“Most people at Clarence would probably disagree with you,” he said bitterly.
Relieved that he wasn’t offended, I added too quickly, “But, you’re different than you were. Aren’t you?”
“Yeah, I think so. Before, I thought I was happy living party-to-party, but I wasn’t.”
“How do you feel now?”
He was silent a moment, before replying quietly, “Becoming blind wasn’t something I planned... I’m still trying to figure things out.”
“Like, the future?” I offered.
“Yeah.” He sighed. “You know, you can lean back if you want to.”
I blushed as I relaxed against him. “Thanks.”
Aeris slowed to a comfortable walk while we followed the gentle path. Tristan and I were silent, peacefully silent. I felt the slow rise and fall of his chest, just like our dance. I watched the flowing landscape around us and finally felt so relaxed, that I spoke the question on my mind. “Do you think you’ll ever compete, again?”
I felt Tristan’s heart begin to pound at the thought. “I don’t know. I-I don’t think anyone blind has ever show-jumped....” I waited while he considered the idea. “It would be almost impossible.”
“But, think about it! It would be you and Aeris! You already have a bond!” I enthused.
I bounced against Tristan’s chest as he laughed. “Amy, you’re crazy.”
“Fine.” I grumbled. “But, I have one more suggestion.”
“What’s that?” he asked teasingly.
“We should go get some ice cream.”
“
That
I can handle.”
* * *
With my plastic spoon, I traced a pattern in the top of my bowl of Maple Walnut. To me, Ice Cream World was one of the very best features of Grayfield. It was retro, but not to the point of being annoying. Sure, outside there was a red and white awning and inside the walls were lined with shelves holding syrups and toppings in glass jars. The point was that they let their employees wear jeans and t-shirts with only
tiny
Ice Cream World logos. That’s progress.
I eyed Tristan as he dug into his Mint Chocolate Chip. “How long did you say it’s been since you’ve come here?”
He shrugged. “Ten years?”
“Ugh!” I gestured with my spoon. “
You
are crazy! A summer isn’t complete without Ice Cream World ice cream!”
I tried not to stare while Tristan licked a drip of ice cream from his lips. “I was busy doing other things.”
“Nothing quite as tasty.”
“True,” he laughed.
I carved out a spoonful of Maple Walnut before asking, “So, how long have you ridden?”
“Since I was six.” Tristan swallowed and his face grew still as he remembered. “My father got me started riding ponies and I was jumping them when I was about nine. By the time I turned eleven, I was bored with jumping ponies, so my father bought me Aeris. Once I was trained in equestrian show-jumping, I really started competing.”
I tucked a strand of hair behind my ear and asked carefully, “Did your dad ride, too?”
Tristan lowered his head and prodded at his ice cream. He said slowly, “When he was younger, but then he got too busy.” He paused for a moment, lost in thought. “My father was a neurosurgeon—one of the best in the country. He was always driving to Chicago to consult or flying out to speak at conferences.”
“Was he around at all?”
“Enough,” Tristan said shortly and his mouth formed a hard line. For several minutes, he fell silent and slowly ate his ice cream. I jumped when he unexpectedly spoke. “What about you—what’s your passion?”
“My ‘passion’?” I laughed. “Music. I love it! My dream job is being a journalist for the
Rolling Stone
. I don’t know what the odds of that happening are....”
“You’ll do it,” he said, smiling, and again caught me off guard.
“Why do you say that?”
His answer came confidently. “Because you’ve got it all down; you know what’s important.”
I blushed, amazed that he would say such a thing to me. I squeaked out a “Thanks.”
Tristan took another bite of ice cream. “What’s next? College?”
I licked my spoon and tried my best to calm myself. “Yeah, but it’s not as simple as it sounds...
Rolling Stone
only takes twelve interns a year, so I really need to wow them. I’m sure I’d learn stuff if I went to Illinois U. But if I went to Evanston, I’d be ready.”
He frowned, looking confused. “So, where are you going? Evanston?”
“I don’t know!” I cried. “That’s the problem! I’ve been accepted to both schools, but Evanston’s
so
much money—”
“And that’s why you’re working for my mother.” Tristan set down his spoon.
I bit my lip and nodded. “Yeah.”
He turned his head toward me. “The job. I almost forgot.”
“Me too,” I whispered and looked down at my empty ice cream bowl. “Do you want to head back?”
“No. Not yet.”
I looked up, blinking dumbly.
He
wanted to spend more time with me? I fumbled awkwardly, “Oh! Well...there’s a record store around the corner. If you like Coldplay, you should really listen to Jon Buckley. He was popular in the 90s, but I think you’ll like him.”
Tristan’s smile flashed as he said “Sounds good,” and I melted.
Chapter 8
Driving home that afternoon, I was giddy. We’d had a great time, actually hanging out like...friends. And he loved Jon Buckley so much that we listened to almost the whole CD in the store before the manager told us we’d better buy something or leave. So, I bought it for him. It was just a gift, a
friend
ly gift. I wanted him to be able to listen to it whenever he wanted to...and maybe to think of me when he heard it. Was that so wrong? I didn’t want to know.
I was still smiling while I pulled into my driveway. I noticed a different car sitting in front of my house, but I didn’t think much of it as I walked inside. A man was standing in the kitchen with my parents. He was wearing a polo shirt, khakis, and a wedding ring; I pegged him as some client of my dad’s who was dropping off paperwork. I swung the front door shut behind me, just when he turned to face me.
He had jade eyes—my
mom’s
eyes—and his face! It was
Charlie
! He was no longer the skinny eighteen-year-old of my memory, but a thirty-year-old adult. I immediately ran forward and threw my arms around his neck. “Oh my God!” I smiled over his shoulder and saw my dad’s eyes: angry, worried eyes.
“Where were you?” Dad asked the obvious trick question.
I let go of my brother and told the truth, “Sitting Tristan.”
“I thought you said you weren’t dating him. Charlie said that he saw the two of you walking, arm-in-arm, into Ice Cream World.”
“That doesn’t
mean
anything.” I shrugged, but my blushing cheeks gave me away. “We’re not dating.”
“Well, I have to meet this guy,” my brother said firmly.
“What?” I gaped at him.
“Charlie’s right. I don’t know if I like the idea of you getting paid to spend time with a boy you have a crush on.” Dad added with a tone of finality, “If you want to keep this job, then we have to meet him.”
I huffed, “You don’t understand. I’m making good money, good enough to pay for Evanston.”
I hadn’t realized what I’d said until I saw the flash in Dad’s eyes. “What?! Evanston College?”
“Uh, shouldn’t we be talking about Charlie?” I stalled, rubbing the back of my neck awkwardly.
“Hey, I’m good, sis,” said Charlie with a quick smile.
With little choice, I blurted, “I-I was accepted to Evanston College. I
really
want to go there—it’s such an amazing school—but I know that it’s way too expensive. So, I sent in money to hold my spot and then, when I got this job, I realized that it was actually a possibility—”
Dad frowned. “What money?”
“My savings,” I answered sheepishly.
“Your savings?” Dad shook his head, slowly walked over to a kitchen chair, and sat down heavily. “I can’t believe you didn’t tell us.”
Seeing the hurt look on his face, a sickening feeling of guilt washed over me. I said quietly, “I’m sorry.”
Dad rubbed his hands over his face and then looked up at me. “You know, Amy, your mother and I want you to be happy. But, have you really thought about this? I’m sure Evanston is a great school, but by the time you graduate you’ll be at least $120,000 in debt—no matter
where
you work in the summer.”
I swallowed hard. “I know.”
Charlie put a hand on my shoulder. “Come on, Dad, she deserves to go to any college she wants. Don’t squash her dreams.”
“I’m not.” He stood and, checking my mom’s face for approval, said, “Amy, if you want to go to Evanston, you can. It’s your choice.”
“Really?” I smiled shakily, overwhelmed with relief.
“Of course,” said Mom. “I just wish you would’ve told us sooner.”
I ran forward, hugging each of them. Then, stepping back, I fixed on Charlie; there was no excuse for the fact that I hadn’t gotten a letter from him in weeks. “So, what have
you
been up to?”
Charlie’s eyes, which had drifted toward the window, snapped back onto mine. “Some stuff.”
I raised my eyebrows. “Yeah, I bet.”
Dad moved between us. “Come on. Let’s go some place more comfortable.”
He led us into the living room and I plopped onto a large purple pillow. My mom preferred sitting on the ground—hence the lack of a couch—and we would’ve probably eaten dinner on the floor, too, if it wasn’t for Dad. Dozens of pillows in all sizes, shapes, and colors filled the room. Charlie muttered, “Nothing’s changed,” before taking a seat.
Mom, who was looking traumatized, settled into the corner and wrapped her arms around her favorite pillow. Her eyes focused on Charlie as she asked, “Why did you leave?”
My brother began to flail his arms. “I didn’t want to be part of the Grayfield cycle anymore. Those Clarencites grow up in their million dollar houses, learn to drive in Audis, go to Princeton. And we’ll never make more than $30,000 a year, living in fifty-year-old houses, driving used Buicks! It’s disgusting.” He turned on me. “Aim, why would you want to date someone from that?”
“I’m not dating him!” I growled.
“Okay, okay!” yelled Dad. “Charlie, you can’t hate someone for being rich and you know it; that’s not how we raised you.”
“Right, ‘raised me,’” snapped Charlie, “with Miss Flower Child always living outside in that jungle.”
Dad’s eyes burned. “You will
not
talk about your mother like that!”
“This is why I never came back before.” Charlie stood up, but Dad blocked him.
“We are
not done
!”
My dad and brother faced off for a tense moment and then Charlie reluctantly returned to his seat. Dad took a deep breath and nodded. “All right. We can’t change what’s happened in the past, but we can do something about the future. I don’t want to someday find out that I have a ten-year-old grandchild who I didn’t know about.”
Charlie eyed the floor. “Actually...” The room fell eerily silent. “You will have one in August.” He raised his eyes and held up his left hand. “I got married a couple months ago. Her name’s Sandy. We live on her parents’ farm in California. I work there. It was Sandy’s idea that I come back. She found one of Amy’s letters—”
I winced when Mom gasped, “
What
?”
“How long has this been going on?” Dad asked sternly.
Looking surprised, Charlie said, “Since I left.”
Mom turned to me, tears running down her cheeks. Sure, they weren’t surprised about him getting marrying some girl without saying anything, but
I
was evil? She sputtered, “How could you not tell us? How much have you been hiding?”
“This is it! I swear!” I glared at my brother. “
He
didn’t want me to tell!”
Charlie shrugged. “But you were just a kid. I figured you would.”
“Well, I didn’t, okay?”
“All right.” My dad sighed. “Again, what’s done is done. Right, Lucy?” He eyed my mom, who nodded slowly. “Now, I think it’s best if your mother and I talk to Charlie alone. Don’t you have some finals to be studying for?”
I frowned, hating to be left out of the loop. “They’re Monday, but they’re not a big deal.”
Dad raised his eyebrows. “Graduating isn’t a big deal?”
I rolled my eyes. “I didn’t mean
that
....”
“Make sure you tell your boyfriend you have to study tomorrow,” Mom said in a scratchy voice, “but he can come to dinner.”
I threw my hands into the air. “He’s not my boyfriend! And you
seriously
want me to invite him over?” Three faces stared at me as if
I
was being crazy. I shook my head. “Fine.”
I stomped all of the way into my bedroom. I hated feeling like I was being treated like a child. I picked up the phone and roughly punched numbers into the receiver. The phone rang and then I heard Mrs. Edmund’s voice. “Hello?”
“Hi, this is Amy.”
“Amy!” she cried. “Oh, I’m so embarrassed about the other night!”
“Don’t worry about it,” I said and grimaced at the memory of her calling me Tristan’s babysitter. “Listen, I just wanted to tell you that I’m not going to be over for a couple of days, ‘cause I have finals Monday.”
“Oh, you’re graduating, too! Of course. That’s wonderful!”
“Thanks. Yeah, Tuesday’s the big day!” I said with false cheer.
“Well, in that case, why don’t you take Wednesday off before you start full time?” she offered.
I gulped. I’d almost forgotten that I was going to be working full time. Forty hours a week, alone with Tristan... My mind began to drift off, when I heard her ask, “Does that sound okay, dear?”
“Yeah, great,” I said dreamily.
“All right.” I could almost hear her smiling. “I’ll tell Tristan to expect you Thursday.”
I said quickly, “Oh, uh, can I talk to him?”
She paused and then replied, “Sure.” The phone went quiet while, I imagine, she carried it up to his bedroom. There was some scratching as her hand covered the speaker, then I heard his voice. “Amy?”
“Yeah, hi.” I felt myself blushing. I couldn’t ask him—I couldn’t! “How’re you doing?”