Authors: Lisa Gardner
15
Tuesday, 3:09 p.m. PST
“D
O YOU BELIEVE IN TRUE LOVE?
”
The voice came from far away, accompanied by the rattle of pots and pans. She was dreaming again, Rainie thought. Dreaming of a dark void filled with a booming voice. Maybe this was heaven.
Heaven smelled like bacon, she realized without a trace of irony. Then the voice boomed again.
“My mom believed in true love. Believed it when she fell in bed with my father. Believed it when she scrubbed his clothes, bought his whiskey, and bruised from the impact of his fist. Yeah, my mom was a real romantic. Probably loved my father right until the moment he beat her to death. My mother called it love, my father called it obedience. Frankly, I think they were both full of shit.”
A hand touched her shoulder. Rainie flinched, discovered that she was propped precariously on the edge of a hard wooden chair and nearly fell off.
“Relax,” the voice said impatiently. “It’s time you pulled yourself together. You have work to do.”
More sounds, the person—lone male, probably early twenties to early thirties, based upon the voice—was moving around the room. A refrigerator door sucked open, slammed shut. A crack, sizzle, then a new smell filled the air. Eggs frying. Bacon and eggs. Breakfast.
It must be morning, she thought, but that estimation didn’t feel quite right. Still blindfolded, hands bound, it was hard to get her bearings. She’d been drugged, fading in and out. She could remember white light, movement, writing a note. Surely those things took time. But how much time?
She should sit up, clear her head. It was easier to remain in her dark, bound cocoon, slouched in the middle of God knows where. Captives didn’t have to think. Captives didn’t have to feel.
She realized faintly that the gag was gone, though her mouth was so dried out, it was no more capable of forming words without the gag than it had been with it. After another moment, she determined she could move her feet. So he’d removed the gag and unbound her feet. Why? Because she had work to do?
It couldn’t be morning, she decided. She had left her house shortly after one a.m. It felt as if that had been at least twelve hours ago. Her abductor must have gone back to bed. That made sense to her. After rampaging around in the middle of the night, he’d gone back to bed and was now eating a late breakfast/early lunch. Midday. That felt better to her.
He was scraping a pan now. The air in the room tasted smoky, laced with grease. She had a mental image of a small room without being sure why. Tiny kitchen in a shut-up house. Beneath the grease, she thought she could smell moldy linens and stale, uncirculated air.
The squeaking sound of something—a chair—being dragged across linoleum. The man sat down heavily and Rainie suddenly felt a forkful of eggs pressed against her lips.
“Eat, but slowly. The drugs can leave you feeling queasy. Throw up and you’re on your own. No way I’m dealing with that kind of mess.”
Just the smell of the eggs made her stomach roll. Rainie licked her lips, tried to form a word, had to try again. “Water,” she croaked. Then, slightly louder, “Water.”
Her voice sounded foreign to her. Harsh, guttural, raw. The voice of a victim.
The chair screeched again. The man was up, moving. She could sense his impatience in the hard slam of a plastic cup against a counter, the jerk of a water faucet being snapped on.
A moment later, the cup was thrust against her lips. “Four sips, then some eggs, then more water. Come on, start drinking. I don’t have all day.”
She did as she was told. On some level this surprised her. But maybe it didn’t. How long had she been feeling helpless now? It had started way before Abductor A had discovered her at Point B. She had felt overwhelmed and powerless since first walking through that house in Astoria, since gazing down at that small lifeless body. Since feeling the terror that still pervaded that room, since knowing what that little girl had been forced to know. No one to help her anymore. No one to save her. And that man would have loomed so large and powerful, as he ripped off her pajamas, as he prepared to do what he was going to do.
No happy ending here. The man had done what he’d wanted, then he’d placed a pillow over four-year-old Aurora Johnson’s face and smothered her to death. Where was the justice in that? Where was God?
And Rainie had been feeling herself slip away ever since. Time spent on the Internet, searching for stories she knew she shouldn’t read. A twelve-year-old boy who raped and murdered a three-year-old toddler. A mudslide killing a mother and three small children after the husband popped out the door to buy them all ice cream. Then there was the tsunami. Over two hundred thousand people gone in the blink of an eye, a third of them children who never stood a chance. Not that the survivors were much luckier. According to news reports, slave traffickers promptly took advantage of the chaos to pick off orphans and turn them into sex slaves.
All of these children born into the world simply to lead lives of terror, misery, and suffering.
What was one person to do? For every murder she helped investigate, millions more were happening. And the perpetrators were no longer hard-bitten criminals, with yellowed crooked teeth and small beady eyes. They were charming suburban husbands. They were soccer moms. They were children themselves, ten, eleven, twelve years old.
Rainie’s head was filled with too many things she didn’t want to know. Pictures that tormented her. Questions that haunted her. Had little Aurora died knowing how much her mother had loved her, how hard her mother had fought to the bitter end? Or had she died hating her own mom for failing her so completely?
“Another bite,” her captor demanded.
She opened her mouth, obediently swallowed, then much to the surprise of them both, projectile-vomited across the table.
“Ah, Jesus Christ!” The man sprang back, his chair clattering to the floor. “That’s disgusting. Oh, man . . .”
He didn’t seem to know what to do. Rainie continued to sit, an impassive lump, letting him sort it out. She could taste bile in her mouth. Water would be nice. Maybe orange juice. Anything to soothe her throat.
And then she thought of Quincy. She saw him, standing in front of her so clearly she tried to reach out her bound hands. She was in the study. It was late at night. He stood in the doorway, his dark green bathrobe belted around his waist.
“Come to bed,” he said.
But she couldn’t. She was reading another horrible story and couldn’t possibly tear her eyes away. She was a sponge, soaking up the sorrows of the world and feeling the last of herself silently erode away.
“Rainie, what are you looking for?” he had asked her quietly.
She didn’t have an answer for him and when she looked up again, he was gone. So she reached down into the filing cabinet, and pulled out her beer.
“Shit, shit, shit,” her captor was grumbling now. “I mean, really. Ah jeez.” Water running in the sink. The sound of a sponge being squeezed. So he was cleaning it up after all. His only other choice was to untie her hands and he couldn’t do that.
The thought amused her. So her captive was helpless, too, a victim of his own making. She started to smile.
The next instant, the man slapped her across the face and she slammed to the floor.
“Get that goddamn smirk off your face,” he roared. “Don’t you smile at me!”
She could feel him towering above her, his rage a physical presence that suddenly filled the room. In her mind, she could see him clearly. Hands fisted. Jaw clenched. He wanted to do it: pound her, smack her again and again. Beat her like his father had beaten his mother. Beat her, like her own mother had been beaten by an endless slew of faceless boyfriends.
What comes around goes around. The children who suffer today will be the monsters who inflict suffering tomorrow.
And then, even with the blindfold on, Rainie knew exactly who her abductor was. She had known him most of her life. He was a piece of herself, her past coming back to get her. The minute she’d opened that first beer three months ago, she had plummeted into the abyss, and he was simply the devil who’d been waiting her whole life to find her.
The man grabbed the collar of her shirt. He jerked her to her feet, dragging her shoulder through the vomit and smearing the unbearable stench upon her clothes. She reeled, off balance. He pushed her again and the back of her legs connected with something low and hard. A coffee table, a chair. It didn’t matter. No place to go. No room to retreat. She stood there, breathing hard and feeling his advance.
“Your husband left you, Lorraine,” the man jeered.
She didn’t say anything, didn’t quite understand. How could he know that?
“What’d you do? Whore around? Sleep with his best friend?”
“N-n-no,” she finally whispered. Her heart was pounding. Funny how his physical advance did little to intimidate her, but his questions left her terrified.
“Are you a slut, Lorraine?”
Her chin came up. She didn’t answer.
“Yeah, I can see it. Probably screwed around all over town. Left your husband no choice but to run out with his tail between his legs.”
Rainie surprised herself. She drew together what little moisture she could find in her mouth and spit in the man’s direction.
In response, her captor grabbed her hair and jerked back her head. She couldn’t quite stop the cry that escaped from her throat.
“Does he hate you?”
“N-n-no.” At least she didn’t think Quincy hated her. Not yet.
“You wrote the note, you know what I want. Will he pay it, Lorraine? Will your husband cough up ten grand for his lousy, whoring wife?”
“Yes.” She said the word with more confidence. Quincy would pay. He would pay ten times that amount, a hundred times that amount. And not just because he was a responsible man or a former FBI agent, but because he did love her, had always loved her. Those had been the words in his note. Not “goodbye,” not “get your head out of your ass,” not “stop drinking, you stupid bitch.” He had written, her man of few words, “I love you.” And that had been it.
“I hope for your sake you’re telling the truth,” her captor said now. “I hope for your sake your old man coughs up the dough. Because I’m not looking for a roommate, Lorraine. In the next hour, I get the cash, or you get an early grave. So don’t play any games. Don’t you try messing with me.”
The man’s hand was still wrapped around her hair. He used her mane like a rope, jerking her toward the door.
“There is no such thing as true love,” the man said again. “There’s just the beauty of cold hard cash. And now, it’s time for Quincy to pay.”
16
Tuesday, 3:32 p.m. PST
K
IMBERLY PARKED HER CAR,
looked around, then sighed heavily. The rain had finally subsided to a light mist but there was no getting around it; she was about to ruin her favorite pair of shoes.
Kimberly’s slim-fitting black slacks and tailored silk top had made perfect sense for a seventy-degree day in Atlanta, Georgia. Bad news about dashing to the airport, however, was there’d been no time to stop by her house. Instead, she’d grabbed her emergency duffel bag from the trunk of her car. It contained one FBI-issue navy blue windbreaker, one change of underwear, toothbrush, toothpaste, hairbrush, and deodorant. That was it.
In other words, no boots appropriate for slogging through a fifty-foot stretch of mud. No casual clothes more suited for approaching a small child. No sweater to protect her arms from the raw chill. She could try the windbreaker, but given the subject’s reported dislike of law enforcement, it probably wasn’t best to arrive in a jacket emblazoned
FBI.
Nope, she was overdressed in nice slacks, nice shirt, and a positively killer pair of heels. And now she was going to suffer. God, you had to love this job.
She opened the door of her rental car and stepped out into the muddy driveway. Her heel promptly sank down two inches. She pulled it out, and the mud made a giant sucking sound.
She tried a second step, hell-bent on her efforts, and nearly jumped out of her skin when a voice suddenly spoke from the woods.
“Those shoes are pretty.”
Kimberly turned toward the sound, precariously balanced with one foot sunken forward, one foot sunken back. She saw a young boy peering at her from beneath a towering fir tree. He had large brown eyes, nearly too big for his face. The rest of him was thin and scrawny, his blue sweatshirt and mud-splattered jeans nearly hanging off his frame.
At her look, he shoved his hands into his pockets and hunched his shoulders. He’d obviously been outside awhile. His sweatshirt appeared soaked, his wet hair formed dark spikes against his forehead. He had a smear of mud across one cheek and pine needles stuck to his clothes. He didn’t seem to notice, however, just kept staring at her.
“These shoes,” Kimberly said at last, “
are
pretty. Pretty worthless.” She grimaced, pulled up her front foot a second time, and earned a fresh round of protest from the muck. Screw it. She slid off both shoes, dangling them from her hand, and proceeded toward the boy barefoot. The mud oozed between her toes, kind of reminding her of this one time in Virginia . . . Best not to think of it.
She slogged forward and the boy started to giggle.
“Don’t tell me you never walked barefoot in the mud,” Kimberly said. “And splashed in puddles? Oh, you haven’t lived until you’ve marched barefoot in the rain.”
Dougie Jones, she presumed, took her bait. He knelt down, working eagerly on the laces of his filthy tennis shoes. He had thin, fast-moving fingers. They struggled, however, with the rain-soaked knots, giving Kimberly time to approach.
“Would you like some help?” she asked him.
Wordlessly, Dougie stuck out a foot.
With her outfit well beyond ruined already, Kimberly squatted down in the dirt and went to work on the boy’s laces. “Other foot.”
He complied. She got both shoes off, then Dougie eagerly stripped off his socks. They were cheap white athletic socks, the kind with colored bands around the top. The heels were threadbare, the toes stained the color of nicotine. Something about their pitiful state made Kimberly sad. It didn’t seem like it should be too much to buy a boy a new pair of socks.
“You’re Dougie Jones, aren’t you?”
The boy nodded distractedly.
“Hi,” she said softly. “My name is Kimberly.”
Dougie didn’t seem to care. He planted his feet in the mire. He wiggled his toes, watching the muck ooze around each little piggy.
“I like beetles,” Dougie said. “Want to see one?”
He reached into his pocket. Being a trained FBI agent, Kimberly managed not to scream as the boy pulled a giant black bug out of his pants and plopped it down on her arm. The bug was huge. And fast. It scurried right up her shoulder to her wet, streaming hair.
“That’s a fine bug,” Kimberly said faintly, holding perfectly still. Dougie remained staring at her, watching, waiting, testing.
The beetle arrived at her neck. Before she gave in to impulse and opened fire on the insect, Kimberly grabbed it in her left hand. Sticky legs promptly flailed frantically against her fist. She dropped the beetle back to earth.
“It’s a beautiful beetle, Dougie,” Kimberly said. “But it doesn’t belong in your pocket. Beetles belong outside in the woods. It’ll die in captivity.”
Dougie looked her in the eye. Then he raised his bare foot and squashed his pet into the mud. He stood on top of the beetle for a long time, staring at Kimberly with big, emotionless eyes.
Kimberly had a sudden insight into why Rainie might have started to drink.
“Why are you standing on the beetle, Dougie?” Kimberly asked quietly.
“Because I want to.”
“The beetle might die.”
The boy shrugged.
“If you don’t care about that beetle, Dougie, who will?”
Dougie frowned, seeming caught off guard by that question. He raised his foot, almost curiously. The beetle churned around in the empty footprint, still seeking some means of escape.
Dougie watched the beetle for a long time. Kimberly remained squatting beside the boy, shoulder to shoulder, in the mud.
“The agency sent you,” Dougie told her.
“No.”
Dougie frowned. “The agency sent you,” he repeated, more firmly now. “Are you taking me away? Because I don’t mind. We can go. Just go. Where is the lady in the purple suit?”
“Dougie, I’m a friend of Rainie’s. I came here looking for Rainie.”
Dougie scowled. His shoulders hunched, he turned away from Kimberly. “I don’t want to talk to you anymore.”
“I’m sorry to hear that.”
“She drinks, you know.”
“Rainie drinks?”
“Yes.”
“You saw her drinking?”
“No.” He sounded matter-of-fact. “But I know. She says she wants to help me. She says she’s my friend. But she’s a drunk. I know these things.”
“I see. Did you know, Dougie, that Rainie is missing?”
He shrugged.
“That’s sad for me. I’m Rainie’s friend and I would like to find her.”
Dougie looked at her. “You’re stupid.”
The vehemence in his words caught her off guard. Kimberly leaned back, almost lost her balance, and had to catch herself with a hand in the mud. “Why do you say that?”
But Dougie wouldn’t answer her. His lower lip jutted out, trembling. He grabbed the beetle again, and this time stuck it in his mouth. His right cheek bulged, then his left, as the beetle continued its frantic fight for life.
Kimberly wasn’t sure what to do anymore. The interrogation trainers at the Academy had definitely never met the likes of Dougie Jones.
She picked up a stick. She started tracing pictures in the mud; it seemed better than staring at Dougie’s plump, churning cheeks.
“When I was younger,” she said quietly, “older than you, but still too young, my older sister died. Then, a year later, my mother died. She was murdered actually, in her own home, by the same man who killed my sister. He chased my mother from room to room with a knife. I looked up the story in the news. I saw photos of the crime scene.”
Kimberly drew another picture. She wasn’t much of an artist. She started out with a square, then turned it into a crude house. The front door was too small, the windows too big. She tried to draw a tree in front, but it quickly overshadowed the tiny house, giving the drawing an ominous flair. She knew children who had been victimized often drew dark, scary pictures. It was her past. Maybe it was Dougie’s, too.
“That same man, that killer, he tried to get to me next. I ran. I flew all the way from New York to Portland, Oregon, hoping to get away. But the man chased me, Dougie. He found me. He held a gun to my head. He described to me exactly how he was going to kill me, and in my own mind, I already saw myself dead.”
Kimberly finally looked up. Dougie was staring at her, enraptured.
“It’s hard to lose your mom,” she whispered. “It makes you alone in the world. Alone is scary. Alone is not knowing what’s going to happen next. Alone is having no one to help you. Do you know why I’m still alive, Dougie? Do you know why that man didn’t kill me?”
Slowly, Dougie shook his head.
“Rainie,” Kimberly said simply. “She interceded, she kept him talking, got him distracted. And that bought us time. In the end, he was the one who was shot, not me. Rainie saved my life, Dougie. That’s why she’s my friend.”
Dougie took the stick from her. He scratched out the crude drawing, working on it until nothing was left but waterlogged dirt. Then he opened his mouth and removed the beetle, holding it between his forefinger and thumb. The beetle’s legs were still kicking. Dougie watched it squirm.
“Friends aren’t perfect,” Kimberly said. “Friends make mistakes. I bet you know a lot of people who’ve made mistakes, Dougie. I bet you know a lot of people who have disappointed you. I wish I could tell you it won’t happen again, but mistakes are part of life.”
“Stanley beats me,” Dougie said abruptly.
“And Stanley is . . . ?”
“My foster dad. He beats me. I told the lady in purple and she told Rainie. Rainie’s supposed to stop Stanley, but she didn’t.”
“I’m sorry to hear that, Dougie. Has Stanley hit you recently?”
“Yes.”
“Do you have a bruise?”
Dougie shook his head. “You can hurt little boys without leaving a bruise. Stanley knows that.”
In spite of herself, Kimberly felt a chill. She looked at the house, set thirty yards back. The covered porch shadowed the windows. Giant fir trees cast the entire structure into deeper gloom. The house was small and dark, American Gothic. Kimberly certainly wouldn’t want to live there.
“Dougie, has Stanley mentioned Rainie’s name? Did he tell you she was missing?”
“I don’t talk to Stanley.”
“Have you ever seen him and Rainie fight?”
Dougie thinned his lips. He finally released the beetle. It went scurrying madly for the nearest rock.
“Maybe they fought recently?” Kimberly pressed. “Did Stanley ever threaten to hit Rainie?”
“Rainie was supposed to see me Thursday,” Dougie said. “She never came. She went to a bar.”
“Who told you that, Dougie? How do you know Rainie went to a bar?”
The boy refused to answer again, his lips set in a hard line, his chin coming up defiantly. But Kimberly thought she knew the answer this time. The boy had been right; Stanley knew how to hurt without ever leaving a mark.
“Dougie,” Kimberly said quietly. “One last time: Is there something you’d like to tell me?”
“I hope Rainie dies,” Dougie said, then he ran to a small rock, scooped up the beetle, and went racing back into the woods.