Authors: Holly Nicolai
DEAR JOURNAL,
It’s me again. It still feels
weird writing my feelings down on paper. But Jett says that it is
good for me and very therapeutic. There is an intense amount of
vulnerability to this, even if I am the only one who will read it,
for now. One day I hope to be strong enough to sit down with Jett
and allow him to read this whole journal.
Anyway, today is the one year
anniversary of the day Jett and Rylan saved my life, saved me from
David's clutches. Jett told me the truth about everything and I
decided to read the note David left. I know it is hard for Jett to
understand the underlying reasons for David's suicide, not knowing
David as well as I did. He really did try to change his ways for
me. He never lied to me about that and his suicide was his final
act of love for me. In his mind, by committing suicide, he loved me
so much that he was willing to put me and my needs first for once.
Just as he knew in his mind, he could never live without me. I have
forgiven David for the past and for what he did to me at the
warehouse and against Jett's orders, I went to the cemetery to say
a prayer over his grave, asking God to have mercy on his soul where
he rests next to our daughter who now has a tombstone, thanks to
Jett. I thanked David for his selfless actions and forgave him for
the past. When I walked out of that cemetery, I felt years lighter
for the first time in my life, leaving the past behind those
cemetery gates.
As I said already, Jett suggested
or rather ordered me to write in this book over this past year, but
that is okay. He was right. It really has helped me to get
everything out and move on with my life.
I finally got to meet Rylan's
family, his beautiful wife Cissy and his two beautiful daughters
who now call me, Aunt Mandy and I love them more than life itself.
Thanks to Jett, I found out that Rylan is my big brother James's
twin brother and therefore, my big brother by blood. God may have
taken away my James, but he gave me Rylan to love as well. I just
told Rylan the news and showed him the papers yesterday and we
shared tears of joy and happiness with his family. I never thought
to have a loving family ever again, but Jett gave that back to me
too. I adore his adoptive parents and I hope they like me too, even
though Jett assures me they do.
I also never thought Jett and I
would make it this far in our relationship, but now I can't see my
life without him in it and by my side. He has become such an
integral part of my life as has The Devil’s Playground and its
wonderful community of VIP members. Jett and all of the others have
each helped to heal the remaining emotional pain through physical
pain that is therapeutic to me.
Jett has been amazing, as my lover
and as my dominant. I am still working on breaking through the
steel armor that locks away the repressed childhood memories of his
own horrific past at the hands of his biological parents. I have
learned a bit from Rylan in confidence but he says to know the
rest, I will have to confront Jett in a safe and trusting
environment. And I plan to do just that, after my final Krav Maga
graduation fight later on tonight to become a master and a teacher.
Ok, then again maybe it would be best to wait until after my
punishment scene in the Inferno of Hellfire public arena which I'm
finally ready for.
That means that Jett will punish
me in front of all the VIP members present at the club and
surprisingly, every single one has confirmed they will attend to
support me. It is way out of my comfort zone but Jett says that is
the point.
A female Domme friend of Jett’s
has a sub that needs punished harder than she is capable of and she
asked for Jett's assistance. I willingly gave my permission because
I would like to see him perform his craft for once, without me
being the recipient, or rather after I am the recipient. I want
like to see what everyone is talking about. He has declared that
the punishment with the Domme's sub will not be public, because he
is worried how I will respond to the intensity of the scene. Yes,
he is still making the mistake of underestimating me but, that will
change in time. After all, true love for one's soul mate is
extremely patient.
Well, I believe that's about it
for today. It is time to go and meet Master Yang. John is a
sweetheart and has agreed to drive me there since Jett has business
to attend to on my behalf that the bookstore.
"It's about time you got here girl. Damn, you
be looking fine these days." Emmitt laughed and braced himself as
he opened his arms. Mandy ran right into them and he lifted her off
her feet and spun her in a circle.
"You are looking quite sexy yourself,
handsome. It has been too long." Mandy said as her face lit up in
happiness. She had hoped her friends would come to support her
tonight. She had not seen them in a few months. She had taken a
break from everything, allowing Jett and John to take over at the
bookstore so she could concentrate on her Krav Maga training with
Jett and reaching master status.
"Do I get a hug too, sweetheart?" A familiar
husky voice growled in her ear and caused shivers to travel up and
down her spine. There was only one man besides Jett who could do
that to her. Mandy spun on her heel and fell right into Hunter's
arms.
"I knew one of these days you would fall for
me darling. I'm sorry to inform you that I unfortunately bat for
the other team unless you think you can change me." Hunter growled
in a whisper in Mandy's ear, making her shiver all over and laugh
in pure happiness at the same time.
"Damn. That's definitely my loss mister tall,
dark and handsome." She joked back and hugged him tightly to her.
"I have missed you guys so very much. Where is Nicole?"
Hunter and Emmitt grew immediately quiet and
shared a secretive look. Neither wanted to be the one to tell her
the truth. Hunter, knowing Emmitt didn't have it in him, ended up
being the one to break the news.
"She up and left honey. She left only a note
saying that she needed to find her own life and way in the world.
She refused to depend on you any longer. I am sorry to have to be
the one to tell you. I took over her job at the bookstore. I hope
that's okay." Hunter smiled sadly but his eyes were on fire with
anger for Nicole. Before Mandy could say a word, Master Yang walked
into the room and Mandy stood at attention as if she were a soldier
heading to battle.
"I am ready for my final testing for
graduation, Master Yang."
"Are you sure, Miss Mandy? You are scheduled
to fight against my very best student in an everything goes, no
holds barred, street match."
"I am more than sure, Master Yang."
"Very well." Master Yang turned to his
assistant. "Tell him we are more than ready for him." He turned to
Mandy and gave her a smirk that instantly put her on edge and ready
to fight with everything she had.
Jett walked out to the fighting area next to
Yang's assistant with an arrogant, I-can’t-lose smirk on his face.
He watched as the love of his life lost her own smirk, momentarily
thrown off guard. He knew all hell was about to break loose when
her eyes began to blaze like a hungry fire out-of-control and
almost burned his hide to ash.
Oh damn, the moment we get back
home is going to be interesting, if not dangerous as hell, at least
for me.
"Hello love, shall we begin?"
"Prepare to get your ass kicked, sweetheart."
Mandy growled through clenched teeth.
How dare he keep such a
secret from her, after all they had been through together! That
ornery shit!
She was going to teach her lover, soul mate and
Dom––a lesson he won't soon forget.
Over the next two hours, Mandy fought hard
against Jett. At times he came out ahead and at times she came out
ahead, but one thing was for certain, she was wearing him out
little by little, while she was still full of energy and ready to
go. She made him believe she was weaker than she really was. After
all, no one said manipulation was out of the question.
"What's the matter, old man? Can't keep up
with the younger generation?" Mandy goaded Jett as she blocked and
ducked his swings and even knocked him down a few times, but before
she could completely disable him, he ended up back on his feet time
and again.
Mandy was disgusted with herself and as
frustrated as could be. She forced her mind to go into a million
different directions until she found a way to put Jett down for the
count and then did just that must to his shock and surprise. She
would remember the look of complete shock on his face for the rest
of her life and each time she remembered it, she would savor
it.
Jett honestly could not believe that Mandy had
bested him and by using her body to her advantage. His sneaky
tigress had distracted him and everyone else in the room for three
seconds and more by baring her breasts. He had to give her credit
though, it was a street fight after all and the rules said nothing
about not using all of one's assets. He was mad at himself for not
seeing it coming.
"Boyfriend, she got you good. Using her assets
against you was a mark of brilliance on her part." Emmitt fell to
the floor laughing his ass off which earned him a severe glare from
Jett.
"Unless you want to be next in this ring with
me––sweetheart––I suggest you quit encouraging her." Jett growled
and sat on his ass in the middle of the ring. Mandy was very much
going to pay for her stunt later in the arena.
"Aw come on Jett. It was a street fight and
she did win fair and square. Stop being a spoiled sport and
congratulate your woman. I, for one, very much appreciated the
view." Hunter taunted Jett and he bent over at the waist laughing
while Emmitt glared hellfire at him.
"You best thank the good lord he made you gay
Hunter, because that is the only thing saving your ass right now,
Hunter." Jett growled and then laughed along with the other man. He
had to admit, that in a no holds barred street fight, you were
supposed to use anything to your advantage and his beautiful Mandy
had done just that. He walked over to Mandy who was standing by a
chuckling Master Yang and said, "Congratulations tigress. It kills
me to admit it, but that was an act of brilliance on your part,
using your breasts against me. But do not even consider doing that
in a fight against anyone but me or
you will
have a lot to
answer for." Jett muttered which only made everyone laugh even
more.
"You have to admit Master Damian, life with
our new Master will always keep you on your toes and will never be
boring." Master Yang laughed and congratulated Mandy. He presented
her with her certificate of mastery and her teaching certificate.
He further told her that if she ever wanted to teach, she always
had a job in his dojo.
"Master Yang, you have no idea." Jett laughed
and Mandy joined in. "Life has never been boring with Mandy at my
side and I have a feeling we are going to have many fun years to
come yet."
It was at that moment, Mandy decided to break
her news to Jett, deciding it was better to be surrounded by men
who could hold him back from beating her, if her news pissed him
off.
"Um, Jett? Can I talk to you for a
second?"
"Sure, tigress. What’s up?" Jett asked with a
smirk, expecting a kiss and a hug.
Mandy walked around to stand behind him, stood
on tiptoe and whispered in his ear, "I’m three weeks pregnant,
honey." She then took several quick steps back away from him and
stood next to Master Yang, Emmitt, and Hunter who all watched on in
confusion, staring from her to Jett and back.
Mandy watched apprehensively as Jett’s face
turned from a smirk, to one full of confusion and then finally, as
she cringed, it turned into an expression of pure bliss.
"Really? Do you mean it? Are you absolutely
one hundred percent sure?" Jett asked, his face lighting up from
within.
"You’re not mad?" It was Mandy’s turn to stare
at Jett as if he’d just grown two heads.
"Hell no, I’m not mad. I couldn’t be happier!"
Jett rushed at Mandy, swept her up into his embrace and swung her
in a circle as he laughed, filled with tremendous joy. He’d never
wanted kids before he met Mandy but now, the thought of a child was
a cherished one. He knew how deeply she had wanted to be a mother
until David killed their unborn child inside of her. He turned
toward the three very confused men and shouted, "I'm going to be a
Daddy!" He laughed outright with Mandy.
Emmitt whispered, "I am going to be an uncle?"
and passed clean out on the floor. Hunter rushed over and hugged
them both and congratulated them, proud to be an uncle for the
first time in his life. Master Yang also gave his happy
congratulations before he scolded Mandy for fighting while
pregnant, which caused Jett to give her a scowl and made her
promise to have another ultrasound right away even if he hadn't
accidentally hit her in the stomach.
At the moment though, he had a very special
question he wanted to ask Mandy. Yes, life was about to get very
interesting, indeed.