Authors: James Michener
Without being aware of what I was letting myself in for, when
I returned to the parador I studied the various books Don
Francisco had brought me, and in cronista Caruana’s essay I came
upon the passage in which he tries to explain why the Italian
Boccaccio, hundreds of miles away from the scene, had dealt with
the strange deaths, whereas no one in Teruel had even so much
as mentioned them in writing until a good three hundred years
later: ‘In Teruel nothing was written during the thirteenth,
fourteenth, and fifteenth centuries, nothing that had any literary
character, neither a novel, nor a poem, nor any other form or
genre of literature…Naturally, since Teruel had neither a great
poet nor a literary man of any quality, no one sang or conserved
the true happenings in the epic or lyric form which such a
tradition merited.’
That night I lay awake, pondering the case of a city in which
for three hundred years no one wrote anything of merit, and I
wondered what the citizens of that city had visualized their major
responsibility to be. It would be difficult to find another city of
nineteen thousand in which, during three centuries of vast change
and heroic impulse, no one had written anything or painted
anything or composed anything, especially when one of the most
compelling natural incidents in world literature had occurred
within the city boundary. It is not difficult to imagine Boccaccio’s
hearing from some traveler the account of the Lovers of Teruel
and starting that night to write his version; it is difficult to imagine
the citizens of Teruel living with the story for three hundred years
without any inclination to do anything constructive about it, but
that seems to have been the case.
I then began to imagine how different the results would have
been had Teruel in those days produced one young man like
Thomas Hardy or Truman Capote, and my imagination began
running wild through the long dark hours as I tried to construct
what these talents would have done with this story in medieval
terms. It was a game of vast dimension and unexpected twists: it
was not difficult to imagine Capote tracking down each nuance
of the story and taking delight in depicting the journey of rich
Don Pedro de Azagra from Albarracín to Teruel to claim the bride
he was to know for only eighteen hours, and I could visualize
Hardy working slowly to construct a study of rural passions.
But then the strange affliction of being a writer overtook me,
and I was no longer concerned with Thomas Hardy; I was in bed
in Teruel, imagining what my responsibility would have been had
I been a citizen of this beloved town during the days of its
intellectual aridity, and I started to draft my medieval epic on the
legend. At first I was perplexed by what had happened to Diego
Marcilla during his five years’ absence and for a couple of hours
I wasted my time devising an explanation for this lacuna; finally
I recalled that every writer who had dealt with the legend after
Boccaccio had ruined his story through bothering about what the
boy had done during these years. Whoever had told the story
originally had hit upon an idea that could not be improved: ‘After
five years’ adventuring in the great world, Diego returned to
Teruel, entering by the Zaragoza gate.’ Take it or leave it; he was
absent for five years and he came back.
What was important, I realized, was not the detail but the
universal fact that young men leave their villages in search of
adventure that will make them famous or success that will make
them rich, and the problem for the storyteller was to reflect the
permanence of this theme. At about five in the morning, as dawn
was breaking, I began to visualize the Zaragoza gate as it must
have been in the Middle Ages. Now, when Diego left Teruel on
his five years’ pilgrimage I could hear the stones of the gate
admonishing him, saying that they had watched many young men
leave on missions such as his and that the fame they had sought
proved meaningless; the riches they had won were unrewarding,
for the love they had abandoned would not be recaptured.
Like most men, on the rare occasions when I am kept awake
through a night I fall asleep at dawn, but on this long night I
didn’t, for the dialogue of the stones preoccupied me during
several more hours, after which I began pondering how a medieval
writer might have depicted the triumphant homecoming, and I
was thrown into a Greek-chorus type of passage in which the
stones of the Zaragoza gate both welcome him as their long-absent
son and comment on his journey, and I was winging away for
another two hours. When I finally went down to breakfast the
people I was with said, ‘Michener, you look all beat up. Where
have you been?’ I replied, ‘If I told you, you wouldn’t believe it,’
for I had spent my night at the Zaragoza gate.
(Late in the editing of this manuscript friends brought to my
attention the fact that an art cinema in Philadelphia was offering
a French motion picture titled
For a chain of happy days I wandered about the city, nodding
to the bull on his pillar, revisiting the places I had known before
and talking with groups of men wherever I found them. And then
on the third evening as I was standing in the garden of the parador
I felt a voice within me saying in an accusatory manner, ‘You
didn’t come to Teruel to feast on entremeses or to wander about
looking at bulls and mummies. Get to the main problem.’
What was the main problem? In 1932 I had seen, by merest
accident, a Teruel which existed for all practical purposes in the
sixteenth century. It was the most backward of the provincial
capitals, and when judged by ordinary cultural indices, had least
to commend it. But it had caught my fancy as typical of the
problems of Spain, and during the years that followed, I kept it
much in memory. This, however, would not alone have accounted
for the striking significance of Teruel in my life nor for the fact
that when I approached it from the Río Turia my hands were wet
with perspiration.
For a brief moment, in the winter of 1937-38, the chances of
history made Teruel the most important city in Europe, where
decisions of great moment were in the balance. It became also,
for men in all parts of the world, a source of moral anguish and
has continued to this day to be a source of moral guilt. I doubt
that many men live entire lives without incurring some sense of
regret; for many of my generation their regret centered on Teruel,
and the guilt which it evoked has never been discharged, not at
Anzio nor at Guadalcanal nor at Bastogne.
In 1936, when the Spanish Civil War broke out, I was at an age
when it would have been relatively simple for me to have broken
loose from my prosaic job of teaching in Colorado and come to
Spain to fight in the Abraham Lincoln Brigade, composed of
Americans who wanted to help defend the Republic. Some of the
men I respected most in American life were so serving, and when
I thought of them doing the job that I should have been engaged
in, I felt ashamed, for most of them knew nothing of Spain and
had no spiritual connection to it, whereas I did know and the ties
which bound me were strong indeed. I had watched at close hand
the birth of the Republic and had seen its first faltering steps; I
had spoken with the president and while he had not impressed
me I had applauded many of the changes his party had introduced
into Spanish life. I had read the brave words of his lieutenants
and had picked out of the Spanish newspapers to which I
subscribed the doings of this group of dedicated men. That change
was overdue in Spain, I knew better than most, and when an army
revolt arose to end that change I was desolate. Of all the young
men available in America in those crucial years, I should have
volunteered to defend the Republic, for I saw clearly what must
ensue in Europe; I was convinced that a world war was upon us
and that in the end my country would be involved.
Then why didn’t I fight in Spain? For three reasons. First, I was
not invited. Recruiting campaigns for the Abraham Lincoln
Brigade were conducted mainly in the big cities, and although
some of my friends were active, they were in New York and made
no approaches to me, for they were seeking a different kind of
person. In the absence of a specific opportunity to join, I was
never confronted by a hard choice. Why didn’t I volunteer? In
my life I have rarely volunteered for anything, nor sought
anything, even though I have been willing to take unusual risks
when they evolved, and I still find this a logical attitude. Second,
since I was convinced that America would soon be at war and
since I had taught my students that our survival depended upon
its successful prosecution, even pinpointing Singapore and the
Philippines as the spots where the war would probably begin (one
student had asked, ‘How about Hawaii?’ and I had explained,
‘Impossible. The Japanese would never dare’), I was willing to
wait until we made our entrance, satisfied that the Spanish
Republic could hold out till then. Third, and I believe this was
the most important, those men and women engaged in enlisting
Americans for the Brigade, even those who were my personal
acquaintances, were people whose general judgment in other
matters I did not respect. For some years certain of them had
been goading me to join the Communist Party, a step which I
refused for the good reason that in Europe I had known many
Communists and had found them ill-informed on politics, corrupt
in personal judgment and ruthless in their attempts to force others
into their orbit. In Europe they had posed a difficult problem for
me, and now in America they did the same, for although I
sympathized with many of their objectives, as did many of my
generation who had watched the depression puncture pompous
old verities, I was suspicious of their immediate judgment and
their long-term intention. I was especially schizophrenic regarding
the Communist relationship to Spain; as a sensible man I had to
applaud the efforts of this long-misruled nation to achieve a
modern government, but the manner in which my Communist
friends proposed to dictate to that government disgusted me and
I could not find it within myself to support them. Did I, in 1936
and 1937, suspect that they might have a goal beyond the apparent
one of defending the Republic? Did I anticipate that their
ambitions would quickly escalate to the point where their goal
was no longer a Republic but a Communist dictatorship? I did
not. Such conclusions would have required greater insight then
I possessed. I believed that the Communist commitment was
deeper than mine and that it was only this enthusiasm which
caused them to say and do things which I considered nonsense.
But in the latter months of 1938 I began to read in impartial
journals reports which made me wonder if a serious change had
not occurred in Republican ranks. The defense of a free democracy
had been subordinated to the expanded goal of establishing a
Communist government, and the intuitive suspicions that I had
entertained in 1936 matured.