Read Midnight is a Lonely Place Online
Authors: Barbara Erskine
Tags: #Fiction, #Women authors, #Literary Criticism, #Psychological
‘Thank God,’ she murmured. Alison was lying, wrapped in blankets once more, on the sofa. The girl appeared to be asleep.
Running to the door Kate pulled it open.
‘Where is she?’ Diana’s face was white with strain. She pushed past Kate and went into the living room.
‘Hi Mum.’ Alison opened her eyes.
‘What happened exactly? Roger paused in the hall and caught Kate’s arm. ‘Sorry, let me introduce you. This is Joe Farnborough. He kindly drove us up here.’
Kate glanced at the tall, white-haired man who was staring down at her with undisguised curiosity. Catching her eye he grinned, his eyes silver in a tanned weather-beaten face. ‘Young Allie got herself in a spot of bother, has she?’ He asked.
She shrugged. ‘I think she’ll be fine. But she ought to be at home.’ They followed Diana and Roger in to the living room and found them bending over Alison. Diana was holding her hand. ‘I’m OK, Mum. Honestly.’ The girl looked white and strained but her voice had regained some of its strength and with it its peevishness. ‘Don’t fuss. Just take me home.’
‘But what happened, Allie?’ Roger sat down, pushing the blankets aside. ‘Come on, you must tell us.’
Alison shook her head. ‘I’m not sure. I went out to the grave. I wanted to see it. It was early. It was still dark.’
‘You went out when it was still dark!’ Diana repeated, shocked.
Alison nodded. ‘I don’t know why. It was just something I had to do. I took a torch. The woods were wet and cold and it was very dark and I was scared.’ Her voice trembled. ‘When I got to the cottage I saw that all the lights were on. That made me feel better. I thought I would knock and ask Kate to come with me. But I couldn’t.’ She burst into tears. ‘I wanted to, and I couldn’t.’
Kate stared at her, appalled. ‘Allie, why not? I would have gone with you.’
‘I don’t mean I couldn’t because I didn’t want to. I wanted to, but she wouldn’t let me.’
There was a moment’s silence. Kate met Roger’s gaze. It was thoughtful; she guessed that Patrick had already told them about Claudia.
‘Who wouldn’t let you, Kate?’ Diana asked gently.
‘Someone. Her. I don’t know. He wants to stop me, but she wants to tell me something. They’re fighting in my head.’ She put the heels of her hands to her temples, still crying. ‘She wants me to know.’
‘She wants you to stop digging up her grave?’ Patrick put in from the doorway. ‘That’s it, isn’t it?’
‘No.’ Allie sat up. ‘No, that’s the point. She wants me to. She wants me there. She wants me to find … something.’ She lay back again.
‘Well, whatever it was that happened, I suggest we get you back home, young lady,’ put in Joe Farnborough from the doorway. ‘I don’t want to hurry you folks, but I must get into town and collect some stuff before this weather gets any worse.’
‘Of course, Joe. I’m sorry. It was so good of you to come like this,’ Diana started to bustle. ‘Roger, can you carry her?’
‘No need, Mum. I can walk.’ Sniffing miserably, Alison swung her legs over the side of the sofa and stood up.
Kate watched as she was ushered out of the door and into the back of the Land Rover – a model even more ancient and muddy than the Lindseys’ own. It was Patrick who turned and looked at her. ‘Dad. Can Kate come with us? I don’t think she ought to stay here alone.’
Roger swung back towards her. ‘Of course. That goes without saying. You must come with us, Kate, my dear. We have got to discuss all this very seriously. And if nothing else, we’ve got to report your phone out of order and get it fixed before you can stay here alone.’ He unhooked her jacket from behind the door and held it out to her.
Kate closed her eyes in relief. For a moment she had thought they were going off without her and she had known she would not have the strength of will to call after them. The urge to stay in the cottage was as strong as the urge to leave it. Turning back into the room she began to switch off the lights. She closed the doors on the stove and glanced round. The water had begun to seep back across the windowsill under the cloth. At the edge of it she could see a few dark specks of soil and there, in the shadows, something small and white wriggled purposefully towards the edge of the sill. She turned away sharply and grabbed her shoulder bag. As an afterthought she picked up the pile of typescript that sat on her desk, and with it the diskette from her computer. Then she followed Roger outside and banged the front door closed behind her.
Diana had gone downstairs. Alison slid down in her bed. Beside her, out of sight under the duvet was an old, well-worn teddy bear with one ear. All the lights in the room were on.
A couple of minutes later Greg appeared in the doorway. ‘Are you awake, Allie?’
She pushed the teddy bear even further down the bed. ‘What?’
‘Look. We ought to talk.’ He came in properly and shut the door. Sitting down on the edge of her bed he folded his arms. ‘I know I said we ought to scare her off. Kate, I mean. I know I said a lot of things about her being in the way. And I meant it. She’s a pain.’ He lapsed into silence for a minute, staring thoughtfully down at his feet.
‘She was nice to me,’ Alison put in at last. There was none of the usual stridency in her voice.
‘What really happened, Allie?’ He looked at her again. ‘Out there. You weren’t just trying to scare her, were you.’
‘No.’ Her voice was very small.
‘So. What happened?’
‘Nothing.’
‘It can’t have been nothing.’ He put his hand for a moment on the hump of her shoulder beneath the duvet. ‘Come on. You can tell me.’
‘It’s the truth. Nothing happened. I didn’t see anything. It was just feelings.’ Her mouth began to tremble. She sat up and defiantly retrieved the teddy, hugging it tightly against her chest. In her dayglo green nightshirt, with her hair all over her face, she looked about six.
Greg was astonished by the wave of affection which swept over him. ‘What sort of feelings?’ he asked gently.
She frowned. ‘Fear. Anger. Hate. They all sort of hit me, all jumbled up inside my head in a sort of red whirl. It hurt.’ Her eyes flooded with tears.
He stared at her but he wasn’t seeing her. He was seeing a short, grey-haired woman in a pale blue puffa jacket which went ill with her high heels. ‘I saw you staggering about … I wondered if you were epileptic or something …’ the voice echoed in his head.
Under the thick layers of Viyella shirt, lambswool sweater and ancient tweed jacket he could feel the tiptoe of goose flesh up his arms. His mouth had gone dry.
‘What is it?’ Her eyes were huge and round, the pupils dilated. ‘What’s wrong?’
‘Nothing. Nothing’s wrong, sweetheart.’ He never called her that. The endearment frightened her even more than the strange preoccupation on his face had done.
He stood up. ‘Listen, Allie. You must get some sleep. OK? Lie down again and I’ll tuck you in.’ He leaned over as she slid down on the pillows, pulling the duvet up to her chin and patting it with awkward, unaccustomed tenderness. ‘Shall I turn out the lights?’
‘No!’
He glanced at her sharply. The muffled word, filtered through the threadbare fur of the teddy bear, held a note of real terror.
‘OK. No sweat.’ He tried to smile. ‘Sleep well, prat.’ That was more like it. More normal. Sort of.
Downstairs the others were sitting around the fire with mugs of steaming tea. Greg took up position with his back to the inglenook – a speaker addressing a meeting. ‘We have to fill in that excavation. Alison must not go up there again, and I think, personally, that Kate ought to move out of the cottage.’
‘So that you can move back in.’ Kate’s words were mild enough, but he saw a hardness in her face which spoke a great deal about her determination to stay, and did he but know it, of her increasing unease in his company.
He sighed. ‘No. As a matter of fact I have no desire to move back in at the moment. But do you really want to stay there? After everything that has happened? I can’t believe you are getting much work done if you keep being interrupted.’
‘As a matter of fact, I am working very well at the moment, thank you,’ Kate retorted. ‘And it would be very small-minded of me to resent the time I’ve spent with Alison. She’s a nice, intelligent girl. I’m getting fond of her. I don’t know why she stayed out at the dig like that – I’m sure she will explain when she feels better – but it has not put me off staying at Redall Cottage in any way. Those locks you have put on for me make me feel as though I were living in Fort Knox.’
‘I agree about filling in the excavation,’ Roger put in. He leaned back on the sofa comfortably. ‘There has been nothing but trouble since Allie found that place. I suggest we get Joe up there with a bulldozer to flatten it.’
‘No!’
Kate hadn’t realised the word came from her own mouth until she saw everyone staring at her. ‘No,’ she repeated more softly. ‘I don’t think we should do that. It’s an important site. Much better we get in touch with the local archaeological society or the museum or someone quickly and get them out here to see what is really there.’
‘I don’t think we want to know what is really there,’ Greg said abruptly. ‘Don’t you agree, Dad? Allie is upset enough as it is.’
‘She’s not upset at the idea of it being a grave,’ Kate retorted.
‘Excuse me, but I think she is. She may be a brash, tiresome kid on the outside, and she certainly has loads of guts, but inside she is hurting. This whole thing is upsetting her a lot. You’ve seen yourself how it’s stimulated her imagination. It’s bad for her. Ma,’ he appealed to his mother, ‘you must back me up.’
Diana frowned. She had been listening to the whole exchange in silence. ‘You’re both right in a way. She is obsessed by that place and I don’t think that is good for her, but I don’t think the right answer is to try and bury it. It would still be there and she would know it.’
Kate nodded. ‘Better to get it excavated properly – a rescue dig can be arranged very quickly, you know. Then we’ll all know the truth.’
‘The truth about what?’ Greg’s voice was very quiet. ‘What is it that’s so important we know? I don’t think there is anything there that we need to know about. Nothing at all.’
The light was strangely cold. In the cool dawn before the sunrise the
marsh was laved with a pale veiling of mist which lapped across the
grasses and reeds in a silent, muffling shroud
.
Nion stood at the edge of the pool. Bathed, dressed in his finest array,
he was ready. Behind him the two priests stood, the tools of their trade
openly displayed before them on a wooden altar – a rope, a knife. They
waited now, in prayer, respectfully watching his preparations. When the
moment came he would tell them
.
He frowned. Why only two priests? He had expected them all, a circle of
attendants, not this quiet, almost shabby affair unwitnessed and unsung.
Slowly he began the business of preparation. Around his neck he wore
two torcs. The great twisted golden torc, the symbol of his royal blood
and priesthood, and below it one of carved silver which Claudia herself
had given him. He took off the first, pulling the heavy gold over his warm skin, feeling the constriction, swallowing, closing his mind to what was
to come. He took the torc in his hands, gently running his fingers across
the intricate design on the metal, admiring it for the last time. It was
truly a worthy gift to the gods. He held it up above his head, half
expecting an early stray beam from the still-hidden sun to catch the
gleaming metal. None came. He murmured the words of offering and
then hurled it with all his might into the mist-covered water. It was gone
before him to the world beyond. Next came the silver. Pulling it from his
neck he touched it to his lips, then he hurled it after the first. He turned
and gathered up his weapons. Sword, spear, dagger. One by one he
raised them in offering, balanced across his palms, and threw them.
Beneath the curling white of the mist they sank into the cold brown
water and began to settle inexorably into the mud
.
His clothes next. He unfastened his cloak, folding it carefully into as
small a bundle as possible, doing it slowly, meticulously, perhaps stretching
out the last few moments before the rim of the sun showed above
the sea. Pinning the bundle with his cloak pin he hurled it after his
weapons. Next came the bag of coins, his leather belt, his armlets, his
tunic. Finally he was naked, save for the strip of woven ash bark around
his arm, his birthright and his name sign. The cold air played across his
skin. He frowned. He would not want the priests to think that his shiver
was one of fear. Imperceptibly he straightened his shoulders, his eyes,
like theirs, upon the eastern horizon which with every second grew
brighter. Behind him he was conscious suddenly that one of the priests
had reached to the altar and taken up the garotte. He was winding it
onto his hands
.