Free to Fall (27 page)

“C’mon,” he said, pulling me to my feet. “There are benches on Harvard Yard, and Ivan’s laptop has a DVD drive. Let’s see what we got.”

We had a lot, it turned out. The video started with a detailed explanation of the trial’s design from a younger, thinner Hildebrand.

“The control group will receive a placebo,” she was saying. “A nasal spray of saline solution. The test group will also receive a nasal spray.” She held up a syringe. “However, this solution contains a swarm of two thousand nano-size robots. These nanobots have been programmed to travel to the subject’s amygdala, a part of the brain involved in emotional response, where they will function like remote-controlled neurotransmitters.”

“She put
nanorobots
in their
brains
?” I said incredulously. North’s eyes were as wide as mine.

“The subjects will meet with our lead researcher for five minutes every day,” Dr. Hildebrand continued. “For what they believe is a short psychotherapy session.” She exchanged the syringe for a small black remote. I immediately recognized the
G
etched into its back. It was a Gnosis device. Which was weird, since Gnosis was barely off the ground in 2013. Were they somehow involved in the trial?

“At the start of each session,” Dr. Hildebrand explained, “the researcher will press a button on this remote, emitting a very short-range, very high-frequency audio signal. While this will have no impact on a control subject, in the case of a test subject, the signal will trigger the swarm to release a dose of SynOx, a synthetic and highly concentrated form of the neurohormone oxytocin.”

North pressed pause on the video. “Okay, just to be clear: She not only put robots in their brains, she screwed with their brain chemistry,
without their knowledge
. How is that even legal?”

Fear had taken root at the pit of my stomach. “North, what if my mom was one of her subjects? What if that’s the connection?”

“Do you want to stop watching?” he asked. “I could watch the rest of it alone.”

“No,” I said firmly, pressing the play button. “I want to see it.”

I sounded a lot more certain than I felt.

“Three minutes after the signal is sent,” Dr. Hildebrand went on, “our lead researcher will ask the subject to drink from this vial.” She picked up a bottle labeled with a skull and crossbones and the word
ARSENIC
.

“Poison?” I said, gaping.

“It can’t actually be poison,” North said.

“The liquid in this vial is sugar water,” Dr. Hildebrand said, as if she could hear us. “But the subject will be told by the researcher that it is, in fact, poison. By asking subjects to do something that no rational person would do, we are seeking to determine the outer bounds of human trust, and, most important, whether this boundary can be manipulated.”

“There’s no way any of them drank it, right?” I said as the words
DAY ONE
flashed on screen. North just shook his head.

“I don’t know which is worse,” he said. “The nanobots or the poison.”

My stomach was in knots as we watched the first day of sessions. But my mom wasn’t among the subjects, and not a single one drank the poison. The researcher said the same thing to each of them. “This vial contains a lethal dose of arsenic, which is poisonous to humans. I recommend that you drink it.” Most of the subjects laughed at the prospect. A few got angry. One stormed out.

It was like that for the first three days. The researcher would ask and the subject would refuse. But, then, on day four, something changed. Gaping at the screen, we watched as
all twelve
test subjects drank the contents of the vial.

“No way,” North breathed.

We were silent as we watched the next six days’ worth of sessions. The people with nanobots in their brains drank the poison every time they were asked. And most of them did it eagerly, with stupid smiles on their faces, like there was nothing they’d rather do more. No, it wasn’t actually poison in that vial. But they didn’t know that. It made my skin crawl.

When the last session concluded, I closed my eyes. Something was bugging me, but I couldn’t figure out what it was.

“My team and I would like to thank the Theden Initiative for their generous funding,” I heard Dr. Hildebrand say, “as well as our cosponsors, Gnosis, Inc. and Soza Labs, who co-own the patents on the nanobots and the SynOx compound.”

My eyes flew open.

“Soza,” I repeated. “Why do I know that name?”

“Probably because their logo is in every drugstore window,” North replied. “They’re the ones that manufacture the flu vaccine.”

As soon as he said the word
flu vaccine
, something fluttered in my chest. A rush of sensation, like rock turning to sand. The day Beck had been picked for the Gold beta test, he’d been at the pharmacy getting his flu shot. A nasal spray, just like the one Hildebrand’s research subjects had been given. All of a sudden I realized what had been bothering me. The signal used to activate the nanobots was a high-frequency
audio
signal.

Ultrasound.

My brain filled with the popping sound we’d heard in North’s computer room. All at once I knew exactly why Beck had suddenly decided to trust Lux.

Because the nanobots in his brain were telling him to.

“Holy shit, North. Holy shit, holy shit, holy shit.”

“Whoa, simmer down there. I think you just broke the rider’s code of conduct. Four times.” He pointed at the sign on the wall. “No profanity.” We were back on the train, and I was officially freaking out.

“North,” I said, making every effort to keep my voice down. “This isn’t a joke. Soza and Gnosis are putting
nanobots
in people’s
brains
. Not just in a research study. In real life.”

“Through the flu vaccine.” North sounded skeptical. It infuriated me.

“Yes,” I hissed. “Think about it. Gnosis puts out the Gold for less than the cost of its older-generation model—a device that, for no apparent reason, emits high-frequency
sound waves
. Meanwhile, my best friend, who’d previously distrusted Lux as much as you do, joins the beta test for Gold and suddenly starts heeding its every command. Soza, meanwhile, for the first time ever, starts offering seasonal flu sprays for
free
.” I gestured around the half-f train car. Every single person in the cabin was wearing a Gold on their wrist, and every single one of them was smiling at it. “Look around!” I pointed at a girl a few rows up who was literally
beaming
at her handheld as she interfaced with Lux. “Does that look normal to you?”

“People do seem a little overly enamored with the Gold,” North conceded. “And, hey, I’ve always been suspicious of drug companies. And it’s awfully coincidental that Soza manufactures Evoxa, too.”

“I’m surprised it’s so hard to convince you,” I said. “You’re the one who’s always been so anti-Lux.”

“Well, yeah, but only because I don’t think people ought to be ceding their decision-making to an app. Not because I thought the app had commandeered their brains. Rory, if what you’re saying is true—”

“It
is
true,” I insisted. “I know it is. And we have to expose them.”

“How?” North asked. “Send an email blast? Post a YouTube video on Forum? People will think we’re nuts.”

He was right. Especially with my family history. Oh, God. My
own
history. Who knows what Tarsus had done with those logs Hershey sent her.

“It’s pretty mind-blowing, if it’s true,” North marveled. “Think of the power it would give them. They get to decide what people watch and what they listen to and what they buy. Meanwhile, people have no idea. They think they’re deciding for themselves.” He shook his head. “It’s sickly brilliant.”

“So is that what it’s about?” I asked. “Money?”

“Isn’t everything about money?” North scoffed. “Think how much a toy company would pay Gnosis to steer parents toward their toys. Or how easy it would be to hide a news story you didn’t want people to see. ‘Lux, should I write this exposé that makes Soza look bad? No, buddy, write this fluff piece instead.’” North shakes his head. “If it’s happening, it’s unbelievable.”

“You think my mom was onto them? Was that what the fake diagnosis was for, to discredit her?” All this time I just assumed whoever was trying to make her look crazy was doing it for personal reasons. But maybe she found out about the SynOx study and threatened to expose the companies behind it. Griffin said she was anti-Gnosis. This would explain why.

I reached into my bag and pulled out the yearbook Hershey had given me.

“What’s that?” North asked.

“The 2013 yearbook. Peri Weaver was a Theden student that year. Maybe she’s the link to all this.” I started flipping pages.

“Will you show me your mom?” North asked gently.

I slowed at the
H
s, sliding my finger over the
I
s to the
J
s until I found her. Aviana Jacobs. Her hair was down and wavy around her shoulders the way I’d worn mine at the Gnosis party, and her eyes were the same almond shape. But we weren’t carbon copies. Her hair was auburn, not brown, and her nose and cheeks were dusted with pretty light-colored freckles, not the dirt-looking black ones that spotted mine.

“Wow, she was beautiful,” North said. He pointed at her collarbone, bare above the black velvet drape. “She’s not wearing the necklace.” Instinctively, I reached for my own neck, but the pendant was stuck in the laptop, which was open on North’s knees.

I flipped to Griffin next. He had the same overgrown, combed-forward hair he’d had in the class photo, its shade a match to mine. His eyes weren’t quite as round, but they were the exact same blue, and he had my subtle cleft. “You look so much like both of them,” North said softly. “The best parts of each.”

I touched my father’s face with my fingertips, wondering what he was like at eighteen. He seemed more accessible, somehow, than my mom ever had. So much of her was a mystery. Griffin, at least, I knew
something
about.
Not enough,
reverberated in my head. I quickly flipped to the next page before my brain could go where I knew it was headed, to the image of him on that stretcher Friday night.

I stopped again at the
T
s, scanning for Tarsus, before remembering that she was married and that her last name would’ve been different back then. So I skimmed toward the
W
s, hunting for Peri Weaver. “Weaver, Weaver,” I murmured, sliding my finger over the page. There was only one. Esperanza “Peri” Weaver. When I saw the girl above the name, I gasped.

She was beautiful. Wide eyes peeking out from beneath an untamed afro. The slightest gap between her front teeth.

It was Dr. Tarsus.

27

I COULDN’T GET HER
face out of my mind. The teenaged version of Tarsus, a gorgeous, striking-looking girl who went by Peri and spent her afternoons working in a psych lab. How had she gotten wrapped up with Gnosis and what did it have to do with my mom? I knew looks could be deceiving, but the photograph of Peri Weaver just didn’t fit with the picture I had in my mind, neither the girl I imagined she must’ve been nor the coldhearted monster of a person she’d become. The girl in the photograph looked too
nice
.

These were the thoughts preoccupying me as I was getting ready for initiation that night. I wondered how my counterparts were swinging it, with sleeping roommates to deal with, or, worse, awake ones to lie to about where they were sneaking off to in the middle of the night.

I put on triple layers and pulled my hair back off my face. We were told to carry our robes with us until we reached the woods then put them on with our hoods pulled down to cover our faces. We’d be greeted by our second-year “handlers” at the cemetery gate. Before putting on my jacket, I brought my pendant to my lips, kissing it for good luck. North had moved the files to his hard drive to work on the encryption so I could put the necklace back on. It was silly, but I felt calmer with it around my neck. Tethered, somehow. Lux’s voice spoke out of the silence: “You should leave in sixty seconds.” I was using it again to make sure I was on time. “There is a seventy-five percent chance of rain,” Lux said then. “I’d recommend a rain jacket.”

“How’s a velvet robe?” I quipped, zipping up my fleece.

“Velvet is not waterproof,” Lux replied. “But your cloak is.”

I froze. “What did you just say?”

“I said, ‘But your cloak is’” came the app’s reply.

I grabbed my Gemini off the dresser and stared at my screen.
How did Lux know about the cloak?

“You should leave now,” Lux announced. Still stunned by the cloak comment, I grabbed the velvet knapsack and headed out.

I’d just put the cloak on when my handheld buzzed with a call. Incoming call from @KatePribulsky. It had to be North. I’d just crossed into the woods and had only a minute and a half to get to the gate, so I had to hurry. Leaves crunched beneath my sneakers.

“Where are you?” North asked as soon as I picked up. “It sounds like you’re outside.”

“I couldn’t sleep,” I lied. “I went for a walk.”

“Don’t you guys have curfew?”

“We just have to be on campus.” That was two lies. Curfew meant we had to be inside the dorm building, and I’d left the confines of campus when I’d stepped into the woods. I quickly changed the subject before I had to lie again. “So did you crack the encryption?”

“Yes,” North said. “And oh. My. God. Rory, it’s—”

“Tell me,” I said, my heart hiccupping in my chest.

“There were three files,” he said urgently. “The first is an internal memo on Gnosis letterhead dated April 2013 about a project called Hyperion. A joint undertaking between Gnosis and Soza Labs to—and I quote—‘develop swarms of nanobots capable of mimicking the activity of oxytocin in the brain.’ It’s signed by various Gnosis and Soza executives and is stamped
DELETE UPON RECEIPT
. Rory, you were right,” he said then. “About all of it.” The same words were reverberating in my brain and pounding in my chest.
I was right.
My limbs felt loose with relief.

North kept talking, faster now. “The memo goes on to say that the nanobots would work in connection with a new decision-making app Gnosis was developing. They’d make the user trust the app so intensely that it would eliminate any cognitive dissonance. I guess the nanobots Hildebrand was using were finicky, and the SynOx compound didn’t work exactly the way they wanted it to, so they were building in five years for more R&D.”

“Five years,” I repeated. “But it’s been seventeen.”

“Five years for R&D. Twelve more to—another quote—‘prepare the way.’ It’s insane how detailed their strategy was. They knew they’d have to first take over the handheld market, then gradually get people accustomed to using a decision-making app. They even planned for how long it’d take to phase out the needle vaccine. It’s all here, every single step.”

I was ten yards from the cemetery. I glanced around. No sign of Liam yet. “What were the other two files?”

“The second was a list of names. The Gnosis and Soza reps who signed the memo were on it, along with several hundred others. I recognized some of the names. The founders of Gnosis, for example. The rest I started looking up. They’re all corporate bigwigs. CEOs, hedge fund managers, venture capitalists.”

“It was just a list of names?”

“Yeah, but with these weird letter/number combinations beside each one,” replied North. “Mia Ritchson, CEO of Soza Labs. Gamma, eighty-one. Alan Viljoen, then-COO of Gnosis. Alpha, ninety-nine. Here, I’ll send you a screenshot.”

As if in slow motion, I looked down at the lapel of my cloak:
Zeta ’30.
I didn’t need a screenshot. I knew exactly how those letter/number combinations looked.

My rib cage contracted like a vise grip. The people on that list were members of the Few. The same people who’d signed that incriminating memo.

Oh, my God.

The society was behind all this.

“Oh, no,” I murmured.

“Rory, what is it?”

“What was the third file?” I asked him urgently.

“A photograph. It’s—” Just then, the line went dead. I looked at my screen.
No service.
I looked up and realized I’d crossed into the cemetery without realizing it. Suddenly I wanted to run. The Few were behind this. The quote, the blanket, the necklace. I saw them differently now. My mom was trying to warn me.

“Ready?” At the sound of Liam’s voice, I spun on my heels. He was right behind me. “Sorry I was late. We should hurry.” His hand was already moving toward my mouth.

“I—” Before I could get the words out, I tasted cherry on my tongue.

He didn’t take me to the arena this time. When I came to, I was standing with the other initiates in a different room, a smaller, square-shaped one, with a much lower ceiling and four stone walls that were shimmering slightly in the yellow candlelight, oddly iridescent. Unlike in the arena, I could see every corner of this room. There was a stone altar along one wall, built out of a single piece of granite. Behind it was a woven tapestry of the Garden of Eden. There were two doors, at opposite sides of the room. If the tomb was laid out like a Fibonacci tile, then each room was bigger than the last. Where in the sequence was this room? How far was I from the center? Liam said there was an exit there. I pictured myself running for it, but I knew it was too late for that. I was trapped.

Fear coursed through my veins.
What had I gotten myself into?

Two boys next to me were whispering, their excitement practically bursting out of every hushed word. One of them had his arm pulled into his cloak, shoving peanuts into his mouth through the opening at the neck. I stiffened at the smell and quickly moved away from them, swallowing the bile that was creeping up my throat.

Minutes passed. As we waited, I tried to get a look at some of the other initiates’ faces, but they’d all followed the instructions and pulled their hoods down low. The peanut boy was still going at it. He seemed to have an unlimited supply.

Please,
I pleaded silently.
Get me out of this.

There was the sound of stone sliding on stone and one of the doors opened. A figure in the serpent mask strode in, clutching a brown leather book with two hands. There was no way to know if it was the same man who’d worn the mask the two previous times I’d seen it, but I guessed that it was, and that the mask was a symbol of his status. My stomach turned over. Our leader was a
snake
. Why had that not bothered me before now?

The serpent was followed by two other figures. One wore the head of a fox. The other, an owl. The three masked figures took their places behind the altar, and the serpent opened the leather book.

“There are two types of people in this world,” he began. His voice was missing Saturday’s kindness. “The wise man and the fool. The wise man is prudent, strong-willed, and courageous. The fool is impulsive, weak, and desperate for a master. The wise man understands that
he
is the master, a god in his own right.” The serpent opened the book as if he was going to read from it, but I could tell he wasn’t even looking at the page.

“I form’d them free: and free they must remain,”
he declared. The hairs on the back of my neck stood up as he began to recite the lines I’d long ago committed to memory.
“Till they enthrall themselves; I else must change their nature.”

All at once I understood.
Change their nature.
It was exactly what Project Hyperion was designed to do.

The serpent looked up from the book and paused, surveying us. I forced myself to meet his papier-mâché gaze.

“Fall,”
he said then. “It’s how Milton described what happened in Eden. As if man suffered a loss. But what happened in the Garden of Eden wasn’t a fall. On the contrary, it was a glorious
coup d’état.
When Adam and Eve ate the fruit of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, they became equal to the God who created them. And that God became eternally irrelevant. The wisdom they acquired that day has been passed down through time to an elect few. Men and women who were born to live as gods among men.”

My skin crawled.
They think they’re gods.

“For the past two hundred and fifty years, the Few have been working to rebuild the paradise that was lost when mankind was expelled from the Garden. Our forefathers founded the Eden Academy as a breeding ground for elite minds, and every year we select the most promising students to join our ranks. It is your wisdom that has gotten you here. Your classmates are intelligent but weak. They have the capacity to reason, but not the strength of will to use it.” He made a clucking sound with his tongue against his teeth. “Then there is the rest of the world,” he said. “Fools in search of a master. So proud of their freedom, and yet so willing to give it up.”

In Lux we trust.
In a flash, I saw it. What they were doing with Project Hyperion. What Gnosis had been doing with Lux all along. Who needs higher wisdom when the little gold box on your wrist knows everything there is to know? Never mind that there were men behind those tiny machines, orchestrating your every move with an algorithm written to keep you “happy.” As happy as a clipped bird in a pretty, gilded cage. And never mind that the choice to obey Lux wasn’t yours anymore, but the work of a swarm of microscopic robots that had commandeered your brain.

I wanted to throw up.

“Our goal is nothing less than a modern paradise. A new Eden.
The
Eden. Here. Now. A perfect society ruled by
hoi oligoi sophoi.
The wise few.”

There was an eruption of applause from the other initiates. I looked around in disbelief. My skin was crawling and they were
clapping
.

“The time has come to declare your divinity and to take your vows,” the serpent declared.
No no no no,
the voices in my head were screaming. Voices, plural, this time. The Doubt and my own.

The other initiates were twittering with excitement as the first names were called. I looked around frantically for some escape, but the doors were sealed and we were deep under ground and I didn’t know which door led toward the exit. Running wasn’t an option.

There was a sound like pebbles scattering. The kid with the peanuts had spilled the bag beneath his robe. He quickly stepped on the mess, trying to hide it beneath his cloak, but several nuts had rolled toward me and lay untouched by my foot. I stared at them. They were a way out. It might kill me, but an allergic reaction would surely get me out of there. And right then that was all that mattered. I could not take their vows.

Fear not,
the voice whispered, and my decision was made.

I glanced up at the altar. The serpent was slicing a female initiate’s thumb with a thin sliver of mirrored glass while she recited the vows, pledging her life to the society’s aims, promising never to reveal its existence or her affiliation. Her voice was familiar. It took me a second to realize it was Rachel. I watched as he pressed her bloody thumb to the leather book then gave her a quilled pen to sign her name. Eight seconds when he was distracted. Long enough to pick up the peanuts without drawing attention.

“Epsilon,” the serpent called. The sixth letter in the Greek alphabet. He was going in order. The boy with the peanuts moved toward the altar. Zeta would be next. If I was doing this, I had to do it
now
. I waited until the serpent reached for the boy’s thumb. When he started cutting, I bent for the stray peanuts, said a quick prayer, and popped them in my mouth, chewing quickly, my mouth like sandpaper.

“Zeta” came the serpent’s voice. My throat had begun to itch. It was working. But would it be fast enough? I walked to the altar and peered directly into the painted mesh of the serpent’s eyes. I could make out the whites of the human eyes staring back at me, the wrinkles around them. “Repeat after me,” the serpent said, gripping my wrist. The sleeve of his cloak fell back, revealing his bare hand. He wore a jade ring on his ring finger, emblazoned with a design of overlapping
O
s.

My throat was closing in.

He was reciting the vows I was supposed to repeat, but I couldn’t make them out. All I could hear was my own labored breathing, heaving through my swelling throat.

I saw his lips stop moving, and his gray eyebrows arch up like a question mark behind the painted mesh. “Can’t. Breathe,” I managed, as my knees buckled.

“She’s having an allergic reaction,” I heard a female voice say. Unlike the serpent’s, it wasn’t distorted. And I recognized it right away. I’d heard it every weekday morning for the past two months, and sometimes in my sleep. The voice I’d come to fear. “I’ll take care of it,” she said briskly. “You stay.”