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Authors: Carolee Dean

Forget Me Not

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CONTENTS

Part One: The Ha
  
 
  
way

I Came to the Hallway

The Second Floor of Humanities

From This Location

I Know

How it Happened

When he saw Brianna

I Squeezed his Hand

I Look Across the Courtyard at the Fab

Haunted Hallway

The Ghosts of Raven Valley High

Out The Window

Write It Out

Elijah Wears Black

I Have a Moleskine Notebook

Part Two: T
  
 
  
Many Questi
 
ns

Interrogation

Old Man Winters

Mr. Tooms Office

He Just Lets me Sit There

Brianna’s Eyes

I Convinced Myself

The Bell Rings

Part Three: A Br
  
ef H
  
story of my L
  
FE

Say Cheese

A Christmas Carol

The Fairest

I Inherited My Love of The Stage

There’s Something Dark

Some Kids Say

After the Tardy

Missing Davis

It Was the Week my Mother Left

Freshman Fall

It’s Ironic

Davis

Ernest Hemingway

Nana Cassell

Lunch with the in Crowd

Things Got Weird

I See Elijah

Third Lunch

Willy J

The Sparrow and the Hawk

Sixth Period

One of the Special Ed Teachers

Hide And Seek

I’m Definitely

The Final Bell Rings

Davis Walks Out

Part Four: The View Fr
  
m the R
  
 
  
f

The Fab

Brianna Leaves

Bird’s-Eye View

I’m Still Pretty Messed Up

The Nine Circles of Raven Valley High

The Stage

Part Five: “No
  
xit” a Trag
  
dy in on
  
Rash Act

Cast of Characters

Int. Hallway—early Morning

Things That Fall

Part Six: Life (or is it Deat
  
?) in T
  
e
  
allway

Fire or Ice

Sister Sisyphus

The Girl in Black Knits

While Rotceo Sleeps

Dead End

Let’s Play Another Game

The Tantalizing Duo

I Can’t Believe

Homecoming Dress

Backfire

The Cocktail

How it Happened

Oscar Smith & Wesson

Part Seven: A
  
Other Sleepless
  
ight

My House

Why?

The Curve

Dear Frank

Follow the Leader

Hey, Bro

Advice

Part Eight: “N
  
Exit” Scene Tw
  

Cast of Characters

Int. Hallway – Late Afternoon

Part Nine: B
  
ckin the Re
  
l World

It Hits Me

I Don’t Know

Q & A

The Bus

Oscar’s House

The Rules

It Hits Me

When I Wake Up

More Q & A

Warning

I Remember the Night

The Hospital

The Residents of ICU

The Girl in White

Bruised

I Follow

My Father’s Lines

Elijah Looks at Me

The Other Parent

Back to School Days

Newton’s Apple

The Bell Rings

The Tardy Bell Rings

Hello

Gods and Demons

Special Ed

Elijah’s Island

Surprise Visitor

Escape

Hide Out

Nothing Much Changed

The Girls on the Dance Team

Later That Night

When I Got to World History

The Getaway

Gone in Sixty Seconds

Blood and Feathers

I Run to the Hospital

I Feel Myself Slipping Away

Elijah Rushes in

A Few Minutes Later

The Hangman’s Advice

Part Ten: T
  
 
  
Far G
  
ne

I Remember

I Remember

And a Boy of Seventeen

The Letter

Dumped

Nobody

Grease

I Wonder

After the Show

The Lotus Eater

Am I a Fool

Three More Lotus Petals

Ally, Don’t Give Up

One Last Thing

Just Fall Again

Listen

Falling

Not Tonight

A Little Light

Part Eleven: Fall
  
ng

Int. Hallway—Morning

Part Twelve: Obs
  
rvations of th
  
not Quit
  
D
  
ad

We Run

Creative Writing Class

Letters to Ally

“Dead Rapper Rap” by Ally Cassell

The Last Verse

When We Leave

The Ravenettes

Could I?

When School is Out

When I Wake Up

The Fairest

The Ladder

What I Really Want

Life at the Top

Part Thirteen:
  
ello Again

Int. Hallway—Morning

Part Fourteen: A Fi
  
al
  
ote

My Body

What I Won’t Say

Rewriting my Story

Note to Ernest

Part Fifteen: Aft
  
r Words

Int. Hallway—Morning

Acknowledgments

About the Poems

About Carolee Dean

For Kurt, wherever you may be.

I hope they have stories there.

PART ONE
T
 
H
 
E
H
 
A
 
  
 
  
 
W
 
A
 
Y
Ally
I CAME TO THE HALLWAY

because

I wanted to live.

Deliberately.

No, wait.

That was Thoreau.

I came to the hallway

alone,

while the dew

was still on the roses.

Forget that.

I never liked old hymns.

Besides, it’s almost winter

and the roses are

gone

like Thoreau.

I came in peace.

Then I came

to pieces.

Don’t bullshit yourself, Ally.

You came to the hallway

because you didn’t

have anywhere

else to go.

THE SECOND FLOOR OF HUMANITIES

I sit

on the tiled bench seat

that extends

almost the entire length

of the wall,

looking like

two steps

to nowhere.

They built it

that way because

they were afraid

of what would happen

to real furniture.

Too easy

to abuse

and destroy.

Things that are

breakable

(like me)

don’t belong

in high school.

FROM THIS LOCATION

I can see all the way

across the quad,

where a dozen or more kids

sit on a similar tiled bench

waiting for the first bell and

texting like mad,

sending photos

to the dozen or so kids

sitting on a similar tiled bench

in Sci-Tech

waiting for the first bell and

texting like mad,

sending photos (of me?)

to the dozen or so kids

sitting on a similar tiled bench

in the gym

waiting for the first bell and

texting like mad,

sending photos—

they must be of me—

to the thousands

of kids scattered all across

Raven Valley High School.

Texting like mad,

sending photos of ME

EVERYWHERE.

Except to the second floor

of Humanities . . .

because it’s a

dead zone.

Another reason

I came to the hallway.

I KNOW

who took the picture,

Davis’s sister Brianna,

my former best friend.

She didn’t send it out at first.

Didn’t send it for nearly two months.

I thought she’d forgotten about it.

Guess I was wrong.

Brianna was standing

in the bathroom

that connects

her room to her brother’s.

“Sorry, guys,” she said, as the

flash from her cell phone cam

burned the sleep from my eyes.

“I had to document this

moment, because tomorrow

I’m gonna think it was

a friggin’ hallucination.”

Her face was full of betrayal and

accusation. I had to look away.

I hadn’t meant to stay

with him all night. Never meant

for her to know. Intended to go

before first light, but couldn’t bring myself

to push his arm away. To slip out

from under the warmth of his embrace.

“Wait, Brianna!” I said as

she turned to leave. “I can explain.”

But she just walked away,

and it was a good thing,

because I didn’t really have

a single thing to say

in my defense.

HOW IT HAPPENED

It was our first time.

I had come to spend the night

with her and ended up

spending it with him.

I hadn’t

planned it

that way.

Bri was asleep and

I’d been staring at the

foreign movie posters on her wall,

thinking about the huge scene Darla

had made when she broke up with Davis

the night before, calling him a liar and cheat

just because he’d loaned some girl in precalc

his math book.

I was thinking about how

he was in the very next room,

alone and available.

I went to the bathroom for a drink of water,

and when I finished filling the glass,

I felt him behind me,

his hot breath on my neck,

his hand on my back.

His fingertips trailing my spine.

In the mirror I saw

him turn and walk

back into his room and

I followed.

At that moment,

Davis Connor

was all

I wanted.

WHEN HE SAW BRIANNA

Davis ran to her door. She

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