Haze and the Hammer of Darkness (58 page)

In his open palm shimmers a black oval, a miniature doorway to … where? Martel is not sure, releases his mental grasp on the cold depths, and lets the blackness vanish.

Is it real? Or illusion?

Real, he decides. For the hundredth time or so.

There is a feel to power, and an absolute feel to absolute power. Call it certainty, reflects Martel.

He gestures toward the inside wall, the blank one, letting his fingers trace a figure. From his hand flows the stuff of darkness, outlining a crude figure, something not seen in the indirect and omnipresent lighting of Aurore.

Shadow, shadow, on the wall,

Who casts the longest shade of all?

Is it death; or yet desire?

Is it night, tamed by fire?

Who's the man who lights the lamp

And calls the storm that brings the damp?

Which the god who blocks the sun

And fills the rivers in their run?

Call the hammer, call the lightning …

He closes his mouth. The old words have power still, lifting him into the role, letting him imagine he is a god.

Not now. Not yet. Not ever.

And yet …

Who can say “ever” or “never” and know? Really know?

Martel shrugs.

The shadow vanishes from the wall, the only remnant the small cloud of black glittermotes that hovers above Martel before winking out.

One touches down on Martel's left shoulder, clings.

Letting his perceptions slide around the corner from where he stands, he checks the timer above the autochef.

Time to leave for the CastCenter.

Walking will give him the time to think over the puzzles.

Don't you just like to walk? Admit it, Martel. Do you really think then?

He leans to touch the light panel on his way out, cannot quite reach it, and turns it off with a mental tap.

Another black glittermote appears and settles on his right shoulder, paired nearly invisibly on the black of his tunic opposite the other mote.

As he heads down the steps to the coast highway, a dorle chitters once. He knows not why, but Rathe comes to mind.

Rathe?

Why do you keep thinking about her? She left. You didn't search, not really.

Short strides, quick strides, untiring strides bear him toward Sybernal, toward the CastCenter.

She called you a god, and you let her go.

A quick glance toward the flat surface of the ocean tells him that the waves, long and sleek in their golden greenness, are flatter than usual.

Why are you so hung up on this esper crew that calls themselves gods? Talented, yes. Gods, no. Right?

The air seems a shade more golden, along with the calm, and the highway is deserted.

Like when Rathe found you the cottage?

Stop it!

Do you love her? Honestly?

No.

Like her? Respect her?

Yes.

POWER! LIGHT!

His dialogue with his unseen devil or conscience is brought to a halt with his perception of the sheer raw energy ahead.

His legs keep pumping as he quick-steps up the paved highway and over the gentle hilltop.

Just over the crest sits the doctor/god Apollo in an insubstantial chair. The four legs of the chair are yellow snakes. The back is composed of two fanned dragon wings.

Beneath his golden ringlets Apollo's face is expressionless.

At his right foot lies the body of a man … young, dark-haired, facedown. Dead.

By his left quivers a redheaded woman, sobbing silently, dryly. Rathe.

Rathe.

“Balance, Martel. You do not understand the need for balance. Power must be balanced with the understanding of its impact on mere mortals. Belief is more powerful than power.”

Apollo tells the truth as he sees it, Martel knows; his words ring like a flat carillon.

Martel gathers his darkness around him, bemused as the clouds of black glittermotes appear from nowhere.

“Before you try to employ that energy, Martel, be so kind as to observe.”

Martel nods, reaching out a thin thread of thought to reassure Rathe.

Apollo outlines a golden square in the air. Colors swirl and resolve into a picture.

Martel watches, a corner of his mind still occupied with the huddled figure that is Rathe Firien, as the small drama comes to an end.

Rathe is helping another of Apollo's would-be demigods become accustomed to Aurore. Except … except this time she does not offer her body and soul.

Does not. Does not humble herself.

The man, pursuing, strikes out with all his mental force … and the force misses Rathe and rebounds upon him. Partly, Martel surmises, because Rathe is wearing the same shielding as when she first met him, partly because the man is a lower-level esper, and partly because …

Martel wonders if along with his physical gifts he had given her some shields of her own.

In the picture conjured by Apollo, the last scene shows Rathe looking down at a body, the same body that lies at Apollo's feet.

“You see, Martel, what you have done.”

I? Come off it, you pious fraud!

Martel twists raw hunks of power, not from the energy field of Aurore, from his own depths, and marshals it within.

You cannot harm me, Martel.

“No!… No…” murmurs a small voice.

Martel looks at his former lover and holds his energies.

“Why not?” he temporizes.

“Because—”

Her statement is never completed, for Apollo touches her, and she is gone. A flash of flame, and she is gone.

… you'll be like him.
Those were her last thoughts, and they fade into the golden haze.

Martel hesitates. Looks at Apollo, standing yellow-bright, smirking, daring Martel to strike.

Martel gathers his darkness even tighter into himself … and walks around the chair with the flickering legs, around the smirking god, and begins to trot toward Sybernal.

Step, step, step, step … and wipe your cheek. Step, step, step. Wipe. Step, step, step …

She asked you not to.

But Rathe is gone.

For what?

Gone in flame because of a mad god. And he, Martel, had not seen it coming. Had not seen the total disregard, the snuffing out of a vital woman, snap. Had not believed power so cavalierly used.

But she asked you not to.

Rathe had not asked for help, had not begged for anything … just for Martel not to attack Apollo. And not because she feared Martel would be hurt.

“Because you'll be like him.” That was what she'd said.

Martel shudders even as he keeps trotting.

Are all gods like that?

Isn't everyone with power?

Kryn. Lovely Kryn, having her guards fire on a lonely Martin Martel just because he'd been discovered to have esper potential.

The Grand Duke, who ruled high in Karnak, throwing the Imperial Marines after a solitary student who had displeased his daughter.

Emily, the carnal goddess, taking what she wanted and leaving. No good-bye. Just the power to arouse and take and discard. And leave a black cloak as a thank-you.

Is that what becoming a god of Aurore means?

Does it have to mean that?

Step, step, step.

He lets his pace slow to a quick walk as he crosses the “official” southern boundary of Sybernal, where the Petrified Boardwalk begins.

The refrain from the “Heroes' Song” echoes in his thoughts:

Tell me now, and if you must,

That a man's much more than dust.

If Aurore is light, if Apollo is the sun-god … no god will I be. Not by choice, nor by accident. Not now, not ever.

Stuffing the swirling energies, the black fires, deep inside himself, Martel touches the CastCenter entry plate.

“Martel, evening shift.”

That's right. Evening, evening in youth. Evening in full light. Why not? Light is a lie, promising everything and signifying nothing.

 

xxxi

A small, dark-haired girl stands on a half-story balcony and looks to the south. She inclines her head slightly, as if bowing to an unseen presence, then lifts it and stares into the southern distances.

“Derissa?”

She ignores the call and continues to watch the southern heavens, and their eternal gold.

“Derissa!”

The girl makes the sign of the inverted and looped cross and walks back into her bedroom to obey her mother's call.

… Up the lane, behind closed doors of a workroom, the bootmaker Aldus labors over a pair of black formboots.

He checks the seams of the left upper, squinting as he draws the black leather next to his eye.

He nods and puts it down, begins to check over the right upper.

The door opens behind him.

“How are you doing, dear?”

“So far, so good.”

“Your supper's ready.”

“I'll be there in a moment, as soon as I check this one over.”

“You've checked, and checked, and checked.”

“It has to be perfect.”

“Would He know the difference?”

“No, probably not, but you never know. And I would. Unlike some of Them, He pays, and pays what they're worth. Almost, anyway.”

The bootmaker does not lift his eyes from the black leather.

After a time, the woman looks away, shakes her head silently, and retreats to the kitchen.

… On a golden sand beach, across the Middle Sea, a boy, playing on the sheltered beach under the cliff on which his parents' house rests, scoops up a handful of sand for his castle.

The dark glitter catches his eye. In among the golden and silver grains of sand are black ones, sands so black that each grain seems to absorb the light, but glistens all the same.

He begins to separate the black grains from the silver and gold ones, until at last he has a small handheld heap of mostly black and glittering sand.

“Mom! See what I found!”

His mother wades in from the low surf to meet him in the ankle-deep water.

“See! See how shiny it is!”

“Pierre, put that sand down. The black ones are dangerous.”

“But why?”

“Put it down. All of it.”

“I want to know why.”

“When you're older, I'll tell you. Put it down.”

“But why?”

“I told you it was dangerous. When you are older, I will tell you why. Now … put … it … down!”

“All right.” He throws the black glimmerings into the water lapping around his ankles. “All right, but you'd better tell me. You promised. You promised.”

“I will. I will. Now … let's see if you can still float on your back.”

… In the secret hollowed-out space beneath the old stone house, they begin to gather.

By ones, by twos, the figures drift in and take their places in the small chapel, until the requisite score has assembled.

The man in the brown robe finally approaches the cube, black on all sides, on which stands a single black candle.

He does not light it.

“Oh, hear our prayers, undeclared God of Night. God of Darkness, deliver us from Light.”

“Hear our prayers.”

“Oh, hear our songs, God of the Evening, God of Blackness.”

In time, up wells the familiar refrain:

… And the Hammer of Darkness will fall from the sky;

The old gods must fly, and the summer will die …

The black candle remains unlit on the black stone cube.

“Deliver us from Light; deliver us from the flame of our oppression, from eternal day that lets us rest not, nor slumber. Hear us, and deliver us, thy servants, from the bondage of eternal brilliance…”

 

xxxii

For the third day running, the waves break over the top of the golden sand beach, and the biting spray reaches over the hillcrest and down to the porch where Martel sits.

As all mortals do, his landlady, Mrs. Alderson, had succumbed to time, even though her life had been prolonged a great deal more than she had expected. For reasons unknown to Martel, who remains uninterested in the finer details of cellular biology, his attempts to rejuvenate the gray-haired woman failed, though she was unaware of his efforts.

Surprisingly, her testament, last declared less than a standard year after he had come to live in the small cottage, had offered him the right to buy either the cottage or the house, or both.

With the continuing royalties from his reruns—both
Forgotten Beaches of Aurore
and
Postulant Communities of Aurore
are a steady source of income—he purchased both and rented the house out, preferring to stay in the cottage.

The present occupants of the house are a middle-aged couple on sabbatical from the University of Karnak. Most of Martel's renters have been outsider norms. Those who decide to stay move elsewhere.

Martel shakes his head. The mannerism is unnecessary, he knows, but he enjoys hanging on to some of his useless habits.

Martel sniffs the air, and the salt tang reminds him of the waves whose muffled crashes he can hear from the other side of the hill.

The continuing waves are unnatural, even on Aurore. After three days, they are not likely to disappear, not until they achieve their purpose.

Another challenge? Or annoyance?

He rises, his face clear, eyes hooded, dark. A stocky man, modest in height, black-haired, lightly tanned, apparently in the health of first maturity.

His steps are heavy, but they have been heavy since youth, as he descends the three steps from the porch to the hillside. He walks up the grassy slope to the top of the hill that overlooks the small bay.

At the crest he pauses.

The spray flings itself upward in misty patches, glistening in the indirect light that gives the breakers themselves a threatening yellow look.