Authors: Douglas Reeman
She kept a straight face. âColour-Sergeant?' But all she could hear was the second officer's blunt summary.
Carries his brains between his legs, that one. I'm told even the sheep weren't safe when he was in Scapa!
He ran his eyes over the car, and then her. âI don't need to tell
you
about what's proper and what isn't, you bein' no stranger to the Corps.'
He always began like this.
What would he say if I told him to get stuffed?
A serious breach of discipline, or
worse. She would certainly lose her driving job, which was a sort of freedom as well as being useful.
He rocked back on his iron-shod heels. âThere is an officer enquiring for you, Wren Blackwood, an
officer
no less! Rules are for everybody, and you should know it.'
She waited. He was enjoying it, and her initial fear was past. Even Colour-Sergeant Harwood would not keep her dangling if it had been bad news. It was said he was married. She wondered what it must be like for his wife.
He nodded severely. âFun an' games is one thing, but discipline is discipline!'
She said, âWhat officer?'
He seemed vaguely disappointed. He probably imagined he had stumbled on one of the affairs she had heard about.
Against the dockyard wall
, as one girl had crudely described it.
He said, âA lieutenant. A pongo, to all accounts.'
He glanced round, startled, as a door in the office wing opened a few inches and a voice said sharply, âThe Colonel will need the car in one hour.' It was the adjutant, who had told her about Mike. The voice added, âThe
pongo
is with me, Colour-Sarn't, so if you have other duties, I suggest . . .'
It was enough. A stamp of boots and a smart salute, and he was gone.
She climbed the steps to the offices; they were curved and worn by the passage of many thousands of feet which had come this way over the years.
The adjutant picked up the telephone and glanced over it at her. âIn my office. A Lieutenant Blackwood, of the Royal Engineers.' Then he said, âJust thought I'd check.' And, as she hurried to the other door, âHow's the Wolseley running?' He saw her remove her cap and push
her hair into place, and smiled at the telephone. She had not heard a word.
He was standing by the tall window, framed against the washed-out sky, like that day in the Long Room at Hawks Hill. She had often thought about their meeting, had even wondered if he might try to call her from Portsmouth, if he was still there. She had told herself to forget it; he obviously had. But she had dared to hope.
He took her hand, uncertain, unprepared.
âYou look marvellous!' He grinned. âBoth feet, as usual!'
She released her hand and realised how cold hers had been. âIs something wrong?' She wanted to use his name, and was angry with herself.
âNo.' He tried again. âThat is, I wanted to see you. I'm moving out shortly.' He glanced at the wall and winked. âSafe in here, is it?'
âWhen?' A warning seemed to say,
drop it. He's going. Don't make a fool of yourself.
âSoon.' He walked away from her, perhaps deliberately. âI needed to see you. To talk. To get to know you.' He looked at her, suddenly very unsure. âIf we could meet, I thought . . .'
Let him talk. Don't commit yourself.
But she said, âSomething
is
wrong, isn't it?'
He turned towards the window again and she could see a squad of marching marines beyond it, as though it were a painting in stained glass. Like that day in church . . . was it really only six months ago?
âI had news from Auckland, from the lawyers. Your father the Colonel made a will, but of course you know that. He provided for me in it,
me
of all people. He didn't even know me!'
âI've not heard yet. It all takes time, and I've been here.'
He nodded, but his thoughts were somewhere else. âShares in the estate, that kind of thing. Took me all aback, I can tell you.' He gazed at the adjutant's desk, neat and tidy, like the officer. âShares. I thank God some people think our little country will still be here after the war!'
She stood beside him and slipped her hand through his arm. Maybe he hadn't even noticed it.
Our little country
, not his home in New Zealand, where the sheep outnumbered the people.
Here.
She said, âI could get away and meet you, if you're sure . . .'
His hand closed over hers, although he would not look at her. âI want it more than anything. Just to talk, nothing which might offend.'
She did not smile. It sounded so old-fashioned for one so young. And it suited him.
âI know that, Steve. I
know
that.'
How long they stood there, not speaking, not even aware of the life and movement beyond the window, she could not tell. Was it always like this when it happened, as it was supposed to happen? Not brash or cheap, but something so private that it was too strong to contain. Like the girl Mike had met somewhere. No name, no description, but all the more real because of it. He would tell her when he was ready. But he was vulnerable, especially now.
He said, âIt might be a while before we meet again.' He tried to lighten it. âLike the song. You've only met me once, when you needed me to carry your bike.'
She was gripping his arm tightly but could not help it. Did not want him to stop.
âI want you to be my girl. Have something to live for. If I had more time . . .'
She said, âI can meet you tomorrow.' It was the Colonel's day in London, and he always stayed overnight at the Club.
He stared at her. Disbelief, surprise, and then a smile, which was the first she had seen in this spartan office.
An orderly was in the passage, stamping his feet, coughing unnecessarily. She did not even know his name, but he always did it to warn her that the Colonel was on the move. An hour? Had it been that long?
She put on her cap and saw his eyes linger on the brightly polished badge, another memory of that day at Hawks Hill.
She said, âTomorrow.'
He gave her a scrap of paper. âMy unit. I can be reached there.'
He opened the door for her. She hesitated, and then kissed him lightly on the cheek, like friend meeting friend in a street somewhere.
He watched her go down to the car. She did not look back.
The adjutant saw her pass, and thought about the soldier with the same surname as hers.
He hoped it would be all right for her. He smiled. Anybody who could face the adjutant and Colour-Sergeant Harwood simultaneously must be pretty special.
He pressed the bell on his desk. The spell was broken.
Major-General Ralph Vaughan sat as comfortably as he could on a hard-cushioned chair, and wondered if it was
all part of the mystique. He could hear the murmur of traffic in Whitehall, and found himself comparing this suite of offices with his own H.Q. in the Pit. Perhaps because it lacked personality, and gave no indication of the kind of man who sat directly opposite him, his face partly hidden from the filtered sunlight.
Was that, too, part of the mystique? Merely setting the stage? Or was it because he disliked this man, and felt awkward in his presence?
Sir Clive Burgoyne, who always looked as if he had just enjoyed a hot shower, whose hair was never long or short, as if it was something vitally important to the man himself. Like his suit, Vaughan thought; grey and unassuming, but he guessed it had cost far more than anything worn by a mere civil servant, no matter how senior. Clothing coupons would not even come into it.
He was a departmental head of Intelligence, an expert on both Special and Combined Operations, and, perhaps more to the point, he was known to be close to the Prime Minister. Neat, clean and alert. Only his bitten fingernails, which he was careful to conceal, showed it was not all quite so perfect. Despite the power and easy confidence, Burgoyne was a worrier.
Vaughan could recall exactly their first meeting in this same office, shortly after the fall of Rangoon.
He had said, âI'm still not used to generals. May I call you Ralph?'
Vaughan remembered his own slight, short-lived sense of relief, and had asked, âWhat may I call you in return?'
The little, deceptive smile; he had got used to that, too. â
Sir Clive
will suffice, I think.'
Burgoyne said, âHitler was wrong to replace Rommel with General von Arnim. It took the spirit out of the
Afrika Korps. They probably felt betrayed. And now North Africa is clear of the enemy.' Again the gentle smile. âThe current enemy, at least. Your marines did a good job on the radar site. We could have suffered heavy losses during the final German exodus. As it was . . .'
Vaughan tried to relax, but it did not work. One battle was over; another was about to begin. A vital one, the first step back into Europe.
The soft underbelly
, as the Prime Minister had termed it in his inimitable way.
Burgoyne glanced at his hand, and then thrust it out of sight beneath the desk.
âIf there are obstacles, this is the moment to remove them. Strategy, implementation,' he hesitated, âand leadership at all levels, are of paramount importance.' He looked at the solitary, thin folder on his blotter. âI know of your concern about certain allegations made by a marine named, ah â'
Vaughan tensed.
Here we go.
âMarine Finch, Sir Clive.'
âWe have to weigh the consequences as well as the bare facts.' He gazed at the wall, and Vaughan noticed his eyes. Pale blue, almost colourless.
Burgoyne waited, but when Vaughan remained silent added, âThere was an unfortunate episode in occupied France this year. A junior member of your combined staff was inadvertently arrested by the civil police in Marseilles â do I need to enlarge on it?' He nodded. âGood. I thought not. It was a whole chain of unforeseen incidents, an act of sabotage carried out by some local, unofficial group, leading to the immediate involvement of the German authorities, and the consequences, the Gestapo. The woman in question was lucky â she was freed by members of the Resistance, the Maquis, who have been
working closely with us. The woman was a courier, and as such would have revealed little of importance . . .'
âEven under torture?' Vaughan did not attempt to hide his bitterness.
The pale eyes studied him thoughtfully. âEven so. But in that same police station there was already a prisoner who had been interrogated by the Gestapo, and was due for another interview, shall we call it, that day. I can tell you now, that man was a fully trained and trusted member of the organisation. He was, in fact, a police officer himself. It was of the utmost importance that he should be freed, or prevented from suffering further. I can tell you, Ralph, nobody can withstand that kind of inhumanity for long. He knew too many names, codes, contacts, even points of drops for arms and explosives.'
âWhat happened to him?'
âWhen they got into the station they found him too incapacitated to be moved. His body was broken, but his mind was still clear, fighting back.'
âSo they killed him.'
Burgoyne looked at the closed folder. âIt was the only solution. The woman courier was rescued as a result.'
âOtherwise . . .'
âOtherwise. What a span that word covers.' He became restive, perhaps impatient. âIt is often claimed by senior officers, men of your calibre and experience, that one quality of leadership is to not risk the lives of many for the sacrifice of a few. I have heard others describe it in similar ways â my father wrote some poetry on the subject.' He did not blink. âBefore he was killed on the Somme.'
Vaughan thought of Major Porter's secret report, and
its potential danger to future operations at this crucial stage of the Mediterranean campaign.
He said, âMarine Finch was badly wounded. He could have been mistaken. Gaillard is an officer of high repute and experience in the Corps.'
Burgoyne smiled. âAnd that means everything to you?' He held up one hand. âI mean no disrespect. Quite the reverse. Values, they are what matter here. The next move will be against Sicily, and soon after that, if the weather holds, the Italian mainland, and your Commando will be in the spearhead!' He had raised his voice, which was unusual.
Vaughan said, âI've thought of little else. In war, everybody is expendable. But when we put our people ashore they expect to be
led
, not driven like lambs to the slaughter!'
Burgoyne slid the folder aside. âOr like the Somme.'
Vaughan wished someone would come with an urgent message, or that there would be an air raid alert. But there was nothing, only silence. And a sense of betrayal.
Burgoyne said, âThe young woman has returned to her regular duties. That was your idea, I believe?' As usual, he did not wait for an answer. âI'm glad of that. Commander Diamond was largely responsible for her assignment as a courier; they needed someone who would be known and trusted by the parties concerned. I think he was hasty, or perhaps he, too, was weighing the values of duty and sacrifice.' He seemed to tire of it. âDiamond has been transferred to more
rustic
responsibilities. Commander St John, whom you already know, has been appointed in his place.'
âI see.' Vaughan thought of the girl named Joanna
Gordon, so determined, so eager when she had accompanied him to the Middle East. The doctors had told him about her private struggle to put her ordeal behind her. He considered it, coldly, as the man opposite him would. If she had been too badly abused to escape, they would have killed her also. He could not accept it, condone it. In this austere office, it seemed a different war entirely.
âThat's settled, then. I shall complete my report. I am certain the P.M. will be satisfied.' Burgoyne watched him almost curiously. âAfter all, it was his idea to give your people the title of Commando. His own experiences against the Boers in South Africa, I believe?'