Authors: Paul Theroux
In large shaky upright script he wrote
Robert Frost to Maude Pratt, 1944
. Before he handed it back, he flipped a few pages, a verifying caress, like a father scratching his child's head. I had never known an author not to give his book this squinting second glance at signature time, but Frost paused longer than most.
“There was one other thing,” I said. “I wondered if you'd let me take your picture.”
“Who sent you?”
I told him.
“What's your usual fee?”
“Fifty dollars and a year's subscription.”
“Stand back,” he said to the cringing man, and gave me a side view. He knew he had a good profile, but his noggin was narrow as a hatchet and I wanted him head-on, with his close-set eyes and unmown hair and frown-marks on his forehead, all his suspicion and vanity apparent on the blade of his face, the trough of his mouth. I wanted a glimpse of his canvas shoes and the complicated apparatus holding up his pantsâgalluses and leather beltâand his big freckled hands clenched on his own book.
“Must be something wrong,” I said. “I can't see you.”
Naturally, he turned, and just as he said, “Goddammit” I clicked and got the curmudgeon I wanted. He returned his head to show me his profile and I did a dozen more, but I knew that the first one was the best.
I thanked him for his autograph and apologized for bothering him.
He said sourly, “When do I get my fifty dollars?”
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There was a further delay to my European jaunt, an assignment that took me to California, I had been asked to do some pictures about morale-boosting movies that were being made in Hollywood, such as
Air Force
and
Bomber Command
. I felt I owed it to Orlando to cooperateâhe had returned to active duty and the last I had heard he was in the Philippines. The movies were fairly dreadful, but no one seemed to mind except the talented authors whose artless chore it was to work on them. The word was that John Steinbeck had written a script for a Hitchcock war-effort called
Lifeboat
and that he was distressed by the hash that had been made of it. It was my favorite themeâthe good novelist in the meat-grinder of patronage and reduced to hamburg. But the cutting-edges of this meat-grinder were worth examining: patriotism, vanity, debt, greed, and warfare. I wanted Hitchcock and Steinbeck together, fat and skinny on the back lot, the most unliterary picture possible.
Steinbeck wasn't around, and no one knew where he wasâsome said New York, some said Mexico. All that was certain was that he had gone through the roof.
I kept busy. Hollywood was full of geniusesâinverted alchemists, as Huxley called them, who had been hired to change gold into lead. Going from studio to studio I found actors who were only too glad to make faces for me. And I did my second set of boogie-man pictures. A black bit-part player remembered my Camera Club show. The shock on people's faces when he took me in his arms and gave me a bear-hug! He was fifty or so and had aged the way blacks do, with a dull grayness on his skin and dark circles around his red eyes, his hands scaly and almost reptilian. He was wearing a U.S. Army uniform.
“Let's have a salute,” I said.
He refused. “I ain't a soldier and this ain't a war. This is just a white man's movie.”
The uniform, he said, had been issued by the wardrobe department of Universal Studios. As I did him he reminisced and said how glad he had been to see his “people” in my exhibitions, referring to my portraits of Robeson and the negative prints of Doolum, Pigga, and Teets and
Negro Swimming to a Raft
. He began to cry, and crying revealed everything of himself. The tears splashed down the cheeks of this troubled sentimental soul. Actors are unembarrassed and can cry facing the camera, but crying is impossible to control once the first blubs have startedâit is as unselective and telling as anger or lust.
It gave me a good idea. After he introduced me to other actorsâwho readily agreed to be photographedâI asked them to cry for me at the end of the session. Alan Ladd, Loretta Young, Charles Laughton, Henry Fonda: I had people crying for me, and with greater effect, long before Philippe Halsman had them jumping. Bogart was the one man who refused to cry for me, but I knew that if he had there would have been no stopping him. All he said was, “Get her out of here.”
Raymond Chandler said something similar, but he had more reason. I had been taken out to eat by Aldous Huxley, whom I had visited in connection with an assignment I'd asked for, a
Saturday Evening Post
photo-essay about Huxley's
The Art of Seeing
, which had come out two years before. The book had been severely criticized and even ridiculed, but I was in a good position to judge it and I believed much of it to be true. Huxley was interested that I had done D. H. Lawrence and said that he was still in touch with the throbbing turnip, Frieda. At the Mexican restaurant, Huxley read the menu with his cheek against it, looking sideways at it with one swiveled eye.
“Pass the salt, please,” he said, after we were served our enchiladas.
I deliberately handed him the pepper. He did not detect this until he shook it. He sniffed and put it down and said, “That is pepper. I'd hate to think you did that on purpose.”
“Gosh, no.”
One eye squinting, one bulging, and both clouded and misshapen with a kind of gruesome tissue, he described the Bates Method of seeing. He said, “The eye must be re-educated. I want you to look behind me and tell me what you see.”
“A manâtiny, tweedy, and drunkâwith a little old lady. He's dapper, fifty-oddâbut, Christ, that woman is seventy-five if she's a day. She's walking very upright, as if she's afraid her wig is going to fall off. Now they're sitting down and the man's snapping his fingers at the waiter.”
Huxley hadn't turned. He said. “That's Chandler.'
“So you have eyes in the back of your head. The Bates Method sure is something!”
Huxley laughed. I excused myself and, taking my camera and pretending to head for the ladies' room, I looked for a vantage point to shoot this mismatched couple. I saw concealment between a pillar and palm not far from the Chandlers' table and did a few preliminary shots. Screwing on my flash attachment I marched up to them. In situations that called for quick timing I always made a prior adjustment, setting the focus for six feet, since it is an easy distance to gaugeâfocusing is impossible in an emergency.
“Applesauce!” I yelled. They looked up and froze, as people do when surprised by a camera, and I snapped. Chandler, bug-eyed in the light, had the gape of a man in a mug shot. His wife, Cissy, being elderly, was slow to react. Her face had been plaster, but the flesh whitened it further: she had no lips, no shadows, only the faintest dusted lines of panic, like cracks in a porcelain monkey. Then the light abated, her face slackened, and she looked a hundred years older, as stale and ruined as yesterday's oatmeal.
“Jesus, who do you think you are!” Chandler snarled.
“Sorry,” I said. “My mistake. I took you for Jiggs and Maggie.”
Cissy, who was rigid, touched at her face as if to make sure it was still there, and she began to whimper. Chandler cursed me and put his arm around her. She inched over into a swoon, a richly grotesque
pieta
I could not resist snapping.
“Waiter!”
Already I regretted the pictures. They were perhaps the cruellest ones I had ever done, taken in the most hammer-hearted wayâfaultless timing, nastily motivated.
“Meet you outside,” I said to Huxley, and dashed out of the restaurant.
“What was that kerfuffle all about?” he asked in the taxi, undermining my respect for his treatise on the Bates Method.
“A case of mistaken identity,” I said. I looked out the window and seeing that we were on Hollywood Boulevard I said, “Mind if we stop?”
“Not at all.” Huxley loved the sleazy glamor of Hollywood. As an intellectual he could have it both ways, be mocking about the cheap glitter, and blamelessly wallow in it because he knew it was cheap. His streak of vulgarity was a mile wide in any case: he secretly lusted after a huge whorish success, since having it was the only convincing way of despising it. But success, even vulgar success, is denied to those who belittle it as they drool.
We got out of the taxi and I did my Huxley pictures there on the sidewalk, using available glareâHuxley sticking out like a sore thumb among the bellowing movie marquees, the clip joints and dives and neon curlicues. This pecker-up Englishman in his wrinkled suit and shapeless wool tie, with his hair raked back Russian-style and his ears sticking out and in the glare a dozen blurred criminal faces: he looked owlish and prim. It was how he wanted to be photographed, yet another slumming foreigner who thought he was a real devil. But how was he to know that his eyes would appear as two useless polyps, and that he would lookâsmiling there on Hollywood Boulevardâlike a blind man who had lost his way and wandered into a fleshpot and praised it because it sounded jolly. The title was
Huxley
, but I thought of it as
Eyeless in Gaza
.
He had convinced himself that he could see and persuaded others of his belief. I think myself that he was partially sighted and that the rest, like much of his writing, was sheer nonsense. It was not the Bates Method, but drugs, will power, brains, and bullshit, and if my picture of him showed anything it was a man kidding himself.
“You should stop awhile in Los Angeles,” he said. “This is one of the great cities of the world, a mixture of Babylon, Vienna, andâ”
“Cleveland?”
“I was going to say Chichén-Itzá, but have it your way.”
“I have to go to Europe.”
“Europe is here,” he said. “The thinkers, I mean, and they're the only ones who matter. But not only themâSchönberg, Einsteinâ”
“He's in New Jersey.”
“Thomas Mann.”
“
He's
here? I'd love to do him.”
“You'll need an introduction,” said Huxley. “But I might be able to help you.”
Two days later my taxi was bowling along San Remo Drive, Mann's street in Pacific Palisades. I fought my way through the palms in the front yard and rang the bell.
“He is expecting you,” said the German girl at the door. “He will be down presently.”
It was one of those reverently old-world households in which one detected a great hidden presence. The German girl had whispered; another tiptoed in and smiled at me. The house was private, and dense with bourgeois upholstery and family intimacy, sanctified with feather dusters and furniture polish. Somewhere, in a room I could not see, a concentrating man was preparing his entrance.
But when it happened the spell was broken. He shuffled into the room, a stooping mustached man of about seventy, his face creased into thoughtful planes. He had a storekeeper's kindliness, he could have been a haberdasher.
“Delighted,” he said. He shook my hand, then looked at his pocked watch.
“Let me do you holding that pen.”
He showed me the object between his fingers and transformed it into an unlit cigar: magic. He smiled and lit it lovingly. Coffee and chocolate cakes were brought and we were joined, one by one, by people: wife, children, young men and women who weren't introduced. They watched him attentively and leaned forward when he spoke.
I said, “You must be happy here. Huxley says it's like Vienna.”
“I wonder if he knows Vienna,” said Mann. “It is various in this city. Plastic. But I make no such comparisons.”
“I'm going to Europe pretty soon.”
His gaze deepened with thought. He said, “The cockpit.” Then, “What of your family?”
Before I knew it (perhaps because he was so correct and cultured and I was, in my own defense, trying hard to please) I was telling him how my parents had taken me to the opera and encouraged us to be music lovers. I ransacked my memory for episodes and, relating them, saw that he was particularly struck by the one in which Orlando and I had gone out to the fire escape during the concert at Symphony Hall; and how the man passing below had looked up at us and joined us in some mystical way, not as brother and sister, but more profoundly marrying our souls.
“I suppose you could say it was a blessing”âwhat was I saying? I thought I had been talking about music!â“the way this stranger looked up and smiled at the two of us.”
“I know that young man,” he said. “I could tell you his name.”
More magic. Did he wink? It certainly looked that way.
Of course, I had no idea what he was talking about, but I was reassured, for just as Huxley had been charmed by my memory of Lawrence, Mann responded to this childhood incident. I was glad that I remembered enough of my past to interest my subjects.
“If you just stay put,” I said, “the others can sort of group around you.”
I saw a nice courtly picture, with the friends and relations standing around the great man. But he wouldn't have it. He insisted on standing, half turned, with one hand in his jacket pocket and the cigar in his other hand and the folks extended between two fringed floor lamps against the drapesâa very corny arrangement, as if they were all waiting for a bus.
“Erika is in London,” he said, when I was done. “You will send some reproductions for her?”
I promised I would and he took out his pocket watch: time to go.
There was only one more picture to do. I had been asked by
Life
to update their files. Their picture of William Faulkner was a studio shot that had obviously been retouched to make him look like a confederate colonel. “Get him looking human,” the picture editor said. I remembered that Orlando had mentioned him and admired several of his books, one apparently dealing with Harvard, which he had started to read to me during my early blind period and then stopped, saying, “This wouldn't make any sense to you”âI suspected that he gave it to Phoebe to read, because for the next few days, engrossed in the book, she flicked pages and her body purred.