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Precious Thing

PRECIOUS THING
Colette McBeth

Copyright © 2013 Colette McBeth

The right of Colette McBeth to be identified as the Author of the Work has been asserted by her in accordance with the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988.

Apart from any use permitted under UK copyright law, this publication may only be reproduced, stored, or transmitted, in any form, or by any means, with prior permission in writing of the publishers or, in the case of reprographic production, in accordance with the terms of licences issued by the Copyright Licensing Agency.

First published as an Ebook by Headline Publishing Group in 2013

All characters in this publication are fictitious and any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

Cataloguing in Publication Data is available from the British Library

eISBN: 978 1 4722 0596 4

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Table of Contents

Title Page

Copyright Page

About the Book

About the Author

Praise

Dedication

Prologue

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty-one

Chapter Twenty-two

Chapter Twenty-three

Chapter Twenty-four

Chapter Twenty-five

After

Acknowledgements

About the Book

I know her inside out. I know what she’s thinking, I know what she wants.

So I can’t give up on her, she knows I never will.

Remember the person you sat next to on your first day at school? Still your best friend? Or disappeared from your life for good?

Some friendships fizzle out. Rachel and Clara promised theirs would last forever.

They met when Rachel was the new girl in class and Clara was the friend everyone wanted. Instantly, they fell under one another’s spell and nothing would be the same again. Now in their late twenties Rachel has the TV career, the flat and the boyfriend, while Clara’s life is spiralling further out of control. Yet despite everything, they remain inextricably bound. Then Clara vanishes. Is it abduction, suicide or something else altogether?

Imagine discovering something about your oldest friend that forces you to question everything you’ve shared together. The truth is always there. But only if you choose to see it.

About the Author

Colette McBeth was a BBC TV News Correspondent for ten years. She lives in West London with her husband and three young children. She attended the Faber Academy Novel Writing Course in 2011. PRECIOUS THING is her first novel.

Praise

‘A provocative and intriguing debut that will leave you questioning how well you know your own childhood friends’

Jilliane Hoffman

‘Draws you into the dark side of friendship with breath-taking skill – this gripping thriller had me hooked from the start’

Sarah Rayner

‘Fantastic and beautifully chilling’

Imogen Robertson, author of
The Paris Winter

‘Keep your eyes peeled this summer for an astonishing new talent …
Gone Girl
but with a Brit voice’

David Mark, author of
Dark Winter

‘[A]n excellent debut, well-written, gripping and tense, which skilfully weaves an unfolding nightmare with a dark past’

Cath Staincliffe, author of the
Sal Kilkenny Mysteries
and the
Scott & Bailey
novels

‘A brilliant, chilling debut. Psychopathy has never seemed so attractive’

Ali Knight, author of
Wink Murder

‘Dark, intriguing, and full of unexpected twists’

Lynn Shepherd, author of
Tom-All-Alone’s
and
A Treacherous Likeness

‘The plot of
Precious Thing
is like a Catherine wheel, spinning faster and faster as it approaches its final twist … It is a fine debut from Colette McBeth. Roll on her next’

Clio Gray, author of
The Brora Murders

‘[T]his psychological thriller had me gripped from start to finish. She has a unique voice … I’m sure her debut will be a huge success’

Mari Hannah, author of
Deadly Deceit

To Paul
and Finlay, Milo and Sylvie.

September 2007

O
FFICIALLY, I DON’T
think of you any more. I am one hundred per cent focused on the future. When anyone asks how I’m doing – and they do regularly – I’m fond of using the terminology of war – it adds drama don’t you think?
I am conquering my demons
;
I am battling the dark thoughts that have been twisting inside me
. Sometimes, if the situation lends itself to it, I’ll lean forward, fix them with a steely look and say with as much reverence as I can muster:
I am a survivor, I will beat the past
. In return I get a sympathetic nod, a concerned smile. I can almost hear the
whissh
of relief blowing through them. I can see the checklist of worries being ticked off in their minds.
She’s making progress.

In reality I’m doing nothing of the sort. I can’t empty my head of you in the way I would spring-clean a cupboard. People don’t seem to understand that no matter what has happened between us we will always have each other encoded in our DNA. I don’t want to move on, quite the opposite. I want to go back to the very beginning. To the time when you made me smile a smile that reached all the way to my eyes and tingled in my head; when we laughed about the little things that only we found funny, when we traded the knowing winks, the in-jokes, as if they were our own personal currency. To the days when we were always together because it was the only way we made sense.

Your absence is an ache in the pit of my stomach, a hunger that is never satisfied. Even when I close my eyes I can’t escape you. I see you everywhere. Yesterday, the late-afternoon sun slanted through the window and fell into the room. I closed my eyes to bask in the warmth of it. I imagined I was sitting under a vast, endless sky, staring out to sea. I focused on the horizon, the reds and yellows and greens of the fishing boats moving on the swell of the waves; the blue of the ocean dancing under the sun. For the briefest moment my mind stilled and emptied. I breathed deep. I was freed from my thoughts. Then I glimpsed you, jumping over the waves, dark hair in ringlets from the water, laughing as a breaker pulled you under. I ran down to the water to see you, straight in. Only when you emerged the hair and face weren’t yours.

These are the cruel tricks my mind plays.

I can’t rest until I reach you. Oh, what I’d give to see you one last time, to have you look me in the eye and know, without a flicker of doubt, that I have only ever loved you, that everything I have done was driven by a fierce desire to protect you.

I don’t blame you for thinking otherwise. I blame the people who’ve poisoned you with their lies. But listen to your heart. Trust your instincts. Think of the beautiful, precious thing that we have shared. Know that something so pure could never be bad.

That’s why I’m writing to you. So you’ll understand. I don’t know how it will reach you, but I’ll find a way. No one knows about the letter; its content doesn’t fit with my ‘moving on’ narrative. Let it be our secret. Just imagine me close to you, whispering it in your ear – our story, in my words. And maybe at the end we will work out how we lost each other and how we can find each other once more.

Chapter One

M
Y STORY STARTS
on a Monday morning in January because it’s the obvious place to begin. I used to think,
Oh, that was the day when everything changed,
but of course it’s never that simple. The seeds of what happened then were planted years before.

In my box of memories from January the twenty-second 2007 these are the things you’ll see: a single sunflower in a garden, the waves; the huge yawning jaws of them thrashing under ripe clouds. And the violet of the sky, the way it looked electric, like it had been plugged into a vast source of negative energy.

But the mind plays tricks. So does the memory. What we see is not necessarily how things are. I do believe, though, that the sky and the waves were as I have described them. But the sunflower, in winter? I can see it as clearly now as I can see my hand in front of me. But it doesn’t mean it was there. Maybe I see it because the flower has always reminded me of you, of us. Of the beginning of the end.

 

It was a one-way conversation, the kind that often marked the start of my working day. Robbie, my news editor, barking his orders down the phone. ‘Some woman has disappeared in Brighton, police are holding a press conference. I’ll e-mail you the rest,’ he said before hanging up. That was as much as I knew.

I left London in the freezing rain and by the time I reached the outskirts of Brighton the snow had begun to fall, in giant fuzzy felts on my windscreen. In the city a film of slush coated the roads. I drove up Southover Street, weaving in and out of the rows of squashed terraces to John Street and the police station, a boxy construction in white and beige with dirty brown windows, not far from the sea.

I was late so I pulled up on the kerb – a parking ticket always preferable to a bollocking from the news desk for missing a story. A blast of icy air hit me as I got out and reminded me why I hated Robbie. The flimsy mac, the heels, the skirt, the air-stewardess chic. It was my attempt to appease him after being told to
make more of an effort
. Not that the viewers gave a damn if I wore the same coat three days in a row, but he did.

Outside the police station the TV vans were lined up, satellites pointing to the sky and humming. Our own with its National News Network logo, a mangle of Ns, was next to the Global Broadcasting Corp truck. Through the half-open door I caught a glimpse of the monitor feeding pictures from inside the press conference. Relief: no sound yet, no one had started talking. I reached for my BlackBerry to read Robbie’s e-mail and fill in the blanks of the story, winging it as usual, when Eddie the engineer emerged from the sat van, barely recognisable in the bulk of his North Face jacket.

‘They’ve just given us a two-minute warning. Should have worn your running shoes, Rachel.’

The smell hits you first in police stations. It’s the stench of lives unravelling, of drink- and drug-fuelled chaos, of people crossing the line. It’s the same in hospitals and old people’s homes, the way it clings to you. The one in Brighton was no different. I could feel it catch my throat as soon as I went through the automatic doors.

There was a man in front of me at reception in a grey shell suit that was a shade or two darker than his skin. Gunmetal next to putty. His dark hair shone with grease and he was chewing fingernails that were thick with dirt.

‘What the fuck you looking at eh?’ he snarled. ‘You got nothing better to do?’

‘Pipe down, Wayne,’ said the woman on reception. Her name badge said she was Lesley. She had big gold ovals hanging from her ears, stretching her ear lobes, dark circles round her eyes.

I flashed my press card.

‘They’re just about to start, darling. Fill this in.’ She tapped the visitors’ book with her right hand so I could see that she wore gold rings on three fingers, excluding her thumb and pinkie. One said MUM, as if she needed to be reminded, and the other spelled out LOVE.

‘You,’ she pointed a finger at shell-suit man, ‘you sit down and someone will see you in a minute. You, come with me, I need to buzz you through.’

We walked through a double door into a long corridor to the conference room. Inside was the usual smattering of local newspaper journalists, huddled together in their cheap suits, a wall of chatter surrounding them, cameras set up ready to go live the moment the police started talking. A clutch of microphones was propped on the table and sitting behind it were four people: two police officers, the press officer Hilary Benson, and a young woman. Jake Roberts was there too. But I didn’t see him until later. I wouldn’t see any of this until later. Instead, as soon as Lesley opened the doors, my eyes locked on to a poster, about two foot by two foot, hanging next to the table. It was a photograph of a woman. A photograph of you.

Those blue eyes of yours, they sucked me in, deep deep down where it was cold and dark. My lungs inflated, my whole body screamed for air. I was drowning, Clara, and all the time I could hear the sloshing and swirling of water in my ears and the muffled sounds of the media circus gearing up for a performance. No one saw what happened to me in that moment, no one noticed that I had been sucked from the outside of the story right down into its murky depths. No one could have guessed that the story was part of me.

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