Dover Beach (39 page)

It was one of those May days that make you wonder what's so bad about being alive. Sun shining, birds singing, flowers blooming—the Earth seemed to have shrugged off the awful things we had done to her, and she was offering the same old beauty and warmth and hope that had always been her gift to us, It was the kind of day that could make you half-believe that nothing awful had happened. It was the kind of day you had to take advantage of, in case the Earth changed her mind.

So why, I wondered, was I sitting in a dingy office on lower Washington Street, staring out into the sunshine and feeling sorry for myself?

Here are the answers I came up with:

~ Because I am a responsible professional, and anyone responding to my ad in the
Globe
would expect to find me here.

~ Because I don't have an answering machine to take a message, should anyone try to call. Don't have a telephone either, for that matter, so calling would not be easy.

~ Because I am a dreamer, still trying to live my dream.

~ Because I'm a fool.

That seemed to about cover it.

This is the life of the private eye, I told myself—the long stretches of boredom punctuated by the occasional burst of excitement. But this particular stretch was beginning to seem like a life sentence. I had arrived back in Boston from England in early January, having muddled through my first case, and there was nothing to do but set up shop once again. So I put a log in the wood stove and picked out a book from one of the many tottering stacks that littered the office. Then I said a prayer to the poster of Humphrey Bogart, my patron saint, who smiled a crooked but encouraging smile at me from the opposite wall, and I waited for the sound of footsteps on the dim staircase, the tentative rapping on the frosted glass door of my office.

And I waited. I ran out of books. I used the wood stove less and less as the weather grudgingly improved. I went home every night and faced the uncomfortable silences as my friends tried not to ask me why I was wasting my life. And now a beautiful spring day was drifting away from me and my money was all but gone, but still I sat in my office, and stared out my window, and hoped.

And eventually something happened.

It wasn't exactly what I was hoping for, of course: the mysterious blonde, dressed in black, desperate for my help; the dying man with a priceless figurine he could entrust to no one but me; the eccentric millionaire whose strange predicament only I could solve. Not this time, anyway. This time it was two young soldiers driving up in an ancient jeep. They parked and looked dubiously up at the building I occupied. I pulled back from the window. Wouldn't do to appear too eager. I hurriedly tossed aside the book I was rereading and spread some papers on my desk in what I hoped was impressive-looking disarray.

It occurred to me as they clomped up the stairs that these guys probably weren't interested in my professional services. Why would soldiers need a private eye? I tried to think if I had broken any laws lately that would merit an official visit. I was hardly a model citizen, but surely the government had more important things to do than bother with an insignificant private eye. Besides, the local police, not Federal troops, would be the ones to arrest the likes of me. But you never can tell.

They rapped on the frosted glass door.

"Come in," I said in a busy but welcoming tone.

The door opened, and the two soldiers entered. The first one in was short and had a spray of acne on his face. The other was lantern-jawed and hung back a little, as if loath to deal with the strange creature sitting behind the desk. Both had the requisite army haircut, so short they might just as well have been bald.

"Good afternoon," the short one said. "Walter Sands?"

"That's me. Have a seat."

"No thank you, sir," he replied. He had a flat Midwestern accent. He used the official tone of a soldier who is carrying out his orders and is therefore not required to think. "Mr. Sands, we'd like you to come with us, sir."

"Am I being arrested?"

"No, sir."

"Then what's up?"

"There is someone who wants to see you."

"Who?"

"We're not at liberty to say, sir."

"What about?"

"Don't know, sir."

I could have continued the interrogation indefinitely, but it would have been pointless. I had been a soldier once, not so very long ago, and I knew the situation he was in. He was supposed to be as polite as possible but say nothing. And he was to come back with me. No excuses accepted.

I decided to ask one more question. "What's your name?" I asked.

The question caused a flicker of indecision to cross the short soldier's face. He hadn't received orders about this. "Smith, sir," he said finally. "Private Daniel Smith."

I smiled. "Hi, Danny. And you?" I asked the lantern-jawed fellow.

His comrade's response had given him courage. "P-p-private Gus Ziegler, sir."

I kept smiling. "Pleased to meet you." They didn't smile back, but I think maybe they wanted to. It never hurts to be friendly. I stood up. "Shall we go, then?"

"Yes, sir," Danny replied.

I winked at Saint Humphrey as I followed the soldiers out the door.

* * *

I was a little excited as I got into the jeep. Anyone who could send troops to fetch me had to be a big shot. A government big shot, to be sure, but even dealing with the Feds was better than staring out the window.

We headed up Washington Street, with Gus doing the driving. Except for another government jeep or two, and a couple of cop cars, we were in the only motor vehicle to be seen. Not that we had the streets to ourselves. Gus had to bully his way past the pedestrians and the cyclists and the horses and even a few pigs; traffic was actually pretty thick around Downtown Crossing and the Salvage Market. No one seemed particularly interested in getting out of our way; there were the usual sullen stares, and the occasional utterly hostile ones. But still we made progress.

VOTE YES, the red, white, and blue posters urged us from the otherwise useless telephone poles and mailboxes.

I did my best to ignore the posters. "Where are you guys from?" I asked.

"Out of state, sir," Danny replied.

"Ah." That was hardly news. The Feds don't let their troops serve in their native states; they also don't like for them to fraternize with the locals. If there's an uprising of some sort, they don't want a soldier facing friends and relatives at the other end of his rifle. Much easier to kill a stranger. "You like it here?"

"It's fine."

They hated it. They were scared and lonely and not used to being around people who didn't like or trust them. They couldn't figure out why they were being forced to do this, and they just wanted to get it over with and go home. At least, if they were anything like me when I was a soldier, that's the way they felt. "Write letters," I suggested.

"Huh?"

"Write long letters home. Describe everything you see and do. Even if it's all so boring you can't stand it. Even if you never send the letters. That's what I did. It helped."

Danny stared at me, then nodded silently. It occurred to me that he might not know how to write.

Gus took us to Government Center, on the far side of Beacon Hill. I wasn't surprised. We stopped in front of the John Fitzgerald Kennedy Federal Building, and the two soldiers escorted me inside. There were more VOTE YES signs in the lobby. Seemed like a waste of time to me: preaching to the converted.

The lobby was air-conditioned; soft fluorescent lights shone down on us; the elevator that we waited for actually worked. Sometimes I've thought that it would have been better if all the elevators had stopped working forever after the War, if there were no more touch-tone telephones and laptop computers and stick-shift sedans and CAT scans. If all of that stuff was just a temporary aberration of a society that didn't quite work out, then we could maybe shrug our shoulders and go back to living the way human beings had lived for thousands of years before such wonders existed. But the wonders still existed, damn them. You could get almost anything you wanted (short of a nuclear reactor, maybe) if you had enough money or ingenuity or luck; I had certainly proved that, when I jetted over to England for my first case, then jetted back in triumph (more or less). And that meant we had to live with these constant reminders of what had been lost, of what was once so common and now shimmered just out of our reach, and it was almost impossible to go through life without a daily dose of self-pity.

Dealing with the Feds was a sure way to keep the dose high; they treated themselves pretty well, and were not inclined to hide it. To keep us all striving to regain what had been lost, their supporters might explain. Because they have the power and use it for their own benefit, their opponents would retort.

Whatever the explanation, the elevator arrived and smoothly lifted us ten stories into the building. The doors opened onto a corridor. On the opposite side of the corridor, a soldier stood guard in front of a glass door. The sign on the door said:

Francis Bolton

Governor of the Commonwealth

My, my, I thought. A big shot indeed.

The guard gave a nod to my two pals. He frisked me, but I was clean—I had left my revolver back at the office. "You can go inside now, Mr. Sands," Danny said when the frisking had been completed.

"Thank you. And thanks for the ride." I smiled.

Danny looked uncomfortable for a moment, and then said, "Good luck." Then he and Gus walked off down the corridor.

Why did I need luck? I wondered. I went inside.

I was in a large reception area: potted plants, framed paintings, air conditioning, and a view of the city that you just don't get one story up on lower Washington Street. There was also the unavoidable VOTE YES poster. I walked over to a woman seated behind a large oak desk. "Hi," I said. "My name is Sands. I was summoned."

"Yes," she agreed. "Please have a seat."

She was a pleasant-looking blond, maybe a bit old for my taste, and maybe with a bit too much makeup on—nobody wore makeup anymore. But she had the kind of figure you can only get when you you're allowed to shop at the Feds' own grocery store. I smiled at her. "What's your name?" I asked.

She stared at me as if I were a particularly disgusting mutant.

Friendliness doesn't always work. I let the smile fade, and I wandered over to a leather couch, where I parked myself while the secretary ignored me and I awaited the governor's pleasure.

I tried to imagine what he wanted with me. Something to do with the VOTE YES posters? Security at the polls, maybe. I'd rather be staring out my office window, I thought. But surely Governor Bolton didn't bother himself with details like who to hire for security. Maybe he had a priceless figurine....

Whatever he wanted, I knew that this was going to be an interview. So I tried to prepare. I considered Governor Bolton.

He had been around for a long time now—about eight years, I figured. The Feds had appointed him governor of the New England region shortly after their troops came up from Atlanta and put a stop to the anarchy that had been plaguing us for years. And in the time since then he had become the symbol of the Federal presence here: tough, distant, and a little bit mysterious—at least to me, who didn't spend a great deal of time thinking about such things. What did the Feds want from us? What was in the occupation for them? The taxes they managed to collect didn't pay their expenses; the men and women they drafted (like me) didn't make up for the number of troops they had to commit to the region. So why bother?

In a way, the most mysterious thing about Bolton was that he was a local. Somebody—probably my buddy Stretch—had told me that Bolton had sold real estate before the War. Not a lot of call for real estate salesmen in this new world, where mansions were free—all you had to do was be able to defend them. But somehow he had landed on his feet. And somehow he had made the Feds trust him enough to put him in charge of the region where he had grown up. And somehow it didn't bother him that many—perhaps most—of his fellow locals thought of him as a semi-traitor, zealously carrying out the edicts of the well-fed rulers from down south.