Surrendering to Us (30 page)

“I used to work out all the time, but I haven’t in a while and Sloane said she would show me the good running paths around here,” Ryder said. He hadn’t worked out in a while? Yeah, that was a lie. Those muscles didn’t just . . . happen. You had to work at arms like that. A lot.

“Well, she would know all the good running paths,” I said, trying to make up for my earlier dropping of the ball.

“What about running?” Lucah said, coming out and slipping his shoes on.

“Sloane and Ryder are going running,” I said, hinting with my tone that he should be supportive.

“Oh, that sounds . . . nice. Very nice. Well, don’t overdo it. We’ll be back later tonight. Ready?” He reserved the last word for me and I nodded and took his offered arm.

“You kids have fun,” Sloane said, putting her leg up on the counter and stretching like she did it all the time.

“Same to you,” I said and we closed the door.

“What the hell was that?” Lucah said as we walked toward the elevator.

“I have no idea,” I said, shaking my head.

“Oh, your brother decided not to join us?” Mom said the second we walked in the door and she’d taken our coats.

“He, um, already had plans, or else he would have. Maybe next week,” Lucah said, after a moment of surprise had passed. Good recovery.

“Well, we’d love to meet him, if he’s anything like you.” I shared a secret look with Lucah.

“He has red hair,” I said to Mom. The joke went right over her head as we walked into the dining room and found Dad staring at his phone. Mom had to clear her throat before he noticed we were there. He looked up and it took a second for him to realize who we were.

“Rory, Lucah. How are you?” I gave him a hug before I sat down and Lucah shook his hand as Dad slipped his phone back into his pocket. Mom had a no phone rule at the table. No matter what.

“We’re good. How are you?” He gave me a vague answer as Mom started chattering about Ryder moving in and how were we adjusting and so forth as we ate our salads.

Lucah and I gave them the sanitized version that sounded good. Or at least it sounded good to me.

“Well, I think you should bring him next week,” Mom said in a way I knew meant if we didn’t produce Ryder, she would be very disappointed. Fucking fantastic. I could just imagine Ryder talking about his farting therapist in front of my parents. Dad would probably laugh and Mom would probably faint and fall right out of her chair.

Maybe we could give him etiquette lessons. I was sure that would go over well with Ryder. We’d probably have to tie him to a chair, and he might enjoy that a little too much. I might ask Sloane if she could talk to him. She at least seemed able to get through to him.

The rest of the meal was pleasant small talk and work talk and Mom talking about her charity work and trying to rope Lucah into helping her. He didn’t need much roping.

“So we’ll meet that brother of yours next week,” Mom said, leaving no room for argument as she helped him into his jacket.

“I’ll do my best, Mrs. Clarke,” he said, giving her a kiss on the cheek. She giggled and blushed like a schoolgirl. He could get away with anything as far as she was concerned.

I hugged her and we departed.

“So, next week when your parents throw Ryder and me out of your house, you’ll still love me, right?”

“Yes, I’ll still love you, Lucah.”

“Well thank God for that.” He pulled out of the driveway and honked to let my parents know we were on our way. “Your dad isn’t looking good again.”

I didn’t really have a chance to bring it up with Dad. Okay, so I didn’t want to bring it up with him. Again.

“I know. Any news on the usurpers?” That was what I called the Board now.

“It’s been quiet, actually. Maybe they’ve given up? I’m too cynical to really think that, so my guess is that they’re doing everything in person, or other ways that can’t be traced. Which probably means they know I could be watching them. So. We’ll see.” That didn’t sound good. At all. I wanted to believe that they’d given up.

It made me want to throw things and stomp my feet and act like a three-year-old. But that probably wouldn’t do any good.

“I guess this is one of those things that you just have to sit back and watch. I hate those things.”

“I hate those things too. But that seems to be what we’ve been doing lately. Waiting and seeing.”

So true. And home we went. To wait and see.

Ryder was alone and watching TV when we got back to the apartment, which shocked me.

“How was the running?” I asked, shocked that Sloane wasn’t with him.

“Sloane, ah, pulled a muscle and I had to carry her back.”

Don’t laugh. Don’t laugh.
I refused to look at Lucah, because I knew I would start.

“Is she okay?”

“Oh, I think so. I gave her some aspirin and set her up with a hot water bottle.” He got up and turned off the television, and brought the cup he’d been drinking out of over to the sink. One thing in his favor, he did clean up after himself and never complained about helping out.

“I think I’m going to go check on her,” I said, backing up. I also wanted to get her side of the running story.

Moaning greeted me when I knocked on Sloane’s door, but it was unlocked.

“It’s Rory,” I said, announcing myself.

“Oh my God, what is wrong with me?” She poked her head over the couch, her face twisted with pain.

“I would very much like to hear the answer to that question,” I said, going to assess the damage. She was splayed out on the couch with a blanket and the hot water bottle on her upper leg.

“Can I blame it on a cute boy?” I gingerly pulled her injured and uninjured legs into my lap and sat down.

“Why not? That’s the only reason you would ever go running. What were you thinking?” I wanted to smack her, but she was already injured. You didn’t smack an injured friend.

“I don’t know, he mentioned it once, and my mouth started talking and before I knew it, we were jogging and I was in massive amounts of pain.”

“Well, that’s because you’ve never jogged in your life. I mean, not purely for exercise. What were you thinking?” She shifted a bit and moaned again.

“I wasn’t. I was thinking with another part of my body, and not my brain. I will never make that mistake again.” Yes, she would, and when she did I’d be there to commiserate with her. Because she’d done the exact same thing for me, and would again.

“Do you need to see a doctor?” She cringed.

“I don’t think so. It’s just a pulled muscle. I’ll just walk it off.” She motioned for me to help her get up, so I did, helping her stand.

“Do you think you should be walking on it?” After a few tentative steps, I helped her hobble around the living room.

“It’s going to be fine. It’s just part of my punishment.” We made our way back to the couch and she lay down with the water bottle again.

“What punishment?”

“Me wanting something that I can’t have.” I knew what she was talking about, but I asked the question anyway.

“Wanting what?”

She looked at me as if I was being dense.

“Ryder. Wanting Ryder.”

I knew she did. It was all over her face and in her voice and her laugh and every movement when she was around him. She might as well be wearing a sign on her forehead.

“And what makes you think you’re being punished for wanting him?”

“Because there’s no way it could work. We’re such . . . . different people. We have literally nothing in common.”

“So what do you talk about?”

She shrugged.

“Stupid things. And it’s not just that. He definitely isn’t ready for a relationship. I don’t think he’d even know how to have one. And he’s only twenty-two.”

“Sweetie, you’re only twenty-five.”

Not that I wanted to join Team Ryder, but those things all sounded like excuses. I’d been completely against the relationship at first, because I thought it would be a fling that would end up hurting Sloane in the end. But now . . . My views on Ryder were changing.

“Well, just wait and see. You never know what could happen.”

“Yeah. Wait and see. That sounds much less dangerous than going jogging again.”

“Definitely.”

“How’s she doing?” Lucah said when I came back after getting Sloane ready for bed and handing her some ibuprofen with a sleep aid. Hopefully she’d be a lot better in the morning.

“I think her pride is wounded more than anything else.” I looked around for Ryder and then heard the toilet flush.

“She really likes him, doesn’t she?” Lucah said, as if the thought had just occurred to him.

“Yeah, she really does,” I said quietly as Ryder emerged from the bathroom.

“Is she going to live?” he asked, throwing out the words as if he didn’t really care either way. I knew he was full of shit.

“I think so.” That was all he was getting. I wasn’t going to intervene or try to turn this either way. I was waiting and seeing. Staying neutral. Stepping back. Lucah and I had meddled too much already and look at where it got us.

“But we’ll just have to wait and see,” I said, taking Lucah’s hand and leading him toward the bedroom. “Goodnight.”

Waiting and seeing was awful. Especially since I was a known control freak. I poured my heart out to Lilia during another lunch on Monday. I was starting to rely on her as my own personal therapist, but she claimed she didn’t mind.

“It’s my job. I’m your assistant, and I need to meet your needs, whatever those are. Right now they happen to be acting as your de facto therapist. I’m okay with that. Especially if there is cake or pie involved.”

She did get a free meal out of it, so that was her fee for services rendered.

“I get what you’re saying about having a hard time staying out of it. It’s like, if you could only get in there and put everything in place, where you wanted it, then everything would be perfect. But life isn’t like that.”

“I know. That’s what makes it so hard.”

Lilia laughed and finished the last bite of cake.

“Haven’t you heard the expression, ‘Life is what happens when you’re making other plans’?” Of course I had. That didn’t mean I had to like it, or follow it.