Entice (10 page)

I lay one of my hands over his at my waist and rub circles with my thumb. I’m not sure whether I want to soften the blow for him or soak up the feeling for myself. “Sawyer, I told you many times that this can’t happen. We barely know each other and the stuff you don’t know—it’s pretty big.”

“Then tell me.” He lifts up, kissing my shoulder then letting his tongue linger and trace small circles near my collarbone. “I don’t think there’s anything you could say to make me not want you.”

“Is that it?” I turn my face to his. “You want me? So if I sleep with you, you’ll listen and go be happy? Fine.” I flop back, flat against the mattress with my arms out to my sides and speak in monotone. “Oh. Yeah. Take. Me. Now.”

He rolls and lays his body on top of mine, keeping most of his weight on his forearms, which are deliciously bracketed on either side of my head. “Don’t insult me, Emmett, I don’t deserve it. Yes, I’ve fucked a lot of women. Yes, I would love to get lost inside of your sweet little body, but not like that. I want to know you, everything about you. I want to make love to you, which I’ve never done before. Never. When I take you, it will be because you can’t wait another fucking second, and you’ll be begging me to take you to a place where only you and I exist, a place where only I can show you I love your heart as much as your body, your mind and everything else that makes you you.” He gets rights in my face now, our noses bumping and his plump bottom lip grazing mine. “And you’ll never want to leave that place. You’ll feel me here,” he rubs a hand over my heart, “you’ll ache for me here,” he traces a circle around one nipple, bringing it to painfully pointed life, “and you’ll beg for me here.” He brazenly cups between my legs and I whimper, biting my bottom lip in a futile attempt to stop my panting. “You’ll feel me in every part of you, every day, until we’re together in our place again.”

I shake my head back and forth, shrinking into the mattress. “I won’t. I can’t.”

“Why. Not?” he growls, his voice harsh but his eyes still kind.

This is it—this is where I tell him…and lose him. My mouth is open, my eyes squeezed shut, ready to finally blurt it out when he speaks again.

“Emmett, look at me. Don’t shut me out. I’ll pick the lock, baby.”

Against any judgment, I slowly open my eyes, shuddering in actual physical pain at what I see. His face looms over me, filled with agony, asking me to take the leap with him.

“Hey, you’re shaking. Never mind. Shh, new plan. Don’t tell me yet. If you don’t have complete faith in me, I haven’t earned your secrets. When you trust me, trust that I mean it when I say I won’t run, no matter what it is, then you tell me.” He lays a finger over my lips. “That’s it, end of discussion, so stop worrying about it. Tell me other things.”

“L-like what?” I’m dazed; nothing’s up or down, round or square anymore. He’s pleading with me not to tell him and I’m berating myself for considering taking the coward’s way out. “I really think I should tell you, Sawyer. Just let me get it out, then I’ll get out.”

“Nope.” He laughs, rolling over onto his back. He takes me with him, tucking me into his side. “Surely you can think of something else to talk about. Stimulate my mind, woman,” he teases, chuckling to himself.

Our friendship or whatever we have is baffling and confusing, but I don’t want it to end. So for now, I curb the nagging guilt and soak up Sawyer.

Fascinated, I lift one finger to his nipple, examining it. “Why pierce them if you’re not gonna wear a ring in it?”

“Do you have ADD? Is that your secret?” He smirks at his own cleverness, kissing my head, as seems his developing habit. “I’m fully prepared to have my mind challenged and you touch my nipple? Playing with fire, Shorty.”

I blush, but simply can’t look away from his chest. Suffice it to say, his physique piques my interest.

“If you want me to wear them, I will. I’ll wear all of them, just say the word.”

“All of them?” I raise my head, my mouth agape as I stare at him. “How many piercings do you have? No wait, I bet I can guess.” His words come back to me, and the feeling of…I have no idea what to call it, washes over me. I know, without a doubt, the answer, and somehow I feel closer to him, special, that I do. “Seven, right?”

He nods, his dark blue eyes boring into my own. “Very astute, Ms. Young. Now, can you tell me where they all are?”

“Two in your ears, two for your nipples, your eyebrow; that’s five.” I look him over gradually, letting my eyes shamefully take in his large, hard body, every defined line a thing of beauty. He lets his tongue slide from his mouth and wiggles it at me. I lean in, getting a closer look, and sure enough there’s a small hole. “Okay, that’s six. One more,” I tap my chin thoughtfully, eyeing his belly button.

He laughs out loud, his stomach muscles tightening under my stare. “I didn’t pierce my belly button, Emmett.” Still staring at his tummy, his hand glides down the ripples, one finger tracing over his dark happy trail. “Lower,” he taunts in a rich, tantalizing voice, no longer holding even the hint of a laugh.

I don’t even know my own body, shivering yet burning hot at the same time from the thought of his. And my eyes, they roam lower, following the trail of his finger, taking in the outline of one very large, very hard penis through his light blue basketball shorts. Like a brazen hussy, I squint, searching for the hint of any jewelry.

“I don’t have it in. I usually don’t.” His raspy comment startles me, and I look up at him. His eyes are smoldering, filled with the same lust I feel between my legs.

“Why not?” I whisper, licking my lips.

“Nobody gets that, Emmett, nobody.” He sits up, putting his face inches from my own. “I did it on a dare, and it hurt too bad not to keep it. But it’s all yours if you want it, Angel.”

“Why? Why can I demand I want it and get it?”

“’Cause I said you could. Listen,” he holds my face between his palms, one thumb outlining my jawline, “I have no idea why it takes some couples years to fall in love and some only a day, or if any of them even know. But I do know that I like you, so much. I want to know you, and I think you want the same thing.”

This went from the kinkiest conversation I’ve ever had in my life, my mind’s eye conjuring up fantastic images, to the sweetest. My heart is banging against its own walls and the tingles that started in my belly have now turned into sharp, sporadic twinges much lower.

Holy mother, I want him. I mean, I want him like I want air.

No, no, Emmett. Tears threaten in my eyes and I quickly turn my head, starting to climb from the bed. “I have to go,” I stammer, trying to untangle myself from the sheets, but only getting stuck further. Grappling, swinging limbs and sheets in a tizzy, I finally free myself and stumble to the bedroom door, still embarrassingly in a bathing suit and shoeless. I don’t know how, but I have to get the hell out of here and away from him. I can only torture myself so much.

One arm comes over my head, bracing the door shut. I feel every hard inch of him against the back of my body as his other hand moves my hair to the side. “Don’t leave, please. I’ll be good.” He runs his nose up the side of my neck, whispering against my skin. “You’re just so beautiful, Emmett, and in my bed, still in that damn bikini. I wouldn’t be a man if I didn’t want you.”

I lean forward, letting my forehead rest on the door, but it’s no escape as he leans with me, pressing the length of his hard body against my own.

“I’ll get you some shorts and a t-shirt to change into if it’ll make you feel better,” he says. “Come back to bed, it’s late. We can talk about astrophysics and grandmas just as long as I can hold you.”

I can’t help but snicker, the desperation in his voice as he invites me to discuss grandmas with him is so cute, and charming. “I don’t want to leave, but we can’t have it both ways. You say not to tell you, that we’ll be friends, but then you make me feel…”

“I know, I know, my fault.” He rubs my shoulder and kisses behind its wake. “Don’t spook on me, Shorty. I understand.”

No, he doesn’t, but it’s good enough for now. It’s late, I’m tired, and he’s warm and inviting.

“Okay, some clothes would be nice,” I admit. “Maybe I’ll hop in your shower real quick?”

“Uhh,” he growls behind me, pressing his body into me more firmly. “Don’t tell me you’re going to shower, woman. Tell me you’re gonna go poop and blow your nose.”

And the moment is officially gone… I die laughing, turning to face him. “Gross!” I slap his chest, still giggling. “Go get me the clothes, ya big nasty!”

I take my time in the shower, praying he falls asleep before I come out. The cold shower thing doesn’t work on me. I lather my hair twice, regretting it when I realize he has no conditioner in here, and double soap every inch of myself before finally turning off the water. I dry off and slip on the way oversized clothes he gave me, towel drying my hair to an acceptable sleeping dampness and creep back in to his bedroom on tiptoe.

“Are you asleep?” I whisper to his back as I climb in behind him.

“No.” He rolls over, smiling at me widely. “Nice try with the marathon shower, though. Why are you avoiding me? I told you I’d be good.”

“I’m not,” I say over-exuberantly, burrowing down under the covers. “I’m just not used to spending the night in a man’s bed, I guess.”

“You haven’t ever done that?”

“God no!”

“Oh, Em, you keep making me happier every time you let something slip out.”

“So glad I could help.” I use my thumb and finger to flick him in the chest. “Go to sleep. I’m wiped.

“Night, Shorty.”

“Night, Seven.”

Chapter 9

Then He Found Me

—Emmett—

T
he digital face on the alarm says 9:24 when I wake again, now alone in the bed. Or not alone…for there’s a note on his pillow with my name on it.

Em,

Maybe not exactly like a lumberjack, but definitely a snore. Good morning, lovely.

-S

I fold the note back up, searching aimlessly for a place to tuck it. I have nothing with me, not even my own clothes, so I hide it back under the pillow I slept on last night, secretly hoping I’ll be back there soon to pick it up. I check his bathroom, stealing a quick tryst with his toothbrush, and then go back to sit on the edge of his bed. I can’t stay in here all day, but the thought of wandering out, in his clothes, mortifies me. I refuse to do the walk of shame when the dirtiest thing we did was talk about pooping.

Ten minutes later, I can’t sit idle any longer. I have too much to do today. I stand, tightening the drawstring of his shorts that hang past my knees despite my efforts and make my way down the hallway. I wince as a floorboard creaks beneath my cold, bare feet, but I forge onward.

“Morning, Sunshine,” Laney greets me in the kitchen.

“Hi, Laney,” I duck my head, crossing my arms over my braless chest. “H-how are you?”

“Good, considering it’s morning. I hate them.”

“Uh, where’s Sawyer?” I mutter, still looking at the floor.

“He had a class, but he told me to tell you he’ll be back at ten. And,” she comes around the corner, holding my clothes and purse, “he went and grabbed these from Bennett’s for you in case you woke up.”

“Oh, thank you.” I sigh in relief and take them from her. “I’ll, ah, go get changed.”

“Emmett,” she places a hand on my shoulder, “don’t be embarrassed. I know Sawyer, therefore I know you have nothing to be embarrassed about.”

“What do you mean?”

“You slept, all night, in his bed, and he let you. And you’re still here in the morning. You’re different for him. I’m not trying to be nosy, I just want you to know you don’t have to feel weird. No one’s going to think less of you, okay?”

I swallow down the disgust I taste at the thought of Sawyer’s revolving door, flashbacks of him and Mariah in the alley playing in my mind. “Okay, thank you.” I give her a fake smile and scurry down the hall, his clothes now burning my skin.

Shutting the door and changing as quickly as I can, I’m not sure which bothers me more, the thought of all his conquests or the fact that I’m not one. Am I deficient? Can he smell the baggage on me?

Wait, what the heck, Emmett? You told him it wasn’t an option and now you feel rejected? See, this is what happens when you get too close to the fire…you go completely insane from smoke inhalation. I have a plan, a clearly laid path that I must stay on, and no one will lead me astray.

I grab my phone, dialing the cab company. I realize I don’t know the address here as soon as they ask. “Hold on,” I grumble in his ear, walking back out to the kitchen. “Laney, what’s your address?”

She spouts it off and I repeat it into the phone, confirming a fifteen minute wait before hanging up. “Why?” she finally turns around to face me and asks.

“I needed it for the taxi.”

“What? Why? No, please don’t leave!” she shrieks, her arms flailing wildly out to her sides.

I back up, slightly concerned for her sanity. I think she might actually be tearing up right now, and I’m more than a little freaked out.

“Is it because of what I said? I meant it as a compliment, Emmett, like you don’t have to hang your head, afraid we all think you slept with him. Not that it’s bad if you did, but, God!” She fists her hands, holding them to the sides of her head. “I didn’t mean anything. I’m so sorry. You just looked embarrassed. Shit, he’s gonna kill me!”

And she seemed so normal yesterday.

“Laney, I have to go because I have a lot to do. I’m not upset. I know what you were trying to say and I appreciate it, really.”

“Sawyer will be back any minute. Why don’t you wait and let him drive you? He’ll be so upset if he comes back and you’re gone. You didn’t see his face this morning, Emmett. I haven’t seen him smile like that in months.”

“I like him too.” I grin despite myself, thinking of the way he makes me laugh, the feel of him holding me close all night. “He’s a good friend. It’ll be fine, I’ll see him at work.”

Her head drops and she shakes it back and forth. “You’ll destroy him.”

“I won’t,” I say sternly. “He knows we can only be friends. I promise, he’ll be all right. His headboard will be rocking again before you know it.” I snicker facetiously, trying to convince myself as much as her that everything’s just great.