RULES OF LOVE (A Navy SEALs Romance) (47 page)

“How’s Amelia?” I asked.

“She’s good. Still stressed from work.”

“And Brandon?” I asked.

“He barely has time to see us lately. They have a lot of crime down in Philly.”

My older sister was a psychiatrist, my younger brother a police officer. I’d see them every other weekend at home in Pennsylvania. Though we were all adults, nothing much had changed. We were still the same dysfunctional, loving Italian family.

“And Dad?”

“Yesterday your father helped one of our friends with their plumbing. You know how he is. Always busy.”

I’d spoken to my father on the phone the night before. He was retired now, but still did some heating and cooling work on the side. He’d trade his HVAC services for a good Italian meal. My parents were uncommonly kind people, and I always tried to emulate their goodness.

As admirable as they were, they didn’t do a good job hiding the traumas of the family from me. I grew up to be a fixer, trying to make everything right. I’d learned to separate my desire to fix from my role as a counselor, but if I had to be honest, it was sometimes difficult.

“Do you have any sessions today?”

“No. Not today. I feel burned out.”

“You have to make sure to take care of your own needs, sweetie,” my mother warned.

“When you’re right, you’re right,” I said. “It’s even in the code of ethics.”

“When was the last time you took a day off?”

“Um…” I thought, trying to remember. “I can’t really say. Maybe a couple of months ago?”

“Well, I know you’re busy, but don’t be afraid to come home for some TLC.”

I smiled. “Thanks, Mom. I gotta go, though. Lots to do.”

We said our goodbyes, and I looked around my office, relieved to have some time to myself.

My burnout had never been as clear to me as it was yesterday. That session with Mr. Carson had disturbed me. I hadn’t been disturbed by the man, though; my quickened breath and feelings of arousal were my main concern. To feel these things for a client was downright wrong, never mind illegal.

The phone rang again. “Hey there,” Kent greeted.

“Kent, my fellow counselor. Are we still on for tonight?” I teased.

“Yes indeed. I’ll be at the spot in a couple of hours. Hope the train time doesn’t do you in,” he teased.

“I’m used to it. I can’t wait. I could use some self-care.”

“I’ll be pleased to help take care of you. See you then,” he said. He hung up, leaving me to my thoughts.

Kent went to an Ivy League school, but he was modest. His gentleness and modesty had drawn me to him. He had a quiet way of looking at things, an attribute I related to. We’d been friends since I started, but I’d be open to more if it was there.

I lived in a small blue Victorian house in Yonkers, where I planned to host my own sessions one day. I’d been renting it, but I hoped to own it eventually. I never saw myself buying a house—all throughout college and graduate school I had hopped from dorm rooms to couches, sometimes alternating between them and my car. I dreaded the idea of being settled, but it was such a feeling to savor now that I was an adult.

My favorite part of my house was my office, an old, rustic study where I took my doctorate classes online. Bookshelves as tall as the ceiling lined one wall, and I had filled them with old feminist books and politically incorrect books from the Victorian era. I wrote my assignments on a typewriter and scanned them into software that would feed it into a word processor. Though doing this made the process more complicated, it kept me focused. I also enjoyed the feel of writing on old typewriters, and it served as a motivator. I had a 3.9 GPA thus far, on top of a full-time job and various responsibilities, so I was doing something right.

Today, I was taking the train to Grand Central to meet Kent, who lived in a small apartment in the Upper East Side. He reminded me of myself when I first got my license—bright eyed and feverish for experience. A natural fixer. He’d learn soon enough.

The train wasn’t as crowded as it normally was during the week. The conductors looked wide awake, no matter what time of day it was. Truly, though, I’d always been a night owl. I got my best work done after eight. Sometimes I paid for it during the day—that could be why I needed all those cups of coffee.

The older man next to me noticed my red briefcase.

“Nice,” he said.

“Thanks. I’ve had it for years.”

“Reminds me of my daughter. She’s been gone for a while now. Moved to Europe,” he said sadly.

“Really?” I asked, genuinely concerned. “That must be hard.”

“It is,” he informed me, going off on a long tangent.

I was used to strangers coming to me from out of nowhere to talk about their problems. If it didn’t happen at least twice a day, I’d be surprised. When I was a teenager, I had a hard time dealing with it. I’d close myself up inside, trying to get some distance.

I rarely shared this with anyone, but I picked up on feelings from people. I wasn’t exactly sure what this ability was, if it was a kind of psychic thing, or some kind of a natural profiling ability. Whatever it was, it still sometimes overwhelmed me. That’s why, as much as I loved the city, I had settled in Yonkers, far away from the noise. I could identify with the suburbs more at the end of the day. At home, I’d draw the curtains as a shield between myself and the rest of the world. I would warm some tea after I’d wrapped myself in blankets.

My biggest challenge was not letting my intuition cloud my professional judgment. Though I was usually right, it would be wrong of me to come to conclusions founded entirely on my own feelings. Sometimes my abilities were hard for me to deny. This man… The second he sat next to me, he’d bombarded me with energy. Sad feelings. Misery. I felt his aching for his daughter. It was my understanding of this ache that made me want to help people. Often, their ache was literally my own.

Last night, Mr. Carson presented a similar ache, but his emotions were clouded by fear and disappointment. I didn’t tell him, but I knew exactly who he was. I had Googled him. I knew of his success, of his billions. I’d seen pictures of him when he was young, standing in front of a building he’d opened. He had a spark then. Now, he was ashamed. This was confirmed by the fact that he was almost childishly outraged when he thought I didn’t know who he was.

I was being honest in giving off the vibe that money didn’t impress me, though. In my profession, writing a paper or coming up with a new treatment method was something to brag about. We weren’t the type of people who valued money. Still, I was somewhat jealous of my sister, who made tons of money as a psychiatrist. I couldn’t deny the security that allowed her.

I knew the realistic constraints of not having a lot of money. I was able to put off the loans because I was in school, but I still had my rent, train fare and tuition to pay for every single month because I didn’t want more student debt. Each month, the money would come out of my checking account, just as my paycheck was going in. This was the only time I remotely thought of money or wished I had more of it.

The train arrived at the station. Grand Central never failed to delight me. Each time I stepped off the train, I was in an entirely different world. People hustled and bustled, purposeful and whole. I drew my black coat closer to myself and huddled past the crowd, gently bombarded with passing bodies like water lapping against a boat.

I took a seat at the coffee shop. It was my favorite place in the city and not the least bit extravagant, but the pastries were killer. The windows were tall and covered with fingerprints. Classical music hummed in the background. Around me were writers, tired graduate students, and disgruntled, impatient business people needing their fix. I took off my coat and placed it on a table to claim it, then walked up to the counter and ordered my usual: a large black iced coffee. I paid for my drink and sat, waiting for Kent to arrive.

A medium-built man with brown hair sat in front of me. “Hey,” he said.

I blinked. “Hello,” I replied pleasantly.

“You go to NYU?” he muttered.

Used to people thinking I was still in college, I shook my head politely. “No. I’m a counselor.”

“Does that mean you can figure me out?” he teased.

“I wouldn’t be so presumptuous,” I replied, my tone a bit colder now.

Kent arrived, late as usual. His tall and lithe frame was powdered with snow. He looked around the room, finally meeting my eyes. His face lit up in recognition. He saw the man there and immediately took a seat near me, kissing my forehead and asking about my new friend.

The man put his hands up and said, “My bad.” He walked away, leaving us together.

Kent grinned, chuckling at the man’s retreat. “I kinda expected that.”

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“Every time I meet you somewhere, there’s some goon trying to make a move. Not that I could blame them. You’re a knockout.”

I blushed. “Well, you certainly knock me out, too,” I replied, not good at making puns.

He laughed in his gentle, kind voice. “I’m gonna get something to drink.”

“I didn’t know whether you wanted a hot or a cold drink, so I figured I’d wait to get food.”

“You should have waited so I could pay for your drink, too,” he said.

“That’s sweet of you, but you know how I am.”

“Yeah, you’re independent as hell. But I wanna treat you.”

“Okay.” I smiled. “I’d like a strawberry danish.”

“Oh, and I’m getting hot coffee. Only you get iced coffee in the winter.” His teasing made me smile. He rose and walked to the counter.

I looked around the shop. I was, indeed, the only person with iced coffee. Kent returned with a small tray filled with pastries. My strawberry danish sat daintily on a small white plate.

“I always wondered how they make stuff this so small,” I said dreamily.

“They must have a miniature factory with miniature people to make tiny things,” Kent said.

I laughed. “I never see this side of you at work.”

“How so?” he inquired curiously.

“You’re Mr. Clinical there. Do you even really need those glasses?”

“No.” He grinned. “They’re just for show.”

I smiled widely. “They make you feel important, huh?”

“They’re lucky. I wore them when I defended my Master’s thesis.”

“Oh?”

“To be honest, I had a scuff mark on one of the lenses, and no one told me until the end of the presentation. I think some of them were too distracted by how ridiculous it looked to be too picky about my thesis.”

“Funny story, but not likely. I’m sure it was great.”

“I can pull it up on my phone,” he said proudly.

In moments like these, I could tell that he was only twenty-five. He had a youthful excitement about everything, and I found it charming. We looked at his thesis while people came in and out of the shop. As soon as there was a lull, he looked around and lowered his voice.

“So, how did it go with Billy the Billionaire?”

I scoffed. “Ugh. You know I can’t tell you the details.”

“Come on, Katie. Everyone at the office is curious as fuck.”

I sighed. “All right, well . . . the only thing I’ll say is that he tried to overstep every boundary I set.”

“Not surprising. The dude is loaded,” Kent exclaimed.

“He seems like he has hope, though. He’s not impossible to talk to. Just defensive. But that’s all I can say, and you know very well why,” I scolded, teasing him.

“Confidentiality. I know, I know.” Kent relented and looked around, bored. His face lit up again. “I have a good idea.”

“Yeah? What?” I asked curiously.

“Let’s go to Times Square.”

“You’re such a tourist,” I said, grinning at him.

“It’s magical. Totally magical,” Kent said, getting up. “Let’s go.”

We teetered down the stairs and climbed on the subway. The cool air underground woke me up even more than the coffee had. I squeezed next to him in the seat, clinging to him for warmth. People came and went, moving about their everyday lives.

The snow had stopped by the time we got off, luckily. The familiar flashing lights and endless distractions of Times Square filled my vision. One billboard in particular caught my attention. Because it was him.
Billy the Billionaire. Interview tonight,
the sign read, flashing majestically.

I inhaled sharply, recognizing his face and those eyes. I wasn’t in Times Square anymore, or with Kent, who was babbling about the history of the place. I was in my office, uncomfortable, the blood rushing to my face as I turned around and saw him for the first time.

He wasn’t the tallest guy in the world, but he had the build to make up for it. His arms were especially sexy, taut and muscular. I could see the definition beneath his suit. His face barely had any wrinkles, and the few, small ones were charming and gave him a distinguished vibe. But his eyes—his eyes, piercing and green—were the most beautiful thing about him.

Now, they coated Times Square in a green glow. I was bewitched. I didn’t realize I’d stopped until Kent waved his hand in front of my face. He searched for what I was looking at and laughed. “What do you know? It’s one of your clients. I can’t believe he really thought that you didn’t know him,” he added. When I didn’t respond, he grabbed my hand and said, “Come on!”