Authors: David Walton
She crossed her arms and gave me one of her ferocious, sullen glares.
“Don't look at me that way,” I said. “You have to learn to keep that temper of yours under control.”
“You mean like you did with that guy at the gym who insulted Mom?” Alessandra asked.
I felt my blood rising. “Don't push me, young lady. Fix your attitude right now and apologize to your brother.”
Elena put a hand on my arm again. “We have a guest,” she said. “You stay and talk; I'll bring the kids upstairs and deal with this.” She rummaged in the freezer and pulled out a teddy bear icepack, which she pressed to Sean's head. “Upstairs for your pajamas,” she said. She rotated Sean by his shoulders and pointed him in the right direction.
“Give me a moment to get the kids to bed, and then I'll be back,” Elena said to Brian. “Help yourself to coffee; there should be another cup's worth in the pot.”
I caught Brian staring at Sean's short arm, though he didn't say anything about it. It's what most adults did: they stole glances, with varying degrees of subtlety, but didn't ask. Sean had been born that way, his left arm half the normal length, with a tiny hand at the end of it that couldn't grasp anything very well.
I heard Alessandra still protesting her innocence as they climbed the stairs. Brian snickered. “Always the domestic, weren't you?” he said. “Diapers and runny noses.” We'd been out of diapers for several years, but I didn't bother to point this out. I couldn't believe that even when he showed up at my house shaking in fear and asking for help, he could still manage to look down his nose at my family.
“Okay,” I said. “Let's hear it.”
Brian held my gaze for a beat. “You remember the nature-as-computer argument?”
“Sure. The idea that the whole universe is just one big quantum computer.”
“All the information in the universe can be represented by a vast but finite number of bits, just a few for each particle: its type, its spin, its momentum, like that,” Brian said.
“It always sounded like doublespeak to me,” I said. “The universe is the universe. Calling it a computer doesn't provide any scientific insight.”
Brian looked a little offended. “Yes, it does. You can simulate any real set of particle interactions with a quantum computer made up of the same number of particles, no matter how many particles and how complex the interaction.”
So far, this didn't sound like anything to make anyone run out into the snow in flip-flops. It just sounded like wonky metaphysics. “Yeah? And I can simulate an apple with an apple. So what?”
“So, if you can simulate the universe with a quantum computer the same size as the universe, that means that the universe is indistinguishable from a quantum computer. For all practical purposes, it
is
a quantum computer.”
“Which means . . .” I was starting to get it.
“Which means it's a computational device with a complexity factor far in excess of Pronsky's Threshold.”
“Sufficient to generate consciousness,” I said, letting my incredulity show in my voice.
“Right.”
I couldn't help it. I laughed. “You're telling me, what? The universe is sentient?”
“Pieces of it.”
“You're serious?”
Brian sat rigid in his chair, darting glances at the windows. He didn't have to answer. I knew he was serious. I just didn't know if he was crazy or not.
Just then, Claire came in and helped herself to Oreo cookies and a glass of milk. At sixteen, Claire generally chose her own bedtime. She sat down at the table, unscrewed a cookie, and dunked half of it.
I welcomed the distraction. “Claire, you remember Mr. Vanderhall?” I said.
“Sure, a little,” she said. “Glad to meet you.”
Brian's eyes focused, and he shook her hand. “My pleasure.” He studied her face. “You've really grown up since I saw you last.”
He was rightâin the last few years, Claire's freckles had faded, and she'd traded girlish cuteness for a real beauty. Given Brian's reputation with women, though, I didn't like him noticing it. Besides, it wasn't just Claire's beauty that made her an impressive young woman.
“Claire's at the top of her class,” I said. “National Merit semifinalist, too.”
Claire rolled her eyes. “Dad.”
Elena came back into the room. “Head upstairs, please,” she said to Claire.
“I haven't finished my cookies.”
“Take them upstairs with you. We need to speak with Mr. Vanderhall privately.”
“Can I watch the stream before bed?”
“Fine. Just go upstairs.”
She gave me a kiss, murmured a “G'night, Daddy,” and went up.
Elena settled into the chair next to me with her mug of coffee, probably cold by now. “So, what's this all about?”
I rolled my eyes. “Brian was telling me how there are invisible fairies in the spaces between the atoms,” I said.
He leaned forward. “They're real, Jacob.”
“What are? The fairies?”
“Consciousnesses. Beings. Artificial intelligences, like in a computer, only the computer in this case is the whole universe.”
“And you've seen them?”
“A lot more than that. They've talked to me. Taught me things.” His expression was cryptic, a smile laced with uneasy fear. “It's probably easier if I show you.” He leaned over and picked a gyroscope up off the floor. Sean must have left it thereâhe was forever leaving his toys about. The gyroscope had been a gift from me, like the microscope and chemistry set and electricity kitâall attempts to interest Sean in science. He had paid little attention to my explanations of angular momentum, but he did like to watch the gyroscope spin at odd angles, balanced on a wire or a pencil point. For the first day, at least. Ultimately it was no more to him than a glorified top. He had lost the string and moved on to other toys.
Brian held the gyroscope up like a magician displaying a coin that was about to disappear. I felt a strange internal tugging sensation and wondered what it meant. Nervousness? Did I really care that much about what this was all about?
He held the gyroscope upright on the tabletop. Without the string, there was no way to set the gyroscope spinning. When Brian let go of the wheel, however, it started spinning on its own. He removed his hand, and it kept going, precessing with a slight wobble, but otherwise stable. My practical mind looked immediately for the power source, thinking that he might have switched the gyroscope for one with an ingeniously hidden battery and motor, but as far as I could tell, it was the same steel and plastic model, simple and cheaply made. There was no room for a power source. Despite this, the gyroscope kept spinning.
Elena started to say something, but Brian held up his hand, and we kept watching. Two minutes went by, and it didn't slow down. Not even a string-pulled gyroscope went on for that long without losing momentum. Three minutes went by. Four.
Finally, Elena reached out and snatched the gyroscope, her fingers stopping the spinning wheel. Her breathing was hard, and her eyes bored into Brian's.
“Maybe it's better if you tell us,” she said.
CHAPTER 2
DOWN-SPIN
“All rise!“
The court officer bellowed the phrase, which he'd probably been calling for most of his adult life. “Court is now in session for the People versus Jacob Kelley, the honorable Ann Roswell presiding.”
The federal courthouse in Philadelphia was a beautiful building of stone pillars and balconies, only slightly marred by the more functional modern office buildings grafted onto the back. A similar fusion of old and new reigned indoors, with marble staircases adjoining handicapped-accessible elevators. Courtroom five, where the marshals had led me and then removed my handcuffs, was a high-ceilinged space with wood paneling, tall windows, and oil paintings on the wall. After months of procedure by lawyers on both sides, my trial for the murder of Brian Vanderhall was finally about to begin.
I missed Elena. I missed my children. I wished there was someone in the packed courtroom viewing area who was on my side. I was also tired of waiting, and I was glad it would soon be over, one way or another. It had been four months since Brian had first appeared at my front door in his flip-flops and ruined my life. Now, finally, we would see what a jury of my peers would think of my story.
My lawyer, Terry Sheppard, sat next to me at the defense table. He had a handlebar mustache and wore leather boots. He looked like he'd be more at home on a horse than in the courtroom, and the truth was, I had no idea if he was any good or not. I'd picked him because, of all the sharply dressed sharks that had paraded through the prison meeting room to show off their sleek folios and tailored suits, Terry Sheppard stood out. He didn't try to impress me with his resume or his Harvard vowels. He was simple; a straight shooter. I trusted him.
Judge Roswell was in her sixties, with a kind face and pleasant manner. I wanted to think that was a good sign, but I doubted it. Terry said Roswell had a reputation for being tough, and as a former prosecutor, she wasn't inclined to sympathize with the defense. For nearly an hour, she talked to the jury about their responsibilities, introduced the two sides in the courtroom, and explained to them that only what was spoken into the record by sworn witnessesânot the opening or closing arguments by counselâwas to be considered as evidence in their deliberations. She was articulate and engaging, but also severe in her warnings that they were to avoid the media in this highly-publicized case.
Finally, she addressed the prosecutor. “Mr. Haviland,” she said. “Your opening statement.”
David Haviland stood and faced the jury. Camera flies hovered not far from his face, and I wondered how he resisted the urge to swat at them. He was well-dressed, at ease in a suit, with the voice of a newscaster. Worse, he had the air of a principled man, a man who might have made a killing as a defense attorney but who had chosen to be a prosecutor out of a sense of conscience. I might have been impressed with him myself, if he weren't trying to get me sent away to prison for life.
“Ladies and gentlemen,” he said, pivoting and raising his hands. “This case is about murder.” The courtroom was packed with journalists and gawkers, but Haviland addressed himself to the jurors, not to the crowd. I studied themâsix men and six women of a variety of ages and racesâtrying to gauge whether they were likely to be sympathetic or not. It was difficult to tell.
“Murder, pure and simple,” Haviland continued. “The taking of another man's life. You have never met Brian Vanderhall, and now you will never get the chance, but let us not forget that he was a very real person. Just like your own husbands or fathers or sons. Was he a flawed person? Perhaps. Aren't we all? That doesn't mean that at thirty-eight years old, he deserved to have his life torn away from him.
“Mr. Sheppard is going to try to convince you that this case is about technology. He's going to make your mind spin with words like âquarks' and âleptons' and confuse the facts with expert testimony about science that only a few people in the world understand. It's nothing more than a conjuror's show, designed to distract you from the evidence. And the evidence, ladies and gentlemen, is very clear. The facts will show you that Mr. Jacob Kelley murdered Brian Vanderhall in cold blood.” As he said my name, Haviland leveled an accusing finger at me. I wondered if they taught him to do that in law school, or whether he'd just picked it up from the movies.
“Your task, ladies and gentlemen, is to find the truth. In our great country, we don't believe the highly educated or the very rich are more qualified to find the truth than you are. Truth is something we can all recognize and understand. That's why we choose to put the safety of our homes and neighborhoods in your hands. We trust you to have the courage to convict Mr. Kelley”âthe pointing finger againâ“of the heinous crime of murder.”
One juror's eyebrows furrowed slightly, and I thought Haviland might have gone a bit too far with the word
heinous
. If he wanted to project himself as a man of the people, he was going to have to keep his vocabulary down.
“You've all heard the term âbeyond reasonable doubt,'” Haviland continued conversationally, starting to pace a little and rub his chin. “I want to explain to you what that means. Sometimes people get the idea that you can't convict a man unless there is no possible way he could be innocent. That's not true. The word
reasonable
is crucial: Is it reasonable to think that Jacob Kelley is innocent? Given the amount of evidence that you will see, would that evidence be enough to convince you, as a reasonable person, to take action on an important matter in your own life? That's what the law means, and Judge Roswell will tell you the same thing. Even Mr.â”
“Excuse me, councilor,” the judge interrupted. “You have a great deal of latitude in your opening statement, but I am going to ask you to refrain from giving my opinion, about which you can have little insight.”
Haviland was instantly contrite. “My apologies, Your Honor.”
“Members of the jury,” the judge went on. “I will remind you that opening statements are not evidence, nor are they law. They are an opportunity for the councilors to introduce their cases to you, but you are not to hold their words as having any weight in this case. The witnesses they call will provide the evidence, and I will explain the law.” She nodded at Haviland. “You may proceed.”
“Thank you, Your Honor,” Haviland said, although he looked like he'd swallowed something unpleasant.
He continued in the same vein, but with some of the wind taken out of his sails. I worked hard to maintain a grave demeanor. Terry, sitting next to me, apparently had no such scruples and leaned back with a wide grin on his face.
“Reasonable doubt,” Haviland said. “Let's think about what it means in this case. Jacob Kelley held the gun. This we can prove. He was angry at Mr. Vanderhall and wanted revenge. This we will also prove. You will hear how Mr. Vanderhall attacked Mr. Kelley's wife. You will hear about Mr. Kelley's history of violence and rage, especially when those he loves are threatened. And finally, you will hear about how Mr. Kelley followed his victim to an underground bunker and there shot and killed him. I submit to you that there is no reasonable doubt in my mind, nor will there be in yours once the evidence is presented, that Jacob Kelley”âout came the pointing finger, yet againâ“with full control of his senses, did intentionally and willfully take the life of a fellow human being.”