Chapter 1
Farah
“Slade, I’ve lost everything today. I don’t want to lose you, too.”
After leaving the hospital from visiting her friend Rhonda, who just lost her baby, Farah trudged into the house with a heavy heart. This was as a result of the shower she hosted at her house. The guilt wore her down, and she was having a terrible day. Things got worse when she walked into her room and saw her brother and sister there.
“Why are y’all in here?” She sat next to them and kicked her shoes off one by one. Then she flung her purse to the floor. “Any news on Chloe yet?” She was worried because the day prior, she had learned that Chloe was held for ransom with her boyfriend, Audio.
“No . . . I can’t believe this shit,” Mia said. “Our world is coming down hard!”
“Why is all of this happening? I can’t deal with this bullshit right now,” Shadow yelled. “Fuck!” Then he looked at Mia, and it was obvious they knew something Farah didn’t. “We should tell her.”
“What’s wrong?” she asked, looking between them. “Stop playing games and tell me what’s up! Please . . . I don’t think I can take any more bad news.”
“Mama’s dead,” Mia cried.
Farah was relieved that this was the reason for their dismay. “We went to tell her that Chloe was missing. She changed the locks so we couldn’t get inside, so we called the police. I smelled something foul, but I didn’t know what it was. When the police came, before they even got to her apartment, from the outside they knew what was up. She was dead. Sitting in front of a TV. Somebody slit her throat and shot her in the chest.”
“Wait. Shot her in the chest?” She was confused. “Why . . . why they do both?”
“They didn’t know she was shot at first, but when they took her to the hospital, and lifted the black gown she wore, they saw the bullet hole over her heart.” Mia was breathing so heavily she had to fan herself.
At that moment Farah’s mind floated. Prior to this new information, she thought she was the one who killed her mother. She murdered her mother because ever since Farah was a child, Brownie ridiculed her for having light skin. Brownie hated lighter-skinned women, believing they thought that they were better than she was. Her mindset was due in part to not appreciating her dark skin because of the persecution she experienced from her peers as a child. Even her own mother, Elise, believed her daughter was unattractive and should be grateful for anything and anybody who wanted to be with her, including her drunk and violent husband. Brownie’s heart was always filled with hate, so she could never love Farah.
So when Farah went over to Brownie’s house, she let herself in and raised the hijab covering her neck, to slice her throat. Now she was learning that someone raised the abaya, shot her, and pulled it back down to conceal the crime. But who?
Shadow popped up and marched toward the window. He leaned up against the wall and looked out through the pane to prevent himself from crying. “You should’ve seen her face, Farah. Oh my God! She didn’t look anything like herself. The porphyria ate her up terribly! Our beautiful mother is gone.”
Porphyria, a rare blood disease, caused havoc in their family. Farah, Mia, Shadow, and even their grandmother were stricken with it. Porphyria affected the nervous system and the skin, which impacted the way their bodies produced blood. But it was the physical effects that caused the family the most grief.
Farah didn’t feel the same way about her mother’s death. In her opinion, Brownie got everything she deserved. “I can’t deal with her right now,” she said. “I got to use all of my energy on Chloe.”
Mia wiped her face and touched Farah’s knee. “I understand you don’t feel the same as we do.” She looked at Shadow and back at her. “After everything she put you through, it’s wrong for us to expect you to.” She gave her a hug.
Farah gladly accepted. She loved her family, Ashur included, but Brownie she couldn’t care less about.
“Grandma said she’s coming over here in about an hour. You know she never comes out, but she wants to be there for us,” Mia said.
That’s all Farah needed was to see Elise’s face right now. Farah was growing increasingly uncomfortable with everything and everybody.
“I almost forgot. Slade and them were over here earlier,” Mia told Farah. “They wanted to talk here instead of at Markee’s. They said they can’t be sure if they can trust him yet.”
It was unusual for Slade to come over to her house when she wasn’t home, but she understood not being able to trust his cousin Markee. Markee worked for Randy, the same man who called in the ransom for Audio and Chloe. The real twist was that Randy was also Farah’s ex-boyfriend. As it stood, her life was way messy.
“I never liked dude,” Shadow said, referring to Markee. “He got a lot of shit with him if you ask me.” He looked back out the window.
“Something happened while they were here though,” Mia added. “I gave Slade my key to get back in, because we were going to the morgue to identify Ma’s body.”
As Farah replayed in her mind the tapes of what Mia just said, a frightful expression covered her face. Immediately she hopped off the bed and dropped to her knees. Shadow stood up straight and looked at his frantic sister in motion. Removing the box from under the bed with her stories, she was desperately seeking two things: her journal for the month, and Knox’s phone.
When Mia saw her fling the books out of the box, she finally understood her horror. “Please tell me you didn’t. Tell me you didn’t write about what you did to Knox in your book.” Farah looked at her without a response and Mia had her answer. “How could you be so fucking stupid?”
“I been writing in these books all my life! What am I supposed to do? Just stop?”
Shadow walked over to them. “Farah, after all these fucking years? What the fuck is in them books anyway?”
She held her head down. “Everything.”
He leaned in. “
Everything?
Including the stuff we did that you knew about?”
“Yes.”
He put his hands over his face and paced in place. “Get the fuck out of here! Who does that kind of shit anyway? Just call the police and make a fucking recording!”
The moment he said that, the front door slammed. Farah hopped off the floor, and they all walked into the living room to see who was there. Standing side by side in the middle of the living room were Slade, Killa, and Major.
Della Baker was sitting on the recliner. When Farah walked out, she said, “So this is Farah Cotton? The girl who stole my son’s heart.” Della looked at Slade and, using her cane, pulled herself up.
Mia and Shadow stood next to Farah.
“Yeah . . . that’s her.” It was obvious that he was avoiding eye contact with Farah.
She searched his eyes to see how he felt about her, but saw nothing.
“Earlier today, Farah, my son found something on the way to the bathroom,” Della told her. “In your house.”
Mia looked at Killa and rolled her eyes. When she was home earlier, he kept saying how he had to go to the bathroom. Now it all made sense. He made no fewer than ten trips within an hour, but she didn’t think anything of it because Chloe was gone. “So you were snooping around?” she asked him. “In my house?”
Killa remained silent.
“I think we’re asking the wrong questions, young lady,” Della said. “How about we start by telling me how you got this?” She raised Knox’s phone in the air. “Let’s start there.”
Farah rocked in place and her heart skipped beats. There she was, gazing at Knox’s BlackBerry, the same phone she took from him after she sucked the blood out of his body and told him how sweet it was. Suddenly, she felt hot. She felt itchy, and she was certain a fresh bout of hives were coming along, which happened every time she stressed out. But she knew this would make her look guiltier.
Breathe, Farah. You can do this. Take your time. Breathe.
“My nephew, Markee, told me that when he last saw Knox, he asked about a cute redbone at the end of the hall.”
Farah shrugged. “There are plenty of cute redbones in this building. One of them used to live here.”
“He led him to believe that he came to see you,” she told her. “He seemed very interested when he told him that Slade dealt with you.”
Farah felt dizzy. “I don’t know . . . I don’t know nothing about that. I never saw no Knox.”
“You okay, young lady?” Della asked, taking two steps closer with the use of her cane. Della was a strong woman, and Farah got the impression that the wooden cane wasn’t needed. If anything, judging by the way she clutched the handle, it would be used as a weapon. “Because you look like you seen a ghost.”
“My sister is sick!” Mia jumped to the rescue. Her hefty body matched her disposition: angry. She would rip the woman apart if she had to, and she stood between them like a personal guard to express her intentions. “She not used to all of this excitement. And, to be honest, I don’t much like how you coming at her.”
Della stared Mia directly in the eyes. Nobody scared Mia, not even her own mother, but, for the first time ever, she felt fear.
“Let me tell you something. I’ve done my best to leave my heart on the doorstep. Know that if I didn’t, everybody in here without a Baker name would be dead.”
“So you gonna come into our house and threaten us?” Shadow roared. “You better watch how you coming at my sister.” He stood next to Mia.
All of the Baker Boys stepped closer also, and Killa said, “And you better watch how you coming at my mother!”
“Everybody calm down,” Della said, raising her hand. When everyone backed down a little, she addressed Mia. “Now that we measured everybody’s dick size, let’s talk about the matter at hand. Why would a phone get her excited if she didn’t have anything to do with the disappearance of the man it belongs to?” She looked coldly into Mia’s eyes.
“I think this is getting out of control,” Farah said under her breath.
“It’s been out of control,” she corrected Farah. “And I haven’t gotten a satisfactory answer. How did you get my son’s phone?”
Farah knew keeping his phone was a risky move, and now she had to answer for it. “I gotta sit down for a second,” she told everyone. “I’ve had a crazy day.” She sat on the white sofa and the smell of leather slapped her in the nose.
“Do what you must, just as long as when you get up, you telling me something I want to hear.”
Farah had to think quickly if she wanted to make it out of the situation alive. She knew the look in Della’s eyes was official and she would not take lightly to someone lying to her face. The tension in the room was thick, and Farah found it difficult to breathe.
From the couch she took two quick breaths and said, “I got the phone from Eleanor McClendon’s house. Knox was living there for a period, before he went missing.” She swallowed a gulp of air and observed everyone. “When me and Slade went over to see about Knox, I saw it on the table. To be honest, I didn’t know who the phone belonged to until now.”
“Why you take it?” Killa asked in disbelief.
“Slade was questioning her about Knox and, to be honest, her responses seemed off to me. So I took it to go through it later . . . to see what we could find.”
“Why didn’t you tell me that before?” Slade gritted his teeth.
“Things moved so fast, Slade. And I forgot to tell you that I took it, but you gotta understand that I didn’t know who it belonged to.”
“Yeah, right,” Killa said. Major put his hand on his shoulder to calm him down.
“I do love him,” she said angrily, “and I would never have kept this from him had I known. Why would I keep something from you this important, Slade? I know how hard you’ve been trying to find him. I even tried to support you in that search. You know that.”
Slade looked into her eyes, and an expression of hopefulness covered his face. He wanted to believe her, more than he wanted to be a Baker. After all, she was the love of his life. There wasn’t a bitch he could name, dead or alive, who ever rocked his heart the way Farah Cotton did. But the question remained, was she telling the truth? And, if not, why?
“All I can say is that I’m sorry I didn’t tell you, but I didn’t know. And then with my mother dying, and my sister going missing, there wasn’t enough time. Think about it. We went to Eleanor’s yesterday, and today your brother and my sister are being held for ransom. When was there time to look through the phone? A phone was and is the last thing on my fucking mind. Slade, I’ve lost everything today. I don’t want to lose you, too.”
“Did you say your mother died?” Slade approached the couch and sat next to her. The leather moaned under his weight. He grabbed her hands and held them in his. He was all man. He was all hers. “When this happen, baby? And why didn’t you tell me?”
His presence made her weak. And now that she knew he cared, she hunched downward and cried softly.
“We just found out our mother died today,” Mia said, eyes still on Killa. In her opinion, had he not gone sneaking around in their apartment, none of this would’ve happened. “And she’s right. Shit has been in motion ever since.”
“Are you okay, Farah? Is there anything I can do for you?” He rubbed her arm.
Yes. Don’t leave me. I’m going to be so bad if you leave me.
“No, I’m fine. I just gotta catch my breath, that’s all.”
“Now everybody has the answer they were waiting on,” Mia said to Della. “So, now that y’all have your answer, can you please leave so we can deal with our loss in private? All this investigation shit is making me sick, and it’s not fair to me or my family.”
“Not so fast,” Della said, raising her cane slightly. “I want to see this Eleanor person.” She looked at the way Slade held Farah’s hand and was sick to her stomach. She saw his attachment, but she lived a long enough life in the South to know a snake when she saw one. “So where is this Eleanor person, Farah? We can clear all of this up right now.”