She tried to roll over but there was not enough room. Perplexed, she tried to sit up. Her head thudded against a barrier. Her uplifted hands met only damp, shredded wood. The dampness, she suddenly realized, was from her own breath. She opened her eyes to blackness. She was trapped in here, trapped, and no one cared. She lifted frantic hands to press against whatever enclosed her. “Help me! Let me out of here! Someone help me!” She shoved against her boundaries, pushing with her hands, her elbows, her knees and feet. Nothing gave way. It only made the enclosure seem smaller. The only air she had to breathe was already warm and moist from her breath. She tried to scream, but there was not even enough air for that.
“It’s a dream,” she told herself. She forced herself to be very still. “This is a dream. I am safe in my own bed. All I have to do is wake up now. Wake up.” She stretched and contorted her eye muscles, trying to open her eyes. She could not. There was not even enough room for her to bring her hands up to her face. She began to pant convulsively in fear. A whine escaped her.
“Do you see, now, why he must free me? Help me. Make him free me and I promise I will help you. I will bring back your father and the ship. All you have to do is make him free me.”
She knew that voice. She had heard it echoing through her dreams since she had shared the dream with Reyn. “Let me out,” she begged the dragon. “Let me wake up.”
“Will you make him help me?”
“He says he cannot.” Malta could scarcely find breath for the words. “I think he would if he could.”
“Make him find a way.”
“I can’t.” A second layer of darkness was closing in on her as she panted. She was going to faint. She’d suffocate in this dream. Could someone faint in a dream? Could she die in a dream? “Let me out!” she cried faintly. “Please. I have no control over Reyn! I can’t make him do anything.”
The dragon chuckled, a deep rich laugh.
“Don’t be foolish. He is only a male. You and I, we are queens. We are destined to master our males. It is the proper balance of the world. Think about it. You know how to get what you want. Take it. Free me.”
Malta felt herself abruptly flung up into darkness. The boundaries around her were gone. She clawed for purchase but her outstretched hands found nothing. She tumbled through blackness while the wind screamed past her. She fell heavily onto a yielding surface.
She opened her eyes to her bedroom, to a hot summer day and bright light streaming in the open window.
“Remember.”
Someone spoke the word right by her ear. She heard it. But no one was there.
EVENING FOUND THEY HAD DONE
more than in any two other days. Even so, Brashen wondered how many of the workmen would return tomorrow. He could not blame them. He no longer understood why he himself stayed on. It wasn’t his ship at risk, nor his nephew. When he asked himself why he continued he came back to the negative that he had nothing better to do. The
Springeve
had vanished from the harbor the second night after he had jumped ship. No doubt Finney had smelled a rat, and decided to cut his losses and run. There was no going back to that life.
Seldom did he concede to himself that this was the only way he could be near Althea. Pride wouldn’t let him. She showed him less attention than she paid Clef. At least she smiled at the boy. He stole a glance at her. Her hair was sweated to her skull. She wore loose white trousers and a roomy tunic of the same fabric. Sand clung to her garments and her damp skin. He watched her walk over to the water buckets. She drank deeply, then splashed water up on her face and neck. The ache of wanting her near choked him. He reminded himself that she was all but promised to Grag Tenira. Tenira wasn’t a bad hand. He’d be a wealthy man someday. Brashen tried to feel satisfaction for her. She could have done worse. She could have been content with a disinherited Trader’s son. He shook his head and tossed his mallet to the sand. “That’s a day!” he called abruptly. The light was fading anyway.
Althea and Amber retired to the galley while Brashen paid off the crew. Brashen lingered with his book and pen after the last workman had left, toting up his figures and shaking his head over them. Ronica Vestrit had given him a free hand with the funds to restore the
Paragon.
Althea had been surprised to find that his shipwright’s knowledge extended far beyond what she would have expected of a mate. He had taken satisfaction in her surprise, but it did not make his task any easier. He agonized over the trade-off between the best quality of material and the best tradesmen to do the job. Often enough, he couldn’t get the workmen he preferred anyway. The
Paragon
’s reputation was well established, and his recent behavior confirmed it. Most of the shipwrights claimed they were not superstitious but that their other customers would turn away a man who had worked on such a ship. What excuse they gave didn’t matter to Brashen. The delay did. Time was their greatest enemy. With every passing day, the task of tracking Vivacia from where Brashen had last seen her became more difficult. Moreover, the work must be timed to the tide. An exceptionally high tide was expected at the end of the month; Brashen hoped it would be the one to float the
Paragon.
The most frustrating part was that much of the work they could reasonably do themselves could only be done after the more massive tasks were completed. Each job depended on the one before it.
By the time he went to join the women, they were no longer in the galley. He followed the soft sounds of their voices and found them sitting on the slanting stern of the ship. Side by side, legs dangling, they could have been two ship’s boys idling furtively. Amber had taken to binding her honey-colored hair back in a tail. It was not a flattering change; the bones of her cheeks and the line of her nose were too sharp to be feminine. In contrast, even with a smudge of tarry dirt down her cheek, Althea’s profile made his heart turn over. She was not softly feminine. Instead, she was female in a cat-like way that was as much threat as it was enticement. And she was unaware of it. He looked at her, and wished fervently he had never touched her. It was not just that he had somehow spoiled it so that she would not even meet his glance anymore. The worst was that he could not look at her without recalling the taste of her skin and the honesty of her body. He closed his eyes for a moment. Then he opened them and made his way aft.
Amber and Althea both held teacups that steamed. A fat ceramic pot sat between them with an extra cup beside it. Brashen poured a cup for himself. He considered sitting down between them, then decided to stand. Amber was staring out to sea. Althea was running her fingertip around the rim of her cup and watching the waves. Their conversation had died at his approach. Amber sensed the awkwardness. She glanced up at him. “Early start again tomorrow?”
“No,” Brashen said succinctly. He took a sip of his tea and added, “I don’t think so. I suspect I’ll spend the morning hunting up new workers.”
“Not again,” Althea groaned. “What did I miss?”
Brashen took a breath as if to speak, then clamped his jaws and shook his head.
Althea rubbed her temples. “At least, he was talking to you again?” She offered the words to Amber hopefully.
“Not to us,” Amber said dejectedly. “He had lots of things to say to the work crew, though. Mostly nasty whispered stuff, before he got onto how their children would be born without legs and blind, because they’d worked near a cursed ship.” In bitter admiration, she added, “He was very descriptive.”
“Well. That’s creative. At least he didn’t throw any more timbers after the first one.”
“Maybe he’s saving some for tomorrow,” Brashen pointed out.
They shared a discouraged silence. Then Amber asked sadly, “Well. Have we given up, then?”
“Not quite yet. Let me finish this cup of tea while I ponder how hopeless it all is,” Brashen replied. He frowned as he turned to Althea. “Where were you this morning, anyway?”
She didn’t look at him as she answered. Her voice was cool. “Not that you have a right to ask, but I went to see Grag.”
“I thought Tenira was still in hiding. Price on his head, and all that.” Brashen’s voice was very detached. He sipped his tea and looked at the water.
“He is. He found a way to send me word. I went to see him.”
Brashen shrugged one shoulder. “Well, at least that solves one problem. When we run out of money, you can always turn him in to the Satrap’s ministers. We can use the reward to hire still another work crew.” He showed his teeth in a grin.
Althea ignored the remark to tell Amber, “Grag said he wished he could offer help to me, but his own situation makes everything difficult. His family got a fraction of what the
Ophelia
’s cargo was worth. And they have resolved not to trade in Bingtown or Jamaillia until the Satrap rescinds the unfair tariffs.”
“Didn’t the
Ophelia
sail a few days ago?” Brashen asked determinedly.
Althea nodded. “She did. Tomie thought it best to take her out of Bingtown Harbor before any more galleys arrived. The Satrap’s tariff ministries have been making threats to seize the ship. They are now claiming that the Satrap can regulate where liveships trade, and that Rain Wild goods can be sold only in Bingtown or Jamaillia City. I doubt that they could enforce that, but Tomie saw no sense in waiting for trouble. The Tenira family will continue to battle them, but he won’t put Ophelia in the middle of it.”
“If it was me,” Brashen said speculatively, “I’d take her up the Rain Wild River. Nothing except another liveship could follow her up there.” He cocked a head. “That’s the plan, isn’t it? Grag will be smuggled upriver on another liveship to rejoin them there. Am I right?”
Althea gave him a sidelong glance and a shrug.
Brashen looked offended. “You don’t trust me?”
“I promised not to tell anyone.” She looked at the water.
“You think I’d pass the word about?” He was outraged. What kind of a man did she think he was? Did she really think he would let his rivalry with Grag go that far?
“Brashen.” She sounded at the end of her patience. “It is not that I don’t trust you. I gave him my word to keep silent. I intend to keep it.”
“I see.” At least, she was finally speaking directly to him. A question burned in him. He cursed himself, but asked it anyway. “Did he ask you to go with him?”
Althea hesitated. “He knows I have to stay here. He even understands that I have to sail when the
Paragon
goes.” Althea scratched her chin, then scraped at the dirt on her cheek. Irritably, she added, “I wish I could make Keffria understand that. She’s still squawking to Mother that it isn’t proper. She doesn’t approve of me being down here to help. She hates the way I dress when I come down here to work. I don’t know what she would approve. Perhaps I should sit at home and wring my hands in distress.”
Brashen knew she was trying to change the subject. He couldn’t leave it alone. “Sure, Grag knows that you have to go after Vivacia. But he still asked you to come with him, didn’t he? He still wanted you to go. You probably should. Cut your losses. Wager on the winner. None of the Traders really expects we’ll succeed. That’s why none of them have offered help. They think it would be a waste of time and money. I’ll bet Grag had all kinds of sound reasons why you should abandon us, including that we’ll never get this derelict off the sand.” Brashen thudded his heels on the ship’s hull. He felt a sudden, irrational rush of anger.
“Don’t call him a derelict!” Amber snapped.
“And stop whining,” Althea added nastily.
Brashen stared at her, outraged. Then he raised his voice in a shout. “Derelict! Piece of beach junk! You hear me, Paragon? I’m talking about you.”
His words echoed from the sea cliffs behind them. Paragon made no reply. Amber glared at him, breathing out sharply through her nose. “That isn’t going to help anything,” she scolded.
“Instead of starting quarrels with everyone, why don’t you go panhandle some cindin?” Althea asked him sarcastically. “We all know that is your real problem.”
“Yeah?” Brashen set his cup down. “And I know what your real problem is.”
Althea’s voice went soft and deadly. “You do, do you? Well, why don’t you tell us all plainly?”
He leaned close to her. “Your real problem is that last winter you finally figured out who you are, and you’ve spent every day since then trying to deny it. It scared you so you ran home to try and forget it.”
His words were so different from what she had expected that Althea was struck dumb. He almost grinned at her astonishment. She gawked up at him where he stood over her on the slanting deck. “And to make it perfectly clear,” he added in a softer voice, “I’m not talking about anything that happened between you and me. I’m talking about what happened between you and yourself.”
“Brashen Trell, I have no idea what you’re talking about!” Althea declared quickly.
“You don’t?” He did grin then. “Well, Amber does, sure as Sa has balls and tits. I’ve known that she’s known all about
that
since I got back to Bingtown. It was on her face the first time she looked at me. Funny that you’ll talk to her about it, but not me. But I told you. That isn’t the issue. You went out and you found out that you weren’t a Trader’s daughter. Oh, you’re Ephron Vestrit’s daughter, all right, and no mistake about that. But you aren’t bound to this damn town and its traditions any more than he was. He didn’t like the cost of trading up the Rain Wild River, so, by Sa, the man stopped trading there. He went out and found his own contacts and his own trade goods. You’re like him, right down to the bone. If they wanted to weed that out of you, they’re too late. You can’t change that about yourself. You should stop pretending.
“You can’t really settle down and be Grag Tenira’s female half. It’ll break both your hearts if you try. You’re never going to stay home and make babies for him while he goes out to sea. You talk big about family and duty and tradition, but the reason you’re going after the
Vivacia
is that you want your own damn ship. And you intend to get out there and take it. If you can just find the guts to leave Bingtown again, that is.”