit pleading with Brer Fox not to throw him in the briar patch. “Oh, please, oh please! Anything but that!”

Will smiles. “Don’t you try to briar patch me.”

“I wouldn’t dream of it.” I smile, too, leaning forward as though getting closer to the screen can get me closer to him.

The zipper is down the rest of the way and the jeans pushed past his hips, pulling his gray boxer briefs along with them just enough to tease me with a glimpse of his erection. Then he moves out of sight, kicks off the jeans and stands straight again, his cock pushing at the front of his briefs. His hand curls around the length, stroking gently through the fabric. He’s already hard. I’m already wet.

“Elisabeth, Elisabeth, Elisabeth,” he murmurs. Even through space and time and the barrier of metal and glass, the sound of my name in his voice sparkles and dances in glittering blue and green and gold. “What am I gonna do with you?”

“Whatever you want,” I breathe. My hands are on each side of the laptop screen, easing it closer. “Anything you want.”

He’s not smiling now. Will’s entirely serious, his hand on his prick, mouth slightly parted. I’ve seen that look, the one that goes from teasing to need. The lighting isn’t good enough for me to count the colors in his eyes, but I know them well enough by now. His pupils are large and dark. His hand moves gently up and down until he stops, gripping.

“Take them off,” I whisper, not sure if he can hear me through the computer, but unable to say it louder.

Still, he hesitates. I’ve seen him naked now so many times, and yet I understand. What is natural in person seems harder this way. I’m fully clothed and still feel totally exposed.

Will hooks his fingers into the briefs and pushes them off. At this angle, he’s a little too close to the phone. I can see him from midthigh to just below his mouth. When he straightens, that beautiful cock is perfectly framed. Helpless, ridiculous, I reach to touch. My fingertips skid on the laptop screen.

When was the last time I touched him?

Too long ago, but a few minutes would seem too long at this point. I remember how he feels. Smells. Tastes. I withdraw my hand, fingers curling into my palm, where the flesh still stings from where I earlier clutched it. Will stands without touching himself. His penis is so fucking pretty I can’t stand it.

“Touch yourself.” The words are mine. But the voice...my voice is low and husky and shredded on the jagged edges of my desire. “Touch yourself for me.”

My cunt clenches at the noise he makes, deep in his throat. His tongue comes out, licks his bottom lip. His hand hovers, not quite touching his cock, not yet.

“I want to watch you,” I tell him. “I want to watch you jerk that beautiful cock until you come.”

Words have power. They can wound, elate, subdue. Arouse.

When his fingers close around his cock, both of us groan. I’ve had him in my cunt and in my mouth, but this is the first time I’ve seen him do this since that first night I stayed in his apartment.

He takes a moment to widen his stance, hips pushed forward. He strokes his cock from the base to just below the head, not palming it. Short, fast strokes, knuckles nudging the rim. I can see a little more of his face. He’s not looking at me, but down at himself, though every now and then his gaze flicks upward. He’s standing in front of the mirror, I realize. Watching his reflection. Then his eyes close and his head tips back a little. He bites his lower lip.

Something changes. Instead of him stroking, now he leans with his free hand on the counter and fucks into the curled fingers of his other hand. He looks at me, still biting his lip, his gaze intense. His hair’s fallen over his forehead.

“You’re right here,” he murmurs. “I’m fucking you. Right like this.”

I manage an incoherent mumble. My nipples are diamond-sharp, my cunt aching and toes curling, clit pulsing. I haven’t even touched myself.

“Let me see you,” Will says.

I understood his hesitation in getting naked for me, but I don’t let myself think about it. I strip out of my tank top, the air suddenly too cool. I shimmy out of the pajama bottoms, aware of the slick leather under my bare ass and how ridiculous I must look sitting naked at my desk. With Will’s gaze on me, I cup my breasts, flick a thumb over the tight nipples.

“I want your mouth right here.” My words are thick and sweet. I pinch my nipples lightly and sigh. “Fuck. I want all of you right here.”

“I am right here,” Will says. “Sit back. Show me your pussy. I want you to feel good, too.”

The chair moves easily on its wheels as I push it a little farther away from the desk. I spread my legs for him, forcing myself not to think about anything but giving him what he wants. Not how it’s impossible to keep my stomach flat in this position, not how I haven’t shaved and plucked and waxed myself bare like a porn star. I watch Will watching me, and every other insecurity fades away.

“Yes. That,” he says, when I slip my fingers inside me to get them wet. When I circle my clit, his pace stutters. His fingers curl on the countertop, while his other hand grips his cock tighter, this time sliding up and over the head.

I know how and where to touch myself. The right amount of pressure, the perfect pace. But it’s been so long, I’ve been so shut down, I can’t quite get the rhythm. And the sight of him distracts me. I need to close my eyes and concentrate on my pleasure, but I can’t make myself look away from the mesmerizing beauty of what he’s doing. I push my fingers inside myself again, bring them out slick and hot, find my clit and stroke it between my thumb and forefinger. I’m echoing him, the way I found myself mimicking his phrasing and the cadence of his voice...but it works. When I touch myself the way he’s touching himself, it feels even more like he’s touching me.

BOOK: Tear You Apart
9.36Mb size Format: txt, pdf, ePub
ads

Other books

The Wisdom of Evil by Black, Scarlet
An Ocean in Iowa by Peter Hedges
Tracer by Rob Boffard
Falling Softly: Compass Girls, Book 4 by Mari Carr & Jayne Rylon
Midwife in a Million by Fiona McArthur
Ben by Toni Griffin
Branded by Laura Wright
A Sister's Secret by Wanda E. Brunstetter


readsbookonline.com Copyright 2016 - 2024